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Title: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on December 26, 2018, 11:13:48 AM
Given the fact that January is close, I'm launching the "Free January" challenge.

It means no edging, no porn watching, no masturbation to porn or porn fantasies/images from your mind, no looking at pictures on Instagram, Facebook etc. (You can insert here anything you think you should stay away from) throughout the month of January.

Seeing something by mistake doesn't count, only looking at/watching deliberately.

I'll do this. Whoever wants to join is welcome.


Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Remington.22 on December 26, 2018, 12:25:35 PM
I'm in.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: WoundedSparrow on December 26, 2018, 03:18:07 PM
I'm trying another reboot run myself. I'm in too. We'll call it: No Ejaculation January.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Mad Mike on December 26, 2018, 03:38:29 PM
I'm in! After finishing 2018 poorly I want to start 2019 as I mean to go on. For me that is no edging, porn, dating sites. Also i want to reduce the amount of Internet time i spend. Starting from today let's make the change fellow rebooters
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on December 27, 2018, 11:11:08 AM
I'm in for sure   currently  got a bit of a head start  as I am on a 23 day clean streak  But I'm going to add to the challenge  by coming to this journal here  everyday to report in    Lets do this together

     Post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on December 27, 2018, 11:26:05 AM
If you are at day 1 on January 1st or you have already a streak of 5, 10, 30 days or 5 years, the challenge is for everybody. Also, do things that month to move on with your life.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on December 27, 2018, 11:31:01 AM
I like all of these ideas  to go along with the central idea  that we are all going to stay clean for Jan no matter where we are in the battle 
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: DoneAtLast on December 27, 2018, 10:39:18 PM
Good luck guys!  The holiday season can be rough, and I'm sure many had setbacks.  Starting January with some goals instead of feeling defeated sounds like a great idea!
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on December 28, 2018, 04:05:59 AM
Good luck guys!  The holiday season can be rough, and I'm sure many had setbacks.  Starting January with some goals instead of feeling defeated sounds like a great idea!

You should join too. Let's do this! 1 month without porn!
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: DoneAtLast on December 28, 2018, 09:00:41 PM
I'll be with you, for sure.  I'm past the one year mark, so consider me along for the emotional support.  I certainly have more work to do in avoiding triggers and staying away from artificial sexual content with social media, so though relapsing isn't likely, I can still keep working to better myself.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 01, 2019, 06:49:21 AM
Alright, the challenge has started for me. I will be back to announce the result.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 01, 2019, 09:35:12 AM
I'm with you   Will pop in every day

     Post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Hand Solong on January 01, 2019, 01:22:28 PM
I'm in too!  It feels good to connect with people who are about to do the same thing I was planning to do! Now I don't have to go through it alone.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Hand Solong on January 01, 2019, 01:27:39 PM
I have a request. Will each of you upload a profile picture/avatar? Not a selfie necessarily, anything really. Just to you know add a little color and character to the topic.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: WoundedSparrow on January 01, 2019, 08:33:29 PM
Update: I failed. This is almost poetically ironic. Having just hit the 2 week mark, I accidentally saw a VERY triggering image on the internet and unfortunately, I gave in. However, as I was doing so, I felt different. Usually the rational part of my brain that fights the porn-addicted part is able to take pleasure in... pleasuring. However, the entire time I was not only aware of my disgust at porn, but actively disliking it as I partook. I could feel the conflict in my own head. The addicted part of the brain was getting what it wanted, but the rest of me was disgusted at the act. I didn't want to be there, I had to be there. This is a first for me. If my disgust and contempt for porn can outweigh my primitive impulses, I might actually have a chance. I lost the battle, but I got something that might help me win the war. Good luck to everyone else. I don't need a New Year's Resolution to kick porn, but it's at the top of my priority list. 
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Hand Solong on January 01, 2019, 10:25:02 PM
You're not alone in "...actively disliking as I partook..."

I've been there with porn, and cigarrettes.

Addiction is terrible..

Only at the moment t that you decide to give up on your desire to be PMO free do you fail. You're fine in my book.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 01, 2019, 10:41:06 PM
OK.  Fuck everyone.  I am in.  There will be no porn, no mo, no PMO, no ... well not no O because I am having sex on a regular basis.  This thread is officially hot for January.  I want ever porn addict who wants to get clean to commit to this thread.  At  a certain point, there is either commitment to altering your life or commitment to continuing it, as it is.  I commit to not watching porn for the month of January.  Any else who wants to join, welcome to the party pal.  Light it up.  This is an invitation.  Anyone committed to getting clean, to altering their life, to quitting porn addiction, post here.  changemylife I think you may have.  I will post here every day.   Thank you.  Let's get it started.  Commit. 

Thank you changemylife.  I think I will.  Good 2019.  Peace out. 

Psyc Ops.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 02, 2019, 04:53:08 AM
OK.  Fuck everyone.  I am in.  There will be no porn, no mo, no PMO, no ... well not no O because I am having sex on a regular basis.  This thread is officially hot for January.  I want ever porn addict who wants to get clean to commit to this thread.  At  a certain point, there is either commitment to altering your life or commitment to continuing it, as it is.  I commit to not watching porn for the month of January.  Any else who wants to join, welcome to the party pal.  Light it up.  This is an invitation.  Anyone committed to getting clean, to altering their life, to quitting porn addiction, post here.  changemylife I think you may have.  I will post here every day.   Thank you.  Let's get it started.  Commit. 

Thank you changemylife.  I think I will.  Good 2019.  Peace out. 

Psyc Ops.

That's right, man. That's the spirit. I am 100% committed to this, no excuses. If you want to do something, you do it.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 02, 2019, 07:56:17 AM
Day 2 begins   going to workout  and get after Christmas organisation done   should be a good day  will check in tonight   Good luck everyone in the January Challenge

   post often it helped me it will help you   
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 02, 2019, 09:22:58 AM
Day 2.  I am clear and clean.  No porn.  No artificial sexual stimulation. I will do this for January.  Every single day.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 03, 2019, 07:36:44 AM
Starting January challenge  Day 3     (day 32 or my total reboot ) Yesterday was a very good day  heading for the morning workout now

      cheers
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 03, 2019, 07:40:40 AM
Day 3

Stronger urges to fantasize in the morning but I've done a good job thinking about something else and not "watching" porn in my mind. And stronger urges overall to PMO, I would say 5/10. I am preparing for harder times. One who is prepared, deals with the problem better.
Staying away from triggers is now imperative. In the beginning, after you relapse and the urges have calmed down, you tell yourself you will do it with willpower, you can stay away from triggers, if triggers show up by mistake, you can close them, but it's not really like that. Always take safety measures. Make porn and triggers hard to access. It's always easier to prevent than cure.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 03, 2019, 07:54:08 AM
Update: I failed. This is almost poetically ironic. Having just hit the 2 week mark, I accidentally saw a VERY triggering image on the internet and unfortunately, I gave in. However, as I was doing so, I felt different. Usually the rational part of my brain that fights the porn-addicted part is able to take pleasure in... pleasuring. However, the entire time I was not only aware of my disgust at porn, but actively disliking it as I partook. I could feel the conflict in my own head. The addicted part of the brain was getting what it wanted, but the rest of me was disgusted at the act. I didn't want to be there, I had to be there. This is a first for me. If my disgust and contempt for porn can outweigh my primitive impulses, I might actually have a chance. I lost the battle, but I got something that might help me win the war. Good luck to everyone else. I don't need a New Year's Resolution to kick porn, but it's at the top of my priority list.

I had this going on with me many times. It was like a fight inside me. Half of me said: "You have no reason to stop this because you started watching porn and edging anyway. Just imagine how great it will feel after you O." And the other half said: "Nooo! Stop this shit right now! Come on, you can walk away!" I just sat there, in front of the computer knowing I had to stop but the addicted half of me won.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Hand Solong on January 03, 2019, 08:03:34 AM
I had this going on with me many times. It was like a fight inside me. Half of me said: "You have no reason to stop this because you started watching porn and edging anyway. Just imagine how great it will feel after you O." And the other half said: "Nooo! Stop this shit right now! Come on, you can walk away!" I just sat there, in front of the computer knowing I had to stop but the addicted half of me won.

Dilly, Dilly!!
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 03, 2019, 08:08:51 AM
It is easy to overthink this, and the addiction invites us to overthink it.  Overthinking it makes it complicated; complicated is difficult to solve. The addiction wants you to believe it is difficult to solve.  It is not difficult; painful, yes, difficult no.  It was easy to train our brains to become addicted because the dopamine response we get from using feels good. It is painful to train our brains not to get that response via porn because A) it does not feel good, as in it does not result in a dopamine high, and B) it hurts, because of withdrawals. 

The simple solution of quitting any addiction is abstinence.  Not using. 

Day 3 of this challenge.  Not using. 

Thank you changemylife. 
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 03, 2019, 08:23:14 AM
It is easy to overthink this, and the addiction invites us to overthink it.  Overthinking it makes it complicated; complicated is difficult to solve. The addiction wants you to believe it is difficult to solve.  It is not difficult; painful, yes, difficult no.  It was easy to train our brains to become addicted because the dopamine response we get from using feels good. It is painful to train our brains not to get that response via porn because A) it does not feel good, as in it does not result in a dopamine high, and B) it hurts, because of withdrawals. 

The simple solution of quitting any addiction is abstinence.  Not using. 

Day 3 of this challenge.  Not using. 

Thank you changemylife.

I agree with this. Obsessing about it makes it more difficult to solve. Quitting porn is definitely painful but we don't have to make it complicated because we know what we have to do.

Strong 24/7, even in sleep.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Hand Solong on January 03, 2019, 08:24:12 AM
Day 3 and still going strong over here as well. I faltered a little bit by searching these forums for stories that would spike my dopamine levels but I ultimately ended up disappointed. I feel better today.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: switched_off on January 03, 2019, 07:18:36 PM
I'm late to the challenge, however having realised while I've managed successfully to break my porn habit, I continue to use Instagram for dopamine micro-doses. So I'm in - no Instragram surfing, no flicking through news articles just because there was a glam image. I need to give my brain a chance to get used to normal dopamine levels.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Jones on January 03, 2019, 09:48:01 PM
I'm in with you guys,trying to get my libido back I'm at day 63.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 04, 2019, 06:22:01 AM
I'm late to the challenge, however having realised while I've managed successfully to break my porn habit, I continue to use Instagram for dopamine micro-doses. So I'm in - no Instragram surfing, no flicking through news articles just because there was a glam image. I need to give my brain a chance to get used to normal dopamine levels.

That's exactly what this challenge is for: Staying away from ALL artificial stimulation. Only getting pleasure from normal things in life, not screens.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 04, 2019, 06:22:44 AM
I'm in with you guys,trying to get my libido back I'm at day 63.
Day 63! That's outstanding progress, man!
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 04, 2019, 06:41:11 AM
Day 4

Morning is a minefield for me. It's the moment when the urge to edge and fantasize is strong because it has become routine. The reptilian brain makes me believe I would feel amazing if I PMOed but I've been through this before and I actually didn't enjoy it. When I tell it this, it really makes it so believable that this time it will be different. This time the "high" will be better. But what about that depressed feeling I get every time I relapse and that interferes with the "high", making it weaker? This is the "thinking" part of me trying to beat the animal part down with a baseball bat. And I'm doing a good job so far. 4 days and still going. Overall urges have increased to, let's say 6/10. Still careful. Still following the plan like reading the manual.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Hand Solong on January 04, 2019, 07:34:24 AM
Day 4

Still "sober." Triggers are powerful things and they can come at the most inopportune times from unexpected directions. My ex-wife had hip surgery. Because of this she sent me a picture of her X-ray a month after the surgery. In the x-ray you can see the contours of butt cheeks, and it appeared as though you could see her pantie line (but she wasn't wearing any. Nonetheless, I was charged up most of the night from seeing this x-ray. I was so tempted to ask her to sext me a picture but I didn't. I think I had a 50/50 chance of actually receiving one even though she knows all too well about my porn addiction.

...I continue to use Instagram for dopamine micro-doses....

I know your pain brother. I wound up paying for Net Nanny to block porn on my devices and also to block Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, Pinterest....etc. I would do the same thing but they eventually led me back to the path of PMO.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 04, 2019, 08:06:24 AM
Day 4 of the challenge  day 33 of my reboot    Feeling really good today and looking forward to getting a start

    cheers
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 04, 2019, 08:32:13 AM
Quitting is about changing patterns.  We have one pattern, then, we change, and we have another pattern.  Today I am running (2K) and...not watching porn.  I won't use porn today to jack my dopamine response system.

Day 4.  Clear.

If you are reading this, and you have the problem, you can too.  It will mean giving up something that you do not want to give up, but which has no value in your life. 

Only you can answer the question: Is it better for me with P in my life, or better for me without P in my life?

Tomorrow:  Day 5.

It's OK.   4 days have not killed me.  Tomorrow won't either.

Join us. 
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 04, 2019, 08:37:12 AM
It will mean giving up something that you do not want to give up, but which has no value in your life. 

This. How valuable it is for our lives it's the difference. We find pleasure in something we don't need. Many porn addicts have forgotten to find pleasure in normal life things.

Peace >-(^_^)-<
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: HumbleRich on January 05, 2019, 01:58:29 AM
32/90 today.  Keep on going guys!

Rich
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 05, 2019, 06:19:53 AM
Day 5

The brain is starved and begging me for any little micro-dopamine-rush. It pushed me to even watch a TV series and look at the girls there. It wants absolutely anything. Urges going up again, to 7/10. They're starting to bother me. I've had harder urges than this, I'm preparing myself to hit them in the following days.

Continued:

I had a moment of "I'm done with this, I will PMO cause it will feel good" but then I shook myself out of it. If I don't introduce my rational part in all this and let my animal part lead me, I will wake up after I've PMOed. I need to stop and think why I shouldn't do it. Urges fluctuate, going up to 8/10 then down to 7/10, even lower, throughout the day. If I understood one thing is that strong urges don't last forever. Also, images flood my mind like a river that just broke a dam. I have to keep brushing them away. It's how my brain tells me it needs anything for just a sip of rush. I look at normal girls and see PMO sources.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 05, 2019, 07:40:52 AM
Day 5 of the challenge  day 34 of present reboot   Ive been making sure I can be out of the house way more than usual  hit a few triggers yesterday but ensured I was keeping myself busy  so no real effect

     Hope all are keeping up with us

       Post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 05, 2019, 08:43:21 AM
Day 5, no porn.  Translation, no use of porn to achieve a dopamine rush.  It is not that I don't like a dopamine rush, I do, but I realized that getting it through artificial sexual stimulation could be, and was, addictive and had negative consequences in my life.  This is about humanity dealing with new tech.  We are figuring it out.  It is going to be OK.  If you are a newbie reading this, take a deep breath and do not panic. Take some time to study the problem, and you will find a solution to it.  There IS a solution, and the solution is simply not using P to achieve a dopamine hit.  That takes time and effort; like studying for a test.  But you can do it.  Back tomorrow for day 6 clear.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 05, 2019, 09:45:46 AM
I've relapsed. For me, the challenge is a failure. I'm fucking ashamed cause I've started it. I gave in to edging. I feel like I could never beat this addiction no matter what. Don't listen to me if you want to recover cause I'm a shit example and I don't know what the fuck I'm talking about. I'm the guy who relapses once every 5 days, constantly. The porn junkie. That's how I should change my username.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 05, 2019, 10:04:52 AM
Change it back man   than get back up on your feet and try again  I fought this for over 30 years   I really got serious over a tear ago and it has taken me this long to finally feel I could win over it   Keep coming here  and take inspiration from the other fellows   Were here to support you weather your winning or losing   A reboot in not a straight line   a curvy  and hilly road  with a detour is still going to get you to your destination

         Post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 05, 2019, 10:13:04 AM
Change it back man   than get back up on your feet and try again  I fought this for over 30 years   I really got serious over a tear ago and it has taken me this long to finally feel I could win over it   Keep coming here  and take inspiration from the other fellows   Were here to support you weather your winning or losing   A reboot in not a straight line   a curvy  and hilly road  with a detour is still going to get you to your destination

         Post often it helped me it will help you

Thanks man.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 05, 2019, 10:59:21 AM
Pornjunkie.  It is because you have not made the decision, and the decision, for guys like us, is incredibly difficult to make.  I know.  You are still trying to control porn.  For a junkie, porn cannot be controlled.  That must be accepted.  Accept that you have no control over it.  It is no tragedy.  Your situation is not tragic. Porn addiction is not something that just happens to us, it is a trained, learned, conditioned behavior. It is not like catching a cold; we train our brains over years to become addicted, it is just that we do not understand that at the time.  So, time to start understanding the way your brain works.

Accept that because you have no control over porn, the only way to have any control is to eradicate if from your life.  Once you accept you cannot control it in your life, but are just giving it up, as in forever, impossible becomes merely incredibly difficult.  You are a member of the alpha species on the planet.  If you try, very hard, you will eat incredibly difficult for a mid morning snack.  No easy way out, but, there is a way out.  Quit the challenge, quit counting the days.  The days do not matter if you are quit forever.   
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 05, 2019, 11:04:24 AM
Pornjunkie.  It is because you have not made the decision, and the decision, for guys like us, is incredibly difficult to make.  I know.  You are still trying to control porn.  For a junkie, porn cannot be controlled.  That must be accepted.  Accept that you have no control over it.  It is no tragedy.  Your situation is not tragic. Porn addiction is not something that just happens to us, it is a trained, learned, conditioned behavior. It is not like catching a cold; we train our brains over years to become addicted, it is just that we do not understand that at the time.  So, time to start understanding the way your brain works.

Accept that because you have no control over porn, the only way to have any control is to eradicate if from your life.  Once you accept you cannot control it in your life, but are just giving it up, as in forever, impossible becomes merely incredibly difficult.  You are a member of the alpha species on the planet.  If you try, very hard, you will eat incredibly difficult for a mid morning snack.  No easy way out, but, there is a way out.  Quit the challenge, quit counting the days.  The days do not matter if you are quit forever.   

That's right, man, but it seems so fucking incredibly difficult.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 05, 2019, 11:41:14 AM
It is incredibly difficult.  Before you take the first step you have to have made the decision to suffer.  In a sense, for a junkie, the decision to quit addiction is the decision to suffer.  It is a hard choice.  That pain will, eventually, lessen, and go away, and there is a morning in your future where you wake up and don't even miss it, porn and the dopamine euphoria it brings.  But, between now and then, there is pain.  Pain is the price we pay for freedom.  Pay it, or stay in the chains.  If you pay it, you will one day conclude the price was a cheap price to pay, in return for what you get.  If you don't pay it, you keep your chains.   
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 05, 2019, 12:13:09 PM
It is incredibly difficult.  Before you take the first step you have to have made the decision to suffer.  In a sense, for a junkie, the decision to quit addiction is the decision to suffer.  It is a hard choice.  That pain will, eventually, lessen, and go away, and there is a morning in your future where you wake up and don't even miss it, porn and the dopamine euphoria it brings.  But, between now and then, there is pain.  Pain is the price we pay for freedom.  Pay it, or stay in the chains.  If you pay it, you will one day conclude the price was a cheap price to pay, in return for what you get.  If you don't pay it, you keep your chains.

You know, one of man's biggest fear is the unknown. With this addiction, I have no idea when the pain ends. I don't know how much I have to wait and how much withdrawal with urges I have to go throw. But you're right. If you never start, you never reach the finish.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 05, 2019, 06:44:29 PM
Do the hard 90, and dedicate yourself to it. Don't use porn for 90 days. Plan on suffering and plan on avoiding the dopamine rush from artificial sexual stimulation. Think of the hard 90 as training wheels. By the end, if done right, you won't need them anymore to ride that bike.  Are you going to wreck it a couple of times?  Maybe, but no one forgets how to ride the bike.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 05, 2019, 06:49:51 PM
Do the hard 90, and dedicate yourself to it. Don't use porn for 90 days. Plan on suffering and plan on avoiding the dopamine rush from artificial sexual stimulation. Think of the hard 90 as training wheels. By the end, if done right, you won't need them anymore to ride that bike.  Are you going to wreck it a couple of times?  Maybe, but no one forgets how to ride the bike.

That's right, man. I've calmed myself down a little bit from how pissed off I was after the relapse, now I can think more clearly. Alright, I will commit myself to the hard mode. After all these years of artificial pleasure, I can't avoid the pain. I just want to end the circle of: Suffering (urges) -> Relief (relapse) -> Suffering again. I might as well go through the suffering once and be done with it than encountering it every time. I can't believe I let the edging throw me down today.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Mayer on January 06, 2019, 03:48:27 AM
I'm in, I have not used porn for  couple of years now, but every little incentive helps to keep on the straight and narrow. I am currently trying to swear less too, so I am going to add that to my free January. I think swearing as much as I do, especially at work, harms my character, I think it lessens peoples respect of me. I also think it quite a immature thing to do and is kind of another addiction I want to leave behind. For me it means maturity and personal growth. I want to bury it with my porn addiction.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: imaquitter on January 06, 2019, 04:28:01 AM
I'm in!

I'm currently on day 80 free of PMO, but only day 9 hardmode.
January will be my new hardmode streak!

Thanks changemylife.

And you can do it!  :) :) :)
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 06, 2019, 08:46:37 AM
6.  Clear. No porn, no use of artificial sexual stimulation to reach a dopamine high.  I did have sex yesterday. I got no complaints. :)
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 06, 2019, 09:47:05 AM
Day 6 for me too day 34 of my current clean streak  things feel pretty good   had a slight trigger last night but it did not lead to any sort of urge   more on that in my reg journal  This little exercise is really helping  to keep my mind on a little  fact  "I have done 34 days so far  the Jan challenge of  30 days p free should be an easy one for me to add to it as I have done it alread"

     Post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Hand Solong on January 06, 2019, 02:49:01 PM
That's right, man. I've calmed myself down a little bit from how pissed off I was after the relapse, now I can think more clearly. Alright, I will commit myself to the hard mode. After all these years of artificial pleasure, I can't avoid the pain. I just want to end the circle of: Suffering (urges) -> Relief (relapse) -> Suffering again. I might as well go through the suffering once and be done with it than encountering it every time. I can't believe I let the edging throw me down today.
Hey changemylife, I've read your last few posts....don't be so hard on yourself. After 20 plus years of smoking cigarettes I finally figured it out for myself and I'm currently 15 months cigarette free. I failed a whole bunch of times but I would never have gotten to enjoy the 15 months of freedom I currently enjoy if I had quit trying. I'm right here with you trying to quit this PMO addiction. I'm determined to keep failing until I get this one right too! I'll tell you this much though, you've got me beat in the sense of your NOFAP got off track because of edging. I could never edge. If I start....I "O".

Keep the faith.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: jjo7 on January 06, 2019, 03:23:05 PM
I’m in on this as well - much better than “dry January” to just avoid alcohol...

Had a relapse today after 17 days clean (and on top of many similar/longer breaks over the last few months).

Here to permanently stomp out the small flames and embers that continue to burn as I’ve worked to control and tame the raging fire that has been the porn/maaturbation addiction of my life the last many years.   I am finally at a place where I feel....I know....I can control my urges and that porn no longer dominates my life.

BUT, I am also aware how dangerous this addiction can be and how one slip here and one slip there can easily lead to a cascade of more and more binging and craving and dopamine desperation.

So here’s to all joining in this challenge - Jan 31st here we come!!
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: chirmtaking on January 06, 2019, 03:42:24 PM
Techincally Day 5 for me, as I began the New Year with a hungover relapse  :'( (note: hangovers a definite trigger).

However, as soon as I had finished, I was determined to go the rest of the month clean. Since then, I've been going well, no porn, avoiding trigger situations, keeping myself busy outside and with family. Around the 5-10 day mark is when urges are strongest, and when I am most susceptible to triggers (yesterday just seeing a hot newsreader on TV almost sent me over the edge!).

Good luck to everyone else for the rest of the month - and beyond!
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 07, 2019, 06:05:30 AM
Okay, I'm 7 days too late, as I've failed the challenge but, anyway, today I started my hardmode experiment. My first goal is 1 week.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 07, 2019, 07:40:22 AM
7.  No porn. No use of artificial sexual stimulation to boost a dopamine high.  It will be this way, every day, this month. Period.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 07, 2019, 08:16:43 AM
Day 7 for  me  and day 35 of present streak    got up early  good workout   feeling really good about the day   cheers to everyone rebooting
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Hand Solong on January 07, 2019, 12:13:24 PM
Day 7

Today's a good day. I had been battling some strong urges over the weekend but today it feels like my mind, body, and soul are at peace. I'm really starting to believe that I'm going to look back and think getting rid of the internet at home and using software to keep the mobile devices in check were the best things I did for myself in 2019.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 08, 2019, 07:39:00 AM
Day 8 of the Jan challenger and day 37 of current reboot   Things going very well   heading off to post in reg journal   good luck all and chhers
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 08, 2019, 07:46:51 AM
Day 8 of the Jan challenger and day 37 of current reboot   Things going very well   heading off to post in reg journal   good luck all and chhers

Second day hard mode. No excuses cause I've had enough of this addiction controlling me.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 08, 2019, 09:05:04 AM
8. Clear.  No porn. 
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: neuroaddict on January 08, 2019, 11:36:05 AM
"If you are as seriously PORNoholic as we were, we believe there is no middle-of-the-road solution."

I need to expose a ridiculous reservation I've been having since becoming abstinent (14 days ago). I keep fantasizing about watching Game of Thrones, when the new season airs in a couple of months. It's the last season, and I really want to know how the story ends. But I'm a porn addict, and I also know that there's a TON of softcore porn in that show, which is exactly what my addiction wants to feed on. My mind keeps saying "You'll be fine. By the time it airs, you'll be cured, and you can watch stuff like a normal person, with impunity." Or, "Everyone else is going to be watching it, and you'll be left out." I need to make a decision about this now, and I probably should just go ahead and remove the HBO app from my Roku. There's hardly anything on that channel that isn't TV-MA (that I'd want to watch, anyway), and I'm trying to stick to a PG-13 mental diet. Moreover, I simply don't think I can be "cured" of porn addiction, in the sense that I can ever watch it again without spiraling out of control with it. If I'm enjoying my porn use, I'm not controlling it. And if I'm controlling my porn use, I'm not enjoying it. Anyway, hope all are well out there. Happy Tuesday!
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 08, 2019, 11:46:39 AM

     " If you are as seriously PORNoholic as we were, we believe ther"e is no middle-of-the-road solution."

    Is this comment directed to anyone in particular?


          Post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 08, 2019, 11:54:41 AM
"If you are as seriously PORNoholic as we were, we believe there is no middle-of-the-road solution."

I need to expose a ridiculous reservation I've been having since becoming abstinent (14 days ago). I keep fantasizing about watching Game of Thrones, when the new season airs in a couple of months. It's the last season, and I really want to know how the story ends. But I'm a porn addict, and I also know that there's a TON of softcore porn in that show, which is exactly what my addiction wants to feed on. My mind keeps saying "You'll be fine. By the time it airs, you'll be cured, and you can watch stuff like a normal person, with impunity." Or, "Everyone else is going to be watching it, and you'll be left out." I need to make a decision about this now, and I probably should just go ahead and remove the HBO app from my Roku. There's hardly anything on that channel that isn't TV-MA (that I'd want to watch, anyway), and I'm trying to stick to a PG-13 mental diet. Moreover, I simply don't think I can be "cured" of porn addiction, in the sense that I can ever watch it again without spiraling out of control with it. If I'm enjoying my porn use, I'm not controlling it. And if I'm controlling my porn use, I'm not enjoying it. Anyway, hope all are well out there. Happy Tuesday!

That's right, man. Don't fall into that trap. I've quit watching my TV shows because of this and I don't regret it. Why sabotage myself? I want to cure myself and I will do anything.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 08, 2019, 11:59:14 AM

     " If you are as seriously PORNoholic as we were, we believe ther"e is no middle-of-the-road solution."

    Is this comment directed to anyone in particular?


          Post often it helped me it will help you

Come on, man! I AM a PORNoholic and an alcoholic but I have 1 week without alcohol, I'm waiting for 1 week without porn, fuck em.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Hand Solong on January 08, 2019, 12:03:34 PM
"If you are as seriously PORNoholic as we were, we believe there is no middle-of-the-road solution."

I need to expose a ridiculous reservation I've been having since becoming abstinent (14 days ago). I keep fantasizing about watching Game of Thrones, when the new season airs in a couple of months. It's the last season, and I really want to know how the story ends. But I'm a porn addict, and I also know that there's a TON of softcore porn in that show, which is exactly what my addiction wants to feed on. My mind keeps saying "You'll be fine. By the time it airs, you'll be cured, and you can watch stuff like a normal person, with impunity." Or, "Everyone else is going to be watching it, and you'll be left out." I need to make a decision about this now, and I probably should just go ahead and remove the HBO app from my Roku. There's hardly anything on that channel that isn't TV-MA (that I'd want to watch, anyway), and I'm trying to stick to a PG-13 mental diet. Moreover, I simply don't think I can be "cured" of porn addiction, in the sense that I can ever watch it again without spiraling out of control with it. If I'm enjoying my porn use, I'm not controlling it. And if I'm controlling my porn use, I'm not enjoying it. Anyway, hope all are well out there. Happy Tuesday!

That's right, man. Don't fall into that trap. I've quit watching my TV shows because of this and I don't regret it. Why sabotage myself? I want to cure myself and I will do anything.

I agree man. The addiction definitely has something to do with your fantasizing about Game of Thrones and your "You'll be fine. By the time it airs..." thought processes. I go through similar things as well. I never did get into GOT because of the soft porn. If memory serves me correct, the very first episode had some nudity in it and from that point I told myself that GOT wasn't for me.

Happy Tuesday to you as well.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 08, 2019, 12:08:19 PM
I agree man. The addiction definitely has something to do with your fantasizing about Game of Thrones and your "You'll be fine. By the time it airs..." thought processes. I go through similar things as well. I never did get into GOT because of the soft porn. If memory serves me correct, the very first episode had some nudity in it and from that point I told myself that GOT wasn't for me.

Happy Tuesday to you as well.

I had to give up some TV series and one right after the first 20 minutes of the first episode for this particular reason. My brain wants any micro-dose. If I don't give my brain the full dose of P, it wants even a picture. Anything. This thing could be subtle and some people might not even realize it. They think they're doing a great job staying away from hardcore P but their TV series or their Facebook is the first sip from the bottle and then they switch to porn and drink the whole bottle, before they realize. If we are aware of this, we don't need to sabotage ourselves. I even had to quit some stupid fetishes I had because one of these made me relapse 3 days ago. If we seriously want to cure ourselves, we really need to up our game and do anything it takes and stay away from anything in order to do it.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Sentimental_geek on January 08, 2019, 04:29:48 PM
Is it too late to join? I am 11 days into a reboot but have had issues with peaking and edging and nearly relapsed today. SO i need something to encourage me.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 08, 2019, 04:31:13 PM
Is it too late to join? I am 11 days into a reboot but have had issues with peaking and edging and nearly relapsed today. SO i need something to encourage me.

No.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 08, 2019, 04:33:17 PM
If everything goes according to plan, by the end of this challenge I will have a 25 days streak. Dreams, man. We gotta dream.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 08, 2019, 04:45:25 PM
Please join in Sentimental Geek    Its never too late to join a challenge   The thread is good just for ensuring a bit of accountability by just giving you somewhere to go each day   a steady reminder  of why we are here  and to give and receive even a short   piece of encouragement   The 30 day challenge was not a big goal   like the 90 day reboot   its a smaller easier  one to meet  and even  those who join in a few days late  it is worth their while for sure

      Post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Sentimental_geek on January 08, 2019, 05:32:29 PM
Thanks!

Having had a bit of an up-and-down day, tomorrow gives me the opportunity to get back on it, and start doing this properly!
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 09, 2019, 09:05:02 AM
9 days.  Clear.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xoMgnJDXd3k
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 09, 2019, 09:47:55 AM
9 days on the challenge  38 days clean on present reboot   feeling really strong about today   gonna go take on some world

    cheers

     Post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: imaquitter on January 09, 2019, 11:10:41 AM
Day 9 of January. 11 days in hardmode. I'm not thinking about porn. It feels good. Day 83 clean. January will be a clean month.

We're in this together! :)
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 09, 2019, 11:58:34 AM
Day 0
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: neuroaddict on January 09, 2019, 12:42:42 PM
Keep your head up, man. We fall down 5 times, we get up 6.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 09, 2019, 02:12:08 PM
Most people, especially newies, fail multiple times because they do not understand the problem they are seeking a solution for.  Too many think the problem is "porn", and so think the solution is quitting watching porn.  That is too simplistic, and in fact, wrong.  The problem is using porn to achieve a dopamine rush.  It is the dopamine rush that is addictive, not the porn we use to get it.  Gary Wilson figured it out 6 years ago.  Watch this, study this.  It helps.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wSF82AwSDiU
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: chirmtaking on January 09, 2019, 04:22:02 PM
Day 8 Hardmode. Have had a cold since Monday, which funnily enough seems to help the challenge as my libido is almost null. Onwards and upwards.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Sentimental_geek on January 09, 2019, 05:36:35 PM
So today is day 12 of my reboot.

But it is day one of doing free January, as I've had a week or so of the odd bit of peaking and edging. Felt okay today actually. Not much in the way of urges.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: switched_off on January 09, 2019, 07:20:25 PM
My January challenge is going well and I'm finding it easy to stay away from all the dopamine micro-dose sources, like Instagram, I had continued to mindlessly browse since quitting porn last September.

My only exposure to mildly provocative images was a viral post on FB for a clothing retailer called Beginning Boutique in Australia,  where all these women were taking the piss out of the skimpiness of the bikinis etc, commenting that their flaps would be blowing in the wind if they were to wear something like that:) It made me laugh and was mildly liberating because I felt a sense of belonging alongside all the normal women of all shapes and sizes, rather than the idealized and supposed perfect image of the model who we are all supposed to lust after or want to be (depending on our gender).

I no longer want to be a slave to these images (and videos), porn or otherwise, which are in no way representative of the vast majority of human beings. OK, my wife is not a twenty-something nymphette that is willing to act like a sex robot and satisfy my every deviant wish. But she is my wife, she knows me better than anyone else and with my brain in normal mode, we are capable of fulfilling each other in a way that porn cannot come near to replacing.

Keep strong everyone, break free from our slavery to porn!!
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 10, 2019, 07:02:34 AM
Day 10 of Jan Challenge  day 39 of present reboot  up early  and feeling confident  pretty much 1/3 of the way through
   good luck to everyone in there reboots

      Post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Hand Solong on January 10, 2019, 08:01:40 AM
Day 10

I'm 10 days in. Hard Mode (I think). I haven't relapsed but I've definitely substituted M'ing myself to death with eating myself to death. Is this happening to anyone else? My cravings for restaurant foods have gone through the roof.

I feel lonely. I feel depressed. I keep telling myself that it's just withdrawal causing me to think those thoughts.

I've never been a drug addict but I did experiment with cocaine a dozen times give or take. I usually acted out when I did experiment.....surprise, surprise! I keep having drug thoughts/cravings and I haven't touched the stuff in over a decade. Thoughts of ways I acted out when I experimented have flooded my consciousness occasionally throughout these past 9 days.

I tried to attend an SA meeting last night but only two others were there and it wrapped up just as I walked in the door (about 10 minutes late). They told me about an SAA meeting tonight that I'm considering attending. I've tried twelve step before but it didn't really work for me. I'm returning to them because I've been feeling strong cravings to just interact with people. It's a little scary because I'm an African American on Long Island (NY) and from what I've experienced so far since moving here in 2013 is that black and white don't really intermingle out here. I'm probably going to have a drink beforehand to find the nerve to go in. I had two drinks last night before going to the SA meeting.

Thanks for reading.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 10, 2019, 08:14:14 AM
Day 10

I'm 10 days in. Hard Mode (I think). I haven't relapsed but I've definitely substituted M'ing myself to death with eating myself to death. Is this happening to anyone else? My cravings for restaurant foods have gone through the roof.

I feel lonely. I feel depressed. I keep telling myself that it's just withdrawal causing me to think those thoughts.

I've never been a drug addict but I did experiment with cocaine a dozen times give or take. I usually acted out when I did experiment.....surprise, surprise! I keep having drug thoughts/cravings and I haven't touched the stuff in over a decade. Thoughts of ways I acted out when I experimented have flooded my consciousness occasionally throughout these past 9 days.

I tried to attend an SA meeting last night but only two others were there and it wrapped up just as I walked in the door (about 10 minutes late). They told me about an SAA meeting tonight that I'm considering attending. I've tried twelve step before but it didn't really work for me. I'm returning to them because I've been feeling strong cravings to just interact with people. It's a little scary because I'm an African American on Long Island (NY) and from what I've experienced so far since moving here in 2013 is that black and white don't really intermingle out here. I'm probably going to have a drink beforehand to find the nerve to go in. I had two drinks last night before going to the SA meeting.

Thanks for reading.

Food craving happens to me when my anxiety raises. I am constantly hungry and eating, even late at night. I didn't have this until my breakdown in 2009 and then I had a long period of hunger problems. I used to go out with something in my pocket all the time because if I didn't eat, I felt sick. I am guessing that it happened because of my nervous system wrecked by the breakdown.

What I would like to say is that we must fight not to substitute an addiction for another and also, if we have more than 1 addiction (my case), we must try not to indulge in the other addiction more because now we're staying away from porn. My drinking went through the roof anytime I relapsed because I felt so low and depressed and I tried to use that to elevate myself (which is only kidding yourself cause it doesn't elevate anything. On the contrary, I don't feel the alcohol euphoria cause I'm numbed because of too much PMO). I've relapsed 3 times this month, binged twice (you don't even know how much it pisses me off) but I've been staying away from alcohol despise this which is a good thing. Alcohol will not save me.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 10, 2019, 09:25:36 AM
10.  Clear.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FNEJXKTSkYM

Never going back. 
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: HumbleRich on January 11, 2019, 03:09:09 AM
Day 39/90.  Keep it up, guys.

Rich
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 11, 2019, 05:05:04 AM
Day 2 hard mode. I should've had 11 days, for Christ's sake.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: chirmtaking on January 11, 2019, 05:32:53 AM
Day 10 hardmode. Weird thing happened to me while having a siesta yesterday afternoon. Almost unconsciously, I found myself masturbating prone against the bed sheets - something I have never done (I've always masturbated supine). I stopped when I realised what was going on, but my mind was flooded with erotic thoughts (interestingly, not porn flashbacks,  but memories of previous real-life sexual encounters), and I had to make a real effort to stop myself MO'ing. Since then, I have a noticed a lot of tension in my groin area - classic blue balls. It feels like then only way to relieve it is to release some semen, but I am hoping it will pass today and I can continue towards 30 days hardmode. Good luck to everyone else.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 11, 2019, 07:40:23 AM
day 11  still going strong   day 40 of present reboot

    cheers    post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 11, 2019, 08:28:34 AM
11 clear.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 12, 2019, 06:56:06 AM
12.  No porn.  Clear.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 12, 2019, 06:58:30 AM
3rd day hard mode. I should've had 12 days, maaaan! It's my 12th day without alcohol.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Sentimental_geek on January 12, 2019, 07:40:00 AM
Thats my attempted fucked as I just relapsed :-(
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 12, 2019, 07:48:44 AM
Thats my attempted fucked as I just relapsed :-(

How much did you have, 2 weeks?
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 12, 2019, 09:17:26 AM
Day 12 in the challenge  keeping 100% clean   also day 41 of my  total reboot  things progressing well  almost half way to the big 90  this is my 3rd attempt  and each one seemed to  become easier I believe from all the reading education and understanding  of what our illness is and how to best fight it  and beat it

      Post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Sentimental_geek on January 12, 2019, 03:53:57 PM
Thats my attempted fucked as I just relapsed :-(

How much did you have, 2 weeks?

15 Days but a bit of peeking and the odd bit of edging. 2 days hardmode then a fucking  relapse! Gonna try again. Story of my life
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 12, 2019, 03:59:20 PM
Thats my attempted fucked as I just relapsed :-(

How much did you have, 2 weeks?

15 Days but a bit of peeking and the odd bit of edging. 2 days hardmode then a fucking  relapse! Gonna try again. Story of my life

Sorry, bro. I've relapsed 3 times this month, in only 12 days, I've binged twice, I know what it's like. Same vicious circle where I'm trapped.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: HumbleRich on January 12, 2019, 06:51:36 PM
Cut it out, guys.  Clean means NO PORN, or even erotica, and if you are cutting out masturbation then no mb.  You guys who are edging or peeking aren't  rebooting.  You're just building your own demise.  It is time to.get serious.  That means unless there is a real naked woman in your bedroom it is no deal.  Time to get serious.

Rich
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: HumbleRich on January 12, 2019, 06:52:22 PM
Day 41/90.

Rich
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 13, 2019, 08:36:04 AM
Rich.  Excellent at 41.  Me?  13 of 30, free for life.  No porn. Clear. 
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 13, 2019, 08:36:33 AM
13 days of the challenge   clean clean clean.  day 42 of present reboot

    Post often it helped me it will help you 
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 13, 2019, 11:54:57 AM
Day 0
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: chirmtaking on January 13, 2019, 02:44:28 PM
Day 12 hardmode. No artificial stimulation. Have had family visiting for the weekend, so have had all my free time taken up with them, which makes avoiding temptation much easier. Have been having strange (and sometimes disturbing) sexual dreams. I figure the more messed up the dream is, the more real-life shit my mind has been able to work through. Still feel a lot of pressure in my groin area and balls. Will hopefully subside soon. Good luck everyone!
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 14, 2019, 05:59:01 AM
14.  Clear.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Hand Solong on January 14, 2019, 07:42:26 AM
Day 14

Still going strong. The mental fog has cleared enough that I can read without falling asleep after a few pages. Yes!
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Hand Solong on January 14, 2019, 07:50:16 AM
Cut it out, guys.  Clean means NO PORN, or even erotica, and if you are cutting out masturbation then no mb.  You guys who are edging or peeking aren't  rebooting.  You're just building your own demise.  It is time to.get serious.  That means unless there is a real naked woman in your bedroom it is no deal.  Time to get serious.

Rich

Dilly Dilly!

(http://://amp.businessinsider.com/images/5a73311c107290b9008b4a3d-750-563.png)
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 14, 2019, 08:01:01 AM
Cut it out, guys.  Clean means NO PORN, or even erotica, and if you are cutting out masturbation then no mb.  You guys who are edging or peeking aren't  rebooting.  You're just building your own demise.  It is time to.get serious.  That means unless there is a real naked woman in your bedroom it is no deal.  Time to get serious.

Rich

Actually, there is a naked woman in my bedroom but she's inflatable.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Hand Solong on January 14, 2019, 08:09:26 AM
Cut it out, guys.  Clean means NO PORN, or even erotica, and if you are cutting out masturbation then no mb.  You guys who are edging or peeking aren't  rebooting.  You're just building your own demise.  It is time to.get serious.  That means unless there is a real naked woman in your bedroom it is no deal.  Time to get serious.

Rich

Actually, there is a naked woman in my bedroom but she's inflatable.

And you clearly made his point. Maybe if you actually took this seriously you wouldn't consistently be in here saying

"Day 0"
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 14, 2019, 08:25:41 AM
Cut it out, guys.  Clean means NO PORN, or even erotica, and if you are cutting out masturbation then no mb.  You guys who are edging or peeking aren't  rebooting.  You're just building your own demise.  It is time to.get serious.  That means unless there is a real naked woman in your bedroom it is no deal.  Time to get serious.

Rich

Actually, there is a naked woman in my bedroom but she's inflatable.

And you clearly made his point. Maybe if you actually took this seriously you wouldn't consistently be in here saying

"Day 0"
Hey, I'm taking this seriously.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 14, 2019, 08:43:01 AM
Day 14 of Jan Challenge   day 43 of reboot  never felt better   clear mind  and always remembering this is the 3rd serious attempt so always on my guard for the time being

     Post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Arul on January 14, 2019, 11:53:52 AM
Hi guys,

Sorry to join late. This is my 2nd serious attempt at a reboot. Just want rid of the PMOing version of me. Day 4 today. Hope everyone's january reboot going well.

A
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 14, 2019, 02:28:24 PM
14. Clear.  No porn. 
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: imaquitter on January 14, 2019, 07:49:41 PM
17 days of hardmode. Will not MO at all in january (thats my goal)
Keep it up guys!
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 15, 2019, 06:42:42 AM
day 15 of the challenge  day 44 of current reboot   feeling clean and strong

     post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 15, 2019, 08:26:24 AM
15.  This is about introducing a new pattern into our lives.  The new pattern is not using porn, artificial sexual stimulation, to achieve a dopamine high. Do I miss it?  Sure, but less and less.  Clear.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 15, 2019, 09:41:47 AM
Psyc Ops    I totally agree about the whole switching and changing of patterns   It just took me a little time to implement them.  As the usual I started small and gained small victories even while  having a few relapses  when I started this journey a year ago   But I concentrated on my other small victories  and began building from them  and my mind would usually drift to how I could  build new ones  leaving less time to think about p    Something for all of us to ponder over

      Post often it helped me it will help you 
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Hand Solong on January 15, 2019, 02:28:11 PM
Day 15

Today is a good day. I'm so happy that I haven't fouled up 2019 with fap.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Arul on January 16, 2019, 06:52:29 AM
Day 6 today. All good but taking one day at a time. Definitely agree with the talk about patterns and victories. Each day is a small victory. Trying to keep busy as idleness is a breeding ground for triggers. Morning wood last couple of days, which felt good (though I didn't FEEL it!). Well done everyone, keep going and keep away from those triggers.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 16, 2019, 07:54:55 AM
Day 16 of the challenge and day 45 of current reboot  all good   gonna get the day going  see everyone later

     post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 17, 2019, 08:01:02 AM
Day 17 of Challenge  day 46 of current reboot   clean clean clean  no pmo no mo 

       Post often it helped me it will  help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 17, 2019, 08:44:27 AM
17.  Clear.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Arul on January 17, 2019, 04:55:10 PM
Day 7, done. Had some bad news with work this evening and was very close to P. Its amazing how much you crave that dopamine rush when you feel low. Well I got straight onto RB and started this post. Thanks for keeping me on the straight and narrow guys.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 17, 2019, 04:59:02 PM
Day 7, done. Had some bad news with work this evening and was very close to P. Its amazing how much you crave that dopamine rush when you feel low. Well I got straight onto RB and started this post. Thanks for keeping me on the straight and narrow guys.

Yeah, feeling low asks for raising in dopamine and we know how to do it with porn.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 18, 2019, 06:51:45 AM
day 18 of Jan Challenge  and day 47 of current reboot    no p  no m  and only an o with my wife this morning when we got up  before everyone else

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Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 18, 2019, 09:24:52 AM
18. No porn. 
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: imaquitter on January 19, 2019, 03:05:17 AM
Day 19. No porn, no MO.
Day 92 of my current reboot, day 21 hardmode.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 19, 2019, 07:41:04 AM
Day 19  allll clear

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Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 19, 2019, 11:38:47 AM
19. Clear.  I am a slave to nothing.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: chirmtaking on January 20, 2019, 08:15:01 AM
Day 19 hardmode. Cravings have subsided. I have no urge to look at P. Still tension in groin area. My mind wonders what the point of continuing is. I almost MO'd in the shower last night. I have been having strong erections at the slightest sexual thought (not recalling P). I have to try hard to steer my mind away, as then the urge to MO becomes strong. I think the urge to MO is actually far stronger than to look at P. I think reaching the end of January should be quite east, but I am not complacent. I hope everyone else is going well.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 20, 2019, 09:39:58 AM
Day 20 of the challenge  day 49 of current reboot feeling strong

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Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 20, 2019, 09:49:50 AM
2.  2/3 through this challenge. Clear.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 20, 2019, 12:28:01 PM
Alright, if I make it to the end of the month without relapsing, I will start the challenge for February.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Jones on January 20, 2019, 02:51:16 PM
Quote
 if I make it
Sounds like you're planning on relapsing soon  :)
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: changemylife on January 20, 2019, 03:39:16 PM
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if I make it
Sounds like you're planning on relapsing soon  :)

Okay.

I'll make it to the end of the month without relapsing and then I'll start the challenge for February.

Is it better now?
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: imaquitter on January 20, 2019, 05:13:42 PM
27 days in hardmode.
Day 20 of January completed. Thanks for being in with me on this!
Stay strong!
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 21, 2019, 07:57:00 AM
Day 21 of challenge  all clear  no pmo no m   and only o with the wife   also day 50 of current reboot

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Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 21, 2019, 08:37:04 AM
21.  Clear. 
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: XFL91 on January 22, 2019, 01:43:51 AM
Day 7, done. Had some bad news with work this evening and was very close to P. Its amazing how much you crave that dopamine rush when you feel low. Well I got straight onto RB and started this post. Thanks for keeping me on the straight and narrow guys.

Hey man, how long have you been without morning wood for? And have you gotten it back?
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 22, 2019, 07:59:07 AM
Day 22 of Jan challenge  and day 51 of current reboot   all clear

    post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 22, 2019, 08:05:06 AM
22 clear.  XFL91 asked about morning wood.  It is an interesting phenomena in connection with porn addiction.  When I was using porn, never.  Now, without porn, almost every morning. There is a neurological explanation, but I do not know what it is. Back tomorrow to report 23 clear.  Post often.  It helped me, it will help you. Smiley face emodicon.  But seriously, yeah.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 23, 2019, 07:41:32 AM
Day 23  of Jan Challenge  and day 52 or current reboot  all clear here

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Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 23, 2019, 01:16:23 PM
23.  Clear.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: malando on January 23, 2019, 04:30:38 PM
Not sure what happened to the OP, Changemylife. He seems to have deactivated his account. Sounds like he is in a bad place after his relapse. Hope he can find his way back.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: imaquitter on January 23, 2019, 05:04:41 PM
Maybe we should write some kind words in his jounal:

 http://www.rebootnation.org/forum/index.php?topic=16391.0 (http://www.rebootnation.org/forum/index.php?topic=16391.0)
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 24, 2019, 06:52:36 AM
Sometimes we just have to leave.  The purpose of this place is to fix it; fixing it does not take forever.  Fixing it sucks, but pain is the price we pay for freedom. I am grateful for Gabe because he built a place to fix it.  Changemylife helped us by starting this.  He is walking his road; we are walking ours.  Those roads are always challenging.  I will finish this month clear.  24.  Clear. Never going back.

Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 24, 2019, 08:00:03 AM
Day 24 of Jan Challenge Day 53 of current reboot     Felt the chaser effect for the 1st time on Wed  after making love with my wife Tues night really noticed the triggers  and had a few urges  but glad to say no pmo.

      Psyc Ops  it is true  these road are challenging        not only challenging but changing too

      Post often it helped me it will help you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: imaquitter on January 24, 2019, 04:23:29 PM
Day 24, still in hardmode.
January challenge continues
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: chirmtaking on January 25, 2019, 05:02:49 AM
Day 24 Hardmode. I have noticed that pretty much all urges have subsided. Not masturbating or looking at porn substitutes seems to be my automatic setting now, rather than vice versa. Of course, I am very much aware that this could simply be a temporary illusion. I'm not planning on becoming complacent. Not sure how I feel once I hit the 30 day mark at the end of the month - I have a feeling it could be point of inflexion, which might be hard to deal with psychologically.

Finally, I would like to extend my gratitude to changemylife for starting this thread - were it not for him and this thread I do not think I would have started the new year with a renewed determination or been able to string this streak together (my longest since last spring). Thank you.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 25, 2019, 08:49:30 AM
25.  Clear. 
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 25, 2019, 12:07:35 PM
Day 25  all clear  day 54 or current reboot   cheers to all

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Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 26, 2019, 09:54:38 AM
Day 26 of Jan Challenge  Day 55 current reboot   another tough night  but made it through with no pmo   no mo and no o   must be working though something  that twice this week  had some urges and needed to fight them  ahh well  we go on vacation this week for a few days  should be good for the fight

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Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 26, 2019, 04:45:44 PM
26. Clear.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 27, 2019, 08:26:38 AM
Day 27 of challenge and day 56 of current reboot  feeling better again  after a 2nd close call   busy days ahead with work and a mini vacation  should be all good

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Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 27, 2019, 09:15:33 AM
I am with Mr. Panic.  Clear 27.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: imaquitter on January 27, 2019, 05:11:04 PM
Day 27 went well.
Day 33 something in hardmode. I'm still with you
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 28, 2019, 11:57:49 PM
Super busy day  just reporting in now for day 28 of Jan challenge  and day 57 of current reboot  all is good  go on vacation in less than 2 days

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Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 29, 2019, 08:43:03 AM
28 +29.  Yesterday, posting here just did not occur to me, as in the thought did not pass my mind.  I have been clean for a lot longer than 29 days.  It takes a lot of concentration, effort, and commitment to get clean, once addicted, but once you achieve clean, then staying clean becomes second nature.  It is about changing life patterns.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 29, 2019, 02:38:00 PM
day 29 of Jan challenge   and day 58 of  reboot   actually felt some urges last night   for wanting to hit the old chat line I actually made it there but did not do any sexting or looking at pics   no pmo  no mo   no m   I used to frequent just a general chat line that always turned to sexting and surfing p   tube sites exc  this time i didnt go that road  and  something in my mind said you really dont need to be here at all   I moved along and  hung on wookiepedia  for a while and went to bed  very busy day at work today  and vacation tomorrow

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Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 30, 2019, 08:31:06 AM
We quit porn for one reason, we quit addiction for one reason:  It caused a problem.  When quitting, it is helpful to remember the problem we are fixing.  30.  Clear.
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: Psyc Ops on January 31, 2019, 08:35:13 AM
Final day of challenge.  31 clear.  As long as you eat your spinach, it is all going to be OK.   
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: joepanic on January 31, 2019, 09:02:20 PM
Day 31 of the challenge   Day 60 of current reboot  things going well  Totally forgot to check in yesterday  as we are on vacation and it was a hectic day of travel and fun    Looking forward to the final 3rd in the 90 day reboot

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Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: imaquitter on February 02, 2019, 06:33:49 AM
We made it  ;D

Now we'll continue into February :)
Title: Re: "Free January" challenge
Post by: pck on May 14, 2019, 12:53:17 AM
25.  Clear.
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