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andante

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    Rebooting one step at a time, the whole way!
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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #325 on: December 28, 2017, 04:54:55 AM »
Hey man! To be honest a lot of people struggle with Christmas, and I think it's just the pressure we put on ourselves with the idea that "it's the most wonderful time of the year", which is not always true and thus we feel down and disapointed etc. My brother always says "F*** Christmas" haha, but that's extreme.

About girls and expecting someone dominant etc. Maybe for now you just haven't found the right one, there are many woman out there who are more dominant; believe me! Take your time and meet the right ones :)



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« Reply #326 on: December 28, 2017, 12:05:48 PM »
Yeah I definitely know what you mean, it's tough. Staying out of my head definitely helps. I've been staying present throughout my day instead of just thinking and worrying and I'm able to feel less pressure and get more done.

12/28/17

I hung out with some other friends yesterday and actually had a good time which usually wouldn't have happened because I was so in my head. But it wasn't anything special, just chilling at my friend's new apartment and talking, but when I stayed out of my head and in the present moment, I felt as if my conversations were more genuine and thoughtful, and I wasn't bored where before I probably would have been extremely bored.

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« Reply #327 on: December 29, 2017, 10:40:26 AM »
12/29/17

Man it can be tough at times to ignore your mind, I did well staying in the moment yesterday, but I definitely got hooked in a few times by my mind.

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« Reply #328 on: December 30, 2017, 10:52:45 AM »
12/30/17

Was aware of the thoughts in my head yesterday as well as my emotions and just watched them instead of getting lost in them. I definitely noticed myself getting stick in my mind again and again though, it never shuts up lol.

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« Reply #329 on: December 31, 2017, 12:09:58 PM »
12/31/17

Noticed myself getting sucked into my thoughts again today, but was able to recognize it when it happens, it's becoming easier and easier now to recognize the thought patterns in my head and realize that it's just a story.

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« Reply #330 on: December 31, 2017, 12:20:16 PM »
Keep doing what you're doing man, I remember going through similar realizations as you. And I am a much stronger person because of it. The ability to not become controlled by your emotions or thoughts is one of the most valuable things I've learned.

Lmk if you need anything!

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« Reply #331 on: January 01, 2018, 12:14:23 PM »
Thanks brother! It is definitely empowering to know that what's going on in your head isn't reality!

1/1/18

Didn't really experience too much stress or anxiety today, so glad I get new years day off as well, need to get ready for these next two weeks with school starting back up as well as work tomorrow.


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« Reply #332 on: January 02, 2018, 10:40:01 AM »
1/2/18

Stayed out of my head and stayed present, focused on being instead of thinking about all the things I needed to do, and ironically, I got more done than usual for a day off.

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« Reply #333 on: January 03, 2018, 10:39:20 AM »
1/3/18

Yesterday was pretty chill, today has been alright so far, just another ordinary day.

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« Reply #334 on: January 04, 2018, 01:29:33 PM »
1/4/18

It's pretty amazing how much our minds want drama and negativity instead of peace and stillness. I notice myself getting lost in thoughts every few moments and keep bringing it back to here and now, and then it gets lost again, crazy how much our society is dominated by past and future.

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« Reply #335 on: January 05, 2018, 10:40:06 AM »
1/5/18

Yesterday was kind of confusing/tough, my mind just never wants to stop imagining worst-case scenarios or the extreme sides of things. Oh well, I guess that just happens sometimes.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #336 on: January 05, 2018, 11:55:38 AM »
Jake323,

I feel your pain. It's a difficult obstacle to overcome. I re-introduced meditation and that seems to help. Find a way to re-direct those thoughts. Allow your self to feel the negativity then let it go. A vicious cycle, but due time you will see results and a happier you. Here's to working together on this.

Best of luck my friend,

ImOnMyWay

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« Reply #337 on: January 07, 2018, 12:11:12 PM »
Definitely my friend! Our minds are naturally very negative and societal conditioning definitely girls the drama or story we tell ourselves in our heads.

1/6/18

Yesterday wasn't that good of a day, I was stuck in my head a lot.

1/7/18

Ughh trying to meet people with severe anxiety is tough, my mind keeps telling me the same story over and over again and it's really hard to ignore and just take action.

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« Reply #338 on: January 08, 2018, 10:37:49 AM »
1/8/18

Boy oh boy my mind is constantly complaining about everything, whether it be the situation I'm in, the temperature outside, or whatever else, it's always so negative and drains your energy.

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« Reply #339 on: January 09, 2018, 10:40:10 AM »
1/9/18

It's interesting to stop everyday for a moment and just actually notice what's going on, you get a whole different view on it when you're noticing all the details and things happening in the background.

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« Reply #340 on: January 09, 2018, 02:10:48 PM »
I love doing that! Especially when people are in a rush, I like to just take a step back for a little bit and ask myself "what is happening right now and is it really THAT important?"

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« Reply #341 on: January 10, 2018, 10:43:04 AM »
Exactly! There is nowhere else to be but right here.

1/10/18

It's getting easier and easier by the day to notice that the fear inside me shouldn't be taken all that seriously and neither should life really. I think the less serious you take it (in a good way), the more simple and light it becomes.

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« Reply #342 on: January 11, 2018, 10:36:19 AM »
1/11/18

Yesterday was a not tougher than normal, I was really busy and my mind was busy as well, my mind was also busy because I usually like to keep the area where I live clean and organized, but my roommate doesn't really clean up after his messes like I do, and the kitchen wasn't really clean in my opinion.
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« Reply #343 on: January 12, 2018, 10:38:27 AM »
1/12/18

I was pretty busy yesterday and my mind was busy, but it was different than normal because I recognized that it was just mental pictures inside my head and sensations in my body instead of reality, it wasn't happening in front of me, just inside me.
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« Reply #344 on: January 13, 2018, 12:41:20 PM »
1/13/18

Yesterday went pretty well, was able to do the things I wanted to without getting too overwhelmed, which is good.

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« Reply #345 on: January 14, 2018, 12:51:23 PM »
1/14/18

I stayed patient and present yesterday even though it was tough at times, I'm getting better at realizing that all this material and scenarios in my head aren't me and neither is how much money I have, how much I've achieved, or all of the materialistic stuff, that stuff can be enjoyed while it lasts and appreciated, but not making my looks, achievements, relationships I may or may not have into an identity of who I am.

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« Reply #346 on: January 15, 2018, 07:49:17 AM »
1/15/18

Yesterday I was caught up in my head at times, but was able to bring myself back to the here and now when I did.

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« Reply #347 on: January 16, 2018, 10:37:33 AM »
1/16/18

Yesterday I was in my head a lot, my mind is always wanting to judge myself that I'm never doing well enough and that I'm an incompetent failure, it can be tough.

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« Reply #348 on: January 17, 2018, 10:39:06 AM »
1/17/18

I'm really not feeling too great today, I got good sleep last night but today I feel tired, sluggish, lethargic, and just generally disintereted with work and life today.

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« Reply #349 on: January 18, 2018, 10:28:45 AM »
1/18/18

Had a pretty decent day yesterday, was able to get a lot of things done, however, there are still many things I need to work on.