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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #250 on: October 24, 2017, 10:54:49 AM »
Hey man - not sure where you are in the process, or what's going on, phase you're in. I had a thought though, when structuring your journal, it might help to keep track of the days since your last relapse, at least in the beginning, so you can better understand what phase you're in and how long you've been there. Stating the current date doesn't seem as informative.

Also, might be a good idea to clarify the goals and the rules for yourself. No PMO, or no PM, only O with a partner. Better to lay it all out so you know exactly where you're at.

Anyways good work for posting as much as you do man!


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« Reply #251 on: October 25, 2017, 09:40:43 AM »
Hey man - not sure where you are in the process, or what's going on, phase you're in. I had a thought though, when structuring your journal, it might help to keep track of the days since your last relapse, at least in the beginning, so you can better understand what phase you're in and how long you've been there. Stating the current date doesn't seem as informative.

Also, might be a good idea to clarify the goals and the rules for yourself. No PMO, or no PM, only O with a partner. Better to lay it all out so you know exactly where you're at.

Anyways good work for posting as much as you do man!

Hey, thanks man! I know, I'm just kind of logging my days without thinking about it, I'll definitely think of what my goals are and post them here when I get a chance.

10/25/17

Had a pretty good day yesterday, asked out another girl, buuuuttt got rejected again, at least I did it though, I'm happy that I did it. Had a decent day at work and school as well.

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« Reply #252 on: October 26, 2017, 07:16:26 PM »
10/26/17

Had an alright day, but for some reason, I keep getting really mad over little things. A lot of people are haters for no reason, even though I may not like or agree with someone, I still don't personally attack others or show that I'm mad, I leave my problems at home, it sucks a lot that a lot of people are like that.

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« Reply #253 on: October 27, 2017, 09:42:02 AM »
10/27/17

Had a pretty boring day yesterday, I'm just glad it's finally Friday, I'm so tired of working.

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« Reply #254 on: October 28, 2017, 06:24:16 PM »
10/28/17

I think staying in the present moment definitely makes a difference whenever I don't know what to do, it's like, whenever I'm present, all the answers may not come to me, but I know that I can do SOMETHING. I had a pretty good day, not a lot of urges to PMO, as that doesn't even sound appealing, it's just a mindless chase to get that dopamine spike that is never satisfied, after a while, it doesn't even feel good anyways, just fills your mind with garbage.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #255 on: October 29, 2017, 02:04:01 AM »
I 100% agree with the dopamine chase thing

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« Reply #256 on: October 29, 2017, 03:16:41 PM »
Yeah I know, it's just a waste of time.

10/29/17

I had a long day, the urge to PMO isn't there, but I keep thinking that I might somehow be wasting my time on too many things, I might need to cut some other things out of my life that don't serve me.

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« Reply #257 on: October 30, 2017, 12:10:50 PM »
10/30/17

Couldn't sleep last night, I'm not sure what it is, but I felt restless and not even tired at all, it felt like anxiety, I think because of my brother who is younger than me in the hospital, going through heroin withdrawal symptoms worries me a lot, I'll probably call him today.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #258 on: October 30, 2017, 02:26:11 PM »
Take care of your body.
Love your body.
It needs lots of rest.
Life is tough.
Learn to live instead of numbing yourself by use of porn.

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« Reply #259 on: October 31, 2017, 09:38:22 AM »
True that!

10/31/17

Was able to sleep last night as well as get through the day, I'm happy as well that I don't have school tonight due to halloween. I get real sick and tired of driving back and forth there in traffic.

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« Reply #260 on: November 01, 2017, 09:39:22 AM »
11/1/17

Had a pretty good day yesterday, it's amazing what you can get done when you aren't in your head all the time.

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« Reply #261 on: November 02, 2017, 02:19:05 PM »
11/2/17

Had a pretty good day yesterday, however, I think I'm getting sick which really sucks, I don't feel too well, I have body aches and a sore throat, ughhh.

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« Reply #262 on: November 03, 2017, 09:43:18 AM »
11/3/17

I'm still feeling sick, but the good news is that it's my birthday tomorrow and I got sooooo much school work done yesterday so I don't have to worry about it this weekend, which will be nice.

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« Reply #263 on: November 04, 2017, 05:43:38 PM »
11/4/17

Had a pretty good day yesterday, had some urges, but they went away quickly, and it's my birthday today. I'm 22 now, time to have some good food and chill out.

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« Reply #264 on: November 05, 2017, 12:06:05 PM »
11/5/17

Had a great birthday, had some good food and got to hang out with family, I was pretty busy though. Had to work and then cleaned my house and went to the gym, then I went to my parents house to spend the night with family.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #265 on: November 06, 2017, 05:41:27 AM »
Looks like a positive and productive day, congrats! And happy belated birthday! :-)



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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #266 on: November 06, 2017, 10:43:22 AM »
Hey, thanks! Appreciate the kind words!

11/6/17

Yesterday was a pretty good day, but last night I couldn't really sleep and I feel pretty sick, I'm pretty sore too, which doesn't feel too good when I had to wake up at 5 am today to go to work. Just want to get this day over with honestly.

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« Reply #267 on: November 07, 2017, 10:40:55 AM »
11/7/17

Was able to sleep well last night and had a productive day as well, not sure what today will be like, let's find out.

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« Reply #268 on: November 08, 2017, 10:44:25 AM »
11/8/17

Wow, I thought yesterday would be terrible, but it ended up bring pretty great. Funny how that works. It's really pleasant to be in the moment instead of in your head 24/7.

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« Reply #269 on: November 09, 2017, 10:39:13 AM »
11/9/17

Had a pretty good day yesterday, but man I am not feeling work today.

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« Reply #270 on: November 10, 2017, 10:37:03 AM »
11/10/17

Was able to get a lot done yesterday, which is good considering I haven't been feeling super motivated lately.

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« Reply #271 on: November 11, 2017, 11:51:53 AM »
11/11/17

I'm truly starting to realize how much of the stuff people think matters, really doesn't in the end, which is pretty comforting.

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« Reply #272 on: November 12, 2017, 01:54:27 PM »
11/12/17

I'm getting bored with life lately, kind of just want to do nothing instead of trying to achieve everything.

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« Reply #273 on: November 13, 2017, 10:40:35 AM »
11/13/17

Had a pretty good day yesterday, got to chill and watch some football and I have a short work week this week, which is going to be nice as hell.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #274 on: November 14, 2017, 05:04:41 PM »
11/14/17

It makes me sad how unhappy people are sometimes. Especially at my work, the majority of customers are expressing that they're angry, impatient, and irritated.