Author Topic: IDK if I'm fully healed but I got some action  (Read 1538 times)

Jack Can

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IDK if I'm fully healed but I got some action
« on: March 17, 2018, 04:54:51 PM »
I posted this a month ago in my journal and then just realized that it would be considered a success story.

Day (Something. i don't really know, I haven't PMO'ed in like 7 months but MO'ed like a week ago)

I had actual sex last night, woohoo! Everything worked just the way it should, I got an erection without jerking it at all. I Just pulled down my pants and was good to go. I moved through several positions and maintained my erection the whole time.

But now for the important part... What was different this time vs. the last time I tried but failed to get fully hard? I think it was a combination of not being as nervous (I've been with this girl before and have failed to have sex with her and she didn't judge me so I knew she wouldn't if I failed again) and not watching over sexualized pornographic material that puts me into my head whenever anything slightly sexual happens to me.

Maybe this was another reason: I used to think that I had to oversexualize my thoughts and "pump" myself up to be hard for sex. The other day when I had sex though I just let myself go with the flow and move things along with the girl at a not sped up pace.

I wasn't thinking about this journal or that PIED even existed, I just carried on with what I thought was right and my Johnson did too.


So for the future: I'm done with porn. That was a part of my life in the past and I "enjoyed" it before I found out that it was hurting me. I won't continue doing something if I know that it is hurting me and it offers no upside. I drink alcohol, it hurts me, but the upside is that I have a fun time socializing with others while doing so (I should quit that too, but one battle at a time haha).

With regards to this journal, I really enjoy writing. It helps me process my emotions and things that have been going on throughout my day as well as keep a record of what I actually do. It's hard to sit on my butt and play video games all day if I know I'm going to be writing about it later. I'm probably going to keep my future journaling to pen and paper though, it just seems better suited to my goals. Thanks for everything people of RebootNation :)
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Re: IDK if I'm fully healed but I got some action
« Reply #1 on: March 18, 2018, 07:37:01 PM »
Did you avoid masterbation as well?

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Re: IDK if I'm fully healed but I got some action
« Reply #2 on: March 19, 2018, 06:49:19 AM »
Congrats man. Well done. Keep up the hard work. Your story brings confidence in mine that I will also be okay.

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