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Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« Reply #50 on: March 12, 2019, 11:25:24 AM »
Day 1 @ 12-4-19

Today I feel really tired I want to give up my life, stress levels spiked like crazy and my mood was always changing. I talked with people's with aggression. One of my (female) friend want to talk with me but I ignored her. I felt really bad about my behaviour. I also thought about commiting suicide because of pain but  I really want to go through this pain to change my heart. It's tough time but I feel really proud to complete my 1st day PMO free. :)



   You don’t get over an addiction by stopping using. You recovery by creating a new life where it’s easier to not use. If you don’t create a new life, then all the factors that brought you to your addiction will catch up with you gain.


   
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« Reply #51 on: March 12, 2019, 10:02:49 PM »
You definitely something to be proud of! 1 Day is the first step and I can be a really hard one! When you start rebooting, it's the perfect time to check everything that you need to improve in your life and yourself!

You have to improve both together, because they are both in cause storywise! You're here because you want to take action. You're more than capable to beat the shit out of this crappy addiction. Time will be hard, but remember that freedom, control and knowledge of yourself is what is waiting for you at the end of this journey! Maybe more if you reflected on the integrity of your life and yourself!!

Stay strong, my friend!

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« Reply #52 on: March 13, 2019, 10:27:45 AM »
Relapsed 2 times feeling really depressed
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« Reply #53 on: March 13, 2019, 10:58:39 AM »
Calm down! If you keep beating yourself you won't ever break the cycle!! You won't feeling better and start progressing until you understand that!

You're doing what I was doing! Since I stop doing that, things slowly start to improve! It took a some time to reach that point where I'm more confident in my futur, but it's only by looking how you can improve things and keep tweaking what's needed to be that you can reach this state!!

I'm sorry for your relapse! You need to be careful of your thoughts!! They can easely make you lose all the progress you've made no matter how big or small the progress was!

Hope it will help you! Stay strong, my friend!!

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« Reply #54 on: March 14, 2019, 09:46:00 AM »
Calm down! If you keep beating yourself you won't ever break the cycle!! You won't feeling better and start progressing until you understand that!

You're doing what I was doing! Since I stop doing that, things slowly start to improve! It took a some time to reach that point where I'm more confident in my futur, but it's only by looking how you can improve things and keep tweaking what's needed to be that you can reach this state!!

I'm sorry for your relapse! You need to be careful of your thoughts!! They can easely make you lose all the progress you've made no matter how big or small the progress was!

Hope it will help you! Stay strong, my friend!!
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 Thank you for taking the time to share all of that great information with me. Your support, encouragement and advice have been extremely helpful. I now feel confident  :)
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« Reply #55 on: March 14, 2019, 09:53:24 AM »
                              Day 1 at 14-3-2019
  Today I meditate and did yoga.once again i prepared to change. In life we make so many mistakes but important thing is to awake and keep improving yourself, keep learning from your mistakes. I also uninstall all social media apps and now my next step is reducing use of internet. This is final attempt and this time I will fix my brain dopamin.

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« Reply #56 on: March 15, 2019, 09:48:59 AM »
Relapsed two times at late night because of insomnia.
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« Reply #57 on: March 15, 2019, 09:54:41 AM »
Relapsed two times at late night because of insomnia.

I had that a couple of time! One thing you could try is to get up and do something, after a while you may feel tired and you will be able ro go sleep! Try it, otherwise, you could get up freeze cold shower your head or your whole body! It worked for one of my friend that is rebooting!

Don't give up man, you can do it!!

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« Reply #58 on: March 16, 2019, 04:59:15 AM »
Once again relapsed because of insomnia. feeling really tired because of headache.
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« Reply #59 on: March 16, 2019, 05:01:19 AM »
Once again relapsed because of insomnia. feeling really tired because of headache.

 Yeah man will find a solution.
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« Reply #60 on: March 18, 2019, 08:48:14 AM »
Day 2 at 18-3-19
 Yesterday I was really busy so I can't make journal. I am on day 2.Last week was really terrible for me but I learned lot of things from relapse. Now my goal is to everyday update my journal till rebooting.  :)
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« Reply #61 on: March 18, 2019, 11:21:01 PM »
Relapsed at 19-3-19
 Once again i made a same mistake  because of insomnia I can't able to sleep and then turn into phone and after some time I relapsed.
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« Reply #62 on: March 19, 2019, 11:25:19 AM »
Relapsed at 19-3-19
 Once again i made a same mistake  because of insomnia I can't able to sleep and then turn into phone and after some time I relapsed.

Try put you phone the as far as you can from you during night time and keep a book close! Not a story book cause they may contain trigger, but more like informations book! That way if you can't sleep instead of going on your phone you can read the book!

Try that man! Sorry about your relapse!

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« Reply #63 on: March 20, 2019, 01:48:19 AM »
Relapsed at 19-3-19
 Once again i made a same mistake  because of insomnia I can't able to sleep and then turn into phone and after some time I relapsed.

Try put you phone the as far as you can from you during night time and keep a book close! Not a story book cause they may contain trigger, but more like informations book! That way if you can't sleep instead of going on your phone you can read the book!

Try that man! Sorry about your relapse!

Yeah man I will do it.
When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on.

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« Reply #64 on: March 20, 2019, 01:54:52 AM »
Day 1 at 20-3-19

Good start did yoga, meditation and also studied 2 hour's. Revised my goals and now ready for work on it. I also changed my sleeping pattern and timing. I used my phone and laptop for only work. Great start once again.

Take a small steps for Giant Improvement's.
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« Reply #65 on: March 20, 2019, 11:11:42 AM »
Day 1 at 20-3-19

Good start did yoga, meditation and also studied 2 hour's. Revised my goals and now ready for work on it. I also changed my sleeping pattern and timing. I used my phone and laptop for only work. Great start once again.

Take a small steps for Giant Improvement's.
I also started today
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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« Reply #66 on: March 21, 2019, 11:31:09 AM »
Yesterday I relapsed

           Day 1 at 21- 3-2019
 Yesterday I relapsed 2 times. I was really tired now want to end this but always caught on addiction cycle. Now I am really serious about recovery and my main goal of life in present to recovered from this addiction. Day 1 is clean.
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« Reply #67 on: March 22, 2019, 06:33:09 AM »
Once again i relapsed yesterday at late night.
 
Day 1 at 22-3-2019

Today I worked out, eat healthy did yoga and meditation. Yesterday i relapsed but I don't waste my time to regret about my situation.
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« Reply #68 on: March 22, 2019, 11:51:47 PM »
Day 2 at 23-3-2019
      Same Routine I followed. I think yoga is best medicine for this addiction but you must have practice consistently otherwise you fall in trap of addiction. Now i am practicing yoga regularly. It's really helping me.
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« Reply #69 on: March 24, 2019, 02:38:13 AM »
Once again relapsed 2 times at 24-3-2019
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« Reply #70 on: March 25, 2019, 02:14:10 AM »
Day 1 at 25-3-2019

     Yesterday I relapsed I feel really depressed then I called my accountability partner do or die and talked about withdrawals, addiction. The conversation was really awesome and once again i motivated for reboot challenge. I am really lucky that I found reboot nation and accountability partner like you. Thanks for giving me such a great advice for reboot this time we will change our brain.
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« Reply #71 on: March 25, 2019, 06:33:16 AM »
Definitely bro.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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« Reply #72 on: March 25, 2019, 06:35:41 AM »
I am at day two bro. See because of my right thinking to capture all urges i am successfully completed day 1.
As you notice you see that day 1 is always hard.
But if you know your triggers well and make plan to conquer it then its possible
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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« Reply #73 on: March 25, 2019, 10:53:35 PM »
  Ok i got it. :)
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« Reply #74 on: March 25, 2019, 11:09:51 PM »
                                                       Day 2 at  26-3-2019

 Good day but faced withdrawals too. Insomnia, headache always troubling me. Now i decide to sleep as early as possible at night.
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