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Michaatje

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I need advice about my PIED.
« on: April 21, 2019, 03:23:52 PM »
Hello fellow rebooters,

My story is fairly similar to that of Gabe Deem and Noach Church. I am currently 26 years old and I started PMO at around 13 years old and haven't stopped since almost three months ago, the moment I started this recovery. I had my first experience with PIED when I was 16, normally my gf's touch or thinking of her would get me going, but for some reason I couldn't get hard. I thought something was wrong with me and since then I fell down a downward lonely spiral. I continued to PMO, didn't know that could be the cause. I watched porn almost every day, sometimes I didn't for a couple of weeks but those periods were sporadic.  I watched mostly vanilla stuff for about twenty minutes. Always felt ashamed, haven't had succesful sex since I was 16. Tried to avoid it at all costs. I knew about PIED for about two years because of Gabe Deem but never succeeded for longer than two weeks of no PMO.

Lately I have been dating a girl, she knows about my addiction and is really supportive. We have had some sexual encounters, but no PIV yet. We're both not ready. A little bit more about my recovery because I think it could be helpful for you guys.  I started with a flatline for about a 1,5 week. Then I got morning wood, had some sexual encounters with my GF. I was scared but happy how I performed, although it could be better. The thing is, the frequency of morning wood and my erections are really fluctuating.  Funny thing is, I tried to masturbate just focussing on touch a few weeks back and had no trouble, but when I am with my GF I tend to get scared and my sensitivity is back my PMO-addiction levels, even though in the beginning of my reboot I was really sensitive. So I don't know what to do, I know I will not watch porn ever again so that's out of the question. I sometimes meditate, take cold showers, exercise although it could be more frequent. I am studying, working and my aunt (who is like my mother to me, my own mother passed away two years ago) has been diagnosed with cancer and it's not looking good. So I am stressed, maybe that could be the reason. I am not sure and it's affecting my confidence.

Maybe somebody has had the same experience as me or could give me some advice, it would be greatly appreciated.

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Re: I need advice about my PIED.
« Reply #1 on: May 03, 2019, 07:08:58 PM »
Sounds like you have some performance anxiety along with a milder case of PIED.

As you will see often repeated here, stay away from porn, masturbation, and any kind of artificial sex. That includes imagination and fantasizing.

Give it time, be patient. You will heal.

Forget about morning wood as some kind of indicator of good health. If you get them at all, that means you don't have a physical problem. Who cares how often they occur.