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joepanic

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Re: quit for good
« Reply #175 on: February 05, 2019, 06:33:36 PM »
and here we are at day 65  not much to report other than no pmo no mo no o  had a romp in the sack Sat night with the wife   was ok    from time to time i dont think she is into it  but does it for my sake   most times she is way more into it  but at the moment i think she is a bit tired   I just wished she would say something  I've always been pretty clear  that if she is not up to it  its fine with me  Sheesh the things women do sometimes makes me scratch my head.  None the less I am more than happy with my progress  and will keep moving ahead with confidence

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Re: quit for good
« Reply #176 on: February 06, 2019, 07:51:57 AM »
Day 66  all good and clear   might pop on later to post more

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Re: quit for good
« Reply #177 on: February 06, 2019, 11:22:09 AM »
Great progress. Stay focused, my friend. You're an inspiration.

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Re: quit for good
« Reply #178 on: February 07, 2019, 08:46:23 AM »
Day 67 current reboot     All is good still   Thanks for reading  W.I.P    Not much to report on   not feeling any urges   and have not came across any triggers   So busy these days I suppose I havent had the opportunity  anyway   I keep saying I will be back later in the day but with this weeks workload I'm not sure that will happen 

     Anyway  good luck to all

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Re: quit for good
« Reply #179 on: February 08, 2019, 09:36:48 AM »
Day 68  Going through some a little bit of stress this week due to a major project and barely enough time to  finish which could cost our business some money    Last night  found myself drifting towards old chat habits  made it to the room and began to chat  all the while keeping this sight open along side   chat of course turned to sexting  but I refused to go the down that road again    The whole time I was thinking I just should not be here   and left   Big thing for me is this type of behaviour always led to  pic trading  sexting till O even cross dressing for role plays  exc    none of that .  I did wake up this morning with morning wood   but that is not unusual  I wake up that way almost every morning (might have something to do with sleeping next to my wife   I have a super busy day today  so I'm going to try to break it up a bit with a treat out for lunch  to reward myself for the hard work on this project  and hope that lowers the stress a little so I dont go back into that old ditch

            In the meantime I havent posted much on other improved aspects of my life  but anyway  I am still eating very healthy and getting good exercise   I am much more focused about 90% of the time  when before I bet it was maybe 30% of the time   I am still down 17 lbs  but not losing anymore as this project is taking alot of my time so not in the gym as often as I need to be to lose more weight(looking to lose another 25 lbs or so  but hopefully in 2 weeks I should be back to normal scheduling

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Re: quit for good
« Reply #180 on: February 08, 2019, 10:48:11 AM »
That's right, man. We need to keep going despise periods of stress, discomfort, sickness etc.

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« Reply #181 on: February 09, 2019, 04:55:23 PM »
Day 68  Going through some a little bit of stress this week due to a major project and barely enough time to  finish which could cost our business some money    Last night  found myself drifting towards old chat habits  made it to the room and began to chat  all the while keeping this sight open along side   chat of course turned to sexting  but I refused to go the down that road again    The whole time I was thinking I just should not be here   and left   Big thing for me is this type of behaviour always led to  pic trading  sexting till O even cross dressing for role plays  exc    none of that .  I did wake up this morning with morning wood   but that is not unusual  I wake up that way almost every morning (might have something to do with sleeping next to my wife   I have a super busy day today  so I'm going to try to break it up a bit with a treat out for lunch  to reward myself for the hard work on this project  and hope that lowers the stress a little so I dont go back into that old ditch

            In the meantime I havent posted much on other improved aspects of my life  but anyway  I am still eating very healthy and getting good exercise   I am much more focused about 90% of the time  when before I bet it was maybe 30% of the time   I am still down 17 lbs  but not losing anymore as this project is taking alot of my time so not in the gym as often as I need to be to lose more weight(looking to lose another 25 lbs or so  but hopefully in 2 weeks I should be back to normal scheduling

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Good job keeping it between the rails.  I've been there before, right next to the flames, so close you can feel the heat coming off.  Its kinda scary to realize how close you can come to throwing away so much success, this porn stuff is no joke.  Stress is/was always my weakness too, I'd be all tense and just want a little relief but like potato chips, you can't eat just one.  Bravo for stepping back from the edge, I don't recommend allowing yourself that much leeway in future, I'd hate to see you crash, Joe.  Stay strong, avoid your triggers and keep digging.
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Re: quit for good
« Reply #182 on: February 10, 2019, 12:51:22 PM »
Yes, well done for stepping back from the edge Joepanic. I speak as one who sometimes launches himself headlong over it without pause for thought. As Prodigal Son says, best to keep away.

Stay strong!

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« Reply #183 on: February 10, 2019, 01:00:45 PM »
Yes, well done for stepping back from the edge Joepanic. I speak as one who sometimes launches himself headlong over it without pause for thought. As Prodigal Son says, best to keep away.

Stay strong!
Yeah, I was the guy who jumped into edging without thinking, acting on impulse, only realizing I was watching porn and jerking off after a few minutes. I stopped and scolded myself: "Didn't you say you was gonna quit? Now what the fuck are you doing?" But, with practice, now I'm able to see it coming. I no more start edging on autopilot, I can actually stop and think about it.

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Re: quit for good
« Reply #184 on: February 10, 2019, 10:10:27 PM »
  Day 70    Hey guys  thanks for the support   havent been on in  a few days  but thats mainly due to a huge workload but the project is going well  which seems to help   last week while I got close to crashing  I must say I did not beat the meat edging myself  or anything like that  which I am grateful for   again I have a busy week ahead which should help keep me on the straight and narrow

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Re: quit for good
« Reply #185 on: February 13, 2019, 08:17:22 AM »
Day 73  no pmo no mo no o  weather sucks  too much work to do   no time to pop in here as often as i was

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« Reply #186 on: February 17, 2019, 01:12:32 PM »
Less than 2 weeks to go, closing in on the finish and beginning of the rest of your life. ;)
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« Reply #187 on: February 18, 2019, 10:52:41 AM »
So I was typing out a long entry here sort of explaining whats been going on the last little while and the dam thing just disappeared   I have had this happen before and it has outright pissed me off anyone else had it happen  Dont know if its my computer or this site  but its most frustrating
   perhaps I'll try later  I'm just too mad now to type

   day 78  no pmo no mo  over 2 weeks since o with wife

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« Reply #188 on: February 18, 2019, 01:02:44 PM »
Happened to me a couple weeks ago.  Took me over an hour to write what was on my mind and it only got the beginning.   Aggravating.

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Re: quit for good
« Reply #189 on: February 19, 2019, 09:21:58 AM »
Day 79 of current reboot   still gonna find the time to post some more thoughts but for now way too busy with a work project  meantime  no pmo no mo  and only o with a romp with the wife last night

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Re: quit for good
« Reply #190 on: February 20, 2019, 08:48:02 AM »
Day 80 of no pmo no mo no p  exc   still not much to report  way too busy with work at the moment

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« Reply #191 on: February 20, 2019, 12:29:10 PM »
2nd posting for Just read another  Prodigal sons posting and it gave me a little something to write about and reflect on.    He had mentioned about having a small win fall in another area of his life that perked him up and  one of his 1st thoughts was  to go for a pmo  as in the past  victories  he achieved were quite often rewarded with a pmo session   I too experienced this in the past and I still experience this thought now  even 80 days into a reboot 

 The tendency  to reward ourselves in natural  the idea though needs to be to find some other form of reward  I have taken to  going out for a nice lunch   Although this goes against my new life a little  bit due to  having a greatly improved diet and being much more efficient with my money  We all need to sometimes pick what the mot important battle that needs to be fought  and in my case its elimination of pmo   I have always been told my dad  do whats right 90% of the time and the other 10 does not matter  so much  So by eating right and spending my money right 90% of the time  I have seen great improvements in both my health  and  finances   the indiscretion of a less than perfectly healthy meal  for a few bucks extra  allows me to say I'm not perfect but that's ok  because no one is   This is actually almost allowing me to  move back to a life i had before pmo   A life I did quite enjoy   reminds me of some good times of being in my early 20s and being carefree  while still becoming a better man father and husband today

     The other thought that has come through my mind recently was that at this point in time(80 days in)  I have thought   I could probably look at a bit of p and be fine   I wont call them urges  because I experienced no anxiety  or anything like that  just the thoght that after 80 days  I am strong enough to have a look   At the same time I have enough tools in my head to rework the thought to asking questions  of myself 

1.   Haven't I been here before?                      answer  Yes   small conclusion.... it led right back to pmo
2    Dont't  I want to be stronger than that ?    answer  Yes   small conclusion....for a great many reasons  not just eliminate pmo
3    Am I being honoust with myself  than  ?     answer  No    small conclusion...I would have to start a counter mall over again
4     What about the whole re-wiring process?    answer      I just am not rewired yet if I still have an interest in this stuff

    To me the re wiring is not only about  the  link between  my brain and the possible effect it could  have no my pecker but the fact that I really dont need this kind of stimulation anymore   If my wife and I chose to experiment and put some spice into our lovemaking thats one thing  but  the hours and hours spent looking at this stuff on a screen can never compare to the 1 hour every once in a while  where we might try something different

         so as always

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Re: quit for good
« Reply #192 on: February 21, 2019, 07:39:40 AM »
Day 81   not much to report  other than no pmo no mo no p   only o with wife   busy day again today  will try to pop in later


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« Reply #193 on: February 21, 2019, 03:45:24 PM »
Looks like you’re doing well joepanic: 81 Days is impressive.

 Your previous post is interesting. Being able to stop and ask yourself those questions when triggered is a good tool. I’m still working on trying to put mechanisms in place to slow myself down when I get an urge. The urges don’t come that often, even weeks apart, so sometimes I’m unprepared and have “forgotten” that I’m in this fight and have slipped before I can respond more thoughtfully. I guess this is just the opposite problem to those who have a higher libido and are fighting urges all the time which  can wear them down.

I’ve also experienced the feeling of wanting to reward myself but also the opposite, to console myself if I’m stressed or unhappy. And sometimes, just if I’m bored or alone or for no apparent reason other than part of my brain tells me I have to.

Any way thanks for your posts-always a good read.

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« Reply #194 on: February 21, 2019, 05:20:15 PM »
Just in the midst of a discussion over in the Free Feb Challenge Thread    where someone not involved in it  is somewhat upset that people count the days of there progress.  He seems to feel that those of us who count days  are only using will power to fight our addiction   For me this could be nothing further from the truth.  I read many journals to learn from other guys.  I have watched many videos and  read many articles.   I have wrote down  ideas and information to follow   try a bit of this and a bit of that  had 2 failures in the last year  since deciding that p was holding me back from a fulfilling life  and on this 3rd serious attempt  I have used what I learned from my failures  and improved upon my process.   His posting simply stated that it is proven that willpower alone  will not allow one to  beat the addiction and that  counting days  is equated  to using willpower alone   In the end he seems to be plugging a book  and that the book is the be all and end all to beating this addiction     I can only assume that he has not read my journal to see that I use more than willpower to  fight this addiction  and that counting the days is only part of it  Its a shame that he is "SICK AND TIRED" of seeing some of us guys do it   In the end other than encouraging us to read a book he recommends  he has offered no other  insight into skills tactics and processes to beat the addiction

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