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anubu0

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Re: I WILL DO THIS
« Reply #50 on: November 10, 2020, 02:09:42 PM »
phew! came very close to losing it all. we're alll good now.

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« Reply #51 on: November 10, 2020, 03:04:23 PM »
Good job! Very proud of you.

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« Reply #52 on: November 11, 2020, 12:12:39 AM »
Stay strong Kayden, keep going

I recommend you to read this

http://www.rebootnation.org/forum/index.php?topic=282.0

the guy kind of gives off the same vibe as you, I hope to see you posting in Success Stories section one day.

Don't. Give. In.

Chris Oz

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« Reply #53 on: November 11, 2020, 07:34:29 AM »
Great post.

The other one about "addiction avatar" on NoFap has been very helpful to me. Thanks

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« Reply #54 on: November 11, 2020, 09:13:40 AM »
Glad to see you're going strong my man.  Keep it up.  You're growing fast, it's awesome to see.  Remember you never know the exact path to the future you want because life is unexpected, it's all about making the right decision every time you're given a choice.

anubu0

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« Reply #55 on: November 11, 2020, 12:14:47 PM »
Thank you guys so much for the overwhelming support!

November 11, Day #22

This is THE reboot for me. Yesterday, the urges were insane. Every other second, a p flashback would kick in and every single time I was able to dismiss it.

Thank you fapstranaut for providing that post. It was very insightful and yeah I agree he does give off very similar vibes LOL! I think the best motivation I saw in that post was the idea that time is limited. I am only 18 and am extremely grateful for being cognizant of this issue "early" in my life, at least relative to a few of you guys, but my time is still limited. I will be going to college in a year; do I still want to be suffering from porn addiction and PIED by that time? Hell fucking no. And I won't be. I will remain resilient and get through this bizarre and horrible time.

I am still experiencing a flatline. I have very low libido despite the flashbacks and no morning wood today. I just took a shower however, and when I touched my dick, I noticed some sensation and like an 80% erection after touching it for a while. I stopped myself because I shouldn't be trying to do this. I need to give myself time to heal and avoid and stimulation until at least 90 days.

Guitar is coming along nicely, playing video games with my friends is enjoyable, and swim practices are brutal. Life is good. The only thing dragging me down are thoughts about B (my ex, i don't even know if I can call her that) and my PIED. I feel like when my PIED is cured, I will be able to interact more socially and maybe start talking to a few girls, which should also help me get over her.

Chris, I am glad that the artificial voice helped you. I personally found it to be extremely beneficial and recommend that everyone checks it out. For me, I envision Gary.

 Gary is a 26 year old, ugly, warty, crooked nose, pimple-infested fella, or should I say pervert. He can't interact with anyone, he doesn't get aroused by anyone. When he sees someone he thinks is traditionally attractive, he googles her instead of talking to her, crossing his fingers for a leaked nude or sex tape. He's pathetic and weak. He's known about his porn addiction for 10 years but has never quit. He's frail and has a hunched back from bending over his desk to look at P. What a loser.

I'm sorry if that offended anyone or was too close to home. If you've been struggling with your addiction for 10 years, I by no means intend to belittle you. I'm just describing someone who is symbolic of my fears. What if I'm not strong enough... what if I do get caught up in this... what if Im not part of that 1%.

SIKE. I AM PART OF THAT 1%. I AM A BEAST WHO IS IN FUCKING TOTAL CONTROL. THESE PIXELS HAVE GOT NOTHING ON MY 5'10 140 LB SELF. TRY TO HOLD ME BACK P YOU CAN'T. YOU HAD THE UPPER EDGE ON ME FOR THE LONGEST TIME BUT LOOKS WHO COWERING IN THE SHADOWS NOW. GET YOUR CRINGE SELF OUTTTTAAAAA HERE. REAL LOVE > WEAKNESS ANY DAY.

LETS GO BOYS WE GOT THIS. PERSEVERE. STAY STRONG. IN A FEW MONTHS/YEARS WE'LL ALL LOOK BACK ON THIS TIME AND REMEMBER OUR HEROIC JOURNEYS. CAUSE THAT'S WHAT WE ARE. WE ARE HEROS!

TO DO'S:
- Eat healthy
- Finish supplemental
- Take a break from a screen every hour
- Think about Gary

DONT'S:
- Don't fantasize
- Don't be GARY
- Don't disappoint your future self

anubu0

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« Reply #56 on: November 12, 2020, 12:36:22 PM »
November 12, Day #23

No morning wood and very little libido. A flatline is very demotivating. Trust the process and results will come.

To Do's:
- Stay focused
- Eat health

Dont's:
- Don't be Gary
- Don't be WEAK!

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« Reply #57 on: November 13, 2020, 11:22:50 AM »
November 13, Day #24

Last night I had a nightmare about relapse. It wasn't a wet dream, I thankfully woke myself up before it got to that stage. I won't describe all of the details but I was essentially watching two people have sex and was M'ing to it, one was a specific p star. I wasn't watching them through a computer screen, it felt more realistic and in my face.

That nightmare really scared me. I've realized now the sheer amount of dopamine that PMO'ing gives to me. In just that brief segment of my imagination, I felt so good that for a second when I woke up, I wanted to go straight back to sleep and just have the same dream. I stopped myself and then went back to sleep.

I have had some really nice swim practices thus far. My motivation and my focus are insane right now and I need to keep going. NoFap is giving me so many benefits, don't lose them for 10 minutes of pleasure. IT IS NOT WORTH IT. PORN IS NOT AN OPTION!!!!!!!!

If you can't get an erection with a real girl, a beautiful girl, in real life, don't EVEN CONSIDER MO'ing.

YOU CAN DO THIS. DO NOT FALTER. ITS NOT ABOUT STOPPING, ITS ABOUT ACCEPTING THAT YOU HAVE STOPPED!

TO DO'S:
- Be productive and study

DON'TS:
- Don't play video games today, there isn;'t enough time
- Don't PMO
- DON"T FANTACIZE!


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« Reply #58 on: November 13, 2020, 12:39:00 PM »
The content you're sharing has been incredibly helpful. Stoked to see you hit 30 days!

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« Reply #59 on: November 14, 2020, 01:45:20 AM »
Wow, i'm amazed at your progress and happy for you. Can't wait for you to reach the 30 day mark

Indeed porn is never an option and we need to find ways to remind ourselves daily of that fact, to never lose a beautiful sexual life and experience for 10 minutes of mindless pleasure to a computer.

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« Reply #60 on: November 14, 2020, 01:27:38 PM »
November 14, Day #25

I've been thinking a lot lately just about life in general. Im not going to put down all of my thoughts today, but I'll post a brief synopsis when I hit day #30.

I had a dream last night, first person, where I achieved an erection that felt full. That's exciting I suppose. Libido throughout the day is extremely minimal and that's fine; I just can't let this worry me and lead me to experiment with PMO to make sure my dick still works. Its perfectly fine, just give it time.

TO DO'S:
- Be productive
- Be happy
- Read KR chapters 1 - 13
- Clean your room

DON'TS:
- Don't snack
- Don't be lazy and do nothing

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« Reply #61 on: November 15, 2020, 12:12:51 AM »
My man's nearing 30 days. Congratulations but more importantly, let's keep going! It doesn't stop!

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« Reply #62 on: November 15, 2020, 03:14:59 PM »
November 15, Day #26

I feel really horrible right now. Stressed, bored, depressed. This feels horrible. Im making a final push to day 30 and then I will share with you guys my thoughts and also my new approach for the next 30 days. Good luck everyone.

To Do's:
- Just get through the day

Don'ts:
- Don't PMO

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« Reply #63 on: November 15, 2020, 06:58:17 PM »
I AM ENDING MY NoFAP CHALLENGE

This past week has been brutal. I feel unmotivated and depressed, hopeless regarding my future. I lack a direction and I feel lost.

I initially was going to wait until Day 90 to do this, but I'm sick of it. I AM TURNING MY LIFE AROUND STARTING NOW.

I began NoFap to solely cure my PIED. I felt horrible about myself not being able to get an erection and I was depressed about my situation with B. No fucking longer. I am changing my entire lifestyle and I have a defined mission. I am going to better myself in all ways possible.

I am 18 years old and have another semester and a few months until college. I am going to use this time to absolutely evolve.

My NoFAP challenge is over but my life journey is just beginning. I am not going to bother logging my progress daily; I spend too much time on this site, time I can spend doing productive things. I will post monthly until I decide not to to help out those who need motivation. Quit porn. I mean it. Do it right now and save yourselves. I am done with all unproductive activities: dwelling on the past, playing video games, surfing youtube. I know what I need to do and I don't need to waste any more time.

Logging off. Good luck everyone and hope you guys evolve also.

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« Reply #64 on: November 15, 2020, 09:36:37 PM »
Hey Kayden,

I'm not an expert, but I'm guessing your feelings may be because you are in a flatline. Things get really dark before they brighten up again. If you persist through, maybe, it will go away.

https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/tools-for-change-recovery-from-porn-addiction/rebooting-advice-observations-from-successful-rebooters/abstinence-is-not-recovery-why-people-fail-to-cure-their-pied/

This is a good article. You are right that you should focus on building your life, aim for the betterment of yourself. By doing so, i believe you will be able to put behind your P addiction and recover from PIED faster. Counting days without PMO does not equate success, it's just a motivation, a journal detailing how far you have come. Success is not measured by how many clean days you’ve managed. It’s measured by how much your life has improved since you started rebooting (I took this line from YBOP, it's very meaningful). After all, Rebooting is not only just quitting P, but also strive to improve yourself.

It will be sad not seeing your cheerful post, i wish you the best in your life and hope you will achieve your target.
« Last Edit: November 15, 2020, 10:04:31 PM by fapstranaut02 »

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« Reply #65 on: November 15, 2020, 11:33:08 PM »
You may not know it but you've already taken steps with your life journey. NoFap itself is part of the life journey. NoFap is all about transmuting the sexual energy to fuel other aspects of your life.

Good luck with your university journey but more importantly, enjoy that journey and realize that if it's not the end-all-be-all of life.