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TheTr0jan1

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South African Rebooter
« on: January 08, 2019, 03:00:34 PM »
Hi Everyone! I have recently decided to take back control of my life!

My name is Byron and I am from Johannesburg, South Africa.

It wasn't very long ago that South Africa was only touching on dial-up Internet let alone high-speed fibre, however in the past 10 to 15 years progress in internet accessibility and connectivity has developed at lightning speeds.

For most of my life up until about the age of 23 I was pretty much unexposed to porn except for the occasional bunch of pics - or on rare occasion a video.

So since about the age of 7 I used my hands and my mind to get off as and when I wanted (it was natural afterall!).

BUT, as soon as I had access to ever increasing internet speeds and internet porn that was becoming evermore accessible and easy to find - I started to make use of it more and more and more.

I am a successful young professional, but not whole, I am good at my work life, but have not really "gotten out there"and dated as much as other men my age have - I have had 3 girlfriends of a sort with a sexual experience (with a partner) level that is marginal at best. This is definitly due to my dysfunctional relationship with PMO. It was all I needed, why get a girlfriend/boyfriend?

From the age of 23 up until now, my porn addiction steadily devolved into what I can only describe as the single biggest impediment to me leading a happy and fulfilled life.

I stopped taking interest in girls (or boys, not sure which I like to be honest) and started developing all kinds of sexual fetishes and dysfunctions which I wrongly attributed to other causes (stress, medication side-effects, "maybe I just wanna be intimate with people?", started to sexualise people in my mind - the list goes on.

It was only very recently in 2018 that I started to notice the effects of my prolonged and dysfunctional relationship with internet porn; I was fapping just because I could or because I was feeling low and needed a fix, I would browse for hours and then would battle to get off. This became such a marked pattern that it started to concern me as I had to work harder and harder to get hard and then even harder still to get off.

I recently started dating and the full effects came to the fore when it was time for me to perform, and I was dumbstruck at how ineffective I was and the anxiety and angst it caused me over the ensuing days.

I started to do some research and came across www.rebootnation.com and YBOP and decided to take back control after I remembered that I had, by coincidence and due to a very bad bladder/prostate infection, completed what I now know to be called a no-PMO challenge of my own in the later half of 2018 and once I had gotten better I had noticed that some of my porn induced ailments had diminished and others had vanished (was getting morning wood, penile sensitivity was returning etc.)

I have recently officially started my reboot! - 5 DAYS NO-PMO
Did I use porn today? - NO
What were my triggers? - TV
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? - Decided to sign-up to this site and go read the r/NoFap subreddit for motivation and to give support.
What am I grateful for today? - I am grateful that I was able to steer my energies towards something constructive that will benefit me and those I care about in the long run.

Wish me luck!

TheTr0jan1

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Re: South African Rebooter
« Reply #1 on: January 12, 2019, 06:59:59 AM »
8 Days in so far!

Haven't really had any urges other than the "checking" and being conscious of my triggers and what triggers me!

I'm just glad that I have gotten over the blue balls! ;D

changemylife

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Re: South African Rebooter
« Reply #2 on: January 12, 2019, 07:12:58 AM »
What's up, man!

Your story and my story present similarities. I started masturbating when I was younger than 10 years old, as well. I discovered Internet porn when I was 16.
Loneliness separates me, like a dimension on its own. I cannot leave it, I hit an invisible all. I walk invisible between you all.

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Re: South African Rebooter
« Reply #3 on: January 12, 2019, 12:55:01 PM »
What's up, man!

Your story and my story present similarities. I started masturbating when I was younger than 10 years old, as well. I discovered Internet porn when I was 16.

Im glad that my story is not unique - means I'm not as alone as I thought!  :) How is your no PMO coming along? Seen any success?

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Re: South African Rebooter
« Reply #4 on: January 12, 2019, 01:50:39 PM »
What's up, man!

Your story and my story present similarities. I started masturbating when I was younger than 10 years old, as well. I discovered Internet porn when I was 16.

Im glad that my story is not unique - means I'm not as alone as I thought!  :) How is your no PMO coming along? Seen any success?

When it comes to addiction, stories start to look the same for many people.
Loneliness separates me, like a dimension on its own. I cannot leave it, I hit an invisible all. I walk invisible between you all.