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All 3! 31 days  of NoPMO  :D

Porn Addiction / Re: Starting water fasting
« on: August 09, 2015, 05:03:53 AM »
Barely woke up today. Quite stressed. My stomach felt beaten. I held it for 5 hours since I woke up and then I felt I started losing balance and almost fainted. I had to break fasting and eat something. I ate half a watermelon and 3 bananas. I feel slightly better now. Im gonna be on fruits and water today and tomorrow,cause being only on water and working on summer heat is too tough.

After 31 days I feel like my whole penis is getting quite sensitive again. Top of gland skin just touching my boxers feels nice and very sensitive. All my other parts are becoming sensitive also. I remember I used not to feel a single touch on my penis,no matter where I touched,it was super numb. Now its all coming back. I feel like Im 15 again down there,ready to feel pussy.

Though Im still not rewired mentally,and I still need to get my old dopamine paths back,I just wanted to say there is hope your penis will get back to its sensitivity. This is coming from someone who used to stroke it 4 times a day. So if I a super heavy jerker couldve started getting its old sensitivity back,Im sure you will too.

Porn Addiction / Re: Starting water fasting
« on: August 08, 2015, 08:53:01 AM »
Woke up very tired. Had depression attack last night. Probably body not recieving nutrients. Im not really hungry. Kind of no mood. Lots of pissing and I gauged a whole bottle of water. My piss became almost brown looking. I started sweating.Definitely tougher than first 2 days. No general changes in anything physically and mentally.  Had a 2 hour mediation which really helped body keep up with starving. Hope some results will be shown tomorrow.

Porn Addiction / Re: For those who smoke weed during reboot
« on: August 08, 2015, 08:47:19 AM »
Havent jerked while stoned. Did have sex while stoned though. Greatest experience ever. Weed influence depends on THC and CBD inside of it. Strains with more CBD are used by cancer and neurosis patients.

So 31st day of 5th reboot. Until now during this reboot I literally started feeling better day by day,getting positivity. And now all of a fucking sudden I get overflown with immense depression and bad thoughts of the past. None of them are connected to porn. They are connected to moments of my past where I got degraded in topics considering women in real life.

Out of fucking nowhere,I remembered my aunt,who was feminist nazi hated by whole family.When she first saw me when I was 13, telling me Im a male scum and how I dont deserve woman and if I ever wish sex I should die and that I must become gay to repent. Then I started analyzing is she right or not and started choking in depression feeling guilty about my sexuality towards women.

Then I remembered my father and mother scolding me for not being able to help my ex gf get job"You are horrible man,how you ever gonna be a husband". This forced me into wave of memories when I disappointed my parents many times and felt even worse.

Then I remembered my same ex,who I loved deeply telling me "You arent real man,you are a coward". Now I feel disgusted and trapped in thoughts about her and feeling guilty.

Then I remembered how I spent so much time on people that didnt respect me and how I indulged in weed and amphetamines, ignoring life jobs.

All these thoughts are eating me and I cant stop overanalyzing. Its like past came back to eat me after all this time. Why after 31 great days and progress do I get this feeling of self disgust but for all the wrong reasons..

Porn Addiction / Re: Lets talk about diet during reboot
« on: August 07, 2015, 01:55:47 PM »
Same here. I love cooking. I noticed that it helps me kill some time,take mind off PIED struggle and its satisfying eating nice meal. I had enough of frozen shit long time ago.

I think it could be better to get one night stand with some slut you can meet in local night club. You save money and youre done with her after sex. But problem with them is that sluts,just like whores,go through several men repeatedly so its risky. But do what suits you best buddy. Good luck!

Porn Addiction / Re: Starting water fasting
« on: August 07, 2015, 10:06:12 AM »
Woke up feeling good. Slept nicely in a whole. Drank 8 cups of water. Soon ending the day. Felt energized throughout the day even though I was only on water. Not feeling hungry at all. No particular changes of any kind.

Ummm dude,men being jealous of seeing another man getting better female is a natural reaction.

Porn Addiction / Re: Strange Question - Any Help Please?
« on: August 06, 2015, 09:41:01 AM »
Im 30 days into my 5th reboot attempt-my personal best and Im gonna keep going.  Anyway first 10 days I also remember peeing every 20 mins. But that shit passes away. At least it did for me.

Porn Addiction / Starting water fasting
« on: August 06, 2015, 06:00:24 AM »
So I started fasting which will last 5 days. Process is first day only raw veg and fruit and juices. Next 3 days ONLY pure water and nothing else. Final day back on veg and fruit and juices.

Ive heard immense amount of promotion towards this. Many rebooters said it immensely sped up their reboot and helped them detoxify body and mind.

Starting today I am only eating 2 bananas,2 carrots a cucumber and 2 apples and fresh grape juice.

Update following.

Porn Addiction / Re: For those who smoke weed during reboot
« on: August 06, 2015, 12:21:33 AM »
Yeah I also prefer indica. I take a hit from a bong when I really couldnt sleep for shit. Id wake up in 2 AM and couldnt do shit. So Id take a hit and I was able to chill it out. I also didnt get horny,I just get sleepy. It kind of gets you going in the next morning. But I dont use it for anything else apart from rare cases when depression from not jerking off was unbearable,and it really helped. But yeah we must be careful and treat it as medicine not recreational high.

Porn Addiction / For those who smoke weed during reboot
« on: August 05, 2015, 10:11:46 AM »
1.How often do you smoke?
2.Is it indica or sativa?
3.How does it affect you during reboot?
4.Which inhaling method do you use?

Ive started my first reboot in april of this years. Im on my 5th attempt of reboot now and Im streaking hard going in a month of nofap,which is my longest streak. In this reboot,I started feeling better each day. I guess reason behind that is because in these 4 months,I only masturbated to porn 15 times,which isnt much in such long period.After it I finally said full stop on PMO,and yeah 30 days in. I guess my brain already got used to small amounts of porn so now Im moving easily through this one.But each of us rebooters is different.

Porn Addiction / Re: Back at effing square one!
« on: August 04, 2015, 11:48:53 AM »
Well,Im only few minutes in and my wrist is pretty fucking swollen xD This is gonna be painful one.

Porn Addiction / Re: Back at effing square one!
« on: August 04, 2015, 11:40:51 AM »
Im totally trying Pavlov. Sounds awesome.

But of course if people feel repulsed by their developed fetishes then yes,they have every right to remove it and make themselves feel better.

I think necrophilia is in a league of its own,like many other sick stuff.

If you think your fetish is really bad for your mental health,then you have my support on getting rid of it. Most important thing for all of us rebooters is to get as much of other stress out of our reboot. Take all the meassures you think are necessary for your healing and take care and then proceed with reboot.

As someone who also had HUGE stress during start of my reboot,being haunted by failed job,bad college grades,issues with my father,heavy financial status,I realized I need to get these off as soon as possible so they dont block my reboot and so I can concentrate on getting rid of porn obsession.

Cavemen go way more than 2000 years,they go millions and millions years,even before civlization. Now of course there were no high heels,but they mightve had some fetish. What I meant to say is its a part of human sexual biology to often find something that lights him up even though its not standard part of sexual intercourse.

Of course array of fetishes is absolutely enormous. Not everything is violence centred like bestiality or BDSM.But you have array from life threatening ones like genital mutilation to the very simple fetishes where you are just very attracted to certain body part of other gender.

I just wanted to point out that if that fetish you had before porn doesnt make you feel uncomfortable and if you dont prioritize it over normal sex,then there is no reason to remove it.But of course if people feel repulsed by their developed fetishes then yes,they have every right to remove it and make themselves feel better.

It just doesnt make sense to delete something that was in you before you started wasting your brain only on porn.

Porn Addiction / Re: Lets talk about diet during reboot
« on: August 03, 2015, 01:03:55 PM »
Im taking zinc and magnesium as a part of my nutrition in tablets. They say these 2 are requirements for dopamine and testosterone support. Also I eat a lot of stuff with tyrosine,since when absorbed in blood it transforms into dopamine which we need after depletion by so much porn.

Porn Addiction / Re: Back at effing square one!
« on: August 03, 2015, 11:52:58 AM »
There is nothing to be ashamed of about fetishes,especially if you had them even before porn. Fetishes have been mentioned even in ancient civilizations,its part of human sexuality. You must fight porn though. Your aim should be to get rid of porn and indulge in your fetishes on a real woman.

You should go fuck something my friend  :)

Porn Addiction / Re: help me i attract to male!
« on: August 03, 2015, 07:57:47 AM »
Pretty sure its porn and anxiety. I mean think about it. If you were trully gay or bi,you wouldve wanted to do something with guys even before,at the start of puberty. Your brain is in chaos without porn,its a fight of conclusions and fears. Im sure you will make it through.

Every single industry has affect on society. Video game industry,fashion industry,computer industry,food industry... Porn is just a part of many of our actions and behaviors.

PS Since you said you would maybe prefer working in porn. I live near Hungary which is capital of Euro porn industry. When I was 20 and still full of hormones and with working dick I remember I saw add how they looked for men for porn "with athletic build and min 6 inches in pants and decent stamina". I thought about going. Like having sex with so many women and getting like 400 bucks for it. Good stuff. But here I am,working as part time accountat with PIED. Life sucks xD

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