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Title: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on July 05, 2016, 10:39:30 AM
HI, I am new on this forum and I am 20. I started masturbating when i was 11, sometimes to porn, but most often using my own fantasies and photos of girls. Sometimes I would masturbate 3-4 times a day. I had a period of heavy porn use, but it' s been a while since I stopped watching porn. I have another problem. I am in a 4 months relationship with a girl from the other town. We didn't have  sex yet, I could always get a boner when I was around her. She started to send me nudes whenever I am not in her town and I masturbated hardly to them. As time passes those pictures started becoming more explicit and we started sexting. Few weeks ago we were making out on the couch and I was a little bit "in my head". Suddenly, I've noticed I am not really getting aroused. She was giving me a handjob and my penis couldn't get hard as usual which made me anxious a lot, but she didn't notice (That was her first sexual experience). I was trying to get aroused by looking at her half naked body, but 0 points. Later we did a dry humping and I would completely lose my erection. I found that I rarely have morning wood and my libido is pretty low. I can get a boner when I fap, sometimes it gets really hard, but most often it's a weak erection. She' s still sending me nudes, but I can't manage to get excited due to my anxiety level. I really find her atractive and I am in love with her.


Now I'm on day 18. Few days in a row I'm having a morning wood! I think I went through the flatline during the first 6 days of my reboot...
Title: Re: Curing PIED
Post by: K-Dot on July 05, 2016, 11:33:31 AM
When I run into a nude picture or something I get an urge to fap, but I can handle it
Title: Re: Curing PIED
Post by: K-Dot on July 06, 2016, 05:48:08 AM
Day 19

Strong morning wood this morning! Two more days to achieve 3 weeks, my personal record
Title: Re: Curing PIED
Post by: K-Dot on July 06, 2016, 09:43:55 AM
Damn my girlfriend texted me that she want to make out with me, I got boner and a precum... WTF is that?
Title: Re: Curing PIED
Post by: willtochange on July 06, 2016, 11:41:12 AM
Sounds like your reboot is going well. Keep on keeping on!
Title: Re: Curing PIED
Post by: K-Dot on July 06, 2016, 12:08:30 PM
Thank you! I won't relapse for sure... Can't see how porn is serving me in the long run
Title: Re: Curing PIED
Post by: K-Dot on July 07, 2016, 11:10:43 AM
Day 20
Morning wood (100%), went 80% when I got out of the bed. Erection's gone after peeing. Got horny by checking out hot girls on the street, but i won't fap
Title: Re: Curing PIED
Post by: K-Dot on July 08, 2016, 09:11:32 AM
3 weeks reached! 9 more days for a month off the reboot
Title: Re: Curing PIED
Post by: PuckingForn on July 08, 2016, 10:53:18 AM
Congratz !
Title: Re: Curing PIED
Post by: K-Dot on July 08, 2016, 12:51:22 PM
Thanks! I think my libido is back, I got desire for sex when I see a hot girl on the street
Title: Re: Curing PIED
Post by: PuckingForn on July 08, 2016, 01:09:33 PM
Thanks! I think my libido is back, I got desire for sex when I see a hot girl on the street

In what way do you mean "desire" ?
Title: Re: Curing PIED
Post by: K-Dot on July 08, 2016, 02:04:49 PM
Thanks! I think my libido is back, I got desire for sex when I see a hot girl on the street

In what way do you mean "desire" ?

I don't get the urge to fap, like I used to, I would rather bang her :'DDD
Title: Re: Curing PIED
Post by: K-Dot on July 08, 2016, 06:23:26 PM
My girlfriend turned 19 today. We were  chatting and she wrote that she wants me to kiss her 19 times and I got 100% boner... WTF this means??????
Title: Re: Curing PIED
Post by: K-Dot on July 28, 2016, 03:49:01 AM
I got a question. I visited my girlfriend last week on a day 30, I got hard boner just from kissing, so it shows I'm doing well. Last two nights we were texting, and she started writing things like, "I'm naked in my bed waiting for you", and I got instant 100% boner. I wont see her until the september and I'm worried this sexting shit will induce ED again... I won't fap, but I don't know is this right, I don't know should I tell her about the problem, she'll freak out
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on October 09, 2018, 11:32:51 AM
I am back at this forum, got 2 100+ streaks, few 60+ and 40+ days streaks and many relapse streaks. Curretly I am on day 109.
I cured my PIED once, but it came back due to many relapses and binging sessions.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on October 23, 2018, 06:46:55 AM
Day 123

Woke up at 4 AM due to wet dream (About relapsing to instagram photo). I had maybe 15 wet dreams since i've started this streak (once 4 night in a row xd). My dick is still dead,sometimes i get hard when i make out with my girlfriend at the club. Didn't try to have sex yet
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: zander13 on October 23, 2018, 03:33:23 PM
Good luck on this current run my friend. My story is eerily similar to yours.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: omicron on October 23, 2018, 05:39:34 PM
You have the coolest thread name and impressive streak. Congrats & good luck!
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on October 24, 2018, 03:23:39 AM
Good luck on this current run my friend. My story is eerily similar to yours.

Thanks man. What's your curret situation?
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on October 24, 2018, 03:24:53 AM
You have the coolest thread name and impressive streak. Congrats & good luck!

Hahahah thank you bro, I always try to turn "tragic" stuff to a comedy, so that's where it came from
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on October 24, 2018, 04:00:26 AM
I'm in my longest flatline ever curretly. It's over a month I think (stopped counting). During my earlier streaks, It will usually last for 2 weeks the most. Now I'm used to feeling "dickless". I get a light erection sometimes when I'm kissing with my girlfriend, but I dont get horny at all. I cant remember last time I was horny...maybe it was in July. Man I loved those bitches in summer clothes
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: zander13 on October 24, 2018, 12:18:54 PM
Good luck on this current run my friend. My story is eerily similar to yours.

Thanks man. What's your curret situation?

I’ve had a 210 day streak, a 150, several 90 dayers. Now I’m at the point where flatlines are the only things that bother me. I’m currently in one right now (day 74).
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on October 26, 2018, 03:55:58 AM
Need to stop drinkng so frequently. I have first cravings for pmo in a long time. Thinking about hotties on my ex girls instagram and nudes she used to send me
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on October 26, 2018, 05:45:52 AM
I did a PIED test now after 125 days of a reboot and got rock hard just by hand's touch. But I rarely get hard when making out and touching my girl. I dont know could this mean that i need stimulation to get hard or it's something i shouldnt worry about
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on October 27, 2018, 04:12:47 AM
Day 127

Another wet dream last night (it was about relapse and it was so realistic, I'm glad it's only a dream ). This morning I feel like my dick is empty space
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on October 28, 2018, 03:59:05 AM
Day 128 - ex girl's instagram and nudes slip

I need your advice and opinion. Last night I came home wasted - drunk and high. I browsed instagram and by accident opened my ex's profile and saw it's not set to private, so i could see her photos. There were many sexy bikini photos (ass cheeks photos) and I got urge and scrolled her instagram and than went to our inbox and started browsing shared photos to find nudes she used to send me. I felt really powerful dopamine rush, my heart started beating faster (just from seeking) and i've got instant boner. I fapped for a 10 seconds or less to one of the photos and than I came to my senses and closed everything. This whole slip maybe was 30-40 seconds long. What made me depressed is that few hours before this I were at the theatre and actresses were doing scene in a sexy dresses and I didnt feel aroused at all watching real women, but got excited as fuck when it came to photos.

What do you think how much this slip affected my reboot so far?
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: zander13 on October 28, 2018, 10:36:15 AM
Think you’ll be alright. But if I were you I’d be on high alert
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on October 28, 2018, 05:38:02 PM
Think you’ll be alright. But if I were you I’d be on high alert

Thank you bro.
I was drunk as fuck with 0 motivation, I dont know how I had enough will power to pull the brake. Usually in these circumstances I would go on a drunk binge. Tonight i went out with my girl and It was awsome. She's such a lovely person + she's beautiful. In this moment I dont feel any desire to peek or PMO
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: zander13 on October 28, 2018, 07:30:15 PM
Think you’ll be alright. But if I were you I’d be on high alert

Thank you bro.
I was drunk as fuck with 0 motivation, I dont know how I had enough will power to pull the brake. Usually in these circumstances I would go on a drunk binge. Tonight i went out with my girl and It was awsome. She's such a lovely person + she's beautiful. In this moment I dont feel any desire to peek or PMO

Dude I’m happy to hear it. Yeah man being drunk is the biggest killer for me—happy that you could still tell porn to fuck off.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 01, 2018, 11:01:06 AM
Day 132
I feel like i lost passion for everything I enjoyed (music, sports, etc.) and everything seems boring. I spend most of my last few days on the internet doing nothing. No urges for porn, low libido
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 02, 2018, 07:00:25 PM
Day 133

Official fact is that alchocol is my emotional crutch.

Libido = 2/10
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 04, 2018, 07:56:18 AM
Day 135

These days I ran in ads of half naked girls few times and few sex scenes on tv also and I got 0 urges. That's how low is my libido. Of course I didnt stare, I looked away immidiately
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 05, 2018, 03:36:16 AM
Day 136

Yesterday I was depressed and anxious as fuck. I went out with my girlfriend she opened up about our relationship. She said that she likes me a lot and that she would be happier if I started to show that I care and reach her more, because I act a lil bit distant. At the end of the date we sat at the park and she sat in my lap while we was making out. I was so numb, I couldnt feel anything at all, guess I'm so fucked by this flatline (emotionless and dickless).

This morning  I woke up at 5 AM due to another wet dream, about relapsing to my ex girlfriend's instagram photos once again. These frequent wet dreams (they happen every 7-10 days) are killing me and they are always about relapsing.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 05, 2018, 09:47:13 AM
On a day 136 i can tell this:
- My libido was at its best around days 35-45
- My libido was worst around days 70-80 and right now
- I had around 16-17 wet dreams (once 4 nights in a row)
- Had 0 MO sessions
- Peeked at instagram 3 times, but only once was over 20 seconds long
- Peeked at porn 0 times
- Got with my new girlfriend around day 50, didnt have chance for sex yet, but honestly I am afraid of it, because I'm not sure that I could get it up
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 11, 2018, 05:53:19 AM
Day 142

Anxiety kills me man. I've really started to catch feelings for this girl. I always act a bit colder than I really am, just of fear that she'll pull back if I show my feelings openly. But right now she's all over me. I dont know what to do about sex, we'll be in situation to have it soon. I'm afraid that i'll have either ED or PE. Just thinking about it kicks my confidence in the balls. She's also about to get her master degree and I aint have shit in life. Music is the only thing that I do well in life and I get no money from it. I just get respect from my small fan base.

It's incredible how I felt like a god whole summer and just 3 months later I have 0 confidence and motivation
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 12, 2018, 06:04:23 AM
Day 143

Wet dream once again. I have at least 1 wet dream almost every week
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 13, 2018, 11:56:50 AM
Day 144
Yesterday I felt flashes of libido while looking girls on the street. I dont know is it flatline easily fading away , or the chaser effect caused by wet dream two nights ago.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 13, 2018, 06:26:02 PM
I tend to get boner in the begining when kissing and touching a girl, but I lose it after. I think my brain is trained for constant dopamine hits (clicking new pictures/tabs)
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 14, 2018, 04:00:11 AM
Day 145

I would shoot myself in the dick with a shotgun right now. I cant get aroused at all. First time when I tried reboot, my PIED faded away after 30 days, now it's still here, even after 5 moths of reboot. I'm really losing hope. Fuck me, fuck porn, instagram and internet. I dont want to lose this girl over my shit
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: zander13 on November 14, 2018, 11:58:37 AM
Flatlines are the fucking worst. Nothing tops feeling asexual.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 15, 2018, 09:03:19 AM
Flatlines are the fucking worst. Nothing tops feeling asexual.

Flatlines dont bother me too much when I'm single. But now I'm in relationship with this angel and it kills me
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 15, 2018, 09:03:46 AM
Day 146
Anxiety hit me last night and I woke up at 2:30 AM in a cold sweat, this hasnt happened for a long time. This morning I had a dream about going out with one of my past girlfriend, woke up with a solid boner, but it didnt lasted very long.

I am too focused on my curret girlfriend, my PIED and not on my purpose.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: zander13 on November 15, 2018, 01:10:01 PM
Day 146
Anxiety hit me last night and I woke up at 2:30 AM in a cold sweat, this hasnt happened for a long time. This morning I had a dream about going out with one of my past girlfriend, woke up with a solid boner, but it didnt lasted very long.

I am too focused on my curret girlfriend, my PIED and not on my purpose.

didn’t last*
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 15, 2018, 01:32:38 PM
Day 146
Anxiety hit me last night and I woke up at 2:30 AM in a cold sweat, this hasnt happened for a long time. This morning I had a dream about going out with one of my past girlfriend, woke up with a solid boner, but it didnt lasted very long.

I am too focused on my curret girlfriend, my PIED and not on my purpose.

didn’t last*

Hahahha I am Slavic jackass, I dont always go by grammar rules
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: zander13 on November 15, 2018, 03:52:00 PM
Day 146
Anxiety hit me last night and I woke up at 2:30 AM in a cold sweat, this hasnt happened for a long time. This morning I had a dream about going out with one of my past girlfriend, woke up with a solid boner, but it didnt lasted very long.

I am too focused on my curret girlfriend, my PIED and not on my purpose.

didn’t last*

Hahahha I am Slavic jackass, I dont always go by grammar rules

don’t*
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 17, 2018, 06:30:38 AM
Day 148

Went out with my girlfriend last night, she is amazing. She said that time stops for her when she's with me. Hope I'll recover soon and that I won't dissapoint her with a limp dick when we go for a sex. That's the only thing that's really bothering me in this 3- month relationship. She seems obsessed with me right now and I dont want to blow it up.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 20, 2018, 03:38:59 AM
Day 151

Wet dream once again - about relapsing to instagram. I came just from watching photos without getting hard in this dream.
I realised I have a wet dream every week, usually Sunday or Monday.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 22, 2018, 10:30:07 AM
Day 153
Brain fog all the way. I feel like sometimes I stand up for myself enough, that's because my low self-confidence.
I hope this flatline stops so I can feel like I have a dick again
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 24, 2018, 12:23:42 PM
Day 155

I've passed 5 months without PMO. Libido 3/10 today. I think I should do the noyoutube and nointernet reboot also, cuz I'm watching self help videos whole day
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 26, 2018, 05:25:32 AM
Day 157
 Wet dreams 2 nights in a row. Goddamn with this shit
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on November 28, 2018, 05:26:55 AM
Day 159

Last night i had a dream about having wet dream.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 01, 2018, 03:43:38 PM
Day 162

I have some confessions to share with y'all...
I went to concert with my girl last night, we had I great time. She  is always telling me some sweet things and this time she said me "you're the best". At 2 AM we went to the other club and we sat alone in the corner. She was in my lap, we started making out. I've noticed that she's putting her hand so close to my dick and she didn't do that so far in these 3 months of our relationships. I started to stroke her vagina gently (over the jeans).  A saw that she got excited and I've catched few hard erections and felt real dopamine rush. When we decided to go home, we stopped near the exit of the club and continued toour kissing session. She saw that the women's toilet is only a meter away and she grabbed me by the hand and pulled me in there and started kissing me inside. I felt that my dick is not hard anymore and didn't know what to do. When one girl came in and saw us I said " Let's get outta here until they dont catch me in the girl's toilete", but in a joking maneer. She seemed all over me all the time while I was taking her to catch a taxi. I forced myself to act cool/calm/collected, but deep down I felt like a big pussy because I didn't take a lead and fucked her  when she brought me in the toilete. I was afraid of doing it, because I was sure that I'll either have PIED or PE.  It was so easy to be masculine in the begining of our relationship, but since I've started to catch feelings for this girl I got so anxious about dissapointing her when it comes time to have a sex and now I feel like all my self-confidence is fading away and now I always feel like I'm not entitled to her (even she's pursuing me most of the times).
 Fuck porn, anxiety and PIED!
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 04, 2018, 05:53:28 AM
Day 165

Yesterday I felt flatline coming back to high intensity. I was sitting drunk in the park with my girl and we made out. I started touching her boobs and then i put my hand down and played with her clitoris. I felt low sex drive and my erection was weak or did not existed all the time and just the day before I got 100%  hard just by thinking of her sitting in my lap
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 05, 2018, 02:17:16 PM
Day 166

Feeling that i want to blow my brains out
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 06, 2018, 04:48:26 PM
Day 167

Flatlining hard once again. Me and my grammar nazi bro @zander13 are kings of flatline
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 08, 2018, 06:27:50 AM
Day 169

I'll turn 23 soon. I'll also pass 6 months of noPMO at the same time. My girlfriend will come to my place for new year's eve. I think I'll go extra hard mode until then - no instagram, no facebook, I need my dick to work until then.  Fact - I also didn't MO-ed this whole streak and this is the longest time ever I went without fapping (Since I've started to jack off of course yo stupid ass! just kiddin I love y'all)
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 12, 2018, 08:51:08 AM
Day 173

I woke up at 5 AM last night and my MW was so hard that I could smash bricks with it (As the title goes). I think it also lasted long. I hope It will e the same when I go for sex
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 12, 2018, 02:50:49 PM
I also forgot to mention that I've had wet dream on Monday morning
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 13, 2018, 11:19:42 AM
Day 174

Solid MW and another wet dream at 4 AM
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 14, 2018, 07:44:20 AM
175

Last night I had a sex dream, about fucking a MILF women, it was so damn realistic, I was about 80% hard in that dream. I feel my libido a coming back a lil bit. I can't tell is it a real thing or just a chaser effect from 2 wet dreams I had this week.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: MoJi on December 15, 2018, 03:51:02 PM
175

Last night I had a sex dream, about fucking a MILF women, it was so damn realistic, I was about 80% hard in that dream. I feel my libido a coming back a lil bit. I can't tell is it a real thing or just a chaser effect from 2 wet dreams I had this week.

Damn!!!! Boy u jus doin great!!!! ur persistence is admirable!!!!!!! I am following ur progress!!! Jus hold on!!!!

Wish u luck my boy..
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 17, 2018, 06:23:10 PM
175

Last night I had a sex dream, about fucking a MILF women, it was so damn realistic, I was about 80% hard in that dream. I feel my libido a coming back a lil bit. I can't tell is it a real thing or just a chaser effect from 2 wet dreams I had this week.

Damn!!!! Boy u jus doin great!!!! ur persistence is admirable!!!!!!! I am following ur progress!!! Jus hold on!!!!

Wish u luck my boy..

Thank you my man!
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Do or die on December 18, 2018, 12:51:31 AM
157 is big achievement . congratulations. Wake up early to avoid wet dreams
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 19, 2018, 06:07:35 AM
157 is big achievement . congratulations. Wake up early to avoid wet dreams

Thanks man! I had one this morning, once again. But last few were about real women, and not the pornographic photos or videos
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 19, 2018, 07:49:04 AM
Day 180

Another wet dream this morning. Yesterday I had interview on TV, I was so anxious, I even stumbled a couple of times. Later I went on a date with my girl, tried to act cool, but I didn't feel like talking (I felt bad about my interview) so we had a couple of awkward silence moments. I often overthink my actions, trying to find right thing to say and I feel like a robot due to it
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 20, 2018, 12:36:06 PM
Day 181

Yesterday I decided to do PIED test. I got 100% hard just by touch alone, and when it got to that point my dick was so sensitive I could feel that I'll cum just by touching it with my finger. Maybe my dick will work for sex, but I'll explode in 30 seconds. I felt like I'm back in the flatline this morning, but When I went outside I felt turned on a lil bit when I saw all those women
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 21, 2018, 10:53:11 AM
Day 182

I woke up at 8:45 AM and my morning wood was close to 100% hard. It lasted until 9:20 and I got out of bed at 9:25 to take a pee. I feel  progress coming slowly
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 26, 2018, 04:23:20 PM
Day 187

I've passed 6 months without PMO and MO. I feel like my flatline is fading away and I get some boners when I'm with my girl, I wake up with an erection, I sometimes get boner when I'm thinking about sex also. But these days I feel bad because of my social anxety and feeling like I'm not intelligent enough. Everytime someone's making a joke about me, I can't think of clever response (always ovethinking and having brain fog). I also sometimes find hard to relax when I'm with my girl and cant think of things to say. I always feel like I'm bad speaker and don't know to tell story in interesting way. So much insecurities
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Douplefapastronaut on December 27, 2018, 02:36:08 PM
Hi bro!
I believe alcohol is getting worse!
Taking Alcohol, drugs, smoking, food (sugars) or having sex are all actions that increase your dopamine in the brain!
The brain of a person with a pied has too much dopamine, so you should avoid all these actions.
Even being with a girlfriend could increase your dopamine (even if you do not have sex or orgasm), caresses and little kisses but can help.

Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 28, 2018, 09:27:06 AM
Day 189

Feeling excited for next few days. Going to rock concert and my girlfriend is coming to my place for new year's eve. We'll make food, drink and have a fun. We'll go for sex too, I dont give a fuck if I fail
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Jones on December 28, 2018, 11:52:02 AM
This gives me so much motivation man, I went 120+ days in a flatline and it felt like I was close to coming out. Day 58 for me now I looking up to you bro so don't you fucking relapse I'd be disappointed cuz it seems we are in similar boats.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: changemylife on December 28, 2018, 12:12:00 PM
This gives me so much motivation man, I went 120+ days in a flatline and it felt like I was close to coming out. Day 58 for me now I looking up to you bro so don't you fucking relapse I'd be disappointed cuz it seems we are in similar boats.

People with long streaks motivate me to get there too. I admire both of you so I will say this too: Don't you fucking relapse cause I want to get there too and be in the same boat.

Peace \ /
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Post by: Refinedmind on December 29, 2018, 02:30:29 PM
189 days...holy crap! Super inspirational.

Way to push through those flatlines, I know they can be scary as hell.

And go for it on New Years...The longer you put it off, the more you'll psyche yourself out. I used to have crazy performance anxiety and it tormented me for years. The solution was to try more and more until my brain was more used to sex than porn.


Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on December 30, 2018, 07:28:01 AM
Day 191

Glad to see that my story inspire so much people. Thank you my brothers!
I'm thinking about drinking less for new year's eve so I dont fail when it comes to getting erection
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Jones on December 30, 2018, 12:33:01 PM
Quote
People with long streaks motivate me to get there too. I admire both of you so I will say this too: Don't you fucking relapse cause I want to get there too and be in the same boat. 
Yea bro get in the boat,we have to stay afloat n at the same trying not to get soaked.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: changemylife on December 30, 2018, 02:54:14 PM
Quote
People with long streaks motivate me to get there too. I admire both of you so I will say this too: Don't you fucking relapse cause I want to get there too and be in the same boat.
Yea bro get in the boat,we have to stay afloat n at the same trying not to get soaked.

That's right!
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 01, 2019, 02:15:03 PM
Day 192

Feeling horrible today. Yesterday my girl came, we tried sex few times. First she started giving me a blow job and i came in 10 seconds. Later I fingered her she was touching my penis, I got erection, but when i put condom and tried to penetrate her, my erection faded. I opened up to her and she was glad I am honest and said that she's by my side and later we cuddled, she was so sweet and lovely. We tried sex 2 more times, but I lost my erection when I put condom both times. Later she jerked me down there and started giving me BJ once again and I came in 20-30 seconds once again. I felt embarrased, even If she knew I didnt fap in 6 months.
I spent great day with her, I took her home few hours ago, but now I am depressed.

I also MO-ed now to test my erection and I've noticed that my semen is ORANGE?! I fapped once again and it was kinda orange once again with one little red dot in it. I am terrified now. I know friend of mine kicked me in my pelvic floor accidentaly few weeks ago and i hope that's from it.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Stiffy on January 01, 2019, 10:25:06 PM
If your semen is orange with red dots you should probably go see a doctor my man.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 02, 2019, 08:44:05 AM
Day 194

I hate and want to fucking kill myself
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 03, 2019, 05:05:46 AM
Day 195

Back into the deep flatline. Feeling like I don't have a dick, but it doesn't matter, I can't penetrate a women anyway. I feel like a total wimp, who bust a nut in 10 seconds when she gives me blow job, but can't keep it up to penetrate her. She knows my secret now, I told her I was porn/fap free for 6 months and that it'll take some more time and that I'm not fucked up about it. But if she knew how much it bothers me, she wouldn't belive how weak her man is mentally. It's hard not to act like you're hating yourself, when in reality you want to blow your brain's off. I even can't belive I'm the person who's complaining here all the time, but I rarely do it in real life, nobody knows about my problem except one friend from different country and my girlfriend (I opened up to her 2 days ago). Thoughts of losing a women of my dreams have put me in a huge scarcity state. I think she's the reason I want to recover, I didn't give a fuck about my dick not working before she came into my life

I live for the day when I'll be normal again, I even don't know how it is to have a vaginal sex and feel it (I didn't have it much anyway). The last time was in 2013. when i was 17 and now I'm 23. Fuck
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Jones on January 03, 2019, 06:41:46 PM
Don't give in to this shit bro. I'm now experiencing massive mood swings like really terrible. I think the fact that I can't get an erection is tearing me up inside, I don't know when I'll be fine. I just want this flatline to start come on and off cuz I really feel like I'm dying
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 04, 2019, 02:41:22 PM
Day 196

Flatlining as hell. Opened to friend of mine about my PIED  and sexual problems. I was so depressed last 2 days that I didnt contacted my girl, she called me yesterday and was mad cuz I forgot to call her. Anxiety is hard
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 05, 2019, 05:17:26 AM
Day 197

Still flatlining.
Anxiety is hard, not so much about my dick not working, but about fucking up my relationship. I shouldn't be obssesed with this all the time, but I can't help it.
My new song with a video is coming out in a few weeks. I need to start working on a new songs and I need to start studying finally, I forgot about my university at all.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 05, 2019, 07:37:03 AM
"I tried suicide once and I'll try it again, that's why I write songs where I die at the end"
"Pinching nurse's asses when I'm jacking off with Jergens
And I'm jerking, but this whole bag of Viiagra isn't working"

Just to say, I love Eminem, my idol, i've listened to him a lot during these hard times

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MiT_PIdtXSg
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: changemylife on January 05, 2019, 07:53:16 AM
"I tried suicide once and I'll try it again, that's why I write songs where I die at the end"
"Pinching nurse's asses when I'm jacking off with Jergens
And I'm jerking, but this whole bag of Viiagra isn't working"

Just to say, I love Eminem, my idol, i've listened to him a lot during these hard times

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MiT_PIdtXSg

He made a joke once in a interview (or talking seriously, I don't know) that he was a chronic masturbator at one point :))))
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 05, 2019, 08:49:11 AM
"I tried suicide once and I'll try it again, that's why I write songs where I die at the end"
"Pinching nurse's asses when I'm jacking off with Jergens
And I'm jerking, but this whole bag of Viiagra isn't working"

Just to say, I love Eminem, my idol, i've listened to him a lot during these hard times

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MiT_PIdtXSg

He made a joke once in a interview (or talking seriously, I don't know) that he was a chronic masturbator at one point :))))

Kim Mathers once said he needs viagra to function in bed, but you can't know is it true, cuz it's from her mouth. But knowing he was on anti depressants, I wouldn't be surprised.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 07, 2019, 01:39:55 PM
Day 199

Went out with my girl yesterday, we hanged for about 6 hours. Today I'm a little bit horny, but I don't feel urges to PMO. Any advices on how to cure PE when I finally get and stay hard enough to penetrate into vagina? Blowjob makes me cum in 10-15 seconds right now.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 08, 2019, 07:14:16 AM
Day 200

It seems like I made 200+ days without PMO for the second time in my life. The first one lasted from June 2016. - January 2017.
After that I've had couple of 30+, 60+ days streaks, one 120 days streak and many binge relapses between each. I didn't manage to get successful vaginal sex,  only BJs and HJs. Curretly I'm 200 days porn free, still have PIED problems, but i feel my libido is getting better. I also have huge PE problem and anxiety issues over my relationship due to sexual dysfunctins and writer's block .

I'll continue to reboot and rewire, with hope of seeing that cliche light at the end of muthafucking tunnel (word tunnel makes me panic, cuz it reminds me of vaginal tunnel and vagina is something that i can not penetrate into, because my dick is limp, and my dick being limp spikes my anxiety and makes me feel like a pussy- word pussy- something i can not enter because I'm impotent like a grandpa who shit himself in the pants - fuck my "wired to pixels on a screen" brain)
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 09, 2019, 10:03:57 AM
Day 201

Horny a lil bit. Produced few beats. Got some money for few of them. I was good until half an hour ago, when few dark thoughts about me being impotent popped up in my mind, which triggered anxiety attack.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 09, 2019, 05:46:18 PM
Anecdote
Day after I opened to my girlfriend about my porn issue and PIED, I told her that I lied and that my dick don't get hard to her because I'm actually gay and she laughed
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 10, 2019, 10:57:01 AM
Day 202

I played Kool & the Gang album to chill out for a lil bit and the first line on the album wsa literally "I can't get it up".
God why are you making an ass of me?
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: changemylife on January 10, 2019, 11:08:06 AM
Day 202

I played Kool & the Gang album to chill out for a lil bit and the first line on the album wsa literally "I can't get it up".
God why are you making an ass of me?

hahahahahahaha sorry for laughing but it's a funny situation.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 11, 2019, 06:52:06 AM
Day 202

I played Kool & the Gang album to chill out for a lil bit and the first line on the album wsa literally "I can't get it up".
God why are you making an ass of me?

hahahahahahaha sorry for laughing but it's a funny situation.

It's sad and funny as hell at the same time
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 11, 2019, 06:58:08 AM
Day 203

I've realised I'm using alcohol to silent down anxiety in social situations. Sometimes it's hard for me to get comfortable around some people (usually ones who I find important) and I drink a few beers/shots to relax.

This morning thoughts of never being able to get it up without visual/physical stimulation spiked fear in me, but I've been listening to some hip hop and I feel better now
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Post by: Douplefapastronaut on January 11, 2019, 07:06:43 AM
Stop alcool.

Alcool = MO
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: changemylife on January 11, 2019, 08:00:29 AM
Stop alcool.

Alcool = MO

I am an alcoholic and I can guarantee that alcohol doesn't help anything. The problem is still there. Anxiety is still there, depression is still there. Even worse, it raises my anxiety which pushes me to PMO even harder. Now I have 11 days without alcohol and I'm starting to notice some good things. Less anxiety, for starters, despise only have 2 days without PMO. I am not against drinking in moderation but I am against using alcohol as self-medication. As soon as you drink because you want to detach yourself from anxiety, stress etc. this is where the line is crossed. I've crossed the line 10 years ago and I drank my brains out. Now I'm trying to slow down.

Peace of mind, cause this is the most important.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 12, 2019, 06:03:55 AM
Day 204

Yesterday I went on instagram and naked picture appeared. I looked away immediately, later i unlocked my phone and it appeared again (I forgot to get out of instagram), I felt my hard pumping and I looked away in less than a second. And I'm back into the flatline because of this. Fuck
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: changemylife on January 12, 2019, 06:23:45 AM
Day 204

Yesterday I went on instagram and naked picture appeared. I looked away immediately, later i unlocked my phone and it appeared again (I forgot to get out of instagram), I felt my hard pumping and I looked away in less than a second. And I'm back into the flatline because of this. Fuck

Man, stay away from that fucking Instagram.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 12, 2019, 06:46:50 AM
Day 204

Yesterday I went on instagram and naked picture appeared. I looked away immediately, later i unlocked my phone and it appeared again (I forgot to get out of instagram), I felt my hard pumping and I looked away in less than a second. And I'm back into the flatline because of this. Fuck

Man, stay away from that fucking Instagram.

I dont feel urge to relapse, but i felt aroused. Fuck instagram
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: changemylife on January 12, 2019, 06:57:38 AM
Day 204

Yesterday I went on instagram and naked picture appeared. I looked away immediately, later i unlocked my phone and it appeared again (I forgot to get out of instagram), I felt my hard pumping and I looked away in less than a second. And I'm back into the flatline because of this. Fuck

Man, stay away from that fucking Instagram.

I dont feel urge to relapse, but i felt aroused. Fuck instagram

Exactly, it arouses you and why arouse yourself to something artificial anyway?
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 12, 2019, 06:28:46 PM
Libido returning after one day of flatlining. My gf is visiting me on Monday morning, we'll make lunch together and do some other things 3:) 3:)  We'll do the rewiring to make my dick less limp
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 13, 2019, 11:24:23 AM
Day 205

Last night I had 2 dreams where's my GF included. In the first one we broke up over something stupid and I felt horrible. In the second one we was having sex in a shower and I woke up with a rock hard boner. I was dissapointed it was only a dream, but I felt so happy in it.  If i ever pull through this pain and anxiety, I'll make sure to never relapse again, I don't even crave porn/instagram nudes and anything artificial anymore. I'm dreaming of being normal, enjoying sex and not think about will It ger hard and will i satisfy the person i care about. I dream about feeling masculine and full of self confidence again
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 14, 2019, 10:29:47 AM
Day 206

Making some progress here. My girlfriend visited me at 11:30 AM and we made lunch together. After that we went to bedroom, started making out, she was at the last stage of her period, but she said that she wants me inside of her anyway. I got hard boner while touching her, but lost it during 10 minutes of foreplay. Later she stroked my penis a lil bit until I got erected and we tried to go for a sex.

1st try
I penetrated with 80-90% erection but ejaculated as soon as making the first stroke. We stopped, I acted cool and we had conversation about porn addiction and random stuff. She is really good person.

2nd try

Maybe 30 minutes later, she wanted to give me a BJ and i got 100%, but i sad her to do it slowly and gently (because of my PE) She was giving me a blowjob like that for about 2 minutes and I decided to try vaginal sex again. I've put a condom and penetrated her with 75-85% erection, but sped up when I felt i'll lose it and boom! I was fucking her for about 2 minutes. But unfortunately we heard the door, my sister came back home and we had to stop. Fuck! But I was happy about those 2 minutes. I know I still have work to do and I don't know does this counts as successful sex, but I got some drive for my recovery.
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Post by: K-Dot on January 14, 2019, 05:13:45 PM
I also love this girl, maaan
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Post by: K-Dot on January 15, 2019, 10:40:39 AM
Day 207

I don't know is this chaser effect, but I can't wait to stick it in the vagina again
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: zander13 on January 15, 2019, 12:47:08 PM
Dude you're killing it. I'm envious.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 15, 2019, 05:55:50 PM
Dude you're killing it. I'm envious.

Man, yesterday I was sure I am still not able to maintain erection long enough to have successful penetration, my dick was soft most of the time, but it happened somehow. We need to take a risk of failure and fail sometimes  to succeed, that sentence is so cliche, but it's true
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 18, 2019, 11:44:35 AM
Day 210

My libido is actually good. What kills me these days is social anxiety. I find it hard to maintain conversation with many people
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 18, 2019, 08:24:30 PM
Drunk. Just to post this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4oV_ZjGJvIU
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Post by: K-Dot on January 19, 2019, 09:01:10 AM
Day 211

My girlfriend sent me some articles on messenger about how kissing is good for our health and immune system and that I'm her doctor according to it. I got 40-50 % erection from reading that message, even some precum came out. Damn
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 20, 2019, 08:02:42 AM
Day 212

Went to party with my girl, great night. She's coming over to my place at Monday, but I have to find a way to get my sister outta apartment, while my girlfriend is there. I have a problem with the place to have sex. I live with my parents and my sister and I am rarely home alone. But i need to have sex now more often to rewire and i have to figure it out it somehow
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 21, 2019, 11:14:50 AM
Day 213

Today I've tried to have sex with my girl 3 times and I've succeded to have penetration and last longer than a minute from the third try.

1st try
Did a lot of foreplay, but I needed her hand and mouth to get fully hard. I came while i was putting a condom, my dick was so sensitive after her blowjob, which i told her to do gently because of the sensitivity in my dick.

2nd try
I got erection after another blowjob, penetrated but my erection went from 70-80% to 40% - 50%  and i felt my foreskin going over my gland inside of her and it stimulated me to ejaculate once again.

3nd try
Whe was talking for a lil bit and then we decided to try again, I needed stimulation to get hard once again and i penetrated with 75%-85% boner, but I only had one condom left and it was a thicker one and I fucked her for about 3 minutes when i felt my boner started fading. I sped up but it caused me to cum once again, but i went down on her and did a fingering.

I realised I that I still lose erections when there's no stimulation from hand or mouth, I possibly have some death grip syndrome
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 22, 2019, 12:44:03 PM
Man I don't know what to do about this PE problem
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: zander13 on January 22, 2019, 03:52:48 PM
Man I don't know what to do about this PE problem

Dude look back at yourself a hundred days ago. You'd be happy to be worrying about PE, as opposed to no sex at all and a limp peep. You should be proud as hell of where you are! You're doing it man.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 22, 2019, 07:17:26 PM
Man I don't know what to do about this PE problem

Dude look back at yourself a hundred days ago. You'd be happy to be worrying about PE, as opposed to no sex at all and a limp peep. You should be proud as hell of where you are! You're doing it man.

thank you man, you're right. I was in 4 month flatline, now, I only go in one for a few days if I have multiple orgasms. I guess I just need more patience like all of us do
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 22, 2019, 07:17:41 PM
Day 214

I'm googling solutions for PE and I have similar feeling when I didn't know about porn induced ED and all the articles I've found were saying my ED is psychological. Only bullshit solutions. I think the best solution I've found is by Gabe Deem in one thread on rebootnation.org he says it goes away by time and to try karezza if I can't last long enough right now, but it's imposibble for me to try karezza at this moment, cause I lose erection if a penetration is slow, but when I speed up i bust in a seconds/minute. It's comedy when you are too sensitive to not cum quickly, but too desensitized to maintain an erection.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Hopeful4change on January 23, 2019, 12:03:04 AM
If you had a habit of tensing your pelvic floor to finish when you were jerking to porn you probably have a pelvic floor imbalance. Reverse kegels will fix your pe. I had this exact problem after pmo for too many years. I would involuntarily kegel during sex and because I started doing it while watching porn, it was a bad habit. Practice daily kegels with more reverse kegels at first , gradually working to a 50/50 routine. Also pull out before you ejaculate. You need to figure out your point of no return and learn to feel it coming, stop thrusting , kiss your girl, wait to cool down, then start again. Once you get over that initial urge, you can make yourself last longer with a bit more control. I watched an interview with one of the most famous male adult film stars and he said he has the same thing, as soon as he starts with a girl he could finish in a minute. Reverse kegels when you feel yourself approaching orgasm, changing your momentum or stopping briefly til it subsides will fix your problem.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 23, 2019, 12:36:22 PM
If you had a habit of tensing your pelvic floor to finish when you were jerking to porn you probably have a pelvic floor imbalance. Reverse kegels will fix your pe. I had this exact problem after pmo for too many years. I would involuntarily kegel during sex and because I started doing it while watching porn, it was a bad habit. Practice daily kegels with more reverse kegels at first , gradually working to a 50/50 routine. Also pull out before you ejaculate. You need to figure out your point of no return and learn to feel it coming, stop thrusting , kiss your girl, wait to cool down, then start again. Once you get over that initial urge, you can make yourself last longer with a bit more control. I watched an interview with one of the most famous male adult film stars and he said he has the same thing, as soon as he starts with a girl he could finish in a minute. Reverse kegels when you feel yourself approaching orgasm, changing your momentum or stopping briefly til it subsides will fix your problem.

Thanks man, is there any proper link for reverse kegels? Someone said that most people do them wrong and train their PC muslce instead of BC muscle or something like that, and that cause their PE to get even worse. I don't know anything about that, so can you recommend me some sources you've learnt from and fix your PE problem?
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Post by: K-Dot on January 25, 2019, 12:52:00 PM
Day 217

Spent day at my room due to hangover from last night. I did a hip hop show and got drunk on the stage. I had a conversation with my girlfriend after and she said that I was fire. I said to her that i appreciate what person I love thinks about my performance, she said she loves me also. This was the first time I told her that I love her after 5-6 months of us being together.
I am also in a flatline since Monday, when I had 3 Os
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Post by: K-Dot on January 26, 2019, 11:13:06 AM
Day 218

Woke up at 9:30 AM due to wet dream. This was strange, about one of my girlfriend's best friend.
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Post by: K-Dot on January 27, 2019, 04:26:29 AM
Today I feel dickless, followed with some dark thoughts
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 27, 2019, 06:15:36 AM
I've been rewatching all Gabe's videos lately, because my curret state reminds me of his. I was in a flatline for about 5 months and now I've entered  a 7th month of my reboot and I'm able to get hard for oral, but lose it quick for vaginal sex. I hope as I get close to month 9, that my erection will be more solid anc consistent, as in Gabe's situation. Gabe - our lord and saviour! We want to have your erection, as weird as it sounds
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Post by: Douplefapastronaut on January 28, 2019, 04:39:07 AM
Hi k dot !!

how often do you have a wet dream in one month?

a method to solve PE, could it be to slowly masturbate?
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 28, 2019, 09:34:53 AM
Hi k dot !!

how often do you have a wet dream in one month?

a method to solve PE, could it be to slowly masturbate?

This month only once, but months ago I had them every 7 to 10 days. Once, I had a wet dream 4 nights in a row
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on January 28, 2019, 09:36:11 AM
Day 220

Surviving the flatline, the 7th day, feeling dickless and kinda emotionless . I need money really badly, hope someone will come to my home studio to record some vocals
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Post by: K-Dot on January 29, 2019, 10:41:42 AM
Day 221
 
Don't know what to write today, just to post something so my thread stays at the top of this category
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Post by: K-Dot on January 31, 2019, 12:00:41 PM
Day 223

Wet dream woke me up at 5 AM(I had one last Saturday also). I'm feeling dickless. I was reminiscing about the days where i could get hard just by being around girls I like and it got me anxious and doubtful will I ever get my dick to work normally again
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Post by: Douplefapastronaut on January 31, 2019, 12:33:51 PM
at this stage having a wet dream a week is normal.

Go bro !!
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Post by: K-Dot on February 03, 2019, 10:20:05 AM
Day 226

Last night I had sex with my girl. I was able to last longer, We did missionary for a couple of minutes, than she got on the top for few minutes. I came in a second when i tried to pnetrate her from the back. My erection was not 100%, but was enough to have sex. Second time I needed some stimulation to keep it hard, i got horny from BJ she gave me and I came in a few seconds when i went for sex . It's getting better, but I still have a lot to do
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 04, 2019, 01:41:50 PM
227

I did not enter a flatline after 2 orgasms yesterday, I actually feel I have a dick, even if i still have boner problems. Today I feel anxious about my future - university, job, relationship. I need to get the shit done
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 05, 2019, 05:20:21 PM
228

Feeling okay today
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: changemylife on February 07, 2019, 02:10:54 PM
228

Feeling okay today
Damn, man, you're on the right track. Don't go out of the road to bump into a tree.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Rebooter2019 on February 07, 2019, 03:36:53 PM
Keep going man, you're almost there! Keep the good work!
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 11, 2019, 12:55:06 PM
Day 234

Today I've had some failure & some succes in sex with my girl

1st try
Got solid erection from BJ (I even caught some erections without direct stimulation). Penetrated her and came in a seconds

2nd try
The most successful try. Needed oral and hand stimulation to get solid erection, we did missionary and we made love for about 5-6 minutes. After that I wanted her on the top, but my boner started to go soft while switcing position. She gave me oral and she went on top and I lasted pretty long for my standards (10-15 minutes, maybe even longer). Later we tried to switch it, but i went soft again. When I got hard again I came as soon as I penetrated her. Erection was solid durig intercouse, but not 100%

3rd try
It was impossible for me to stay hard for successful penetration after 2 Os.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Pete McVries on February 11, 2019, 01:28:50 PM
Well, it didn't go perfectly, but in my book you are making good progress. Try to see the bigger picture.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 11, 2019, 03:50:35 PM
Well, it didn't go perfectly, but in my book you are making good progress. Try to see the bigger picture.

Thanks bro. Yea, when I went for sex on January 1st, I couldn't penetrate even once and I would cum from BJ in a seconds, even after 2 orgasms
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 12, 2019, 10:10:14 AM
Day 235

Feeling chaser effect today.
Feeling sceptical about duration of my recovery, it's taking so long. I'll be 8 months PMO-free in 10 days and I still expirience PIED
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: changemylife on February 12, 2019, 10:20:11 AM
Day 235

Feeling chaser effect today.
Feeling sceptical about duration of my recovery, it's taking so long. I'll be 8 months PMO-free in 10 days and I still expirience PIED
Gabe Deem said something similar, that it took him 9 months (?) not to experience PIED anymore. It could take some (long) time for sure. And this could trigger the feeling of never going away, being broken beyond repair. But it shouldn't be like this as other rebooters got rid of PIED, but after many many months...
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 13, 2019, 05:10:31 AM
Day 235

Feeling chaser effect today.
Feeling sceptical about duration of my recovery, it's taking so long. I'll be 8 months PMO-free in 10 days and I still expirience PIED
Gabe Deem said something similar, that it took him 9 months (?) not to experience PIED anymore. It could take some (long) time for sure. And this could trigger the feeling of never going away, being broken beyond repair. But it shouldn't be like this as other rebooters got rid of PIED, but after many many months...

Thanks bro. Broken-it's how i feel
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 13, 2019, 05:11:24 AM
Day 236

Feeling like shit. I can't stand being impotent like goddamn grandpa after 8 months of reboot
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 19, 2019, 01:54:38 PM
Day 242

This weekend I went outta town with my girl. We had great and loving time. We had sex all night, got some improvement, went soft sometimes, but I'm worried about one thing.
We had sex without condom for less than a minute and I've put it. Now I'm bit worried and waiting for her to get her period. She told me once that her period is very inconsistent and always late (sometimes 7 days, sometimes even for a month or longer). I went to pee a lot before sex that night, because we drank some beers, so i think there were no sperm in my precum. I'm still paranoid a lil bit, I just needed to flush it out here.

P.s. I came 5 times that night, I could go longer without losing erection at first 2 tries. I also didn't need physical stimulation to get hard in the first round, improvement is coming. Hope she won't get pregnant though... I love her and I can see her as a mother of my child, but I don't have any consistent income and still need to get my degree, I can't provide right now.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Pete McVries on February 19, 2019, 02:44:08 PM
K-Dot, you are killing it. Just watch out for the protection. I'm happy to read about your improvements, they are inspiring and give me a lot of hope! How long have you guys been together? Did you know her before you started rebooting? I'm asking because on YBR a rebooter suggested that we shouldn't wait for 90-180 days to pass in order to look for a gf. Instead, we should look right away and implement having a girlfriend into the rebooting process. I thought, it was an interesting thought, that I wanted to share.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 19, 2019, 03:21:17 PM
K-Dot, you are killing it. Just watch out for the protection. I'm happy to read about your improvements, they are inspiring and give me a lot of hope! How long have you guys been together? Did you know her before you started rebooting? I'm asking because on YBR a rebooter suggested that we shouldn't wait for 90-180 days to pass in order to look for a gf. Instead, we should look right away and implement having a girlfriend into the rebooting process. I thought, it was an interesting thought, that I wanted to share.

Thanks for your interest. I see you're helping to lots of guys on this forum, you're a good man.
I met her before (We have some mutual friends), but we didn't talk too much until the August when everything started. At that moment I was maybe 50-55 days into my reboot. But the first time when we went for a sex was for the New Year's eve and that's when I opened up to her and told her about my problem (after orgasming after 5 seconds during a blow job and after failing to penetrate her later). She was so understanding and she still is. She's really attracted to me and loves me more than before, even if my dick goes limp sometimes. She's one of the sweetest persons I've ever met and I love her man, I really love her. I think it's important to not act insecure about your PIED when you're opening up to your GF and when you can't get hard. You need to tell it in a confident way, so she doesn't feel sorry for you. She needs to be your support, not your therapist 
She also had really difficult times in her life. Her father had been sick since she was born and he died few years ago. Se also had a drug addict boyfriend, who caused her a lot of pain. I know for 100% I'll never go back to porn again, I made it so long without it, but she's one of the reasons that porn is not option anymore in my life. I want only her. I would really  to put a ring on that women one day

But I'll stay away from unprotected sex anyways, until I am sure that I would not regret, even if she gets pregnant. I need money maaaaaaan
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Pete McVries on February 19, 2019, 03:40:15 PM
Thanks for the kind words, brother! Sounds like you found yourself a sexy soulmate. What else can a man ask for? Good on you, mate!

Keep hustling! (https://youtu.be/hVAVaZqNeak)
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Reboot_ on February 19, 2019, 04:12:58 PM
Many say to not 'replace' the porn use with a woman... I agree that this doesn't cure the problem. However, this can give you incentive to quit porn. As much as people might want to think that porn rules all sexual impulse in the universe, down to the butterflies having sex in the air, the love of a woman clearly shows there is something much higher and spiritual at play.

Good work brother. A soul mate is not easy to find as I am on the hunt myself.

Best,     Josh
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 19, 2019, 05:08:51 PM
Thank you Pete and much love my brothers, If I can help you in some way you're free to DM me. And Josh I think the best way to find your soulmate is to go outside and do stuff you love to do and you'll meet someone there. I hooked up with this girl at my rap performance, she is the best friend of my colleague's girlfriend
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Pete McVries on February 19, 2019, 07:21:34 PM
I think, you mentioned somewhere that you own a studio and that you are an audio engineer? I've been an audio engineer myself for a while but this game is so unforgiving and it so hard to find work, that I decided to switch careers. It's not an easy task, so I got mad respect for pursuing your dream. Audio engineers truly love what they are doing, so finger's crossed that you will make it in this crazy game.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Reboot_ on February 19, 2019, 09:16:16 PM
After making maybe 8 bucks a month for my music, I sure do love it or I'm just plain crazy to have chased it for 14 years.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 20, 2019, 08:58:16 AM
Audio engineering is secondary thing for me, the first is song writing and producing. I don't own a real studio, just a home version, but i would like to build professional recording studio one day. I just need to also get my IT degree to have backup plan, I can't risk quiting my studies to chase music
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 24, 2019, 12:48:31 PM
Day 247

Yesterday I've passed 8 months without PMO. I am only one month away from Gabe's recovered state point.
Last few morning my MW is so solid. I had a dream last night about fucking a girl that was my crush during teenage days. This is the first sex dream duriing this reboot, where I neither had ED or PE. It's only a dream, but I hope that  the next time that I'll have sex (it should be i 2 days), the reality will match that dream
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Pete McVries on February 24, 2019, 02:39:26 PM
Congrats on 8 months, that's a huge achievement.

Here is my interpretation for the dream: I think your last decent successes were somewhat of a relief for you. I know these dreams to well. Many times have I dreamed about having sex in the past, and ALWAYS, I struggle with PIED. In my mind, it means that my subconsciousness is very occupied with the thought of failing again. Because it's such a horrible feeling. So when I'm having sex in dreams, there is always this tense moment when I'm about to penetrate, will it work, will it not work... So your dream not being about PE/DE could be interpreted as a good sign. Maybe your subconsciousness is not as worried about these problems anymore. Maybe you just relaxed more. I don't know. Anyways, wishing you a good experience in 2 days ;)
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 24, 2019, 03:18:40 PM
Congrats on 8 months, that's a huge achievement.

Here is my interpretation for the dream: I think your last decent successes were somewhat of a relief for you. I know these dreams to well. Many times have I dreamed about having sex in the past, and ALWAYS, I struggle with PIED. In my mind, it means that my subconsciousness is very occupied with the thought of failing again. Because it's such a horrible feeling. So when I'm having sex in dreams, there is always this tense moment when I'm about to penetrate, will it work, will it not work... So your dream not being about PE/DE could be interpreted as a good sign. Maybe your subconsciousness is not as worried about these problems anymore. Maybe you just relaxed more. I don't know. Anyways, wishing you a good experience in 2 days ;)

Pete, thank you my brother! I also think that these deams are sign of subconcious shift in my mind - I worry less about performing
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Pete McVries on February 24, 2019, 03:49:17 PM
You know, there is another thing you could try for a few weeks or even months. It's what sex therapists recommend in situations like yours where the guy deals with ED/DE. Be intimate with your girl, but don't focus on your erections or you getting an orgasm. Just be intimate with your girl, make sure your girl is good and all that stuff, have some fun but without actual penetration. That way, you could even become more and more relaxed until penetration just becomes the next natural step. I haven't tried it myself, so there is no first hand experience I can share, but maybe give it a try?!
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 24, 2019, 05:01:15 PM
You know, there is another thing you could try for a few weeks or even months. It's what sex therapists recommend in situations like yours where the guy deals with ED/DE. Be intimate with your girl, but don't focus on your erections or you getting an orgasm. Just be intimate with your girl, make sure your girl is good and all that stuff, have some fun but without actual penetration. That way, you could even become more and more relaxed until penetration just becomes the next natural step. I haven't tried it myself, so there is no first hand experience I can share, but maybe give it a try?!

I agree with you absolutely. I realised dick actually has the small percentage of getting women to orgasmand that the easiest way to make women cum is if she's emotionally engaged in you. Foreplay also does takes a big percentage and In my expirience dick comes after that. Most women also can't reach climax without direct clitoral stimulation. I do all stuff of seduction and foreplay with my girl. That's just my expirience
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 25, 2019, 07:24:17 AM
Day 248

First wet dream after more than 2 months, but it was about porn this time. However I've got solid morning wood and I feel sexual tension towards having sex with my girl tommorow. Bought some durex love condoms and some indian smelling sticks for atmosphere. I am only frustrated because of the fact that I live with my parents and I have to call my girl over only during the day. I find night much more romantic
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 26, 2019, 10:33:13 AM
Day 249

My girlfriend came to my place this morning. We cooked together and then went for sex. First two times i got few nice biners without direct stimulation, but i came in like 10-15 seconds when penetrating. The third time I was able to get hard and last really long, I lost erection few times, but I was able to get it back and keep on making love to my girl. I got 3 orgasms and I'll track will I enter the flatline in couple of next days.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Douplefapastronaut on February 27, 2019, 12:55:08 PM
maybe having many orgasms slows down your recovery, you have to take a break of at least 4 days between orgasm and another orgasm
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Pete McVries on February 27, 2019, 04:27:28 PM
K-Dot, I have a question. Do you have very quick or excessive release of precum? That can be symptom of PE.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 28, 2019, 07:34:00 AM
K-Dot, I have a question. Do you have very quick or excessive release of precum? That can be symptom of PE.

I think I have, especially in the first round, where I usually cum after 10 seconds of penetration. Later I last longer, but If I hit it from behind for example, I feel like I am always at the edge of orgasm. I last the longest when I let her be on the top. That's also when I feel she gets wet the most.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Pete McVries on February 28, 2019, 08:13:41 AM
I was asking because I'm facing the same problem. I know, it is porn induced because I haven't had the problem a few years ago. But now, when I watch P (which I don't do anymore) or even think about something remotely sexy for too long, there is a little bit of precum. It really makes me angry because I fear, it's something that cannot be fixed again. I really worry that something in my glands has changed forever...

And you know, many people have a misconception about precum. The majority of people think, it's a natural lubricant where in fact it is not. The body produces precum so that the sperm can travel easier through the "pipes" (sorry, I'm lacking a better word for it...). Therefore, it's a precursor of an incoming orgasm and a symptom of PE when released too early or in an excessive amount.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 28, 2019, 09:55:53 AM
I was asking because I'm facing the same problem. I know, it is porn induced because I haven't had the problem a few years ago. But now, when I watch P (which I don't do anymore) or even think about something remotely sexy for too long, there is a little bit of precum. It really makes me angry because I fear, it's something that cannot be fixed again. I really worry that something in my glands has changed forever...

And you know, many people have a misconception about precum. The majority of people think, it's a natural lubricant where in fact it is not. The body produces precum so that the sperm can travel easier through the "pipes" (sorry, I'm lacking a better word for it...). Therefore, it's a precursor of an incoming orgasm and a symptom of PE when released too early or in an excessive amount.

I've fantasized this morning about blow jobs I got few days ago and precum came out hahahaha
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on February 28, 2019, 02:48:14 PM
Day 251

Got horny today because of the thoughts of having sex with my gf.
Got really anxious about my future. I'm studying IT technology and curretly I am on a third try to finish the 2nd year. Programming and other stuff became really annoying to me and I don't know what to do with my life now. I know I should try to finish 3 years and get bachelor degree at least, but thoughts of learning all that code syntax and rules are horrify to me.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: all_in_now on February 28, 2019, 03:56:47 PM
Hey man, don't sweat all this coding stuff. You're a musician, remember the times when you tried to learn producing, sampling or playing an instrument? At first you say, "how am I ever going to learn this stuff?!". But after a while it just comes to you because the brain adapts and grows naturally. Put the effort in, see professors after class and you will see results. Don't worry about being wrong when studying/doing homework, make as many mistakes as you can before an exam and get them sorted. Don't give up.

Wishing you success.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on March 02, 2019, 08:39:34 AM
@all_in_now thank you so much for the support bro

Day 253

Thoughts about having sex with my gf are making my heart pump faster
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on March 03, 2019, 12:31:20 PM
Day 254

I think this reboot & rewiring thing is real. I used to feel like a zombie few months ago and all the women seemed so artificial. Now I get horny as hell when I am with my girl. I was unable to have vaginal sex at all, now I can (still have PIED, but it's 10 times better than before). The more I have sex, the better my erections are getting. Don't lose hope guys, I was suicidal about will I ever be able to have sex again, even when I was 6 months porn free. Just be patient and results are coming
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: KittyHawk on March 03, 2019, 04:10:48 PM
Sorry for small detour but more to the “too early precum problem” that Pete mentioned few posts up.

I read somewhere a while ago that it is in fact a direct result of too much abuse and is tied to some “tired nerve” in your junk. They said it fixes itself once you stop abusing PMO. I don’t remember exact scientific details but it sounded all logical to me. So do not panic, Pete and whoever else has the same problem/fear.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Pete McVries on March 03, 2019, 10:01:53 PM
Thank you, Kitty! It gives me a lot of hope. If I may, just today I thought about my ex gf E. and I really thought innocents thoughts like holding her hands and kissing her and having meaninungful conversations and before I knew, I had some precum in my pants. It's really crazy. But I must also add that I'm super sensitive these days. I get erections left and right if I think about something remotely sexy. It's crazy. And I'm just 57 days in...

Oh and K-Dot, I'm really happy to hear that your sex life is improving. 10 times better sounds big!
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on March 04, 2019, 03:01:34 PM
Kitty and Pete, thank you

Day 255

Had sex with my girl today, first time, she wanted to make me cum with BJ, The second time we switched a lot of positions, sex felt incredible. I've only noticed that my erection goes to 50%-60% when condom dries up. My boners still need to improve and be more consistent. At March 23rd I'll hit Gabe's recovery time (9 months)
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: all_in_now on March 04, 2019, 03:36:56 PM
Awesome progress! Even if you're not completely healed by Gabe's recovery time keep going for life. Everyone has different recovery times. I myself am so glad to be free of the damaging cravings/escalation porn produced for me. I can focus much better now.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Pete McVries on March 04, 2019, 05:25:00 PM
Reading this makes me very happy, K-Dot! Keep inspiring! Oh, and check my last post in my journal, if you haven't done already. :)
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on March 06, 2019, 09:18:12 AM
257

Some random thoughts about girlfriend's sexual past are chasing me this morning. I know on a logical level that It doesn't matter, cause it's only a past and I don't have any problem with her right now, she's perfect girlfriend, she loves me so much and she's obsessed with me. However I feel kinda bad when thinking about how many dudes she got before me, because I see she's good in bed. I know she had one abusive long term relationship  (She had sex with that guy 100%) and some not so serious relationship and that's all. I won't talk about it with her I think I need to get over it and accept the present moment. I just need to share it with my homies over here to take it off my chests
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Pete McVries on March 06, 2019, 10:37:43 PM
How does it make you feel? What are your emotions? Are you jealous, insecure or even frightened?

Also, if you don't mind, would you share your story about how you two got to know each other?
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on March 07, 2019, 04:47:40 AM
How does it make you feel? What are your emotions? Are you jealous, insecure or even frightened?

Also, if you don't mind, would you share your story about how you two got to know each other?

A bit jelaous, but only on subconcious level. On a logical level I know it doesn't matter, but my feelings are not inlined with it. Like it's hard for me to accept that some other dude before me had the same treatment. But I know I make her feel like noone did, I can see it. I need to make a shift in the thinking proccess. She's freaky with me, because all women are freaky. They just won't show it to everyone, because of social programming, which is making an atmosphere that sex is something dirty and shameful for women, instead of something natural. She's freaky in bed, because she trusts me and she see's that I am accepting that side of her without any judgement.

On how we got together:
Me and my friend (who I am making music with) had performance this summer. His girlfriend (I am also good friend with her) came to the show and she invited her best girlfriends to come (my girl is one of them). When we finished, all of her girlfriend's were trying to hook us up. They was trying to get me dance with her. When I got drunk I decided to do it and we started kissing while dancing ( I realized that she probably already had crush on me). Tommorow, when hangover kicked in,  I was ashamed that I am playing games with my female friend's best friend (I wasn't so pumped up for a relationship in that time) and I decided that I won't call her and that I'll forget about it. The night came and i went out to have a few drinks with my friend and when I was coming back home I ran into her...  We went to have a drink and fell back into kissing again. If I didn't run into her that night, we probably wouldn't be together today.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Pete McVries on March 07, 2019, 05:30:17 AM
Thanks for sharing your story. It's funny how similar our paths are. E. was at a show of a friend of mine and me once, too, before we got together. Nothing happened that night but I was astonished that she was there because we didn't invite her (it was open for everyone though). I was rapping and producing beats at that time. I don't do that anymore, unfortunately. Producing beats was my passion once but I lost it along the way even though all my friends urge me all the time to get back into it. I'd say I produced about 500 beats total over the years that's not few...
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on March 11, 2019, 11:19:31 AM
I can go without porn for the rest of my life. Even if you gave me 3 more lifes i still wouldn't need porn
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on April 03, 2019, 11:24:58 AM
Day 285

Relapsed god damn, fuck my life I'm gonna put my dick on the railway so train can smash it!

Just kidding you fools, I didn't relapse, I'm smashin' it! Went through the 7 day flatline. It ended few days ago and I got hard like a diamond for sex and lasted pretty long for the first round, my girl made really emotional/sexual sounds and it turned me on like a muthafucka, she said it never felt so good like that. I still have a lot of space to improve, but I can say that my sexual life is the best it has ever been. I've been driving my girl wild, even when I can't fully get hard, I'm doing so many crazy things. I can't imagine what'll happen when I get 100% healed, I'll make it rain maan!
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Quitforeverthenwin on April 04, 2019, 02:35:34 AM
Just saw your journal, congrats bro! Inspirational and motivating to see such a long period and the great rewards that result.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Pete McVries on April 04, 2019, 03:32:26 AM
Well done, K-Dot. As always, I'm very happy to read about your success. There seems to be real progress. That's so so great!
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on May 02, 2019, 11:01:20 AM
Day 314

Last month the frequency of sex with my gf was usually once a week (where I would orgasm 3 times at average) and my boners where great.
Last 2 weeks we had sex a lot - Friday 1 orgasm, Saturday/sunday - 4 orgasms, Tuesday/Wednesday/Thursday - 8 orgasms. I feel aroused and sometimes come really fast in the round 1 or 2, but for the later rounds I've noticed that It's harder for me to get aroused and to maintan erection - my dick feels  tired. I think I should pause with orgasms for a little bit and stretch the period between them out.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Quitforeverthenwin on May 04, 2019, 12:18:58 AM
Good insight. Glad you keep posting! Gives me motivation and a glimpse into what the future holds.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on May 04, 2019, 08:35:15 AM
Good insight. Glad you keep posting! Gives me motivation and a glimpse into what the future holds.

Thank you my man! I'm glad my story inspires you
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on May 04, 2019, 08:48:52 AM
Day 316

I don't know what the fuck happened yesterday... Two days ago I was so sexually exhausted. I've had 8 orgasms in 2 days and I could maintain erection only in the round 1 or 2. I told myself I'll take a week off from sex. But....
My girlfriend invited me to her place yesterday. We cooked a dinner and had sex 2 times and I was super horny and my erection was like a muthafucking iron both times. My refracotry period was shorter than ever. Later that night we was invited our friend's party and we slept over. We had sex 2 more times and the same happened. My dick was a muthafuking stone. I don't know what this is but i love it!!!
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Pete McVries on May 04, 2019, 10:19:45 AM
Great news!

Keep on, my man, you rock! 8)
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: Quitforeverthenwin on May 10, 2019, 06:17:15 PM
Just went through your whole journal beginning to end, really inspiring! I really needed to hear some success stories and see the process.
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on June 23, 2019, 10:35:59 AM
Today I passed 1 year of no porn
Sex is great. However, sometimes i do the marathons with my girl and we had sex 9-10 times in 3 days last week and I have tendency to feel exhausted after that. But I can heal after few days. Where I was only 6 months ago (PIED, PE, Flatlines) and where I am now is incredible. I would like to thank anyone who supported me in any way
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Post by: Pete McVries on June 23, 2019, 10:48:32 AM
Congratulations!  8)
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Post by: Lero on June 23, 2019, 02:07:49 PM
1 year without P! Wow, man! This is outstanding progress!
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on July 02, 2019, 02:27:44 PM
Confession

I need to get something off my chest...

Relationship that I have with my girl is wonderful. She is the best person I've ever met. There hasn't been a single argument since we got together (11 months). The only thing that started bothering me few months ago as I started to care more is that she gave her body to a few guys before me (I don't know the number I don't ask her about her sexual past) but I can guess that there are at least 3. She's also 23 and she's  only the second girl I've slept with. I know the past doesn't matter on logical level, but I get these negative emotions and I have unwanted scenarios of her with other dudes in my head. Sometimes I can notice that these thoughts are not bothering me and that I don't give a fuck about them, I know I'm the best she's ever had, but most of the time I feel really sad about them. I really love her and don't want to leave her, because she's perfect. But at the same time I feel this resentment

That's it
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Post by: Jones on July 02, 2019, 04:30:43 PM
Now i say Congratulations!!. Now defend your spot at the top I'll join yah soon.
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Post by: K-Dot on July 03, 2019, 10:04:42 AM
Now i say Congratulations!!. Now defend your spot at the top I'll join yah soon.
Thank you. I hope so
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: jixu on July 03, 2019, 10:15:33 AM
One day Thina and Lizzy were down at Gino's Bar and Grill enjoying their weekly meet-up luncheon that they both always looked so forward to.  Thina was gorgeous, smart, athletic, refined, and very considerate of others; she was currently dating a fine young man of many good qualities who was also 23 years old, the same as Thina and Lizzy.  Lizzy was also attractive and was very good at listening and had more than once provided Thina with a timely nugget of wisdom.  After having had finished their sandwiches and settling into their desserts, Lizzy, who had noticed Thina had been a little on edge during their meet-up, looked at Thina and said, "okay, out with it. What is on your mind?  Something is on your mind."  Thina meekly replied, "oh, it is nothing."   If there was one thing Lizzy knew, it was that Thina's "nothing' was always a "something." Lizzy wasn't buying the snow job this time.   "Look, Thina, either you tell me what is going on or I will grab the rest of your dessert and finish it myself and stick you with the bill. Quit messing around".

Realizing she was trapped, Thina whispered, " I have a confession.  I have to get something off my chest."  Lizzy's ears perked up as she leaned in just in time to hear the following:

  . 
"Relationship that I have with my guy is wonderful. He is the best person I've ever met. There hasn't been a single argument since we got together (11 months). The only thing that started bothering me few months ago as I started to care more is that he gave his body to a few girls before me (I don't know the number I don't ask him about his sexual past) but I can guess that there is at least 1.  He's also 23 and he's  only the third guy I've slept with. I know the past doesn't matter on logical level, but I get these negative emotions and I have unwanted scenarios of him with other girls in my head. Sometimes I can notice that these thoughts are not bothering me and that I don't give a fuck about them, I know I'm the best he's ever had, but most of the time I feel really sad about them. I really love him and don't want to leave him, because he's perfect. But at the same time I feel this resentment."


At this point Lizzy noted that Thina had not asked a question or sought advice.  Not knowing what to say, Lizzy simply asked, "is that it?"

Nodding and looking down, Thina simply replied, "that is it."
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: K-Dot on July 03, 2019, 10:43:43 AM
One day Thina and Lizzy were down at Gino's Bar and Grill enjoying their weekly meet-up luncheon that they both always looked so forward to.  Thina was gorgeous, smart, athletic, refined, and very considerate of others; she was currently dating a fine young man of many good qualities who was also 23 years old, the same as Thina and Lizzy.  Lizzy was also attractive and was very good at listening and had more than once provided Thina with a timely nugget of wisdom.  After having had finished their sandwiches and settling into their desserts, Lizzy, who had noticed Thina had been a little on edge during their meet-up, looked at Thina and said, "okay, out with it. What is on your mind?  Something is on your mind."  Thina meekly replied, "oh, it is nothing."   If there was one thing Lizzy knew, it was that Thina's "nothing' was always a "something." Lizzy wasn't buying the snow job this time.   "Look, Thina, either you tell me what is going on or I will grab the rest of your dessert and finish it myself and stick you with the bill. Quit messing around".

Realizing she was trapped, Thina whispered, " I have a confession.  I have to get something off my chest."  Lizzy's ears perked up as she leaned in just in time to hear the following:

  . 
"Relationship that I have with my guy is wonderful. He is the best person I've ever met. There hasn't been a single argument since we got together (11 months). The only thing that started bothering me few months ago as I started to care more is that he gave his body to a few girls before me (I don't know the number I don't ask him about his sexual past) but I can guess that there is at least 1.  He's also 23 and he's  only the third guy I've slept with. I know the past doesn't matter on logical level, but I get these negative emotions and I have unwanted scenarios of him with other girls in my head. Sometimes I can notice that these thoughts are not bothering me and that I don't give a fuck about them, I know I'm the best he's ever had, but most of the time I feel really sad about them. I really love him and don't want to leave him, because he's perfect. But at the same time I feel this resentment."


At this point Lizzy noted that Thina had not asked a question or sought advice.  Not knowing what to say, Lizzy simply asked, "is that it?"

Nodding and looking down, Thina simply replied, "that is it."

Thank you man, what a great answer, I appreciate it.  Really nice perspective. You wrote a story around my post with a lot of details to make me feel betters, thank you for your effort
Title: Re: Rebooting till my dick gets so hard that i could smash bricks with it
Post by: jixu on July 03, 2019, 01:45:46 PM
I wish I could claim credit but the perspective is yours, not mine-I just changed the pronouns around!  Friend, best wishes as you journey on !!