Need some advice!1

I'll give a little backround to start.  Im 22 years old and have been watching porn since I was about 13 but didnt get heavily into it until I was 18.  In my younger days I was always busy with school and sports so I probably watched porn about once a week maybe even less.  But when I graduated and went to college that was the first time in my life I had all this free time plus a brand new laptop then I really started watching heavily.  I started to notice that I wasnt waking up with morning erections anymore and this was the first red flag.  Then I went to visit one of my fiends at his college and this is when I officially realised I has a problem.  He hooked me up with one of his friends and within minutes I had her undresses but I wasnt getting hard and this was extremely weird to me considering about a year ago locking eyes with a girl would pretty much get me hard.  So I blamed it on the alcohole and told her she just had to go down on me and everything would be fine.  While she was blowing me I would get semi hard but the moment she stopped I would go limp again.  Another red flag was while she was blowing me I was the least bit interested like I couldnt even care less it didnt seem that good to me. Here I am with a hit girl blowing me and I just like "ehh"  This night ended with us not having sex and leaving me exremely frustrated.  I got home and hit the internet and realized that PIED is defintely something that has effected me and realised i had to stop watching.  The only problem was I couldnt stop this vicious cycle of porn use and failed sex attempts is something I cointinued with up until January 2nd of this year where I finally commited.  Im 47 days in and have to say I have noticed some differences.  My morning wood is back semi regularly and my anxiety and depression has dropped drastically Im a lot more outgoing and social lately.
****But the main reason I'm here is because I need advice**
A couple weeks ago I met this banging girl at a bar shes supposed to come over tomorre night to watch a movie and hangout. My family will be home so i doubt we will be having sex but it is a possiblity.  How should I go about this? Is there a possibility after 47 days I might be able to have sex? All these failed sex attempts over the past few years have defintely givien me some anxiety about the whole situation as well.  I need advice and tips, please help

Also I'll let you know a little about my 47 day journey so far and can hopefully help out some otheres.  I actually went 3 months clean back in 2017 and was feeling great, really wasnt tempted to relapse at all but there was one moment of weakness that I let my guard down and boom, not only did I relpase once but I did it the next day, and the next day and the next day until I was right back to my old horrible habbits.  That what is so scary you can literally be feeling confident for 3 months then one minute of weakness can ruin everything.  I've noticed that I am most tempted to watch porn when I am extremely stresses out which is dangerous because being a college student most of my stress comes from doing school work and most of my school work is done on my computer...... making it very tempting to watch porn.  I have taken measeres though, I now do my homeowork in public places or at home with the door open so I wont be tempted to watch(Ive never watched in public) and ive actually blocked all inaporotiate content on my phone in the settings app.  Ive cut off my accesibility and I have noticed in the past that this works.  I just get scared because while I'm sitting here now feeling great and not even considering watching porn I know from experience how you can have one moment of weakness and completely snow ball out of control again.

Ive in the same situation as you. If this is your first time with this particular girl. Just stick to making out and petting. Tell her you want to see her a couple more times to get comfortable with her. The more comfortable you are with her the high the chance you'll get an erections that's usable.

mark098i said:

Ive in the same situation as you. If this is your first time with this particular girl. Just stick to making out and petting. Tell her you want to see her a couple more times to get comfortable with her. The more comfortable you are with her the high the chance you'll get an erections that's usable.

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Appreciate the reply my man.  Thats defintely my plan to just stick to making out and try to relax but in the event that it does get more serious I just hope I can perform.  I really think perfromance anxiety from my past failures is playing a large role in this screwed us situation as well.

Well in on your progress! Imagine it is tough as you don't know whether you well be able to perform or not....but at least you are noticing all these benefits! Maybe just give it a shot...if it does not work out so what?

Chill out, you made some serious progress. You do not have to decide right now if you are going to have sex that night or not. If it happens, it happens. If not, not. If she is into you, everything will be fine either way.

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I appreciate all the responses she actually couldnt hangout tonight and I think that might of been for the best, now I can reflect on some of your advice and take it into consideration for when we hangout this weekend.  I'm going to start using this form as a journal for my reboot.  I actually have my own personal journal in my room that i write in but I think that by posting it publically it will help me keep motivated and hopefully I can help motivate others, I know how much this sucks and I'll try to post some bullshit free updates every time I hit a milestone.

2 hours away from the 50 day mark and just want to reflect a little.  This actually isnt my longest streak I actually went 3 months back in 2017 but relapsed and started heavily again.  So January 2nd of 2018 I started fresh again I have to say I definitely feel better this time around.  Around day 30 I started to feel really good I was having zero anxiety, no depression and I just felt really good about myself and confident, better than Ive felt in years.  This lasted for about a week or so before it faded but when it did fade I wasnt feeling depressed or anxious I just felt regular, so this was defintely a good thing.  I have actually had zero interest in watching porn and if it even crosss my mind I shut those thoughts down immediately.  My morning wood has been on and off but when it is there its rock hard.  Ive also in the last 7 days started going no fap as well I'm hoping this will add some additional benefits.  This is the first time in all my reeboot attempts I am feeling really good not going back, writing on these forms definteley helps and Ive watched just about every video on youtube about reebotting to help keep me motivated.  i really think educating yourself on the situation is crucial for success.  All though 50 days is a milestone for me and I have made some progress I still have a ways to go and I'm looking foward to the challenge.  Also one last thing, I have a question for you other reebooters, have any of you started having weird flashbacks to random things in your childhood or your life at all? And I dont mean any bad memories but I have noticed that at times I'll just start randomly thinking about things from when I was younger and I'm just like where is this coming from hahah how do I even remember this.  I know this random but I was just wondering if anyone else has also experienced this.  Anyways 50 days!! looking foward to many more, feel free to hit me with any questions.

Just got back from hanging out with a girl, and I think it was a step in the right direction.  We didnt go any further than making out(because her parents were home) and I think I'm seeing the best results I have had in a while.  I was no more than 60-75% hard but thats better than nothing.  The inly thing that bothered me was that I was crazy horny and I wasnt getting fully hard, this scared me a little because if she wanted to go all the way idk if i would have been able to.  Anyone have any advice, should I posibly take a viagra or a xanax(to calm the anxiety) I really dont want to screw this up.