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Diesel driver

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Almost 2 years - feeling young again
« on: August 08, 2016, 09:37:59 AM »
Hehe... the day has come. Here is my success story   :)

I am a 23 year old male. Typical story. Found out how to masturbate in my teens - liked it - finally looked at porn on the internet - life got difficult - tried to escape by watching more porn - eventually found out the hard way that porn can destroy your sexual health and induce fetishes.

Yeah, I was pretty shocked when I had sex for the first time. It was kind of meh and I lost my erections a few times. This was not how I imagined it to be. And I thought as a young, healthy and more or less socially comfortable man ED would be the last problem I would need to deal with.
Luckily only one google search had the answer for my unexpected problem: it was my porn consumption. More importantly, I also found out how to cure it. It was almost 2 years ago. It took that long for me to be cured.

I had not too much trouble quitting porn, masturbation was a different story. And it really set me back. But finally I have done it.

I gained so much experience. There is a lot I could say but in the end the quantity of succesful rebooters motivates newbs the most.
So here is another success that can confirm that PIED is real and can be overcome.
I had no morning wood, no physical reactions to potential mates, weird out of character fetishes and preferences.
Now I wake up with boners, feel a rush and a warm feeling in my groin whenever I see an attractive woman, can get erections, have a normal sexuality. As a bonus my nerves are strong as iron, I relax around women and during sex I can last a long time.
Very pleasing to feel your penis becoming hard in your pants by himself when the guy is needed. No figting to keep it up. Just enjoying the moment plus the pride of having overcome PIED.

Every rebooter has different issues, on forums like this you can find guys with similiar stories (yes, no matter how strange/ extreme your situation is you will find someone like you, trust me  ;)) and they will give you an idea of what to expect. Be social. Share your story and read journals.
Counting days is a fun and playful way to keep up your motivation.
Learn everything there is to learn, you find all the sources here, reflect on the reason you watch porn (quick rewards? Escapism? Self harm? Substitute for unmet romantic expactations? Fear or shame of real sex?) and understand the mind of an addict.

So... I'm done. Will I masturbate occasionally again? Why would I? I will not engage in a behavior that has caused so much pain and suffering. I am finally free and can do what I really want without some urges hitting me. Oh, and not to mention women have finally the comfort to enjoy sex with me that fulfills pretty much all wishes.

God bless you all, stay strong, farewell   :D

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Re: Almost 2 years - feeling young again
« Reply #1 on: August 08, 2016, 01:44:37 PM »
This is great.  I get frustrated and racked with doubt since I'm not recovered after all this time so it's reassuring to hear stories of long rebooters who have made it out the other side.  Congrats!
Been rebooting since May 2015.  A handful of relapses in that time.  Have SLOWLY improved since then.  Finally starting to see some lasting success since summer of 2018.

Diesel driver

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Re: Almost 2 years - feeling young again
« Reply #2 on: August 11, 2016, 07:10:26 AM »
This is great.  I get frustrated and racked with doubt since I'm not recovered after all this time so it's reassuring to hear stories of long rebooters who have made it out the other side.  Congrats!

Oh yeah. Had many doubts as well. I was a heavy user and somedays couldn't even get it up to porn anymore. Now I have to be careful when I go take a pee to not get an erection from holding my penis with the tips of my fingers. It is that easy now.

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Re: Almost 2 years - feeling young again
« Reply #3 on: August 11, 2016, 08:03:19 PM »
congrats!!

It took 2 years to recover. very long period!

I want you to ask that during that period how many times you have relapsed?  because of relapse, you needed 2years?

and when did you assure yourself that I recover completely.

thanks your hopeful story

« Last Edit: August 11, 2016, 08:08:05 PM by yongjoojung »

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Re: Almost 2 years - feeling young again
« Reply #4 on: August 13, 2016, 04:58:01 AM »
congrats!!

It took 2 years to recover. very long period!

I want you to ask that during that period how many times you have relapsed?  because of relapse, you needed 2years?

and when did you assure yourself that I recover completely.

thanks your hopeful story
I'm not sure about it but if I understood correctly probably he didn't stopped MO. From what I have read and from personal experience almost all PIED guys suffer from "death grip syndrome" some more other less. You must stop M and let your penis nerves to get sensitive again and of course avoid O you don't need that dopamine spikes when you try to heal yourself.

Good job Diesel, inspiring story.
« Last Edit: August 13, 2016, 05:05:36 AM by BootLoader »
Porn turns a man into a scared boy.
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Re: Almost 2 years - feeling young again
« Reply #5 on: August 15, 2016, 01:47:57 PM »
So glad for that you have overcome MO. So it is possible! It's interesting to discover folks on this site (I'm kind of new) who want to stop activity that our culture considers pretty normal, although until RN I had never heard of ED resulting from MO, was unfamiliar with the death grip. I've been avoiding PMO and MO for less than a week. I can't imagine how I'm going to get through this, but knowing that others can do it leads me to believe that there's no reason I can't defeat this too. Thanks!

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Re: Almost 2 years - feeling young again
« Reply #6 on: August 15, 2016, 04:04:30 PM »
Forgot to ask, any suggestions for distracting oneself from MO? Don't say "cold showers"  ;D

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Re: Almost 2 years - feeling young again
« Reply #7 on: October 05, 2016, 03:34:03 PM »
Thanks guys!

congrats!!

It took 2 years to recover. very long period!

I want you to ask that during that period how many times you have relapsed?  because of relapse, you needed 2years?

and when did you assure yourself that I recover completely.

thanks your hopeful story

A lot, but not as much as more severe cases. To porn maybe every 4 months. Quitting porn wasn't that big of a deal to me personally. Worse for me was the frustration of flatlining, lonelyness etc.
Unfortunately I MO'd a lot and sometimes would relapse into edging sessions. I recommend hard mode so no MO at all. For some time I was convinced it would be impossible to recover from porn while still MOing. I'm not that sure, though  :-\
I believed in sexual exhaustion (that you could get ED from jerking off too much) but scientifically speaking this concept is bollocks.
Do what works. I CAN tell that hardmode does wonders for your sensitivity and makes morning erections more likely to happen.

I'm actually still making progress. I consider myself cured because I regained my confidence, can rely on a healthy erection, can do all positions (though I never tried more exotic ones), my penis is warm and gets sometimes erect from touch and fantasy alone, kinky fantasies don't come up as much and they don't make me anxious anymore. Spontaneous erections occur but only a couple of days after sex. Only sex. MO does not have this effect on me, strangely.
I can do what porn made me unable to do. There is still a mile to walk! Getting even more consistent morning erections. My libido fluctuates considerably, it will probably even out. I'm almost never in flatline territory though.
So I'm still rebooting but as far as I'm concerned I'm safe. I don't have a partner but I could get one and have a lot of sex. However I decided to go even further and keep rebooting, so you and me are still in the same boat  :)
Forgot to ask, any suggestions for distracting oneself from MO? Don't say "cold showers"  ;D

Cold showers  :P among many other things.
Get a hobby and focus on it. For example weight lifting. Learn the basics, become consistent and passionate, get a little nerdy. Meet and greet professional athletes and champions (or even train with them if they are available) to sniff some winning personality. Many porn guys have toxic families and friends. Find relief and get some inspiration and advice. Watching a motivational vid is not enough. Make it a part of your life.
Weight lifting/ bodybuilding is especially good for social anxious flatliners. You can practice alone and get some confidence and then work on your social skills.
But it can be bible studies, poetry, your job, a business, a new language, painting, biking... be able to laugh and explore things like a child. You will find your passion.

Oh and I meditated a lot. At first it improved my mood and made me progress faster, or so I thought. Honestly though, I don't think meditation is necessary or even that good. Actually not a big fan of it anymore.