A new start (Alea iacta est) 52y

[Totte]

Information for Tom:
https://www.reuniting.info/karezza_evaluation

https://www.reuniting.info/karezza_porn_addicts

Thanks!
This is interesting I need to get wife fully onboard, we have talked about it but not more then that really.

Tom

[Turtle]

    I can't see any harm starting karezza at any time. It is part of recovery. Its important to understand, karezza is loving contact. It's not important to get hard, or perform sexually. It's more about loving and sharing, gentle touching and intimacy. If it gets sexy that's ok too, but the idea is to not get too excited. For men especially, avoid orgasm during rebooting. Many men continue to avoid orgasm, perhaps because it becomes easy to have lots of amazing intercourse!

[Totte]

    I can't see any harm starting karezza at any time. It is part of recovery. Its important to understand, karezza is loving contact. It's not important to get hard, or perform sexually. It's more about loving and sharing, gentle touching and intimacy. If it gets sexy that's ok too, but the idea is to not get too excited. For men especially, avoid orgasm during rebooting. Many men continue to avoid orgasm, perhaps because it becomes easy to have lots of amazing intercourse!

Awesome thank you!

[Totte]

Report Day 30
Day 8 PMO free
I think I’m in flatline, it’s a little scary it’s like dead down there!
Nothing happening even wen I see my favourite actor having a kissing scene (I always get response of her). Is this good?


Day 11 eating healthy
(and on day 7 lost 1,5 kilos.) (3,3 lbs)

Tom

[Totte]

Report Day 31
Day 9 PMO free

Day 12 eating healthy
(and on day 7 lost 1,5 kilos.) (3,3 lbs)

Tom

[Totte]

My mind is playing tricks with me!
My labido is dead, but I’m feeling strong needs to watch porn.
So I can do PMO!
 I see a lady and I see a beautiful smile, eyes or whatever there beauty is.
It’s not really a problem but at home alone or with family my mind playing tricks.
I start to get an idea of that I need to do Something.

Struggling
Tom

[Turtle]

  Sent you an email. Sorry I didn't get it out when you were online. Don't give in to the addict voices in your head. Counter those thoughts with thoughts from your true self, who you want to be, and who you really are!
  The email I sent does not appear in my sent mail. I hope it isn't lost, it was a god one. The link I included I'll repeat here.

https://www.reuniting.info/science/ecstatic_exchanges_and_neurochemistry

[Totte]

  Sent you an email. Sorry I didn't get it out when you were online. Don't give in to the addict voices in your head. Counter those thoughts with thoughts from your true self, who you want to be, and who you really are!
  The email I sent does not appear in my sent mail. I hope it isn't lost, it was a god one. The link I included I'll repeat here.

https://www.reuniting.info/science/ecstatic_exchanges_and_neurochemistry

Awesome thank you!
Good information.

Tom

[Totte]

Report Day 32
Day 10 PMO free

Day 13 eating healthy well was out eating with family.
Not that good really I think to much wine and food hope I don’t get to bad results when I’m on the scale tomorrow.

(and on day 7 lost 1,5 kilos.) (3,3 lbs)

Tom

[Totte]

My mind is playing tricks with me!
My labido is dead, but I’m feeling strong needs to watch porn.
So I can do PMO!
 I see a lady and I see a beautiful smile, eyes or whatever there beauty is.
It’s not really a problem but at home alone or with family my mind playing tricks.
I start to get an idea of that I need to do Something.

Struggling
Tom

Was watching a series on HBO and there Was a scene not that extremely hot but I feel some labido.
Is this good?

[Totte]

Report Day 33
Day 11 PMO free

Day 14 eating healthy
(and on day 7 lost 1,5 kilos.) (3,3 lbs)

I get some spam mail from s.. site and wanted to se if I cud unsubscribe.
Just going in and scrolling down to the bottom it “triggered” me!
Well I did not do any PMO or PM or MO or M.
Do I need to disconnect totally to get free?

Tom

[Turtle]

  What I do is disconnect from the trigger, and reaffirm that I'm done with it forever!

[Totte]

  What I do is disconnect from the trigger, and reaffirm that I'm done with it forever!

Was my plan to delete the trigger mail and se that I don’t get them!
But going in to the mail and scroll down to klick on unsubscribe.
The pictures triggered me!
I usually delete the mail, but got tired of delete them!

Tom

[Totte]

  What I do is disconnect from the trigger, and reaffirm that I'm done with it forever!

I keep on deleting the spam mail and not go in to them!.
If that don’t work il put my phone away and not check my mail.

Tom

[Totte]

Report Day 33
Day 11 PMO free

Day 14 eating healthy
and on day 7 lost 1,5 kilos. (3,3 lbs)
Now at day 14 I lost 1,3 kilos (2,87 lbs)
Total 2,9 kilos (6,39 lbs)

Tom

[Totte]

Report Day 34
Day 12 PMO free
Closing in on two weeks.
14 to 20 days is a turnaround point as I understand, then I can start relaxing more!
I think it’s been not that hard time, only really hard thing was trying to get away from s.. spam.
I get morning wood , if it’s from body testing signals as body always do (that’s good if so).
Or am I dreaming hot dreams don’t now yet.

Day 15 eating healthy
and on day 14 Total 2,9 kilos (6,39 lbs)

Tom

[Turtle]

  Good work, keep doing it!
  Watch out, sometimes negative impulses get worse before they get better.

[Totte]

  Good work, keep doing it!
  Watch out, sometimes negative impulses get worse before they get better.

Thanks
I agree woke up and I got a bad feeling, my brain is spinning.
Now pure willpower is needed!

Tom

[Totte]

Report Day 35
Day 13 PMO free

Day 16 eating healthy

I got a feeling I need to watch P!
I hope I can stop thinking of all stupid thoughts!
It’s like spinning one second I see a teen with two big.....
Next I see a ladyboy....
Next a old woman....
Next I see BDSM and so on....

And nothing is what I really want!
I want to cuddle, kissing and feeling my wife next to me.
But it’s spinning in my head

Tom

[Totte]

Report Day 36
Day 14 PMO free

Day 17 eating healthy
Well did slip and eat some is cream.
Made 2 of 3 gym pass week one
One gympas of tre so far this week.

Tom

[Totte]

Report Day 37
Day 15 PMO free

Day 18 eating healthy

Still get some fantasy over women I meet, and I don’t like that!
I’d like to just see them and that’s it! This is something new dident do that before my problem started. Can it be that my brain don’t get what it wants from my life?
And desperately seeking other different woman to get the rush from?
 I’m wondering if I lost my ability to connect with my wife!
I have a good life, do I want to meet a 10-15 year younger women to start over with?
My brain say yes but my mind and my heart say no!
So many things going on in my head.....

Tom

[Totte]

Report Day 38
Day 16 PMO free

Day 19 eating healthy

One thing I did together with wife was cuddle together nothing fancy just tender cuddle with some kisses. It was like a pree start of karezza step 1. It felt good.

But naturally I got a mail that I saw a hot woman, and why did I not trove the mail away?
Reading started innocently but it ended at she was in to BDSM and two pictures followed.
Naturally I started fantasy about that no PMO.
Now I will start meditation to clear my mind away and reconnect with that good feeling I had with wife last night. What was awesome about that cuddle, so good feeling of closeness and I got wood from that feeling it was so nice to feel connected and feeling her warmth.

Tom

[Karzam]

The cuddle sounds nice - I'm jealous!

Karzam

[Totte]

Report Day 39
Day 17 PMO free

Day 20 eating healthy, we had friends over for dinner and I drank some wine and eat and drank to much. But I will go to the gym to day.

Tom

[Totte]

The cuddle sounds nice - I'm jealous!

Karzam

It was a start, and it was awesome to feel closer!

Tom