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Jake323

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #550 on: July 27, 2018, 12:23:50 PM »
7/27/18

Had a good day yesterday, I'm really nervous about today though, we are starting to do our new jobs at work and it is really scaring me honestly. Have been thinking about it all week haha.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #551 on: July 28, 2018, 10:37:19 AM »
7/28/18

Had a pretty tough day yesterday but pushed through it, I took a lot of criticism and dealt with things that I didn't know how to do, some days are tougher than others though...

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #552 on: July 29, 2018, 10:50:57 AM »
7/29/18

Had a decent day yesterday I guess, what does it even matter though, I still feel awful today and have basically gone in circles these past 2 and a half years. Doesn't really matter what I try to do.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #553 on: July 29, 2018, 10:32:32 PM »
Consider relaying on mental focus this time.
Use your brain.
Brain is powerful when used.
We often don’t use our brain and avoid using it.
Brain wants to relax, but don’t let it relax.
Like a muscle, more exercise, more stronger.
Hopefully these circles stuff will stop.
Best of luck.
Life is tough.
Learn to live instead of numbing yourself by use of porn.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #554 on: July 30, 2018, 12:24:38 PM »
Thanks a lot, I appreciate that!

7/30/18

Woke up today with a lot of anxiety. It's ok though because I just laugh at it because in the grand scheme of things it really is pretty silly.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #555 on: July 31, 2018, 03:16:14 PM »
7/31/18

Had an ok day yesterday, today started out pretty good but it's been rough the past couple of hours, hopefully it gets better though.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #556 on: August 01, 2018, 12:12:27 AM »
Keep it up.
Rough times never last forever.
Life is tough.
Learn to live instead of numbing yourself by use of porn.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #557 on: August 01, 2018, 02:52:30 PM »
Very true, I've been letting myself know to stay present during the tough times.

8/1/18

The rest of the day went alright yesterday, was able to accept the difficult feelings and emotions instead of running away from them.

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« Reply #558 on: August 02, 2018, 12:16:29 PM »
8/2/18

The rest of yesterday went ok, I'm still having some anxiety over today, but I'm going to go into it fully instead of resisting it.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #559 on: August 02, 2018, 05:01:16 PM »
Good approach towards anxiety.
Life is tough.
Learn to live instead of numbing yourself by use of porn.

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« Reply #560 on: August 03, 2018, 12:13:51 PM »
Yeah for sure, it's about the only thing I can do at this point.

8/3/18

Woke up today feeling pretty awful, anxiety, worry, lethargic, and upset. I'll make it into the best day I can though...

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #561 on: August 04, 2018, 04:30:03 PM »
8/4/18

Ended up having a pretty good rest of my day yesterday, I might need to change some things in my life right now but that's ok, whatever helps me succeed in the long run is the most important thing!

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« Reply #562 on: August 05, 2018, 10:54:10 AM »
8/5/18

Had a pretty good day yesterday, was able to get some perspective on things and stayed with some feelings I was having even though they were difficult at times.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #563 on: August 05, 2018, 10:49:33 PM »
There are pains of recovery
And then
Pains of life
Part of life.
Life is tough.
Learn to live instead of numbing yourself by use of porn.

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« Reply #564 on: August 06, 2018, 08:52:20 AM »
What is your status now? You can get through this man never doubt yourself.... I have been trying to recover since 2013... Farthest I went pre reboot nation was 29 days... I became a member of this community and started my official reboot last year in April of 2017... I went 10 weeks and 64 days to be exact without porn or masturbating... Relasped shortly after by making the mistake of going back on social media... I am just now starting my reboot again and have no other mindset but to succeed and defeat this addiction... You can do it bro... We can do this together... I have faith in you!!!!! Good Luck!!!!

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #565 on: August 06, 2018, 10:52:09 AM »
Thanks dude, I personally haven't PMO'd in like 7 months now. I'm really trying to focus on bettering my social life now, good luck to you as well.

8/6/18

Had a pretty good day yesterday, got a lot done and got some perspective on things. Going to do my best today to do what I need to!

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #566 on: August 06, 2018, 10:57:03 AM »
That is amazing that’s a lot of people’s dream... Keep it up

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #567 on: August 07, 2018, 10:27:28 AM »
Thanks man.

8/7/18

Had a solid day yesterday, had a nice conversation with a girl and did pretty well at work, gonna crush it today now!

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #568 on: August 07, 2018, 08:22:22 PM »
No pmo since 7 months, wow
Not in my dreams yet.
That is something precious
Respect it
I wish the same for me.
Life is tough.
Learn to live instead of numbing yourself by use of porn.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #569 on: August 08, 2018, 11:45:41 AM »
Haha thanks.

8/8/18

Had a pretty good day today, I have been doing what I need to lately even though it has been difficult. I tend to get the most amount of anxiety in the morning but it eventually comes down during the day.

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« Reply #570 on: August 09, 2018, 12:03:42 PM »
8/9/18

I'm not feeling too great today, I feel tired and don't really want to deal with anything. I just feel exhausted and listening to other people's problems just drains the life out of me. Really just want to drift off to sleep and chill haha.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #571 on: August 09, 2018, 08:41:34 PM »
I love sleeping too.
Best way to heal your body
Life is tough.
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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #572 on: August 10, 2018, 11:50:38 AM »
Yeah I enjoy sleeping a lot more lately since I don't wake up at 5 AM for work anymore haha.

8/10/18

Had a pretty good day yesterday, I have to move out of my place tomorrow, going to find a new place soon that's doable. Going to make today the best I can.

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« Reply #573 on: August 11, 2018, 08:44:47 PM »
8/11/18

Yesterday went pretty well, moved out of my place today, hopefully I can find a decent place to live that's affordable soon.

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« Reply #574 on: August 12, 2018, 01:08:53 PM »
8/12/18

Had a pretty tough day yesterday, my mind was coming up with a lot of stories about me and my life, it was tough to ignore, but I'm not giving up, I'm going to take the story less seriously and not take everything in life so seriously as well so I'm not so attached to outcomes or things that happen so I can take action and care less about what other people think as well as not giving a shit about pain or failure either because they are part of life and I need to embrace that instead of trying to avoid it and feel good all the time.