Discovering who you really are is the tool that will take someone out of the void. Discovering what qualities we have, what weaknesses, and letting people know that's who we really are and if they don't like it, we don't have to be friends. I wouldn't even want to be friends with people who don't like me the way I am.
That's fair, research isn't for everyone. (I'm not sure it's for me either, honestly.) But it's not a waste if you learned something! And hey, knowing you have a job for a year (even one you aren't crazy about) isn't too bad either!I really relate to your waiting for things to materialize. I have definitely spent a lot of time in my program so far just waiting for some kind of purpose to fall out of the sky and make sense to me. I'm starting to realize that I am going to have to make my own way if I want to get anywhere. I'm sure we'll figure this out with some time.Congrats on 12 days! Keep it going!
Consistency is the key but I have to start small. There is no shame in it and I fully accept the fact that I've wasted so much time in life that I can't expect to be an excellent guy overnight. It will take time 100%. I need to work on it and I hope I can make it happen.
Good stuff man. I listen to a lot of motivational audiobooks and books about goal setting too. They have been very helpful to me.I have a suggestion. You should change the title of your journal to something positive and declarative. 2019 is the year. No question about it bro
Sounds like an interesting read, keep it up!Picking up friends at the airport is definitely productive (even if it sometimes feels like a distraction from real work). I always get a little mad when I have to give up my plans in order to help someone else, but that's not right. It can be hard to find a balance between productivity/self-care and being a selfless and helpful person. Either way, go get 'em!
That's awesome! Just breath deep and relax into it. I bet as you become more comfortable with her you will become more expressive . She obviously likes you so feel encouraged!
That is awesome! Congratulations on a good date!You're making great progress, and you're right to be focused on life and not the number of days (the number is helpful, but it's not the point). And for what it's worth, I don't think you have anything to regret about the date. I think we sometimes get the idea that things have to be physical to count, but I really support a first date without anything physical. You spent some time together and definitely learned that you're both interested in each other. What more could you want out of a first date? Focus on the connection (like your personalities and feelings and stuff) and the physical stuff will follow naturally. Keep it up!
Today I just asked her out again for the evening. Since she is busy these days we will just be around her university and have dinner somewhere. I think we click well in some way and I'd like to know her better. Will see how it goes today.