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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #100 on: December 30, 2018, 06:08:22 AM »
Thanx changemylife
Day 12
Today i did exercises.
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #101 on: December 31, 2018, 09:22:34 AM »
Day 13
Last day of 2018.
Welcome new year with 13 days success.
I hope this new year come with successful reboot for all of us. Happy New Year all.
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #102 on: January 01, 2019, 09:51:30 AM »
Day 14
Start of new year. Want to be rebooted this year.
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #103 on: January 02, 2019, 05:53:38 AM »
Day 15
Getting my confidence back
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #104 on: January 02, 2019, 09:21:19 PM »
Day 16
Wd today. This is the withdrawals started now. My brain is rewiring itself now.
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« Reply #105 on: January 04, 2019, 09:53:18 AM »
Day 17 at jan 4
Doing daily exercises. Feeling well. Now want to keep this progress as it is. I am now creating awareness about this in youths i know.
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #106 on: January 05, 2019, 04:36:29 AM »
January 5
Relapsed yeasterday night.
So day1
I am relapsed because i am over confident on that i am rebooted.
Now starting again with full motivation  . foggy head today.
successfully completed day 1.
« Last Edit: January 05, 2019, 07:58:19 AM by Do or die »
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #107 on: January 05, 2019, 10:28:04 PM »
January 6
Day 1
Relapsed again yesterday night.
This night is with lot of urges.
Not small its big urges.
Today is day one , restart of my journey again. Don't know when that day come where i am rebooted fully.
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #108 on: January 06, 2019, 05:31:41 AM »
January 6
Day 1
Relapsed again yesterday night.
This night is with lot of urges.
Not small its big urges.
Today is day one , restart of my journey again. Don't know when that day come where i am rebooted fully.

Yeah, this is day 1 for me too. Again. Fuck.
Loneliness separates me, like a dimension on its own. I cannot leave it, I hit an invisible all. I walk invisible between you all.

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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #109 on: January 06, 2019, 09:19:42 AM »
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Feeling bad. 6 years i lost in this darkness. I am feeling so bad that i am addicted to much to this. Hey god save your child.
Put me off from it.
This addition is dangerous
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #110 on: January 06, 2019, 09:33:05 AM »
Relapsedtoday
Feeling bad. 6 years i lost in this darkness. I am feeling so bad that i am addicted to much to this. Hey god save your child.
Put me off from it.
This addition is dangerous

This addiction has the talent to cover me with dirt.
Loneliness separates me, like a dimension on its own. I cannot leave it, I hit an invisible all. I walk invisible between you all.

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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #111 on: January 06, 2019, 12:38:14 PM »
Want to leave it but i am relapsing every time .it taked 3 years to decide when to stop. I am ashamed on myself. Is i am waiting for serious health conditions. No never. Then what is the way to leave this completely. Whats the way . i am at end point now. Now i am not able to live with this addition.
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #112 on: January 06, 2019, 12:45:04 PM »
From now i write my journal after every 21 days
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #113 on: January 07, 2019, 07:02:58 AM »
relapsed today also.
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #114 on: January 07, 2019, 07:10:22 AM »
relapsed today also.

Me too but yesterday. But today is day 1 of hardmode experiment.
Loneliness separates me, like a dimension on its own. I cannot leave it, I hit an invisible all. I walk invisible between you all.

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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #115 on: January 07, 2019, 08:04:30 AM »
Once an addict is always an addict .
steps of addiciton
1. you decided to never do it again
2. you have triggers
3. you think you can handle this relapse
4. you relapsed

and the steps 1 to 44 are repeating. this is called as an addiction.
to leave it you need to defeat your triggers till the triggers become weak. weak means they not able to relapse you. till that defeat.
and keep it in mind that defeating triggers means reboot. because an addict is always an addict
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #116 on: January 07, 2019, 08:26:48 AM »
You know, quitting an addiction is painful but we don't have to make it complicated. We don't need to complicate ourselves and, many times, that's what we do. We look at quitting an addiction and think it's very very hard. It's not very hard if others have done it before. I want to do it too. We don't need to despair and obsess about it. I would say staying sober is more difficult than quitting.

What we have to do is make the addition loses its control over us. The addiction is controlling us now.
Loneliness separates me, like a dimension on its own. I cannot leave it, I hit an invisible all. I walk invisible between you all.

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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #117 on: January 07, 2019, 08:38:16 AM »
Its true changemylife
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #118 on: January 08, 2019, 07:43:12 AM »
successfully completed day 1 and day 2
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #119 on: January 08, 2019, 07:46:03 AM »
successfully completed day 1 and day 2

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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #120 on: January 08, 2019, 11:19:51 PM »
Day 3
Don't have mood to do exercise.
But feeling stress free. No urges from morning.
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #121 on: January 09, 2019, 09:37:16 PM »
Day 4
One Wd at yesterday's night.
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« Reply #122 on: January 11, 2019, 11:39:40 AM »
Day 5
Good day today . started  mindfulness meditation daily
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #123 on: January 12, 2019, 07:49:32 AM »
Day 6 today
No wd. No anexity . no urges.
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Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« Reply #124 on: January 13, 2019, 03:40:56 AM »
Day 7 @ January 13
Feeling positive. No urges. No social anexity. I am now going to make others aware.
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