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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #150 on: June 23, 2020, 02:48:57 PM »
Maybe it is guilt and not being productive. The latter it is for me often, because i want to do so much, but i can't encourage myself to really change something. Because for that one needs the courage to do so. Instead of really doing something and reaching success, we skip that part and pick us endless images of P. Does that resonate with you in way?

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« Reply #151 on: June 24, 2020, 12:10:31 AM »
Hey imSorryNotSorry

Yeah it does resonate with me. If not pornography it's me pursuing the ladies. If the ladies reject me, I feel pathetic. This neediness has to be taken care of. Will keep fighting back for a more managed life instead of being dictated by the addict in me!

Thanks for the support!

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #152 on: June 24, 2020, 12:14:37 AM »
Day 41
Day 3

No pmo, no masturbation, the chasers effect is almost gone. My sleeping pattern is just going well, I sleep 6 to 8 hours. I avoid to stay awake up until 1 am, because that's usually the time I relapse.

Moving forward with hope!

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« Reply #153 on: June 24, 2020, 03:34:10 PM »
Well analyzed. Sleep is such a powerful factor.

The neediness you mentioned, do you know where it comes from? The source?
It would fit the idea that this need, where ever it comes from, can't ever be filled. And therefore one is looking for a replacement, 'to fill the emptyness'. If that would be the case there's work to do and a very good chance to overcome the problem.

Counting days is one thing, strict and rational. Also or even more important is looking into yourself. The underlying moods and emotions that aren't easy to find out about.

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #154 on: June 25, 2020, 02:45:51 AM »
Hey imSorryNotSorry

I think the idea of being like by people in general. I haven't been able to be sociable with the popular people from primary school. They always rejected me, so i think I'm still afraid of being rejected like a 6 year old! But will keep going, this issues are just too many. Just have to do them one at a time.

Thanks for the support buddy!

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #155 on: June 25, 2020, 02:49:33 AM »
Day 42
Day 4

No pmo, no masturbation. I keep thinking it's not that bad of a idea to just blow a load once a week or two weeks.

Moving forward!

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« Reply #156 on: June 25, 2020, 05:05:45 AM »
Looks like you're getting things back on track. Great job bouncing back Babysteps!

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« Reply #157 on: June 25, 2020, 02:17:21 PM »
Hey babysteps,

Just keep going. And exactly as you said it yourself:

But will keep going, this issues are just too many. Just have to do them one at a time.

That's the only way to deal with things i guess. One thing / (Baby)Step at a time.

Keep on going, i am rooting for you
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« Reply #158 on: June 26, 2020, 04:35:21 AM »
Hey Orbiter

I try as much as possible to get my life in order.

Hey ShadeTrenicin

Trying to gain control in multiple habits at the same time has proven to be unsuccessful for me until now. So now I want to manage my masturbation and my studies. Exercise more often!!

Thanks for the comment guys, very much appreciated☺
Let's keep fighting back!!!

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« Reply #159 on: June 26, 2020, 04:40:46 AM »
Day 43
Day 5

No pornography, no masturbation. But the addict in me keep suggesting I blow a load, but I'm able to resist.

Went for my morning jog, it went well☺

Moving forward with hope!!

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« Reply #160 on: June 27, 2020, 01:06:45 AM »
Day 6
No pornography, no masturbation. Went for my morning jog, it's still a struggle.

I'm patient with my progress!!

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #161 on: June 29, 2020, 02:45:49 AM »
Day 46
Day 0

It started on Friday with me having a verbal fight with some lady friend. Never thought of blowing a load. Then Saturday started alright, then in the evening the cravings started and intensified with every minute. From 19:00 to 21:00 they came and went, then at about 22:00 I gave in

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« Reply #162 on: June 30, 2020, 12:53:03 AM »
Day 47
Day 1

No pmo, no masturbation and no cravings!! Just came back from 35 minutes jog, it was a success.

Patient with my progress!!

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #163 on: July 01, 2020, 01:03:06 AM »
Day 48
Day 2

No pmo, no masturbation and cravings absent!!

Moving forward with hope!!

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #164 on: July 01, 2020, 04:00:35 AM »
Great progress, man.

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #165 on: July 01, 2020, 10:29:08 AM »
A small setback for a good comeback.

This issue of not being liked by others i know very well, because the GF is also dealing with this. She's also always about 'doing it right and satisfy everyone'. Mostly in her family and that's toxic, because it's not her being responsable for the joy of others, but somehow her parents let her think that way.
Anyway, it's good to know why that is and i like the idea of that's not your job of being liked by others. Who are the popular people anyway, in the end they are just like you and me.

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #166 on: July 02, 2020, 03:13:17 AM »
Hey imSorryNotSorry

I wish it was just that easy to stop caring what other people think of me! I don't like it, but I find myself micromanaging my conversation so that I don't bore the people around.

Thanks for the comment buddy!!

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #167 on: July 02, 2020, 03:21:56 AM »
Day 49
Day 0

I got disturbed by some noises out the house, woke up to check it out, found that it was nothing but dogs, tried to go back to sleep, it was hard, then that usually voice at the back of my mind suggested I check CAM girls, went straight to autopilot, binged on those CAM girls for 3.5 hours straight. Never came, went to sleep, woke up about 2 hours ago, the thought came again, binged for an hour then came by accident!

Talk about regress, but I will keep rising and rising until I'm over this.

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #168 on: July 03, 2020, 03:23:25 AM »
Day 50
Day 0

Have to take out this SIM card out for a while, I'm out of control!

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #169 on: July 03, 2020, 03:28:43 AM »
Hey Buddy,

It's okay that you've spun out of control. But excellent action to take out that SIM card. You've recognized what is happening and taking control of the situation once again.
So, what has happened the last couple of days? It seems that you are having a difficult time. Maybe something that you want to share with us? Not everything that you post has to directly be linked to PMO. IF it helps you, please write anything that is bothering you at this moment.. You can use this forum for emotional relieve as well, especially if that prevents you from PMO-ing.


Stay safe
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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #170 on: July 04, 2020, 05:08:15 AM »
Hey ShadeTrenicin

A lot of things are happening, but I'm not comfortable sharing. Will work out a way out of this cycle!!!

Thanks for the comment buddy!!!

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #171 on: July 04, 2020, 05:15:47 AM »
Day 51
Day 0

Well the SIM card solution works, but the idea of me sleeping early seems to backfire. I sleep at 21:00 get disturbed at 01:00, struggle with sleep until I get start jerking off. I think I have to get myself into a strict routine.

Sleep at 23:00 or 00:00, then wake up at 06:00. Go for my morning jog. Since I'm not working because of this lock down, I plan to help my mother with her small tailoring business.

I want to be patient with my progress!!
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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #172 on: July 05, 2020, 03:54:47 AM »
Day 52
Day 1

Managed to sleep after 23:00, woke up at 07:30, went for a 10.57km jog for 95 minutes but the last 10 minutes I walked. I'm a bit slower this days, used to do it in 75 minutes. But will be patient.

Routine forming is my goal. Matching on!!

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #173 on: July 07, 2020, 12:41:30 AM »
Day 54
Day 1

Just woken up now. My goal is to get into a routine so that I can get into the flow easily! It will take time, but it's worth it.

Moving forward!!

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Re: Gaining control of Compulsive Masturbation
« Reply #174 on: July 08, 2020, 03:23:42 AM »
Day 55
Day 2

No pmo, no masturbation, no cravings!

Moving forward☺