canterbury18
Member
Hey guys,
I figured keeping track of my progress might help me, and hopefully even others, so I'm gonna make this new topic into my journal.
I guess I should give you a bit of back ground info...
I started watching porn at 11 maybe 12 and started masturbating around the same time. Since then I've been consistently masturbating at least once a week and at most 3 times a day (very rare). Over the past year, (i'm 17 now) it's been more like once a day. I had no idea porn was doing this to me, until I tried having sex a month ago with my new girlfriend and my dick felt like it a bloody deflated balloon hanging between my legs. I've been putting off sex with her ever since and I feel awful, I'm going to have to explain to her whats going on because i'm sure it's making her feel like shit too. ever since that night, I've been researching ED and have come to the conclusion its because of porn. I decided to cut it out. I've relapsed a few times to girls on Instagram and Facebook but now I want to get serious, and this journal (and hopefully you guys) will help me. It's been a few days since I masturbated ( to very soft core images), and my libido has gone to shit.... I have no desire to watch porn, no desire to masturbate, and no desire to have sex with my gf. What concerns me is that my girlfriend very attractive and definitely my type, so the reason for my limp dick issues is definitely not my girlfriend. I discovered this site and found out about 'flat lining'... So i guess thats what's happening. I'm going to try and get my girlfriend on board with my recovery, if it scares her off then she isn't as good of a girlfriend as I think she is so it would matter anyway, and I'm going to keep going. I feel like utter shit, my dick is a useless floppy cocktail sausage, but in the wise words of Winston Churchill ''If you're going through hell, keep going''. And thats exactly what I'm going to do. I'll regularly update this journal and am eager to become involved with this community.
I figured keeping track of my progress might help me, and hopefully even others, so I'm gonna make this new topic into my journal.
I guess I should give you a bit of back ground info...
I started watching porn at 11 maybe 12 and started masturbating around the same time. Since then I've been consistently masturbating at least once a week and at most 3 times a day (very rare). Over the past year, (i'm 17 now) it's been more like once a day. I had no idea porn was doing this to me, until I tried having sex a month ago with my new girlfriend and my dick felt like it a bloody deflated balloon hanging between my legs. I've been putting off sex with her ever since and I feel awful, I'm going to have to explain to her whats going on because i'm sure it's making her feel like shit too. ever since that night, I've been researching ED and have come to the conclusion its because of porn. I decided to cut it out. I've relapsed a few times to girls on Instagram and Facebook but now I want to get serious, and this journal (and hopefully you guys) will help me. It's been a few days since I masturbated ( to very soft core images), and my libido has gone to shit.... I have no desire to watch porn, no desire to masturbate, and no desire to have sex with my gf. What concerns me is that my girlfriend very attractive and definitely my type, so the reason for my limp dick issues is definitely not my girlfriend. I discovered this site and found out about 'flat lining'... So i guess thats what's happening. I'm going to try and get my girlfriend on board with my recovery, if it scares her off then she isn't as good of a girlfriend as I think she is so it would matter anyway, and I'm going to keep going. I feel like utter shit, my dick is a useless floppy cocktail sausage, but in the wise words of Winston Churchill ''If you're going through hell, keep going''. And thats exactly what I'm going to do. I'll regularly update this journal and am eager to become involved with this community.