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Ages 20-29 / Re: My Journal
« on: March 05, 2015, 06:11:37 PM »
Day 74 = D-Day!

I have made it past my last try to reboot. Going strong!

Ages 20-29 / Re: My Journal
« on: March 04, 2015, 12:42:40 PM »
Day 72

Approximately two days ago, my libido went through the roof again. It is a bit tempting to m, but I try to soak the feeling up and stay cool. Random boners, this tingly feeling around your waist.... Things I remember from high school are slowly re-appearing :D

Ages 20-29 / Re: Damaged by porn, 26 and beginning life as a man!
« on: February 28, 2015, 07:48:22 PM »
Sunday :D

Week one is complete and I'm confident that we are taking the right step.

I went on my first date without pmo in my life and the urge to drink. It was amazing and I feel that it's much more easy to get along with women, when one is ready to block sexual triggers and focus on the actual person across of you.

Now, the last days have not been hard on my reboot. However, I must say that I contemplated MO for a second today... It feels even better to say no and keep on going.

Ages 20-29 / Re: Stop this nonsense...
« on: February 28, 2015, 04:33:01 AM »
You have great goals and ambitions, I like that. Have you considered taking a step back at concentrating on pmo solely? You will see that as soon as you get your Pr0n habits unde control that all your other issues will seem like a much more lighter load :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journal of Jeff/Dan (YBR Show, Jeff on YBR)
« on: February 27, 2015, 12:24:46 PM »
Good to know, I'm looking forward to it. Do you have a souncloud page to listen too?

Let me know, if you need some support. Another rebooter and I decided to go hard mode for 60 days. Considering our previous experiences, it should be possible :)

If you are ready to take the extra step with cold showers, try ice bathing. Well, you won't find too much ice these days, but ice cold water! In any case, it's the ultimate kick and accompanied with a (male only) sauna even tremendously good for your body!

Ages 20-29 / Re: Sorta Relapsed
« on: February 26, 2015, 06:09:28 PM »
Ugh... I keep wondering when I'll stop being such a perv. I really hate these messed up cravings. They're driving me up the wall. I don't understand why I can't just be like a normal person with normal problems.

You'd be surprised what normal people's normal problems look like :D Seriously, stop telling yourself this nonsense. You are already making a huge step by understanding that your cravings are problematic. Keep working on yourself and allow mistakes to happen. This reboot is about witnessing and at some point finding yourself.

See, the problem with normal people and normal problems is that they are rarely doing something about it. What may help you in the future is to tell yourself that your are dealing with your issues now, so that you will never have to deal with normal problems in the future!

On a side note, I have dealt with the perve issue too. Just like a lot of the guys here, I was into some nasty, nasty shit! But believe me, this will pass too!!! You have stay strong and centered. Eventually, you will be able to give someone advice, just like I am doing now :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: My Journal
« on: February 26, 2015, 05:59:39 PM »
I think you have to find the source of your tension. It it is sexual tension, try to sublime it. All that energy will help you to achieve anything you want. Try to learn playing guitar or engage in some marshal art activities. Do something that is really interresting for you.

NewAdam, thanks a lot for your support! I'm sad to see that you are struggling with your reboot, but I see a big chance for you to keep on going, by using this forum for motivation and advice.
You are right, sexual tension is a big problem and I try to overcome it not by surpressing it, but staying away from sexual triggers. I must confess that I had my weak moments in the last weeks, but I saw the problem, stopped and went back to my old path.

GL for your first week of MO free man.

You, Vargulf, are right on. I think going back to hard-mode and cutting weekly MO from my plan is the way to go. Seriously, it was the reason why I got weak in the first place.
@NewAdam, when you feel ready, join us on this path!

Ages 20-29 / Re: Journey of Hungry Ghost
« on: February 24, 2015, 01:24:10 PM »
The Goal is compelete Abstince, but the Beginning is a Reboot from Pornography.

Okay, so your goals is to stop watching pr0n!
Since you consider three relapses in four weeks a good thing, I sugesst you take baby steps. 30 days/3 relapses = ten days - way too much!
How about setting your new goal to 5 days without pmo? As soon as you reach five days, add five and again ....

Use pop-up blockers, site blockers, internet filters. Get rid of your pr0n collection. I konw deleting your hard drive from porn is a tough choice (soo much work and man-hours), but it's absolutely mandatory! Since you want to minimize possible triggers, also ask yourself what other media may make you relapse. I stopped watching many tv shows due to the amount of nudity. Finally, be honest with yourself, read other journals and come back if you need help :D

Even if your doctor finds that there's something wrong with you, rebooting is the right step! I talked to a friend today. Both of us have been working on ourselves for about a year and I asked him, if he would be able to stop porn. His answer:

"Already did a very long time. You should do it too, it fucks up your brain."

Enough said. This guy isn't even into rebooting, but found it for himself :D

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journal of Jeff/Dan (YBR Show, Jeff on YBR)
« on: February 23, 2015, 03:38:52 PM »
Hey Dan!

Where are you playing your gigs these days? I might just come around for a drink or two.

Eventually, we should try to get all the Berlin reboot guys together!

Ages 20-29 / Re: Damaged by porn, 26 and beginning life as a man!
« on: February 20, 2015, 02:12:45 AM »
P.S. this is literally the worst thing I have ever had to shake. I wish there was someway younger guys could know about this before they start!

You are making a very valid point here! I know at least one youngster whom I want to protect from this shit. I have been thinking about prevention methods for a long time, but fear that they will make porn even more interesting to kids.

Ages 20-29 / Re: My Journal
« on: February 17, 2015, 04:30:49 PM »
Day 57

I'm getting closer and closer to my old maximum days of porn abstinence. On a reboot scale I still feel incredibly centered and just like in the last post, my libido is high. I feel like I need to unload some of this tension soon, but porn will definitely not be the source.

One insight I found today is that a lot of my fears are based on a lack of experience. The last two weeks have been distressing and education at the same time, because there were some major changes at work. Now that I have undergone more and more days with very high anxiety, I am finding joy in what used to be very stressful work.

Next goal 70 days. One more lap away from day 74!!

Ages 20-29 / Re: My Journal
« on: February 05, 2015, 12:25:38 PM »
Day 45 and my libido is sky-rocketing. It's a great feeling and far from anything I have experienced by anticipating porn. It reminds me a lot of my peaks during my last reboot, shortly before I relapsed. And that's the problem.

Today was one of the few occasions where I actually thought about porn to get rid of my anxiousness. But I see now that I need to use this feeling as motivation to keep on going. It's like a roller coaster ride, sometimes I'm so horny that I can barely think straight and triggers hunt me like crazy. But then suddenly, I calm down again and have this amazing energy.

I guess that's exactly it, I have to concentrate on the amazing energy part and make it conquer anxiousness! Let's see, where this takes me :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: Trembling,shaking and chills
« on: February 01, 2015, 05:52:20 PM »
I'm sure there are loads of definitions on the net, but it refers to status where you refrain from any sexual stimulation.

- no porn
- no masturbation
- no sex

You can even take it a step further:

- no sexual content in movies and tv shows
- no women/men
- no objectification of women/men

.... It really depends on how far you want to go. I have been going hardmode for 30 days until I masturbated again. Hardmode is a great feeling and give you time to see how you react to sexual triggers. Also, at some point you realize how twisted your brain really is and that rewiring takes much more than just stopping porn!

Lastly, check this page: It will help you with many of your questions!

Ages 20-29 / Re: My Journal
« on: February 01, 2015, 05:45:31 PM »
Life goes on, even without hard-mode and M! I have set myself a limit for M once a week. Actually, I am surprised what an amazing effect it has on my personality. I feel that M before socializing is bringing me into a relaxed and communicative position that feels very natural to me!

Today is day 42 of my reboot. I have continually set my goals in a way that I calculate 14-day steps and at the moment I am here on a daily basis, just to check my progress! It feels great to see the days adding up to bigger and bigger numbers, but it's also kind of exhausting. In a way, it gives me a very realistic picture of where I am at the moment and makes me realize if I am still on track. However, it also reminds me that there is a long way to go and that I was similarly motivated the last reboot around.

For the last couple of weeks I have been feeling more centered. The reboot is always on my mind, but I often see myself drifting away to concentrate on the other parts of my life. I judge this to be a very positive thing, because I am able to stay on path, but take care of my personal and business life at the same time.

What has helped me a lot in the last 1,5 weeks was to take a minimalistic approach to my apartment. I know that many people love to have it cozy around their place, but a clean and very organized environment makes me calm. More so, I have reduced my furniture to a level that I actually use all of my rooms againg, instead of spending most of my free time in bed or at my desktop. It's strange, because we tend to save everything for another time "when we need it", but a huge portion of my life was just a bunch of trash waiting to be transported out of this place!! Furthermore, I am immensely happy that I have found this mentality on own and do not follow some trend or media phenomenon.

Next goal, 56 days!

Ages 20-29 / Re: Trembling,shaking and chills
« on: January 31, 2015, 07:15:29 PM »
I can only speak of my case. PMO is so much more than just working on your porn habits. You have to work on yourself as a whole. Try to go hard-mode for some weeks to see what it does to your body and mind.

The OKCupid dating website data shows that women think 80% of men ugly!

Statistics.... Ok Cupid is an online dating service, so primarily any interaction is initiated by an attractive/interesting profile photo. So, browsing profiles is a lot like swiping pictures in Tinder - either one feels attracted or not. What if the test group would see the tested men in real life and then rate? I think the outcome would be totally different, because it comes down to actual looks and not how a person portrays themeselves in a most attracting pose.

Back to the initial question... I think looks matter, but there's a lot to influence your appearance: Clothing, Cologne, hair style, glasses/contacts etc. Also, body language, the way you talk and use words. Women most definitely notice small things more than men do. So even if many argue that looks are not important to them, subconsciously they will make decisions based on what they notice on a man.

Ages 20-29 / Re: It's now or never, need to become a better person
« on: January 29, 2015, 09:26:31 AM »
Chaos Mind, that's a great explanation and I totally agree with you!

Ages 20-29 / Re: Reboot Journal: Jimmy X
« on: January 28, 2015, 05:11:06 PM »
I couldn't take the whispering anymore! This short before going to bed, I was suspecting having weird dreams all night :D

Good luck with you reboot. 20+ years is a looong time, so 30 days may not be enough. Just follow some other journals here. You'll see that rebooting is an unsteady, but very rewarding path to folllow.

Ages 20-29 / Re: It's now or never, need to become a better person
« on: January 28, 2015, 05:06:25 PM »
Browse this forum and you'll find loads of cases very similar to your experiences. Force yourself to enter the reboot by using browser filters and analyzing your behaviour!

It sounds very promising that you have found that the "voices" in your head seem to trigger pmo. But seriously, when has your way of porn consumption become "sexual fun"? Excessive jerking to shemale porn, while being grossed out by kissing a man doesn't seem fun to me at all!! And are you really happy with being single or is that just an excuse because you can't find a girl?

A pro pos girls, are you sure you're not into guys? How did you like giving oral? Perhaps your shemale fetish was just an underlying sign to you real sexuality... Have you tried making out with guys. Maybe it stops giving you the creeps, when you're actually doing it?

I do not want to attack or accuse you, we are all here to help! But, please be honest with yourself, that's the first step to success.

Ages 20-29 / Re: Trembling,shaking and chills
« on: January 28, 2015, 04:55:59 PM »
Perhaps hyperexcitability?

Hyperexcitability is a sympton of withdrawal. Before your reboot, when triggered to PMO, you may have witnessed shaking and trembling too. But at that time, you were able to surpress it, by using porn. Obviously, the red-light district triggered an old sensation inside your brain that resulted in shaking and trembling and which you were only able to stop, by going with the prostitute.

However, "prostitute" isn't really the right term here... Look at your expression: "a blond skinny girl with big round ass and fake tits". Is that how you look at women or is that how you look at porn?

I'm curious what the others think, but with such a mindset, it seems evident to me that your brain is still very much engaged with porn.

Ages 20-29 / Re: Berlin Reboot Committed
« on: January 25, 2015, 05:57:16 PM »
Team Germany on the reboot-front!

Ages 20-29 / Re: ended up by snuff videos #needachange
« on: January 21, 2015, 02:44:21 PM »
Hey Markus!

Welcome to the forum. Check your messages, when you have time!

Ages 20-29 / Re: My Journal
« on: January 21, 2015, 01:01:28 PM »
Lust came down on me and I m'ed some days ago. It wasn't a pressure or anxiety issue, I was just horny as hell and couldn't resist.

There goes hard-mode!

Edit: Fighting my second addicciton has become an issue. I have decided cutting down alcohol and making p(mo) my priority.

Edit 2: Reading all this, makes me upset. Okay, so here's the deal.
- Having booze on my mind and not trying to drink lasted approx. 18 days, but I was constantly thinking about it.
- Not thinking about booze with the eventuality of drinking one weekend - no problem. I have not been drinking for 1,5 weeks now and for that time it has not been on my mind.

Returning to M is not what I expected from my hard-mode. Still, it was great and I don't feel like I was beaten off the path. But man, I wish I could have resisted, I would love to know how it feels like to live on hard-mode for several months!

Ages 20-29 / Re: My Journal
« on: January 16, 2015, 03:13:32 PM »
I see why my last reboot was destined to fail. Around three week I started loosening up my routines. M came into play again and finally made me go to mo.

Hard-mode is incredibly difficult, but with a daily routine and a lot on my mind, I feel confident to keep on going. 30 days without pmo is coming up and I am incredibly excited :D

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