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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #150 on: August 02, 2017, 09:23:09 PM »
8/2/17

Really boring day today. There wasn't much to do and I couldn't really think of anything to do. And I had to go to work, but only two more days left, sick and tired of this job, excited to start my new one.

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« Reply #151 on: August 03, 2017, 09:08:19 PM »
8/3/17

Today was a pretty good day. Really chill day at work, and it's also my second to last day here. Was able to stay in the present moment throughout the day.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #152 on: August 04, 2017, 09:01:59 PM »
8/4/17

Finally done with this job. Oh my goodness, that felt like an eternity, but it's finally time for a change. This is good.

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« Reply #153 on: August 05, 2017, 11:41:05 PM »
8/5/17

Wow. What a day. I'm officially moving out of my house, me and my roommate met up today and signed a 12 month lease. Now all I have to do is move all of my stuff out. I went to a wedding reception and talked on the microphone in front of 100+ people I mostly didn't know. It was terrifying, but I'm glad I did it. My legs were literally shaking, lol. Keep in mind that alcohol was being served, and I had exactly zero drops of it, I was just fine without it, talked to a lot of different people just fine without it.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #154 on: August 06, 2017, 09:33:16 PM »
8/6/17

Had a good gym session today, also excited to start my new job tomorrow, also had a good talk with my brother today.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #155 on: August 07, 2017, 08:36:49 PM »
8/7/17

Started at my new job today, seems like a really great place to work, great environment and lots of opportunities. I'm excited to get to work.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #156 on: August 08, 2017, 08:03:01 PM »
8/8/17

Had a great dat at work again, it was a lot of fun and my coworkers are really nice, cool people. Excited about all the opportunities to grow in the place I work for as well as all the benefits!

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« Reply #157 on: August 09, 2017, 07:01:51 PM »
8/9/17

Well I officially moved out of my house today. It's going to be weird for a few days getting used to the fact that I'm not a kid anymore. That I'm out in the world on my own.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #158 on: August 11, 2017, 10:05:34 PM »
8/10/17

Today was kind of a tough day. I was caught up in my head a lot and didn't know what to do.

8/11/17

Today was tough at first, but ended up being alright. I keep having negative thoughts about a lot of things, but I'm still moving forward in my life which is good.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #159 on: August 11, 2017, 10:50:48 PM »
hey man!
I'm also 21 and we have some similar goals. I noticed you went to a starting strength seminar awhile back, just curious if you could post your weights on this every once in awhile to see how we improve haha. I've just started doing stronglifts and it would be cool to have someone I could build up with, unless you started a long time ago.

Also the girls lol, I suck at talking to them but I'm trying to get better. That's all I can really say about that, I watch youtube videos about it, but don't have much practical experience

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« Reply #160 on: August 12, 2017, 09:22:54 PM »
hey man!
I'm also 21 and we have some similar goals. I noticed you went to a starting strength seminar awhile back, just curious if you could post your weights on this every once in awhile to see how we improve haha. I've just started doing stronglifts and it would be cool to have someone I could build up with, unless you started a long time ago.

Also the girls lol, I suck at talking to them but I'm trying to get better. That's all I can really say about that, I watch youtube videos about it, but don't have much practical experience

Hey man. Yeah, I went to the one in Denver recently. Honestly, it just takes practice and repetition with talking to the ladies. I'm still not amazing at it, but I'm still a hell of a lot better than I used to be. The thought of asking out a girl and getting rejected used to scare the living shit out of me. But now, not really. If they don't want me in their life, it's their loss because I know deep down that I've done things most people will never even attempt to do. That I've been to hell and back, that I've struggled for years and been in counseling for years and that I'm finally well enough to where I don't need it, and that gives me confidence in myself. I'll probably post my lifts soon too. Just whenever I hit a PR mostly.

8/12/17

Had a pretty good day today, had a solid gym session and got to go back to my old house and get some more stuff to move in to my new house.

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« Reply #161 on: August 13, 2017, 07:59:12 PM »
8/13/17

Had a pretty good day today, some difficult emotions were present, but I still got everything done that I needed to.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #162 on: August 14, 2017, 08:04:52 PM »
8/14/17

Had a pretty decent day I guess. Went to work, then came home and did some grocery shopping, then went out in the town to try and find some girls to ask out. Ended up asking one out, but she already had a boyfriend. I've heard that line about 10 times in a row now.....

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #163 on: August 16, 2017, 06:48:11 AM »
8/15/17

Had kind of a shitty day today. Work was kind if tough and my workout didn't go too well either. There's always tomorrow though.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #164 on: August 16, 2017, 03:57:54 PM »
8/16/17

Today has been ok I guess. Kind of boring, but I've been able to chill and relax for a bit which is nice.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #165 on: August 17, 2017, 08:31:52 PM »
8/17/17

A decent day, ready for the weekend though.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #166 on: August 18, 2017, 07:49:33 PM »
8/18/17

I'm honestly exhausted. I'm so damned tired. I just want to sleep for like two weeks lol. It's finally the weekend at least lol.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #167 on: August 20, 2017, 12:24:30 AM »
8/19/17

Had a pretty good day, my sister got married today which is pretty weird. I might be an uncle soon lol.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #168 on: August 20, 2017, 03:27:31 PM »
8/20/17

I've been really tired today and haven't been able to stay awake, plus I'm confused about some things, which is mentally draining, ughhh.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #169 on: August 21, 2017, 05:06:51 PM »
8/21/17

Today has been pretty depressing. Everybody in my department at work is doing better than me and I realized that I'm 22 in November and I'm still a virgin. Pretty depressing and painful to say the least. I don't even really know what the hell I want as far as dating/romance goes. Not sure if I want to casually date, get married way down the road or what, but it's stressing me the fuck out. Worse, I haven't PMO for like over 5 months now and I still feel terrible shame for being a virgin and just shame and anxiety about sex in general. It's really all I can think about, it seems like the most important thing ever, and my mind won't shut the fuck up about it, ughhh. It's not like I haven't tried, I've tried asking about different girls in person, online dating, but I just don't seem to be getting anywhere, it's so annoying.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #170 on: August 21, 2017, 06:06:23 PM »
Just start casually dating people and see where it goes. I think it's fun to learn how you meld with different peoples personalities. Also, what helped me out when I was the worst person at work was just not identifying myself with my job. You being bad at your job doesn't say anything about you as a person, and neither does being a virgin. Stay true to yourself and it will all work out, that sounds easy but it is one of the hardest things to do in life.

Goodluck man

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #171 on: August 22, 2017, 12:52:30 AM »
I second this. Being a virgin doesn't matter.

I have a female cousin who dumped a guy she was dating, because on the second date he was already asking how many kids she wanted to have. There's no reason to get ahead of yourself or even start thinking about marriage now. The whole point is to enjoy the present as much as possible and make fond memories with the girl you're dating. Remember, those who live in the past are depressed, those who live in the future are anxious, but those who live in the present are at peace. If it leads to marriage, cool. If not, cool.

Remember: The object is to say, "This person is practically nothing like me. What IS she like, then?"
Or she could be exactly like you. Either way, like Jack said, the point is to see how you meld with her personality.
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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #172 on: August 23, 2017, 03:27:28 PM »
Thanks for the advice guys, it's just been a rough past couple days I suppose. Much easier said than done to not focus on others, but goodness gracious does the pressure get to you sometimes lol.

8/22/17

Yesterday was actually a pretty good day. I had a really good gym session and had a good day at work.

8/23/17

Today has been alright so far, I start classes tonight, so I guess we'll see how that goes. Hopefully it's interesting or intellectually stimulating.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #173 on: August 24, 2017, 07:13:41 PM »
8/24/17

Damn, today has been exhausting to say the least. I honestly feel like there is never enough time during the day for me to do what I need to. It honestly stresses me out. But oh well, if this was easy than everybody would be doing it. Just gotta keep going and never quit.

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Re: Journey to a better me
« Reply #174 on: August 25, 2017, 06:08:44 PM »
8/25/17

Had an alright day today, I'm just felt kind of neutral and just meh towards mostly everything.