Author Topic: PKY Journal  (Read 1032 times)

pky

  • Member

  • Offline
  • *

  • 6
    • View Profile
PKY Journal
« on: August 15, 2016, 06:01:12 AM »
Hello everyone,
I first thought of quitting porn about 3 years ago as I was watching it too much and mastrubating a lot, but at that time I was not aware of  the effects of porn on sexual behavious and I definately didn't new that porn can cause impotence/erectile disfunction. Last year summer I was with my girlfriend and we had our time together but my dick didn't work, it was not hard enough for insertion. We tried several times but it was not getting up, so the night ended up in a big dissappointment. First of all I was confused and tried to explain to myself what happened using several method but none of them was satisfactory, as my girlfriend is hot a hell and I find her sexually attractive. Then once I was watching a Ted talk on mastrubation and its effect and I came to know about what its effects are and about a growing community who caleed themselves as fapounist on redit and I went there and read all the threads, then I realised that lots people are suffering from this problem and I am not Alone.
So then even the last year went by and I was not much serious about all this NoFap thing but Since last three months I have being trying my best to leave porn.

I was successful In having a 40 days NoFAp streak, but then one one day I mastrubated without porn and then after that I relapsed several time and I have mastrubated to porn also 3-4 time this week. I have been exposed to porn for about 8 years. I now wish to start all over again and achieve my target, I want that ultimately my dick even responds to hot chick on street as it  used to do when I was 13-14 years old and my first target is to have a 60 days NoFap Streak.

I would like to have an Accountability Partner, so that we can help each other.

pky

  • Member

  • Offline
  • *

  • 6
    • View Profile
Re: PKY Journal
« Reply #1 on: August 24, 2016, 02:35:01 PM »
DAY 9
It has been 9 days since I watched porn last time. For the first few days I had thoughts about P and M but now, It is a lot easier. Although I don't find myself highly motivated, sometimes I feel like why not do it. I need to find out reasons why I should do it and what all trick my brain does to make me watch porn and write them down somewhere.
I think I'll relapse the next time I get in mood because I am not feeling any motivation.
If any of you have some suggestion then please let me know.
« Last Edit: August 24, 2016, 02:37:17 PM by pky »

sci90

  • Member

  • Offline
  • *

  • 28
    • View Profile
Re: PKY Journal
« Reply #2 on: August 25, 2016, 03:55:30 AM »
Last week I found the following sentence on this forum:

"If you are having withdrawals, it means your brain's dopamine levels
are on their way back to normal."

I wrote it on a piece of paper and hung it on the wall. So, every time when I
use my laptop I can see this sentence behind it on the wall. It helps me to
stop thinking about reasons why a should watch porn because it remembers me
that my brain just tries to trick me.

You have already a good reason because on your first post you wrote about erectile disfunction.
Do you want your problem getting worse and worse over time? So, don't give up!

pky

  • Member

  • Offline
  • *

  • 6
    • View Profile
Re: PKY Journal
« Reply #3 on: August 29, 2016, 05:02:47 PM »
DAY 14
Thankyou @sci90 for your suggestions and reply. I was feeling low vulnerable right now and your reply motivated me again. I am on my 14th day and I think I will achieve my 60 days streak this time, if we help each other.
I think I should visit more frequently and post the progress as It would help.
« Last Edit: August 29, 2016, 05:05:13 PM by pky »