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Ages 20-29 / Re: Enough is enough
« on: May 16, 2014, 01:45:48 AM »
Day 4:

 I ended up clicking on one of the links to check (to check what, I still wonder! ...) I got an erection, was heading for trouble but I held on and managed to close everything! So now, my computer should be entirely cleared of any pic or video related to porn.


Haha, I can remember deleting all my traces of porn, even before my rebooting :D You'll get over it! Sometimes, memories of past virtual lovers will return, but then again, you'll work on it and make the fade away again.

I was equipped with a laptop from work a couple of weeks ago. I'm using the device for personal purposes too and told myself to keep it completely porn free. So far, so good :D

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Went 96 days no PMO then relapsed 3 times
« on: May 15, 2014, 01:09:27 PM »
(...) during that time I peeked at porn twice and MOed in the shower once every 7-10 days.
I went 12 days after that then relapsed to porn. Then PMOed two days in a row so 3 times within 14 days.

So, was there a reason why you returned to porn? What made you peek?

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Enough is enough
« on: May 14, 2014, 02:42:51 PM »
I wasn't sure about writing all of this in a journal (it's the first time I confess about that) but this site looks great so I hope I'll learn a lot from this community and that I'll be able to be of help as well!

ps: sorry for my English which isn't my mother tongue!

Thank God for you rebooter! Finally, someone I can relate to almost perfectly! The next couple of days will be a bumpy road, but it's so(ooo) worth it. My normal venue of pmo would be in my bedroom, so I removed everything that would remind or push me towards internet porn. Ultimately, banning my computer from the bed room for good. Maybe changing your surrounding will help you too, often a clean room also results in a clear head :D

Keep up the motivation and work on your change!


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Ages 20-29 / Re: Stop this nonsense...
« on: May 14, 2014, 01:57:03 PM »
So i fucked up. I was clean cca 20 days, other days m or P. I thought I can do it myself, but without your support it probably cannot. So lets start again, I am going to check YBOP new stories and make a new mindset. Thans guys for your posts, 

Why do we fall sir? So that we can learn to pick ourselves up.

So you made it to day 20. How about being relaxed about your goal and setting the new bar to 14 days?

My current goal is the longest I went without pmo, 27 days. After that I'm going for 18 days. After day 18, reboot will add up to 45 and I can tell myself I did 1,5 months without pmo!

The equation is easy: Set a long-term and a short-term goal.
LTG - Reboot
STG - Stop PMO for two weeks
Check back with your LTG. Has it changed?
STG - No PMO for two weeks
. . .

The secret is to get a routine going, instead of forcing yourself to resist porn day after day. You will see that motivation and routine, will eventually allow you to deal with multiple STGs at a time. I feel that a lot of guys set their bars much too high. At last, for many of us reboot really means overcoming an addiction and not just dealing with a bad habit.



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Ages 20-29 / Re: Get UP...and DO, not TRY it one last time!
« on: May 12, 2014, 12:00:45 PM »
for me there is still the question of: "what´s down there that needs something?"

Stop worrying about it and keep working on yourself. Step by step, you'll come to realize what's hiding inside of you. Perhaps, you'll understand this guy's point very soon:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKVmpJaMffM

I can very much relate to your situation. Two weeks ago I noticed that there's more to my booze&porn problem. What helped me was Qi Gong (energy exercise) and trying to tone down my daily life stye and ego. Amazingly enough, when I cared least about myself, I learned most.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Get UP...and DO, not TRY it one last time!
« on: May 12, 2014, 12:00:04 PM »
for me there is still the question of: "what´s down there that needs something?"

Stop worrying about it and keep working on yourself. Step by step, you'll come to realize what's hiding inside of you. You understand this guy's point very soon:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKVmpJaMffM

I can very much relate to your situation. Two weeks ago I noticed that there's more to my booze&porn problem. What helped me was Qi Gong (energy exercise) and trying to tone down my daily life stye and ego. Amazingly enough, when I cared least about myself, I learned most.



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Ages 20-29 / Re: Changes
« on: May 09, 2014, 03:02:05 PM »
So it's almost a week now, I became extremely anxious and can't focus on anything  :-\ for how long that's going to last?  ???

There's no magic formula. Keep on going and resist temptation, it is going to get better!!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: J0ake's Reboot Diary
« on: May 09, 2014, 02:55:21 PM »
I'd advise you to take one step at a time. Quitting all your addictions at once can be very very hard on your body and especially, mind!

What's your worst "addiction", which one is the lightest? Try to find a realistic hierarchy and start at the bottom.

Apart from quitting pmo and alcohol, I'm also working on my caffeine consumption. So whenever I feel like drinking a coffe at work, I do 50 push-ups.
Maybe you can find alternative activities or rituals too! For example: Shut down texting and keep a journal (pen&paper), it will refrain you from wasting time and sitting in front of the computer.

Where do you live? City, village, country side? See if you can find activities that force you to be around others. We have a lot of University sport courses over here in Germany. It's not about hitting it off with any of the guys or girls from the beginning, but just getting used to socializing again.

Do you have any friends (from back in the day) who are used to a large group of friends? Try to get in contact with them again, see if you can meet up and mingle with the others.

Personally, I have no clue how being dependent on gaming feels like, so maybe some of the other users here can help you out with that!




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Ages 20-29 / There's no I in revolution v3.0
« on: May 07, 2014, 02:25:07 PM »
Update 1:
Relapsed after 59 days.
Update 2:
No ED
Update 3:
First wet dream (ever)
Update 4:
Relapse after 74 days.
Update 5:
Going hard mode!
Update 6:
Relapsed after roughly 14 days.

I realized that all of my posts were directed in towards other people. Instead of helping myself, I tried to get attention from others. Sorry for anyone Who has tried to come back to my initial posts. After my last relapse I went on a rampage and delete my past experiences.



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