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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #25 on: October 01, 2018, 09:06:43 AM »
Day 1, 16:00

1) Tried meditating, counting my breaths is a challenge. The mind has so many random thoughts. Wish to improve those areas in wich i struggle!

2) Went for a hour jogging.

Will try to stick to this program

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #26 on: October 01, 2018, 10:19:32 AM »
When you feel an urge, don't act on it, but don't fight it either.  Inspect the urge.  Investigate how it feels.  Let yourself feel it.  Notice the sensation in your body.  Just keep focusing on it instead of trying to push it down, and it will evaporate on its own.  I know how frustrating this can be, but you are doing the right things.  You will get this.

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #27 on: October 01, 2018, 10:37:54 AM »
Hey Uncreated

I totally agree with watching the thought, when i get tempted something else takes over. I only wake after the fact.
Will try doing more of that from now.
Thanks for your input

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #28 on: October 01, 2018, 12:24:27 PM »
Yes, that is the trick.  Watch that "something else."  We can only be free if we wake up.

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #29 on: October 02, 2018, 09:10:45 AM »
Day 2,16:10

1) Jogging went well, increased spreed,
2) Managed to study Querying,
3) Meditation zero, will try it again tomorrow

Moving forward and hoping to bit this cycle

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #30 on: November 13, 2018, 01:45:40 PM »
Managing this compulsive habit now, recently got a Sales representative position at some insurance company
The problem is my brain is way slow now, especially when I talk to female clients. I can feel myself boring the lady. I used to talk with ladies easy back in the days, but now it's like I have no clue who this beautiful creatures called females are?
I need help guys, has anyone ever experienced this?

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #31 on: April 08, 2019, 11:23:02 AM »
Struggled with compulsive behavior for the past 4 months.
Even forgot about this sites until now,
PMOing makes me feel empty like I don't matter, the pain I feel when I'm awkward around people is greater than the orgasm I was promised. This pleasure comes with a price I keep forgetting I'll have to pay after the act!

Time and time again my search for pleasure over comes my desire to resist and quit.

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #32 on: April 09, 2019, 02:28:48 AM »
Day 0,

I plan to hit the 30 day mark for now. Feeling hopeless and helpless with no support from anybody. I can't share my episodes with no one around.

But I will rise, will fight for regaining control of my life.

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #33 on: November 01, 2019, 06:37:56 AM »
I'm tired of this PMO, I wish it was easy to change. I feel helpless and hopeless

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #34 on: November 02, 2019, 08:43:37 AM »
Day 0,

I choose life, I choose hope!
Will keep fighting this until I gain control.
How foolish of me to always fall for PMO tricks, promising reward instead offerings shame and isolation!

PMO the days we used to share are coming to an end, I deserve a real relationship with a real women! You caused the mother of my son to hit exit, she always cried saying she can't compete with you. I knew she can't bit you in the virtual world, that's were you will always exist in a VIRTUAL WORLD.

I want to attract real women, have a less awkward conversation with her. 

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #35 on: November 03, 2019, 03:31:17 AM »
Day 1,

I am determined to fight back, still crave the stimulation.
But zero setback, will try to keep busy to avoid stress.

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #36 on: November 04, 2019, 12:40:27 AM »
Day 2,
 You seem to lose control a bit, but won't let my guard down

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #37 on: November 05, 2019, 01:32:41 AM »
Day 3

So far so good, let the fight continue.

I remember 2015 after my X left me, reason being obsessions with pornography. I remember being able to reboot for 4 month, and after that 4 month I was more confident. Was able to close a  couple of ladies.

I miss that confidence, no shame what so ever. NoFap does bring balance into our brains and physiology. I pray for focus and a stronger willpower

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #38 on: November 05, 2019, 11:15:20 PM »
Day 4,

No cravings yet, but the fear of rejection still there. Clinging to a promising lady still my weakness, then she rejects my calls, then I start PMO again.

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #39 on: November 07, 2019, 01:44:31 AM »
Day 5,

Still scared of rejection. I want to hit the 90 days + mark.

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #40 on: November 24, 2019, 03:33:23 AM »
Day 14,

Having my uncle visiting me might be the reason I've been clean, plus me working on my spiritual growth and attending church.

Hope to grow from strength to strength. May God help me stay focused