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Post Here If You Are Having Urges
« on: May 16, 2018, 01:23:13 AM »
I'm having a difficult night, so I am getting this started. I figured this thread might potentially be a helpful tool for myself and others.

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Re: Post Here If You Are Having Urges
« Reply #1 on: May 17, 2018, 09:07:34 AM »
I wanted to take a nap after dinner and I had a flashback from some porn movie. I don't feel the urge but something pushes me towards this thought and it's hard to get her out of my head.

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Re: Post Here If You Are Having Urges
« Reply #2 on: May 17, 2018, 04:25:00 PM »
I'm having some thoughts of searching through my laptop trying to find ways to hack around my filters to get access to porn. After I finish this post, I'm setting a device blackout for an hour.

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Re: Post Here If You Are Having Urges
« Reply #3 on: May 17, 2018, 07:07:23 PM »
im only 4-5 days and i already watched some porn videos for couple of seconds. its not a relapse i know but the act of looking for it is fucked up in the ass. fuck that im fucked for this reboot whether i relapse or not.

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Re: Post Here If You Are Having Urges
« Reply #4 on: May 18, 2018, 06:20:21 PM »
I'm having some problems with my filter, so I've temporarily uninstalled it and am doing a reinstall. I just need to get through another 25 minutes.

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Re: Post Here If You Are Having Urges
« Reply #5 on: May 19, 2018, 05:44:00 AM »
im only 4-5 days and i already watched some porn videos for couple of seconds. its not a relapse i know but the act of looking for it is fucked up in the ass. fuck that im fucked for this reboot whether i relapse or not.

How looking at porn is not a relapse for you?

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Re: Post Here If You Are Having Urges
« Reply #6 on: May 19, 2018, 05:16:33 PM »
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How looking at porn is not a relapse for you?

looking at porn for few seconds is relapse for you? so if you stumble upon some porn on instagram, facebook or whatever you reset your counter? if you fantasize for couple of seconds in the morning while having morning wood, you reset your counter? its a bad sign for me but not a relapse. relapse for me is when you jerk it out or keep looking for a minute. 

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Re: Post Here If You Are Having Urges
« Reply #7 on: May 19, 2018, 05:30:11 PM »
I just posted the method I used to reboot. It may not be the best way, but it should give you an idea to come up with your own plan. Simply wanting to quit isn't good enough when over coming addictions.

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Re: Post Here If You Are Having Urges
« Reply #8 on: May 19, 2018, 05:33:29 PM »
I just posted the method I used to reboot. It may not be the best way, but it should give you an idea to come up with your own plan. Simply wanting to quit isn't good enough when over coming addictions.
maybe link your post, thread, website, youtube video or something.

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Re: Post Here If You Are Having Urges
« Reply #9 on: May 20, 2018, 09:35:01 AM »
I had to go out and breathe some cold air. Then took a photo of myself, wanting to relapse. This led me to shave because I looked horrible. This worked so well, I think the next time I feel like relapsing I want to go outside and calm down a bit.


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Re: Post Here If You Are Having Urges
« Reply #10 on: May 20, 2018, 05:11:39 PM »
I wanted to relapse. My addicted brain is trying to convince me that there is nothing wrong with porn and its okay to watch it. Telling me “ nothing bad will happen if u watch” but i came here to write instead.