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Re: I want to be inspiration for you
« Reply #25 on: June 28, 2018, 02:06:20 PM »
Day 18
I feel bored but i it won't last forever, brain is just rebalancing.

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« Reply #26 on: June 29, 2018, 05:22:35 AM »
Day 19
Wow!
I should take more care of my sleep habits, always go to sleep at the same hour and always wake up at the same hour because this week it was irregular and that is affecting negatively my self-
discipline. Also i should eat better.

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« Reply #27 on: June 30, 2018, 04:00:31 PM »
Day 20
Despite of sleeping only few hours at night i had energy whole day and i was active. What i do is meaningful. I still have to get rid of bad habit of surfing internet. You know what, i will get rid of it right now. What am i waiting for? When will i free myself from bad habits if not now? Let's count day 0 Surfing internet. Tomorrow day 1. Cheers

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« Reply #28 on: July 01, 2018, 01:16:29 AM »
Day 21
I am feeling great! Rebooting successfully won't come to you, you have to go and take it and when you do so you will realise that since always you had that self-control. Self pity is your worst enemy. Be optimistic! What you are doing is incredibly meaningful and all the effort will pay off. And i am telling you that while being on day 21 of rebooting. What will come in the future will be much greater but the reward is not for free. We must take the effort today, and i am going to happily take any effort it is required to be free and happy!

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« Reply #29 on: July 01, 2018, 12:29:22 PM »
Day 21
Quite a productive day. I haven't been surfing internet nor losing time. I am taking new challenges and setting a bar higher.

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« Reply #30 on: July 02, 2018, 12:57:15 AM »
Day 22
Life has got much more to offer than we can think. Because of using P for so long, we have lost our sight. We have been in a prison and have forgotten what it is to be free. Maybe we have never been free, but we can be. And all the effort to achieve that is worth it!

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« Reply #31 on: July 02, 2018, 04:06:08 PM »
Day 22
I have just allowed myself for few seconds to look at some picture that was not P nor nudity but it was making me feel aroused. I have realised what i was doing and have immediately stopped and came here to write about it. I will turn off my computer now to save myself from possibility of doing that again. Oh, and now i realise now that it was because i have clicked on some post on facebook. I shouldn't be on facebook in a first place. No surfing internet allowed!

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« Reply #32 on: July 03, 2018, 03:50:30 AM »
Day 23
In last 23 days i didn't had any wet dream. Today i had a dream that was not a wet dream but was sexual. And now i feel aroused. How should i deal with it?
First i am going to recognise my feelings, my thoughts and my fantasies. Next i am not going to identify with any of those. If i am having a sexual fantasy, i must recognise that i am not participant of that fantasy and whole fantasy will dissolve itself if i don't identify with it. Right now i am sitting and writing this post on my notebook and that is what is real. Fantasy is not real and will never be.
But i can feel arousal in my body, i have spontaneous erections and i feel like my skin would be more sensitive. What should i do?
So, i think that i should take control of my body and not have my body have control over me. I am going to take deep breaths and cold shower.
Another thing is that as i feel aroused i feel much more desire for women. I must be aware that i desire to look at women on the street and resist the temptation of doing so. I must just focus on something else, look somewhere else. It doesn't require that much self discipline and will power. It is not about forcing yourself to do something but just being aware of your temptations and not acting on them.

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« Reply #33 on: July 03, 2018, 12:55:36 PM »
Day 23
I will go to sleep in few hours. I have managed today's day well, despite feeling aroused and urges i could take back control over my mind and do no not escalate. I feel different moods but of course i am not going to identify with those and i will maintain my long term optimism. I am so happy that i have gone so far as 3 weeks without MO nor PMO.

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« Reply #34 on: July 04, 2018, 02:51:10 AM »
Day 24
Why do i want to reboot?
I want to reboot because i want to have control over my life.
I want to reboot because i want to get the most from my life.
I want to reboot because i want to date great women and be in a successful and happy relationship.
I want to reboot because i want to grow up and become more masculine.
I want to reboot because i want to make better use of my time.
I want to reboot because i want to respect myself and have a great future.

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« Reply #35 on: July 04, 2018, 03:26:36 AM »
Day 24
I don't want to write few posts a day but this is really helping me to resist temptations and go through hard times. I am convinced that soon i will go through some kind of threshold and the feeling of arousal won't be that intense anymore.

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« Reply #36 on: July 05, 2018, 07:31:26 AM »
Day 25
I have a headache, physical pain was always the worst trigger for me to relapse. But not this time, i won't allow any pain to break my will power and put me on my knees. I have decided that i am not going to relapse and that is my will and that is the most important thing for me and if i have to pay a price of experiencing pain without an instant relief then i will go through it because the reward is much much bigger and is definitely worth it.

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Re: I want to be inspiration for you
« Reply #37 on: July 05, 2018, 09:13:46 AM »
Day 25
Today is definitely the hardest and most difficult day from all past 25 days. I feel urge not only to relapse but also to feel a relief from the headache. It is really hard to maintain will power to continue. At this moment i am doing some minor tasks and trying to relax but i worry that if i relax, i will relax as well my will power which in consequence will make me less resistant to temptations. Somehow i will overcome this. I will go to sleep in 7 hours, somehow i will go through those 7 hours without relapsing.

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« Reply #38 on: July 05, 2018, 01:08:17 PM »
Day 25
The pained has ceased and actually i have been quite productive in that time. I feel really proud of myself because of not relapsing.

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« Reply #39 on: July 06, 2018, 03:14:13 AM »
Day 26
I have been rereading Marnia's Robinson Cupid's Poisoned Arrow book and that is setting my mindset in right direction. If i am achieving now success in rebooting that's because of this very book. I don't feel desire to have an orgasm at this stage of rebooting. What i need to do is get out of my comfort zone more and make many more female friends. I need more eye contact, emotional connection, hugging, laughing, having fun and do all those things without falling into the desire of using female's body to achieve sexual arousal or orgasm.

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« Reply #40 on: July 07, 2018, 08:09:51 AM »
Day 27
It’s not that i necesarly have urges to PMO but i catch myself having a mindset of “i have been rebooting for so long so now i can allow myslf to relapse”. It is a mistake to think in this way. PMO is not a reward but a penalty. To PMO in first place is a penalty for not having self discipline, for not dealing with emotions, for not dealing with relationships, for not having goals and purpose for life, for avoiding maturity, for not using time in a meaningful way etc. PMO is pleasurable prison. I don’t want to come back.

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« Reply #41 on: July 08, 2018, 06:57:27 AM »
Day 28
Everything is going well. I have a lot of energy and i am using that energy well. I don’t feel that bored anymore. Actually i find surfing internet boring. So many things are much more interesting and i don’t want to spend time doing other things. I feel like being on a new level. I don’t feel sexually frustrated either. I know now that orgasm itself is a problem as well and if i will pursue women to use their bodies to achieve orgasm, i won’t liberate myself from PMO.

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« Reply #42 on: July 09, 2018, 01:23:13 AM »
Day 29
Now that i have gone one month without relapsing, i will post on the forum not every day but just from time to time. I can’t name all the benefits that i experience. Lets say that i find my life worth of living now and that i see myself to be on a completely higher level in every aspect of my life.

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« Reply #43 on: July 14, 2018, 11:01:56 PM »
congratulations on completing one month! I hope you are staying strong and feeling good during the journey! Your posts have been very encouraging and refreshing to read during my journey

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Re: I want to be inspiration for you
« Reply #44 on: August 29, 2018, 04:20:38 PM »
Hi
I have been going through some hard time, i have relapsed and i must get back on track. Day 0, i am going to write here everyday, i don’t know for how long, for at least 90 days for sure. It is a mistake to take rebooting for granted when being few weeks in a row without relapsing.

I’ll just take few deep breaths to feel my body and get out from thinking for a moment.

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Re: I want to be inspiration for you
« Reply #45 on: August 30, 2018, 01:00:47 AM »
Day 1
Having a good sleep is really important as it defines how we feel during the day. I have began to sleep on my back without pillow, trying not to lie on my side. I have read it’s healthier for my back and the quality of sleep is different.

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« Reply #46 on: August 30, 2018, 03:37:37 PM »
Day 1
I go to sleep earlier. I have made some plans for tomorrow and for this weekend. Without having a plan it is much easier to slip. I feel optimistic about rebooting. I have created an account on this forum in 2014 and i am still not 100% successful. I can’t allow myself to make that fact demotivate and give up. I can’t change my past but i can change my future.

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« Reply #47 on: August 31, 2018, 01:02:02 AM »
Day 2
New day, new opportunity. I don’t want to spend time regretting having relapsed but to focus again on what’s important.

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« Reply #48 on: August 31, 2018, 06:45:30 AM »
Day 2
P, before it happens on the screen, it happens in your mind. If you can get out from your mind, so to speak, and focus on something else, feel your body, be aware of your arms, legs, neck, back, position that your body is in, the taste of the food, sounds that you hear right now, aware of your breath, then it will be easier to forget about dirty stuff.

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« Reply #49 on: September 01, 2018, 12:38:54 PM »
Day 3
In some way, I am the one that creates PMO addiction and urges. P is not directly imposed on me. There is a part of me that chooses it. Choose P over facing fears, over facing discomfort and unpleasant emotions. When i feel bored, i can overcome this boredom by doing something productive and fun. But that requires effort. Also i can take shortcut and watch P. There is the problem. That at some point I choose P over taking effort and overcoming resistance. But that's not deterministic. I can choose on daily basis, if I am going to give up or take effort. If I give up one day, it's a matter of days that i relapse. So taking effort now, in this present moment, is one of the pillars of successful rebooting.