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huckleberry

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Re: Finally accepted I'm addicted.
« Reply #25 on: November 06, 2018, 05:34:27 PM »
Hey everyone

Thanks for the great encouragement. I am sorry to say I messed up and had a relapse on Oct. 24. I was at 29 days and I messed up. I saw some suggestive advert (weak, I know) and it got me slowly going down the rabbit hole did I was watching porn again. Yes, I felt really terrible about it and no it wasn't worth it. I was dejected enough my defenses were down and I watched more for the next two days. I started fresh with clean living on the 27th and haven't watched any since. I was on a week's vacation with the family and luckily I'm not so far gone that I compulsively watch with my kids around. I seem to be most vulnerable when I'm working at home.

So, while I messed up, I'm back on the horse and I'm at 11 days. I'm going to try to log in more and hold myself accountable.

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« Reply #26 on: November 06, 2018, 09:13:21 PM »
You're still on the right track Huck. Put the missteps behind you and draw energy from your success so far.  For the last 29 days, your use has been minimal.  That is excellent! We just can't let that evil seed grow :)

54 days tonight, no porn for me.  I think about it every day but it's staring to get easier.  My working memory is sharper and I'm being more productive in general.  Anxiety is definitely down too.  We can look forward to realizing our better selves when we get thru this.  As you said, lots of support here, lots of powerful stories of struggle and success.  We can be better husbands and better fathers when our actions (in private) are in line with our personal values. 

J.

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« Reply #27 on: November 07, 2018, 02:18:54 PM »
We all have fallen.  The important thing is that you are still trying.  Keep at it one day at a time.  Pray about it in the mornings and practice the RAIN technique.  Just keep bringing your attention back to the path.  You will get it.

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Re: Finally accepted I'm addicted.
« Reply #28 on: November 08, 2018, 04:29:45 PM »
We can be better husbands and better fathers when our actions (in private) are in line with our personal values. 


This is a beautiful way to put it. I want to do this, and I will. Thanks to you both for the support.

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Re: Finally accepted I'm addicted.
« Reply #29 on: November 12, 2018, 06:54:35 PM »
It really helps me to get involved in positive thing. Keep you mind on the positive. I think that's a real help