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Re: "Free January" challenge
« Reply #50 on: January 06, 2019, 04:28:01 AM »
I'm in!

I'm currently on day 80 free of PMO, but only day 9 hardmode.
January will be my new hardmode streak!

Thanks changemylife.

And you can do it!  :) :) :)
First reboot, august 29, 2018 (49d, 3xPMO slip, no binging)
2nd attempt, october 19, 2018 90 days w/o PMO!



HM from now?

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Re: "Free January" challenge
« Reply #51 on: January 06, 2019, 08:46:37 AM »
6.  Clear. No porn, no use of artificial sexual stimulation to reach a dopamine high.  I did have sex yesterday. I got no complaints. :)

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« Reply #52 on: January 06, 2019, 09:47:05 AM »
Day 6 for me too day 34 of my current clean streak  things feel pretty good   had a slight trigger last night but it did not lead to any sort of urge   more on that in my reg journal  This little exercise is really helping  to keep my mind on a little  fact  "I have done 34 days so far  the Jan challenge of  30 days p free should be an easy one for me to add to it as I have done it alread"

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Re: "Free January" challenge
« Reply #53 on: January 06, 2019, 02:49:01 PM »
That's right, man. I've calmed myself down a little bit from how pissed off I was after the relapse, now I can think more clearly. Alright, I will commit myself to the hard mode. After all these years of artificial pleasure, I can't avoid the pain. I just want to end the circle of: Suffering (urges) -> Relief (relapse) -> Suffering again. I might as well go through the suffering once and be done with it than encountering it every time. I can't believe I let the edging throw me down today.
Hey changemylife, I've read your last few posts....don't be so hard on yourself. After 20 plus years of smoking cigarettes I finally figured it out for myself and I'm currently 15 months cigarette free. I failed a whole bunch of times but I would never have gotten to enjoy the 15 months of freedom I currently enjoy if I had quit trying. I'm right here with you trying to quit this PMO addiction. I'm determined to keep failing until I get this one right too! I'll tell you this much though, you've got me beat in the sense of your NOFAP got off track because of edging. I could never edge. If I start....I "O".

Keep the faith.

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« Reply #54 on: January 06, 2019, 03:23:05 PM »
I’m in on this as well - much better than “dry January” to just avoid alcohol...

Had a relapse today after 17 days clean (and on top of many similar/longer breaks over the last few months).

Here to permanently stomp out the small flames and embers that continue to burn as I’ve worked to control and tame the raging fire that has been the porn/maaturbation addiction of my life the last many years.   I am finally at a place where I feel....I know....I can control my urges and that porn no longer dominates my life.

BUT, I am also aware how dangerous this addiction can be and how one slip here and one slip there can easily lead to a cascade of more and more binging and craving and dopamine desperation.

So here’s to all joining in this challenge - Jan 31st here we come!!

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Re: "Free January" challenge
« Reply #55 on: January 06, 2019, 03:42:24 PM »
Techincally Day 5 for me, as I began the New Year with a hungover relapse  :'( (note: hangovers a definite trigger).

However, as soon as I had finished, I was determined to go the rest of the month clean. Since then, I've been going well, no porn, avoiding trigger situations, keeping myself busy outside and with family. Around the 5-10 day mark is when urges are strongest, and when I am most susceptible to triggers (yesterday just seeing a hot newsreader on TV almost sent me over the edge!).

Good luck to everyone else for the rest of the month - and beyond!

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Re: "Free January" challenge
« Reply #56 on: January 07, 2019, 06:05:30 AM »
Okay, I'm 7 days too late, as I've failed the challenge but, anyway, today I started my hardmode experiment. My first goal is 1 week.

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Re: "Free January" challenge
« Reply #57 on: January 07, 2019, 07:40:22 AM »
7.  No porn. No use of artificial sexual stimulation to boost a dopamine high.  It will be this way, every day, this month. Period.

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Re: "Free January" challenge
« Reply #58 on: January 07, 2019, 08:16:43 AM »
Day 7 for  me  and day 35 of present streak    got up early  good workout   feeling really good about the day   cheers to everyone rebooting

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« Reply #59 on: January 07, 2019, 12:13:24 PM »
Day 7

Today's a good day. I had been battling some strong urges over the weekend but today it feels like my mind, body, and soul are at peace. I'm really starting to believe that I'm going to look back and think getting rid of the internet at home and using software to keep the mobile devices in check were the best things I did for myself in 2019.

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« Reply #60 on: January 08, 2019, 07:39:00 AM »
Day 8 of the Jan challenger and day 37 of current reboot   Things going very well   heading off to post in reg journal   good luck all and chhers

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« Reply #61 on: January 08, 2019, 07:46:51 AM »
Day 8 of the Jan challenger and day 37 of current reboot   Things going very well   heading off to post in reg journal   good luck all and chhers

Second day hard mode. No excuses cause I've had enough of this addiction controlling me.

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Re: "Free January" challenge
« Reply #62 on: January 08, 2019, 09:05:04 AM »
8. Clear.  No porn. 

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Re: "Free January" challenge
« Reply #63 on: January 08, 2019, 11:36:05 AM »
"If you are as seriously PORNoholic as we were, we believe there is no middle-of-the-road solution."

I need to expose a ridiculous reservation I've been having since becoming abstinent (14 days ago). I keep fantasizing about watching Game of Thrones, when the new season airs in a couple of months. It's the last season, and I really want to know how the story ends. But I'm a porn addict, and I also know that there's a TON of softcore porn in that show, which is exactly what my addiction wants to feed on. My mind keeps saying "You'll be fine. By the time it airs, you'll be cured, and you can watch stuff like a normal person, with impunity." Or, "Everyone else is going to be watching it, and you'll be left out." I need to make a decision about this now, and I probably should just go ahead and remove the HBO app from my Roku. There's hardly anything on that channel that isn't TV-MA (that I'd want to watch, anyway), and I'm trying to stick to a PG-13 mental diet. Moreover, I simply don't think I can be "cured" of porn addiction, in the sense that I can ever watch it again without spiraling out of control with it. If I'm enjoying my porn use, I'm not controlling it. And if I'm controlling my porn use, I'm not enjoying it. Anyway, hope all are well out there. Happy Tuesday!

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Re: "Free January" challenge
« Reply #64 on: January 08, 2019, 11:46:39 AM »

     " If you are as seriously PORNoholic as we were, we believe ther"e is no middle-of-the-road solution."

    Is this comment directed to anyone in particular?


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« Reply #65 on: January 08, 2019, 11:54:41 AM »
"If you are as seriously PORNoholic as we were, we believe there is no middle-of-the-road solution."

I need to expose a ridiculous reservation I've been having since becoming abstinent (14 days ago). I keep fantasizing about watching Game of Thrones, when the new season airs in a couple of months. It's the last season, and I really want to know how the story ends. But I'm a porn addict, and I also know that there's a TON of softcore porn in that show, which is exactly what my addiction wants to feed on. My mind keeps saying "You'll be fine. By the time it airs, you'll be cured, and you can watch stuff like a normal person, with impunity." Or, "Everyone else is going to be watching it, and you'll be left out." I need to make a decision about this now, and I probably should just go ahead and remove the HBO app from my Roku. There's hardly anything on that channel that isn't TV-MA (that I'd want to watch, anyway), and I'm trying to stick to a PG-13 mental diet. Moreover, I simply don't think I can be "cured" of porn addiction, in the sense that I can ever watch it again without spiraling out of control with it. If I'm enjoying my porn use, I'm not controlling it. And if I'm controlling my porn use, I'm not enjoying it. Anyway, hope all are well out there. Happy Tuesday!

That's right, man. Don't fall into that trap. I've quit watching my TV shows because of this and I don't regret it. Why sabotage myself? I want to cure myself and I will do anything.

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« Reply #66 on: January 08, 2019, 11:59:14 AM »

     " If you are as seriously PORNoholic as we were, we believe ther"e is no middle-of-the-road solution."

    Is this comment directed to anyone in particular?


          Post often it helped me it will help you

Come on, man! I AM a PORNoholic and an alcoholic but I have 1 week without alcohol, I'm waiting for 1 week without porn, fuck em.

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« Reply #67 on: January 08, 2019, 12:03:34 PM »
"If you are as seriously PORNoholic as we were, we believe there is no middle-of-the-road solution."

I need to expose a ridiculous reservation I've been having since becoming abstinent (14 days ago). I keep fantasizing about watching Game of Thrones, when the new season airs in a couple of months. It's the last season, and I really want to know how the story ends. But I'm a porn addict, and I also know that there's a TON of softcore porn in that show, which is exactly what my addiction wants to feed on. My mind keeps saying "You'll be fine. By the time it airs, you'll be cured, and you can watch stuff like a normal person, with impunity." Or, "Everyone else is going to be watching it, and you'll be left out." I need to make a decision about this now, and I probably should just go ahead and remove the HBO app from my Roku. There's hardly anything on that channel that isn't TV-MA (that I'd want to watch, anyway), and I'm trying to stick to a PG-13 mental diet. Moreover, I simply don't think I can be "cured" of porn addiction, in the sense that I can ever watch it again without spiraling out of control with it. If I'm enjoying my porn use, I'm not controlling it. And if I'm controlling my porn use, I'm not enjoying it. Anyway, hope all are well out there. Happy Tuesday!

That's right, man. Don't fall into that trap. I've quit watching my TV shows because of this and I don't regret it. Why sabotage myself? I want to cure myself and I will do anything.

I agree man. The addiction definitely has something to do with your fantasizing about Game of Thrones and your "You'll be fine. By the time it airs..." thought processes. I go through similar things as well. I never did get into GOT because of the soft porn. If memory serves me correct, the very first episode had some nudity in it and from that point I told myself that GOT wasn't for me.

Happy Tuesday to you as well.

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« Reply #68 on: January 08, 2019, 12:08:19 PM »
I agree man. The addiction definitely has something to do with your fantasizing about Game of Thrones and your "You'll be fine. By the time it airs..." thought processes. I go through similar things as well. I never did get into GOT because of the soft porn. If memory serves me correct, the very first episode had some nudity in it and from that point I told myself that GOT wasn't for me.

Happy Tuesday to you as well.

I had to give up some TV series and one right after the first 20 minutes of the first episode for this particular reason. My brain wants any micro-dose. If I don't give my brain the full dose of P, it wants even a picture. Anything. This thing could be subtle and some people might not even realize it. They think they're doing a great job staying away from hardcore P but their TV series or their Facebook is the first sip from the bottle and then they switch to porn and drink the whole bottle, before they realize. If we are aware of this, we don't need to sabotage ourselves. I even had to quit some stupid fetishes I had because one of these made me relapse 3 days ago. If we seriously want to cure ourselves, we really need to up our game and do anything it takes and stay away from anything in order to do it.

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« Reply #69 on: January 08, 2019, 04:29:48 PM »
Is it too late to join? I am 11 days into a reboot but have had issues with peaking and edging and nearly relapsed today. SO i need something to encourage me.

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« Reply #70 on: January 08, 2019, 04:31:13 PM »
Is it too late to join? I am 11 days into a reboot but have had issues with peaking and edging and nearly relapsed today. SO i need something to encourage me.

No.

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« Reply #71 on: January 08, 2019, 04:33:17 PM »
If everything goes according to plan, by the end of this challenge I will have a 25 days streak. Dreams, man. We gotta dream.

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« Reply #72 on: January 08, 2019, 04:45:25 PM »
Please join in Sentimental Geek    Its never too late to join a challenge   The thread is good just for ensuring a bit of accountability by just giving you somewhere to go each day   a steady reminder  of why we are here  and to give and receive even a short   piece of encouragement   The 30 day challenge was not a big goal   like the 90 day reboot   its a smaller easier  one to meet  and even  those who join in a few days late  it is worth their while for sure

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Re: "Free January" challenge
« Reply #73 on: January 08, 2019, 05:32:29 PM »
Thanks!

Having had a bit of an up-and-down day, tomorrow gives me the opportunity to get back on it, and start doing this properly!

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« Reply #74 on: January 09, 2019, 09:05:02 AM »