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Ages 20-29 / Re: Nightmare begins responsibility!
« on: June 15, 2019, 01:47:44 AM »
                                                                   Day 2

  I cant able to sleep because of insomnia Felt really tired whole day.I am working on my sleep pattern and energy levels.
 

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Nightmare begins responsibility!
« on: June 15, 2019, 01:38:46 AM »
One guy on my journal BluHeron (if I remember correctly) said to me something that changed my way of seeing the whole rebooting thing. Take it one day at a time. Today it's day 1. Focus on this day, don't think of what you'll be doing tomorrow. This has really helped me a lot. Also take a look at your lifestyle and try do positive things that makes you feel good. You can do it!


      Thank you for the advice i will apply it :)

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Ages 20-29 / Nightmare begins responsibility!
« on: June 14, 2019, 02:57:53 AM »
    Once again i am back here, last week i relapsed continuously so i was frustrated about my addiction. Since 2 years i am trying to quiting this addiction but i failed. I really want to heal but i always made wrong actions and then i suffered but one thing is i get tremendous information and experience about how to challenge withdrawals and path of success but every time i cant able to consistent with it and then i failed so consistency is the key. Its day 1 i am trying to heal myself and it takes really long time to do so  i knew the path just taking the actions  will decide the journey.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Keep pushing yourself till the recovery!
« on: May 18, 2019, 09:11:40 AM »
 Today i felt really tired and also facing some sleep issues but i did meditation. Another wonderful day for me.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Keep pushing yourself till the recovery!
« on: May 17, 2019, 09:01:34 AM »
 wonderful day did meditation and yoga my sleep cycle also improved but i woke up late.

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Ages 20-29 / Rebooting tools
« on: May 16, 2019, 01:55:40 AM »
     Hi friends i am going to share you some android application links to boost up your recovery. They are really beneficial for every one.




              1. https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=anapana.winjit.com.anapanameditation&hl=en

              2. https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.losthut.android.apps.simplemeditationtimer&hl=en

             3. https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=info.intrasoft.habitgoaltracker&hl=en


   Tip: Practice everyday you will see amazing results.

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Ages 20-29 / Keep pushing yourself till the recovery!
« on: May 16, 2019, 01:29:31 AM »
 Hi guys after long time i came here because i am still addicted to porn. On 13th may i relapsed. Its important to make journal everyday now i will consistent about making my addiction journal.  My 10 days small goals are:

                                 1. I want to improve my sleep cycle so i decided to sleep @ 9:30PM and wake up at 4:30 AM

                                 2. Practicing meditation and yoga everyday! .
 
                                 3. Making journal everyday
 
     This goals are really important to me now. Its day 1 and i realize without inner change nothing will gave me peace.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« on: April 07, 2019, 04:49:46 AM »
Be strong man!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: April 07, 2019, 04:47:49 AM »
   Day 15 at 7-4-2019


   Whole day felt depress and can't focus in any thing.  Woke up late.  I felt really tired and my dick is totally numb I feel like I lose something inside me.  Always thinking about committing suicide. Tough time is coming and it's just start now.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: April 06, 2019, 03:55:20 AM »
                    Day 14 at 6-4-19 

       Past few days i was busy so cant able to open this site. After a long time I reached on day 14th i am really happy. Next week is also really important to me.  Now i am strong enough to fight urges. Thanks to my accountability partner Do Or Die.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: April 01, 2019, 11:32:10 PM »
            Day 9 at  2-4-2019
 
      Faced same withdrawals as yesterday. Flatline starts now.My dick is totally dead.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: April 01, 2019, 11:28:35 PM »
     This is possible because of your support. :)

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« on: April 01, 2019, 07:15:44 AM »
 He is always with you just do it believe in yourself man!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: April 01, 2019, 02:45:05 AM »
    Day 8 at 1-4-2019

     Going through crazy headache I feel my head is going to smash it really soon. Insomnia make me freak I literally slept only two hours. Really tough time i never experienced such things before. Day 8 is really tough to me. This journey is really tough but you have to keep moving forward!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« on: April 01, 2019, 02:38:27 AM »
 I know it's painful but don't lose hope my friend.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: March 30, 2019, 12:27:21 AM »
                                 Day 6 at 30-3-2019
    After long time I felt really confident. I talked with girls my anxiety levels are dropped and I feel very energetic. I only suffering from one withdrawal and that is insomnia. Now I am going to complete 1st goal of my mission and I knew in next week this evil will try to break me, played with my mind but now I am strong enough to fight. Next week is really important to me because most of the time I relapsed in this phase.     


Believe you can and you’re halfway there.” – Theodore Roosevelt
                   
                   

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: March 30, 2019, 12:14:55 AM »
you are on day 5.
please note that now your brain tricks you to accedently watch porn. so be aware and be successfull.

  Yesterday exactly same thing happened with me at late night but I control myself. I got really strong urges but I told myself you can do it man! You are not slave of this addiction and you can control it I literally convinced my mind and after 1 hour I slept. Insomnia is a biggest reason of relapsing and it's common withdrawal of all  kind of addiction so make sure that you do something about it. In past 5 days I nothing did productive but now I am ready for add some weapon to fight against this evil. I decided now to do yoga,meditation and any kind of physical activity every day in past I worked on this things but my mind can't able to consistent and after few days I relapsed.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: March 28, 2019, 11:43:50 PM »
Damn man so many relapses and you're still going strong that's good
Having sex is an animal instinct and that's so hard to stop

When you relapse are you watching porn or just jacking off?
If you're watching porn id suggest allowing you only to jerk off without porn before stopping completely if you're about to relapse

When I reach a certain amount of days I'll allow myself to jerk off without porn a couple of of times a year
But I plan never to watch porn ever again

I wish you a good reboot keep going man we're gunna make it some day

    When I was teen I only jerked of and never felt any kind numbness, brain fog etc. But after watching porn my habit changed and I jerked of by watching porn and now I am facing flatline so I can't able to hold strong erections but when I watched porn my erections are really strong so for change I am trying to follow Hard mode for 3 months. By the way thanks for comment and motivation. :)
 

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« on: March 28, 2019, 11:30:53 PM »
Bro you knew how to handle it urges just work on your ideas because of your suggestions I will reach on day 5 last month I relapsed like a hell I don't knew how to recover but after that I am working on your advice. You already know it you can do it don't relapse now! Never!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: March 28, 2019, 11:25:56 PM »
                  Day 5 at 29-3-2019
   Another tired day, watched all day Netflix series there are some scenes triggered me but my little friend just numb now. Brain plasticity is really long process but I enjoying it. :) Two days to go complete my first goal and first step of journey. Never give up

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: March 28, 2019, 11:16:25 PM »
Be carefull about urges bro.

   Always!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: March 27, 2019, 11:09:55 PM »
Day 4 at 28-3-2019
  I had Crazy nightmares at night can't able to sleep so started watching Netflix series 'Strangers' and in the middle of 1 st episode there was scene get me really strong triggers but I control my self. Really tired now. 

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: March 27, 2019, 11:03:43 PM »
     Absolutely!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« on: March 26, 2019, 11:05:41 PM »
   Come on brother be strong don't relapse again your brain is always try to trick be brave enough to fight urges!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: March 26, 2019, 11:02:18 PM »
                                                      Day 3 at 27-3-19

    Faced same withdrawals. Always had headache and low energy but i am happy because after long time i am on day 3 :)



                                 “I have absolutely no pleasure in the stimulants in which I sometimes so madly indulge. It has not been in the pursuit of pleasure that I have periled life and reputation and reason. It has been the desperate attempt to escape from torturing memories, from a sense of insupportable loneliness and a dread of some strange impending doom.”
― Edgar Allan Poe

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