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Peter

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Re: I am not going back
« Reply #25 on: May 07, 2017, 05:01:16 AM »
Day: 14

My balls hurt a bit,  but  nothing new been here before. I felt an urge to PMO yesterday,  however I controlled those emotions.

There's no maybe now it's do or don't.  I am not trying to beat my previous records,  but I want to go all  the way. I read a post on the success stories section and it gives encouragement. I know it's gonna be difficult "it's been done "

Anyways I hope y'all keeping strong.My goal now is by December I'll be able to write on the success stories section. Please advice on when should I get myself a girlfriend,  as the progression goes last time my brain just said "is this all, you'll still need to release ".

My problem now is inability to focus on something for a long time. Walk with me , it's gonna be interesting.

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Re: I am not going back
« Reply #26 on: May 10, 2017, 12:45:16 PM »
Day:17

"Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts."

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Re: I am not going back
« Reply #27 on: May 13, 2017, 10:24:19 AM »
Day:20

I'm going strong and mood swings are better.  My confidence is building up. I don't even have an excuse to PMO now.My mind tries from time to time to remind me and give me flashbacks. I have learnt a lot to be tricked by "just one more" or "watch p to see if you're still addicted ".

I'm taking one step at  a time to heal,  once in a while I read the success stories. I'm not getting any younger it's time to be free. So for next it will be easy for as I will in a one week course,  which I will be sharing a room with someone who'll be part of the course. A little change of environment is going to be good for me.

My fear now is meeting someone I like then the sex problem,  I  don't want to be seen as someone with a dead d.

let's keep going,  there's a better life without pmo.




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Re: I am not going back
« Reply #28 on: May 21, 2017, 03:02:28 AM »
Day: 28

The only problem this days is this weird feelings , as if I'm losing a part of me. There are urges to MO , I will not entertain them. I  use the X visualisation with that Windows error sound to calm myself and fight the urges.

There is a huge boost in confidence. Anyways I'm good and prepared with everything that will try to stop my progress. I'm not worried about no erections right now , I will when I have to be sexual active .

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Re: I am not going back
« Reply #29 on: May 28, 2017, 10:04:48 AM »
Day: 35

It's been a rough week,  getting random erections in public is not nice. I'm on a second month of my reboot and concentration is starting to get better. I don't even think about PMO now.

My problem is getting excited in my pants when seeing attractive girls. I was just checking in,  nothing new everything has been said.I will really evaluate on day 100. Stay strong, life is better without porn.


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Re: I am not going back
« Reply #30 on: May 28, 2017, 11:35:15 AM »
The pain of not having relationships last longer than one month is all too real, Brother. I will avoid sex at all costs and then the relationship just kind of eventually kills itself.

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Re: I am not going back
« Reply #31 on: June 04, 2017, 06:52:09 AM »
Day: 42

I had a wet dream on Friday and it kinda been giving me a problem. It didn't help when I saw some hot girl on my Facebook feed,  anyways I'm still holding on.

What I learned from that wet dream :

- I can choose whether to go back to zero and feel like shit or find a way to resist.

- I can actually have a conversation with myself on what to do next.

- The addict in me is a good negotiator .

- I must not entertain any thoughts of pmo.

I'm finally in stage where I feel  I don't have to be victim of my on thoughts.

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Re: I am not going back
« Reply #32 on: June 16, 2017, 01:28:06 AM »
Day : 54

The only problem i have now is wet dreams , either way I'm breaking this addiction. I have no flashbacks at all , although erections come from girls I like on the streets.

Never i am telling you ,never!  go surf the Internet for any woman, while having urges. The addict in you  just want to take over.

To keep myself busy I'm learning python, which I always wanted to know. I  might take a class if I like it.

I'm pretty sure it's the end for pmo now, even though I struggle some days. I'm not going
 back to zero now, this is not for a streak but for a lifetime