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So i noticed the other night i had a thought cross my mind about having sex with someone and i felt the excitement rush start so i immediately changed my thinking... Is this the same as watching porn? It was a thought about someone i know and it is defiantly someone i shouldn't have had the thought about me being in a relationship and all but all the same it wasn't a porn scene or unrealistic thought. Anyways just curious if my mind and memories are the same as a new porn tab how do i redirect myself from thoughts???

Thanks for everyone feedback and support.

Ages 30-39 / Re: Getting My Life Back.
« on: June 08, 2016, 02:30:24 PM »
Thank you guys! I need to remind myself i'm new to it and there is success or this site wouldn't exist, I just don't want to become fearful of anything sexualized i like and appreciate the human form both male and female and don't always go there when i see a dick or nice pair of t*ts sometimes i just see the beauty in it. I dunno there are too many what if's to feel sane sometimes.

I know what you mean the need to satisfy sent me down some really dark paths... to stuff i'm ashamed of. I always knew and told myself "This isn't me" knowing that PIED is a thing helped because i know i can change that i just don't want to feel like i cant ever look at a pic of hot guys or see a nude of any sort... I just want normalcy

Porn Addiction / Re: D*ck Pics?
« on: June 08, 2016, 02:18:34 PM »
Thanks William!

I feel a little hopeless, like i can't touch myself anymore... being a gay man makes it hard because as a bottom jerking off is what you do while you are being f***ed... I just want my dick to work like it used too.

Porn Addiction / D*ck Pics?
« on: June 07, 2016, 05:57:11 PM »
I'm a little one a week into my very first Reboot and i am excited that i have found something to help with the PIED, however i was wondering does this mean i cant or shouldn't se or look at any old nudes from bf's or hookups? What about sending dick pics? I know majority of my impulse to masturbate starts from 1. being horny obviously but 2. when i undress after work or seeing my naked body in a mirror it makes me want to start getting frisky with myself... I am not so much concerned that i cannot resist the temptation to yank my D but more so that these things (including my own nudity) is setting me back on ridding myself of PIED. Will i always be susceptible to PIED from these things? HELP!!!

Porn Addiction / Day 7
« on: June 02, 2016, 08:23:45 PM »
I am only 7 days in... It can be a bit of a struggle but i become fearful that anything sexual will ruin what i am doing. I feel like an alien like how can i be so pathetic that i can't even watch porn like a normal person! I want my life back. Am i still allowed to have sex if i don't touch myself? (i'm gay btw so i can) Anyways just thought i would put my thoughts out there and see if anyone else can relate or something. :-\

I am brand new to this site and the idea that i broke my penis from all the porn and time i have spent jerking it is upsetting, but i can say though if you cant break the need to go into your head to visions of porn or even sex with other people than you need to focus on loving yourself enough to know an orgasm doesn't define you as a man. Everything will fall away one day and you will be back to the old you without so much mental strain on whether or not it will work, the anxiety of that alone doesn't help to stay hard.

Ages 30-39 / Getting My Life Back.
« on: May 27, 2016, 05:29:15 PM »
I'm 30 years old, gay and i have been watching porn since i was 12, it started with a show called "Queer As Folk" on Showtime, this was just the beginning until our house got a computer with AOL... I never directly looked for it for fear that my mom or sisters would find what i had been searching not to mention i didn't even really know what to search for, I used chatrooms to meet other guys my age and sometimes older men (not knowing it was inappropriate) Then i stopped and had a normal life with normal relationships and a normal sex life. It wasn't until about 6 years ago i was in a bad relationship with a mentally and physical abusive person thus damaging my confidence and self-esteem. I started looking at porn again, getting deeper and deeper into it and began looking for raunchier porn the videos got dirtier and scarier bordering legality, by the end of the relationship we didn't talk much and definitely didn't have sex anymore so i jerked off to whatever i could find on the web. It has been like this ever since, except now i am in a relationship with a guy that i absolutely love but i find myself rushing home before him to open my mac and search for some go to videos to get off before he got home and even sometimes sneaking to the bathroom to jerk off to something on tumblr, by this time i already was having issues getting hard or staying hard with people and now with my partner. Its like my brain is there eager and ready to have sex but my dick doesn't want anything to do with it unless i go to a thought in my head of something i had seen before or maybe even past experiences. fast forward 6 years and here i am 30 years old and feeling helpless... I just want my sex life back feeling attractive and able to jump in bed and stay rock hard until i orgasm.

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