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Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« Reply #25 on: February 16, 2019, 01:31:34 AM »
Great success brother keep going
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« Reply #26 on: February 16, 2019, 11:26:51 PM »
17/2/19 Today I relapsed. I always relapse in 2nd or 3rd week because I can't able to handle urges and it's again happened to me so now I'm really aware about it.  I relapsed 2 times in this year so now this time I will win because I knew the path and where to go in this journey. Never give up.
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« Reply #27 on: February 17, 2019, 04:15:38 AM »
you need stop at one worst time. then why you going towards that worst time. stop now. you know the danger above you then why.
i am at day 2 today. doing it well. you also able to do it. get up . be rebooted and help others to reboot.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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« Reply #28 on: February 17, 2019, 07:20:59 AM »
17/2/19 Today I relapsed. I always relapse in 2nd or 3rd week because I can't able to handle urges and it's again happened to me so now I'm really aware about it.  I relapsed 2 times in this year so now this time I will win because I knew the path and where to go in this journey. Never give up.

You are ready to fight back again and that spirit will break down the addiction to its knees. Just be aware of the triggers and learn from it, identify what caused you the urges at the first place and have a plan to deal with them when they show up. And also do not stress much about your record with 2nd and 3rd weeks, sometimes "I always give up on this stage" becomes an excuse for relapse, if you know that these are the tough days for you, then prepare yourself well for it.

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« Reply #29 on: February 20, 2019, 11:02:22 AM »
you need stop at one worst time. then why you going towards that worst time. stop now. you know the danger above you then why.
i am at day 2 today. doing it well. you also able to do it. get up . be rebooted and help others to reboot.

Yes brother we can do it. :)
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« Reply #30 on: February 20, 2019, 11:14:01 AM »
17/2/19 Today I relapsed. I always relapse in 2nd or 3rd week because I can't able to handle urges and it's again happened to me so now I'm really aware about it.  I relapsed 2 times in this year so now this time I will win because I knew the path and where to go in this journey. Never give up.

You are ready to fight back again and that spirit will break down the addiction to its knees. Just be aware of the triggers and learn from it, identify what caused you the urges at the first place and have a plan to deal with them when they show up. And also do not stress much about your record with 2nd and 3rd weeks, sometimes "I always give up on this stage" becomes an excuse for relapse, if you know that these are the tough days for you, then prepare yourself well for it.

Thanks for advice man i really appreciate that.


                                                         
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 I was really busy past two days but i kept myself on track. I feel really free now my anxiety levels are reduced. Yesterday night i got really strong urges but i keep telling myself you can do it man p will never satisfied you. Now its last try for me because in this addiction game i have only 3 lives :P And its my final life and i will use it consciously. Hard mode is on now and i am ready for successful reboot. Never ever give up!
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« Reply #31 on: February 20, 2019, 12:35:05 PM »
Nice job man! A relapse is only a bump as long as you're not binging like crazy! Keep finding tricks against your brain to get yourself free from PMO, my friend, you're doing great!!

Stay Strong and keep Rebooting :)

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« Reply #32 on: February 21, 2019, 03:03:19 AM »
Nice job man! A relapse is only a bump as long as you're not binging like crazy! Keep finding tricks against your brain to get yourself free from PMO, my friend, you're doing great!!

Stay Strong and keep Rebooting :)

Thanks bro!

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« Reply #33 on: February 22, 2019, 03:30:32 AM »
22/2/19 Day 5 clean
Got little bit urges but I control myself during studies I can't able to focus because of urges but I handle it.
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Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« Reply #34 on: February 23, 2019, 06:57:18 AM »
Today i relapsed. ohhhh god how can i handle this triggers?! I relapsed once again and its really horrible. Now i am starting again from tomorrow this time i will break this cycle. Never ever give up.
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« Reply #35 on: February 25, 2019, 06:54:23 AM »
Stay with us brother. You can do this. We will get through this struggle.

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« Reply #36 on: February 27, 2019, 11:02:23 AM »
Stay with us brother. You can do this. We will get through this struggle.

Yes brother!

 
Past two days i was really busy and also relapsed back to back so now i am taking this challenge really seriously because i want freedom from this now. This year i relapsed 6 times and now i am seriously following Hard mode for while.
I also experienced that after starting your pmo free journey you were going through this stages:

1ST You start your journey and then you reach on 4th -5th day you will experience strong cravings of watching p.
2nd you always suffered from withdrawals like Anxiety,depression,brainfogg etc. Remember this is withdrawal symptoms of stopping pmo.
3rd after that you complete 1st or second week pmo free you got nighfall and weird dreams in between that and it happened with most of the peoples. Some times you suffered from Insomnia [is a sleep disorder that is characterized by difficulty falling and/or staying asleep] And then you got strong urges of pmo and you relapsed.

4th You are on 3rd and 4th week you got insane urges of p or something flashback of p scene and then you are starting surfing on browser etc. Sometimes when you are watching netflix, youtube you get strong urges and flashbacks and then you relapsed.

Most of the peoples are failed in this 4 stages and they relapsed because they dont know how to handle the withdrawals and urges means there lot of peoples were relapsed in this3-4 weeks period and this cycle repeated continuously. I think first four weeks are really important of this journey because after addicted to pmo we were never tried to live such long time without jerking off.

I realize that its important to update your journal daily and when got strong urges open this journal and write something here because this will help you naturally Another main thing of rebooting is your lifestyle if you want to reboot as quickly as possible you must have good lifestyle will support reboot so i guess consistency is only thing that will change you. 

so i glad to say that it is my first PMO free day on 27-2-19 and now i am regularly update my journal i take it as challenge. Keep moving on this path today because tomorrow never comes.

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« Reply #37 on: February 28, 2019, 01:18:20 AM »
28/2/19 At late night something around 1:30AM i relapsed. Yesterday night i trapped because of insomnia and cant able to sleep after watching p and jerking off i slept very well withdrawals really make you crazy. From tomorrow starting new journey.
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« Reply #38 on: February 28, 2019, 04:42:43 AM »
Good one . Happy that you are committed, And I wanna tell you that there's a great future ahead of you!

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« Reply #39 on: March 03, 2019, 10:40:45 AM »
Thanks brother!  :)

Today i relapsed 2 times. I suffered from insomnia thats why i relapsed past 2 days. Really depressive. Now i am going to change my routine. From today i am updating my journal regularly.
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« Reply #40 on: March 03, 2019, 12:17:58 PM »
I have also this problem. But i overcomed it by seeing new movies when i not able to sleep.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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« Reply #41 on: March 07, 2019, 10:08:06 AM »
                                              Day 1 @ 7/3/2019



Day 1 : Today i suffered from higher levels of depression and anxiety no drive to do anything i slept till 8:30 AM and after that @ afternoon. I worked out eat healthy and this is my positive side. I also experiencing mood swings and it really made me miserable. This addiction is really tough to crack but if you cracked it you will find freedom inside. I made my daily routine and now i am following very strictly. Lets see how it works in my journey.



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« Reply #42 on: March 07, 2019, 10:22:18 AM »
Keep going man, you can do it. I am also starting my journey again currently. I noticed that I learned quite a few things about my triggers and dangerous situations during my past months of relapsing. These new insights really help me right now.

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« Reply #43 on: March 08, 2019, 09:38:35 AM »
Keep going man, you can do it. I am also starting my journey again currently. I noticed that I learned quite a few things about my triggers and dangerous situations during my past months of relapsing. These new insights really help me right now.

Yeah Man! We can do it!  :)
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« Reply #44 on: March 08, 2019, 09:46:47 AM »
                                     Day 2 @ 8-3-2019


  Clean day no urges, anxiety reduced and felt better. Sleep quality was good and no headache at all. I also worked out and eat healthy. Really great start of pmo free  journey :)



                                      “The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now.” – Chinese proverb
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« Reply #45 on: March 09, 2019, 12:23:52 AM »
                                          DAY:3 @ 9-3-2019


 Another clean day  :) i worked out, eat healthy but cant able to sleep because of withdrawals so i watched Captain Marvel movie and then sleep at 2 AM.



                 

                   Recovery is not for people who need it, it’s for people who want it.
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« Reply #46 on: March 10, 2019, 12:21:39 AM »
                          DAY 4 @ 10-3-2019


 Faced really strong urges and cant able to sleep at night but i tried to calm down myself also i had strong headache. This happening because of brain plasticity and pain is normal in this process so be calm  :) Lets see how it goes but now i am prepared for it and this time i will complete my goal :)


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« Reply #47 on: March 11, 2019, 03:52:23 AM »
Day 5 @ 11-3-2019

  I relapsed once again. I can't able to sleep and then I turn into phone and after that I can't control myself. I relapsed 2 times. This year I relapsed 10 times totally weak inside but still I am not giving up. I have drive to change. After writing this journal I will write down my morning and night routine and strictly follow it because most of the time I relapse @ night and it is because of sleep problem so if I manage to sleep as early as possible and wake up early I will improve my energy levels and it also support my pmo free journey but because of withdrawals I can't able to sleep and I need p to fix my dopamine that's why I relapsed. I also committed to do yoga and meditation daily but because of laziness it can't consistent. But now I got wake up call and it's best time to change. Only you and you can change yourself nothing else. From Tomorrow I will start counting days. :)



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« Reply #48 on: March 11, 2019, 04:15:11 AM »
Dont let it take you down. I relapsed plenty of times but I am feeling good and positive right now. You seem to have a very healthy attitude and the drive. You will get there! Porn is a sneaky one, I personally had to get rid of all social media which might even show me a good looking girl, I am/was just that conditioned by porn to think women=hardcore sex. Currently on my own day 5 and I hope I push trough, I never reached 7 days before :D.

Keep going man, maybe charge your phone away from your bed, so you cant look at it while you are lying down?

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« Reply #49 on: March 12, 2019, 11:14:16 AM »
Dont let it take you down. I relapsed plenty of times but I am feeling good and positive right now. You seem to have a very healthy attitude and the drive. You will get there! Porn is a sneaky one, I personally had to get rid of all social media which might even show me a good looking girl, I am/was just that conditioned by porn to think women=hardcore sex. Currently on my own day 5 and I hope I push trough, I never reached 7 days before :D.

Keep going man, maybe charge your phone away from your bed, so you cant look at it while you are lying down?
Thanks for your wise words and support :)
When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on.