Author Topic: Sailing the tides to reach the an island called Life  (Read 1661 times)

BlueHeronFan

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Re: Sailing the tides to reach the an island called Life
« Reply #100 on: March 11, 2019, 08:11:04 PM »
Sorry to hear about the relapse! I had a slip this past week, and one of the things that I realized was that I always give up on the good things I'm doing when I relapse, as if I thought they didn't actually work. But I know that they all did help in different ways, so I'm trying to make sure I recommit to the healthy habits (meditation, planning, filters on my internet, etc.).

I don't know if I'm saying it clearly, but just keep at it! A relapse doesn't mean your efforts weren't paying off, so don't give up on the good you were doing. Just fill the gaps in your defenses and move forward!

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Re: Sailing the tides to reach the an island called Life
« Reply #101 on: March 15, 2019, 10:07:38 AM »
Thank you Rebooter and BlueHeronFan.
The relapse was worst and really shook me up. I have installed filters to make sure and restricted the laptop to a bare minimum so that I don't access porn over my laptop. Things were good even after that. I managed to get see some nudes somehow on two occasions,  though I did not follow exposure to MO but that guilt for me and for my brain, not receiving the pleasure which it usually got really made me go crazy. I was angry for no reason and there were plenty of negative thoughts. Somehow I initiated a conversation about it with my sibling in a cryptic way. The discussion turned from cryptic porn issue to some other issue, and it was heartfelt conservation. I felt good after it and things have been normal since then. I am yet to adopt a good lifestyle hence the problem is not solved yet. I will take the necessary steps in days to come.
Your support has something which kept me focused on the issue, prevented me from going crazy and feeling uncontrolled. This forum has always reminded me that this addiction is something I have to fight and win over and I can do that. Thanks a lot, guys. I won't be continuing to post here on a daily basis but once in a while, I feel this is to be a right approach for me for now as I want to minimize the laptop use. However, I still will be checking out your journals and do look forward to your support when I feel down.
All the best guys. We can win this.

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Re: Sailing the tides to reach the an island called Life
« Reply #102 on: March 15, 2019, 08:33:36 PM »
Hey blueRacoon, it's awesome that you had a conversation about that even if it was cryptic! Sometime it's all that's needed to ease the mind.

The lifestyle is vital in my opinion. Get a good one and this addiction will be way easier to get rid of.

I'm happy if I was of help to you in your process of getting PMO free! I will continue as you post! Btw, I approve 100% to not post daily! I've been posting ever 2 or 3 days recently, mainly because I've updated my lifestyle and it's much better now! I'm currently on my 25th day and barely think about P. Thanks to my caution avoidance of the trigger and my improved lifestyle.

We'll be here if you need support brother :)