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Finally Made it-PIED ended on Day 265 of NOFAP
« on: January 23, 2019, 03:30:53 PM »
Gabe, your story gave me the strength I needed to do this. Thank you. I owe you.



My brothers:

The support on this site, RebootNation, and YBOP are literally the only reasons I am alive today. I mean that. I was ready for suicide,gun was in my hand and loaded 8 months ago. I was going to lose my family due to PMO. NoFAP, Gary Wilson, Gabe Deem, and a well timed response by Noah Church saved me. And all of you. Tomorrow is 299 Days.

Today is day 298 of NoFap for me, and I am a very different guy than I was before:

Me: 43 year old law enforcement professional. Married 10 years.

Before Nofap: selfish, demanding, irritated all the time with wife. Drank 3 nights a week, a few beers. Whenever I didn't get what I wanted sexually right away, I would PMO. This had increased over the past few years, resulting in weaker erections and more demands of wife (who is gorgeous, educated, and in love with me, but all this made it so we had sex 1x a month or less. She was just a lust object to me, I am ashamed to say). PMO nearly ended my marriage when she found it on my phone.

After Nofap: PIED ended on day 265. With AMAZING hot, connected sex with my wife. I feel better every single day.

This has been hell. Ups and downs, suicidal and then feeling good. I never knew I had PIED until I stopped PMO, and viewing porn (when caught, I was told she would divorce me if I did it again.) That was all i needed. NoFap was do or die. I wasn't going to lose my family for this shit. I never went back to PMO or fapping. Four times my wife got so frustrated with my mood swings and said she was going to leave. Plus lack of attention as I was trying to reboot (I was not very good at communication in the beginning.) We are now as we were 5 years ago, before I started daily PMO, then escalated to EVERY SPARE MINUTE PMO. I had no idea what i was doing to my brain. If i could take it back i would. But I am well on the way to recovery. Stay the course. STICK WITH IT. Journal so you can see your ups and downs and track your moods. I HAD NO IDEA I COULD HAVE SEX until I TRIED. Put yourself out there, risk failure. Here is a list of my ups and down days, in a cycle:

22up…FLATLINE-43 down....9up….7down…33up…7down….7up…6down….13 up….6down…7up…6down…9 up….5 down, 5 up, 3 down, 11 up, 2 down, 3 up, 1 down, 1 up, 3 down, 8 up, 2 not so flat, 1 up, 1 down, 11 up , 1 down, 2 up, 7 down, 7 up….( updated 12/27)… PIED ended On day 265 with PIV

I started dreaming again on DAY 194- Dreams are a sign reward circuit is HEALING

Dreams: Day 74, 194, 201, 202, 204, 205, 206, 207, 208, 209, 211, 212, 214, 217, 221, 222, 225, 226, 227, 228, 229, 231, 234, 235, 236, 237, 238, 239, 240, 241,243, 246, 247, 248, 249, 251, 252, 253, 255, 256, 257, 258, 259, 260, 261, 266, 267, 268, 269, 270, 271

Morning Wood: 72, 88, 150, 198, 205, 206, 208, 211, 214, 221, 222, 229, 231, 235, 237, 238, 239, 240, 241,249, 251, 252, 253, 255, 256, 257, 258, 266, 267, 268, 269, 270, 271.....and keeps getting better.

Abstinence periods, by duration: 34 days, 71 days, 70 days, 92, 5 so far… after 92 days, while moods were a little down, I I had really hot sex. This broke my flatline. Gary Wilson was right, sometimes a long rebooter needs an orgasm to get moving again. I had sex for the next two nights. I am spacing orgasms to make sure i am not going to go back into flatline. Had no "orgasm hangover."

Suppliments: L-Arginine- 3000 mg per day, broken up in to 3 doses. Helps enormously with anxiety that comes with flatline.

Stay strong my friends. I am crying as I write this. I am alive. I have hope. My dick works again. My marriage is really doing well. Communication is great. My kids love spending time with me. I am sober of PMO, I don't drink anymore. My wife and I are awesome :) We always loved each other, but now we are incredibly close again. I am happy.

STICK WITH NOFAP. IT WORKS. So many times I almost threw in the towel. Stick with it, you will recover. I did. PIED and all.

I love you guys.

J.
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Re: Finally Made it-PIED ended on Day 265 of NOFAP
« Reply #1 on: January 24, 2019, 05:15:59 AM »
Reading this gives me hope.  I'm only on day 27 of nofap.  I am 41 and my ED or PIED  just showed up a couple months ago.  It's good to hear there is light at the end of the tunnel.   I will stick with no PMO because this is apparently the only true cure. 

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Re: Finally Made it-PIED ended on Day 265 of NOFAP
« Reply #2 on: January 25, 2019, 07:54:00 PM »
Thanks for posting.

This is encouraging to hear.

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Re: Finally Made it-PIED ended on Day 265 of NOFAP
« Reply #3 on: January 26, 2019, 09:05:39 AM »
J, This is incredible. I'm so happy for you and proud of you for trucking through the road to recovery and sticking with it.

Thank you for posting this. I know this will help many people by sharing this. Everyone needs to understand that their life has meaning, and if you start with yourself, and sort yourself out, then love on others and impact their life in a positive way, there is a ripple effect that can happen and it all starts with a realization that if you fix what bothers you, you can change the world. Like the ol' Michael Jackson song Man in the Mirror lyrics say: "if you want to make the world a better place take a look at yourself and make a change." Gahndi said it another way, "be the change you wish to see in the world."

I'm so glad to hear that I was able to help. It encourages me to keep doing what I can to raise awareness and share my story so I thank you for taking the time to post this and reach out to me. I hope nothing but the best for you, and for continued success on this journey.

Much love!
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Re: Finally Made it-PIED ended on Day 265 of NOFAP
« Reply #4 on: January 27, 2019, 07:32:08 AM »
J, This is incredible. I'm so happy for you and proud of you for trucking through the road to recovery and sticking with it.

Thank you for posting this. I know this will help many people by sharing this. Everyone needs to understand that their life has meaning, and if you start with yourself, and sort yourself out, then love on others and impact their life in a positive way, there is a ripple effect that can happen and it all starts with a realization that if you fix what bothers you, you can change the world. Like the ol' Michael Jackson song Man in the Mirror lyrics say: "if you want to make the world a better place take a look at yourself and make a change." Gahndi said it another way, "be the change you wish to see in the world."

I'm so glad to hear that I was able to help. It encourages me to keep doing what I can to raise awareness and share my story so I thank you for taking the time to post this and reach out to me. I hope nothing but the best for you, and for continued success on this journey.

Much love!

Your story is giving inspiration to all of us, you are basicly like our lord and savior

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Re: Finally Made it-PIED ended on Day 265 of NOFAP
« Reply #5 on: January 28, 2019, 11:07:36 AM »
Gabe,

Thanks for answering me, it means a lot. I'll go one step further and answer any questions anyone has about the recovery process and my experience to be a support for others. Please keep spreading the word about porn. The next generation needs to hear it. And pass my data on to Gary Wilson if it will be helpful in any way. Thanks again, man.

J.

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Re: Finally Made it-PIED ended on Day 265 of NOFAP
« Reply #6 on: January 29, 2019, 01:43:13 PM »
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And pass my data on to Gary Wilson if it will be helpful in any way.

I did my man. It has been posted on YBOP already... below is the link. Your story will help many! Thanks for giving back.

https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/rebooting-accounts/rebooting-accounts-page-3/age-43-pied-ended-on-day-265-of-quitting-porn/

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Re: Finally Made it-PIED ended on Day 265 of NOFAP
« Reply #7 on: January 29, 2019, 04:01:52 PM »
I forgot to write you man, I am on a day 221 and I am coming close to your 265 days. I hope I'll kick my PIED's ass in next 44 days and make love to my girl without worrying about losing boner, as you did. Peace and love

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Re: Finally Made it-PIED ended on Day 265 of NOFAP
« Reply #8 on: January 30, 2019, 11:45:50 AM »
Gabe,

That is truly humbling, and an honor. Thanks for passing that on to Gary.  I'll continue to give back to others who are struggling. I swear it. No man fucking left behind.

Peace,
J.

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Re: Finally Made it-PIED ended on Day 265 of NOFAP
« Reply #9 on: February 14, 2019, 08:44:05 PM »
Truly happy for this..
Absistence period included sex or no orgasm overall?