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Happy Runner's Journal
« on: January 12, 2019, 04:18:23 AM »
Day 1.

I used to keep a journal on this forum for some time during the last year. Eventually I stopped posting here thinking that the journal is not helping me.

I PMO for 2-3 times per month now even having good regular sex with my girlfriend. This is embarrassing. Why do I need to PMO if I have a girlfriend I like?

So I want to cut my PMO habits to at most 1 time per month.

I am not making a commitment for 90 days PMO free streak and not setting other goals. I just need a place to observe and document my addictive habits.

I am 32 years old.

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Re: Happy Runner's Journal
« Reply #1 on: January 13, 2019, 09:23:36 AM »
Day 2.

Just reminding myself that I am back on track.

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Re: Happy Runner's Journal
« Reply #2 on: January 14, 2019, 01:20:18 AM »
Day 3.

I think I can make it to 10 days streak without PMO. It's easy.

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Re: Happy Runner's Journal
« Reply #3 on: January 15, 2019, 03:49:50 AM »
Day 4.

Automatic negative thoughts are coming to my head every morning. Need to run 5-10 km to let them go.

Practice of gratitude should help. It always helped...

Need to focus on my goals and be greatful for what I have.

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Re: Happy Runner's Journal
« Reply #4 on: January 16, 2019, 06:27:59 AM »
Day 5.

Heavy PMO habit eliminates a need for goals. Why do you need goals if you can PMO every day?

Need to train my mind and body to focus on my goals.

With regular PMO it is hard to be focused.

Focus is the mental habit that can also be trained.

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Re: Happy Runner's Journal
« Reply #5 on: January 16, 2019, 11:53:13 AM »
I missed my morning run today.

Feeling unfocused and lonely. Such a weird feeling.

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Re: Happy Runner's Journal
« Reply #6 on: January 17, 2019, 03:21:47 AM »
Day 6.

Yesterday was a tough day. Negative thoughts overwhelmed me completely in the evening. I went outside and run 5 km with the tempo of 4:24 /km.

This fast run helped me to break free from these thoughts.

Now I know what to do when I feel low and fell the urge to PMO -- I will run 5 km as fast as I can.

Need to reed about nofap to be sure that the feelings I experience these days -- they are OK.

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Re: Happy Runner's Journal
« Reply #7 on: January 18, 2019, 01:49:44 PM »
Day 7.

Everything is OK.

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Re: Happy Runner's Journal
« Reply #8 on: Today at 05:28:26 AM »
Day 8.

Just a reminder for myself:

If I feel an urge to PMO I must go outside and run 5+ km as fast as I can.