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Danny_Smith

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Changing My Life Story
« on: February 10, 2019, 06:56:21 PM »
Hi. I’m new. This is the fifth day of my latest effort to stop looking at a Twitter site for Femdom porn. The difference this time is reading success stories here and other places on the Internet.

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Re: Changing My Life Story
« Reply #1 on: February 10, 2019, 07:27:21 PM »
Hi. I don’t know if this is the correct way to update my journal. I don’t see a different method.

It is as if my mind is playing tricks with me. I keep thinking that looking at the porn is good for me. I get this very pleasant feeling associated with the porn site, as if it would be a very pleasant experience to return there.

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Re: Changing My Life Story
« Reply #2 on: February 11, 2019, 04:51:46 AM »
Hi Danny.
I update mine by pressing "reply". There may be cleverer ways, but what you're doing appears to work. Good luck with your reboot and with your longer recovery. Have you done much reading on Yourbrainonporn.com? That site will have simple explanations for why your brain is playing tricks on you, the pleasant feelings, the desire to return and for part of your brain telling you that "P is good for you". That said, there are loads of sites that provide rational explanations for what's happening; others that approach it from a more spiritual perspective. It isn't going to be easy but coming here and participating could really help. Best wishes to you.

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Re: Changing My Life Story
« Reply #3 on: February 11, 2019, 09:33:32 PM »
Hi thanks for the info. I’ll take a look at Your Brain On Porn.

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Re: Changing My Life Story
« Reply #4 on: February 12, 2019, 05:49:40 AM »
In the beginning its fun, a stress reliever and presumably hurts no one, right?  Wrong. Porn does "us" harm, bit by bit, leading to broken relationships, Erectile dysfunction for many, debt, unemployment, etc.

That's as good a summary as I can remember reading, PS. Well said. It initially feels like our friend but ends up destroying our lives.

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Re: Changing My Life Story
« Reply #5 on: February 14, 2019, 09:02:12 PM »
This is my ninth day of not looking at the Twitter account that I find addictive. I have felt different emotions like fear and sadness. Also, I have encountered a feeling that is connected to the porn. It grew stronger today. I was afraid that I would give in to that feeling and look at the porn, until I painted for awhile tonight. I enjoyed the painting. I connected with it.

Now, I don’t feel overwhelmed with a need to look at the Twitter account. I don’t want to give up how the act of painting made me feel. Also, I played the piano for a few minutes. It really helps getting involved in activities which are enjoyable.

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Re: Changing My Life Story
« Reply #6 on: February 15, 2019, 07:04:36 PM »
I had to admit to myself that the only reason I rejoined Medium (a reading and writing article site) was because a few dommes write there. I would have used their material as a springboard back into the porn. So even though I struggled with much inner resistance, I deleted the app.

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Re: Changing My Life Story
« Reply #7 on: February 16, 2019, 02:28:48 PM »
Hi Danny, Looks to me you made a good choice deleting the app. Piano and painting seem to me to be much better uses of your time and energy than Twitter/Porn. Keep going!

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Re: Changing My Life Story
« Reply #8 on: February 18, 2019, 07:33:24 PM »
Thanks BigMog. A little support helps especially now. I was reading someone’s journal and some detail triggered me. I felt a need to view porn. I still feel it, but the need is not as strong. Whew....