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Re: 90 Days...and beyond Journal Again
« Reply #25 on: December 01, 2018, 12:34:53 PM »
Hey hopin4better, it really helps me a lot. I like to see progress and track it. The app helps a lot with that. It gives me a kind of visual status of what I am doing. Plus it’s better than looking at porn.

12/1/2018
12:26pm
Day 5

Feelin really good. Woke up a little late this morning and fooled around with the lady. I noticed that I was slightly hungover. She and I enjoyed some drinks together. Her wine and I beer. Had 4 pretty strong beers. I noticed that after a night of having drinks, I wake up with urges to watch porn....I think it’s because of the lack of dopamine from the alcohol...so I have noticed in the last that I would often go to the porn while hungover to feel better. Really dumb. So that correlation has been made with alcohol. My lady notices differences in my sexual drive also after a night of drinking.

So, I have to watch my alcohol intake or stop it all together. But I love good beer so it’s hard...1st world problems man.... I’m sure a lot of you have experienced this as well

Anyway, woke up, fooled around, made breakfast. Went to the indoor farmers market. Which happens to be right next to a flea market where I got a very nice marble chess board. Lucky find! We went our separate ways. Now I’m home alone...used the app today save for the meditation. Probably going to do that at some point. No porn though. I refuse.

I’m rambling, I have had a shit ton of coffee so I’ll end it now haha. I’ll check back in later. Peace

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Re: 90 Days...and beyond Journal Again
« Reply #26 on: December 01, 2018, 10:04:15 PM »
It’s always nice to find out what trips you up, so you can avoid it. Good realization on the drinking.  Enjoy the good days, and power through the bad ones.

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Re: 90 Days...and beyond Journal Again
« Reply #27 on: December 02, 2018, 02:07:55 PM »
12/2/2018
2:04pm
Day 6

Had a fun night out last night with some friends. Drank some good beers and was given a piece of furniture. A futon to be exact. Day 6 of no PMO. Feeling really good. Sexual urges are there but only for my lady. I have not looked at anything sexual or pleasured my self in anyway. I noticed in the last I would “cheat” or edge or “test” myself. This has not been the case. I have been following my progress with my brain buddy app. It’s looking pretty good from here.

I’ll check back in later. Have a good one all.

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Re: 90 Days...and beyond Journal Again
« Reply #28 on: December 03, 2018, 11:50:43 AM »
12/3/2018
11:48 pm
Day 7

7 days in. Feeling really good. No flatline issues as of yet. Weekends are typically really busy for me with friends. So that helps a lot. Spend a lot of time with my lady as well. I have had a few urges to PMO to porn, but have not acted upon them. Keeping focused with my brainbuddy app...seems to be really working for me.

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Re: 90 Days...and beyond Journal Again
« Reply #29 on: December 04, 2018, 09:33:33 AM »
12/4/2018
9:31am
Day 8

Eight days in, almost had a weak moment this morning with YouTube. Quickly stopped myself. Went to my brainbuddy app and abstained. Have not had sexy time since a few days ago so I’m feeling frisky. No flat line yet. Just some minor urges I have had to beat down. Headed to work now, have a great day everyone

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Re: 90 Days...and beyond Journal Again
« Reply #30 on: December 05, 2018, 09:05:34 AM »
12/5/2018
Day 9
9:00 am

Man, 9 days in. Feeling real good. Woke up, had a serious discussion with my lady on my alcohol use. I think my two vices of porn and alcohol are related to eachother. I have mentioned this numerous times in previous posts. But I think that alcohol and porn go hand in hand for me. Some people mix other drugs to achieve relief from depression or anxiety. I chose those two. We had a discussion about my sensitivity while I have had 2-4 beers ( I won’t say intoxicated ) and the day after.

If I am going to continue to use alcohol to stem my stress/depression/anxiety it’s going to cost me my relationship with my best friend. I can’t allow that to happen. That would be stupid.

After we had this discussion we had sex..,and I thought I nearly came. It was the most pleasure I have felt during inter course I think in my life...at least I can’t remember a more pleasurable time. Now we are both late for work. Gotta go....

Keep on keepin on everyone.

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Re: 90 Days...and beyond Journal Again
« Reply #31 on: December 06, 2018, 09:02:53 AM »
12/6/2018
8:59 am
Day 10

Nothing but good news to report. Had sex again last night...was able to hold quite the erection for an exceptional amount of time. Woke up this morning with some pretty crazy urges. Lady had to run out the door....had half a mind to go to the computer and look up some stuff...I didn’t tho. I did masturbate for a bit without porn and was able to hold an erection. I stopped noticing I probably could have orgasmed...I don’t want to do that just yet. I am not holding this against me and my reboot as there was no porn involved...just thoughts of my sexy lady..

Finished my morning routine on brainbuddy and cooked breakfast. Feeling good about today.

Here is to 10 more days

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Re: 90 Days...and beyond Journal Again
« Reply #32 on: December 12, 2018, 03:01:02 PM »
Hey Andy, how are things? Hope you are well.