Victory. From PIED Virgin to Successful Sex (Age 22).

[Victory]

Reboot Success Story – Victory. From PIED Virgin to Successful Sex (Age 22).

Introduction

I beat SEVERE PIED I beat SEVERE Pornography Addiction. I beat pornography addiction, porn and masturbation PMO addiction. After YEARS of struggle.  After YEARS of pain and suffering I put myself through and what porn did to me. I will NEVER forget and now the path I am on. My life has changed forever. I have had different accounts on forums over the years.

In 2013! When I discovered this whole problem, I had the forum user “McQueen” on YBR and on Reboot Nation in 2015. I then deleted my YBR account, changed my forum user title on Reboot Nation and had the user “DrugFree” on Reboot Nation, which I then deleted in early 2017.  It took me literally 4 years of pain and effort to get to where I am now. It was not easy. It is the most difficult task I have ever had to do, and I think it is for all rebooters but it IS WORTH IT. It is a lifelong battle guys. Against your own brain (limbic system / midbrain). Against society that is consumed by porn nowadays (random marketing porn material in shop highstreets and shopping centres, internet porn, TV porn, social media porn, magazines in most shops porn, mobile phone porn, etc…).

I have felt true suffering and pain. We all have. Let’s not have a pity party. Let’s take responsibility for our own actions which caused that pain and suffering and avoid those actions and behaviours to not experience that pain EVER again. Believe me I have been there at that pity party and for those of you that remember previous posts of mine you likely remember that to.

This is not a sad story however, as I am dating a beautiful kind girl and recently successfully had sex and O, actual real sex with a real woman! I lost my virginity after everything I have been through and put myself through. I won! I won! I won! Victory! Thank you all, thank you God. Thank you to MYSELF! Because I DID IT, I took responsibility of my own behaviour and accepted that I have been and always was and will be in control of what my behaviour is. Nobody can force me to look or watch any stimulus, any porn, or masturbation. Gabriel Deem, hope you read this sometime brah! Gary Wilson! Reborn Again! Charlie Fugu! OU812! Noah B.E. Church. MrForty1niner. Precise! William! I know I am missing many many more. Thank you all. The list of endless true successful rebooters from PIED & Porn addiction. After losing my V card my libido and erection (E) continues to slowly improve. Within a short time frame I have had success several Os from sex, E at 10/10.

I am not sure the best way to arrange this post, I will write some key points of before and after in a short version, then I will write a detailed account. Of course I could write 10,000 words essay from age 10 to age 22 but I just want to get the main points out there. I will not write any triggering words or erotic literature (pornography) obviously, and that is something to keep in mind when reading any text or any reboot account! Anyway onto the main points:

Key Points:

•   I have lost my virginity and was able to do so (sex) with an 8 / 9 out of 10  Erection (E). E was 100% at certain times! Was able to O. Using “protection” etc. Will continue to heal and improve. This is 2 years later after a previous 0% E limp noodle bedroom experience at 20 years old, I am 22 now. PIED Gone.

•   I have a refractory period with full E in 15-30minutes (was not counting exactly), for sex. Will continue to heal and improve.

•   Having had no morning wood in years, getting improving MW 50-80% several days a week. Will continue to heal and improve.

•   Feel a lot more confident socially and in social situations in general.

•   PMO (all artificial sexual stimuli + masturbation free) for a couple months now. Why one would choose pixels on a screen or a piece of paper over a real women… Why did we guys? Pleasure, only pleasure. A possible negative self image as well.  But porn will never provide love and joy which leads to true satisfaction it will lead to you being an empty husk of an individual with a dysfunctional brain and ED. As Gabriel Deem writes “porn will rob you of your pleasure not lead you to it”.


From a Mental Death Bed to Now:
Gone from literally suicidal. Literally it could not get worse. A mental death bed. Looking at cars and thinking “what would it be like to die right now, jumping in front of that vehicle – and not doing it only because I knew deep down I could beat this, I only had to abstain”. Feeling hopeless because I felt caged by my addition. Feeling helpless because I felt like I could not stop. Crying myself to sleep sometimes over it. Sad and pathetic – but that is where I have been. Now look where I am.

I have been to several therapists to talk about my “problems”. It never helped – I always went back to PMO and Porn. I went to doctors, had blood tests, said I was addicted to porn and had problems etc. I would abstain and then go back to that poison PMO that is death to me now. That is where I have been. Now look where I am though.

I continuously “had a relapse” for 4 years straight to get to where I am not of secure abstinence from porn AND masturbation.

Physical Brain Changes Take Time To Heal

As written previously I do not feel fully recovered at all. A couple months does not make up for years, a decade of daily harm, damage and changes. Additionally, I had some brief abstinence periods or weeks / months followed by binging before my successful reboot.
I will need many years to feel fully healed, this is a lifelong process of the reboot (complete abstinence from all artificial sexually exciting / inducing sexual fantasy material. I.E Pixels and Paper etc that is sexually arousing, not a real person.

I still have some memory problems, brain fog and concentration problems.

Minor Social Anxiety, pretty much all gone though.


How I Did It

To recover slowly but surely from PIED and Pornography Caused Sexual Dysfunctions, I quit my addiction to pornography, to looking at pornography, permanently. I also quit and believe with PIED one must quit masturbation, completely.

I quit the addiction via learning about the brain, how it works on many different levels, neurobiology, structurally, logically, etc. I have a lot more to learn, and using the recovery method of Rational Recovery (Trademarked). Rational Recovery & Addictive Voice Recognition Technique are owned and trademarked by Jack Trimpey and Rational Recovery Systems. I do not to intend on any copyright breaches, all rights are reserved to Jack Trimpey for Rational Recovery and AVRT. I used this method and it makes 100% logical sense, swapping alcohol addiction / drug addiction for pornography addiction. I encourage others to read the books on this and look into this method of addiction recovery. It works.

I accept that I am in complete control of my behaviour, I control my own muscles, my neck muscles to look around, my eyelids to open and my eyeballs to move around. Therefore, I never looked at porn without deciding beforehand to look at porn, and since I did not and DO NOT WANT to live with ED, never having sex or having a lovely wife and children I used that to motivate me to quit porn deciding never to look at porn intentionally again or masturbate. Therefore recovering.

I still bump into porn and get accidentally exposed to artificial sexual stimuli, on a daily basis. If there is not a day I do not get exposed to porn,that is rare, perhaps it is almost a daily basis / several times a week. It is a daily basis regarding to porn being “there”. I.E on the internet or on a poster / artwork on the wall. I decided as noted to never look at it again and when I accidentally see it I avert my eyes and look away within 1 second. I will then either leave the area, throw away the magazines or paper, click off the screen or look away and at something else. You could say and I have read, that as an addict I CHOOSE to become unaddicted by quitting the addiction and ignoring the lying voice of my addiction inside my own brain, the reward circuit / mid brain / limbic system.

I continue to work on self control, discipline and living a healthy unplugged lifestyle. This will require continuous vigilance and development.

Conclusion

I have graduated University, have hobbies that interest me and are working on my passions. I am physically active in my passion. I have a full time job, my own apartment, a beautiful lovely girlfriend, friends and hope for the future. I hope this information and sharing my story helps rebooters and everyone.

“Discipline = Freedom. Pursue discipline and you will find freedom. Pursue your desires and you will become a slave to them”.

“Never, Never, Never Give Up”.

“When your going through HELL, keep going”.

“If you wait nothing will happen, you have to MAKE it happen.”

Some readers may have questions. Please post them below and I will respond to the sensible replies over the next few weeks then I will leave the forum. I may provide another long-term update after some more years at that later stage or I may never return!

[jcoop]

Congratulations man. Seriously. This motivates me a lot. I'm 19 and seeing how it took you 4 years to keep consistent PMO abstinence, makes me not wanna wait anymore time. I went 2 weeks last month and gave in due to a flatline, I had to make sure I could still get hard. I've learnt from that now and I'm currently 16 days in. Respect man.

[Eran91]

Thank you for writing your story! Very inspiring. Good to hear that after all you've been through you still managed to beat the memories of your past struggles and achieve success!

[sleepking69]

Congrats on your success! This was encouraging, my story sounds a bit similar to yours.

Can you speak a little bit about how long your streaks lasted, any relapses, etc etc?

[Philip]

This is very encouraging bro, thank you so much. Much love from Nice, French Riviera

[Victory]

Update:

Over 1 Year No Porn / No Masturbation / No PMO.

Reboot Status: Healed.

The advice in my original post still stands. I hope this update shows as many others have also shown that the reboot and recovery from severe PIED & Porn Addition is possible.

As noted in my original post, I wrote I would provide another long-term update after some more years at that later stage or I may never return! I am providing an update now at this mark, then I will update after several more years.

I will check this thread for one week, the first week of this year then leave the website as I have recovered. I am here to answer questions anybody has on how to recover if there is confusion or anything else rebooters are struggling with. My only condition is do not write any poisonous words, artificial sexual stimulation literature or anything like that. Otherwise I am here to help for 1 week.

[Douplefapastronaut]

what can you say about wet dreams? the number of wet dreams? does the time to heal have a relationship with wet dreams?
I have morning wood every day at 80% but for a short time, and I still have wet dreams every 3 days

[21zo]

Great read man, today mark one year free of P for myself.  Although I have successfully managed to stay away from P I still M quite frequently.  I feel that I need to cut out M completely this year to take the next giant leap.  Do you have any advice?
 

[XFL91]

Update:

Over 1 Year No Porn / No Masturbation / No PMO.

Reboot Status: Healed.

The advice in my original post still stands. I hope this update shows as many others have also shown that the reboot and recovery from severe PIED & Porn Addition is possible.

As noted in my original post, I wrote I would provide another long-term update after some more years at that later stage or I may never return! I am providing an update now at this mark, then I will update after several more years.

I will check this thread for one week, the first week of this year then leave the website as I have recovered. I am here to answer questions anybody has on how to recover if there is confusion or anything else rebooters are struggling with. My only condition is do not write any poisonous words, artificial sexual stimulation literature or anything like that. Otherwise I am here to help for 1 week.

How many orgasms have you had over the last year? And have they been through masturbation or with a partner?

[Victory]

what can you say about wet dreams? the number of wet dreams? does the time to heal have a relationship with wet dreams?

I dont think the time to heal has a relationship with wet dreams. The time to heal is based on your goals. If you have PIED and are unable to have sex then once you can have sex then that would be healed in this case. You heal through abstinence from artificial sexual stimulation / pornography.

You ask about Morning Wood. I actually do not get MW at this stage although perhaps that is due to waking up to an alarm and the REM stages of sleep. I also do not worry / care because I have healed to be able to have sex.

I encourage you to review the informative video on Gabe Deem's Youtube Channel titled:

Reboot FAQ - Wet Dreams, Porn Dreams, Morning Wood

Everything Gabe talks about in this video I have experienced.

Great read man, today marks one year free of P for myself.  Although I have successfully managed to stay away from P I still M.  I feel that I need to cut out M completely this year to take the next leap.  Do you have any advice?
 

If you have libido use that energy to pursue a loving partner. Once you are in a loving relationship you will not need M.

Moreover, M as in MO will always be linked to P / PMO for me. Depending on your goals, if you have PIED I will strongly advice to quit M altogether as I believe that to be necessary to recover from PIED. Have a busy schedule: Work / Exercise / Read / Train Martial Arts / Study / Get a Partner. Finally, I would add that sometimes in life there comes a point where you have to just trust yourself and take action, not rely on internet forums. Get off these forums for 1 year and focus on other things.
 

How many orgasms have you had over the last year?

I have had frequent orgasms with a partner, 0 through masturbation as I quit that in order to heal and get a partner.
I felt the orgasms had no negative effect on my recovery, if anything without them I do not think I would have healed. My Brain needed to rewire to a real woman.
I encourage all rebooters to quit MO completely in order to heal. Only O with a partner.

[XFL91]

How long have you been without morning wood for now?

I notice in your first post you said you got it back. How long were you without it originally before it came back?

Thanks for your help brother

[Do or die]

very very impressive and belongs to my story also. congratulations.

[Victory]

How long have you been without morning wood for now?

I notice in your first post you said you got it back. How long were you without it originally before it came back?

Thanks for your help brother

Regarding MW, Gabe Deem covers all you need to know in his video titled 'Reboot FAQ's'. In my case, my MW is random based on sleep cycles, how much sleep I have had and what stage of sleep I am in along with waking up to an alarm.

As my reboot continues, I imagine that it will continue to improve. My advice would be to not worry about MW but be focused on what this website was created for which is to recover from PIED. Personally, I am not concerned about MW, I am concerned about being functional for sex.

I was without MW for 6 years from ages 16-22.

[XFL91]

That's interesting news.

How long have you been without for now? Just curious seeing as you're very well recovered