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Ages 20-29 / Re: Free At Last
« on: August 14, 2019, 06:03:30 AM »
My dear friend, you are too amazing to not feel good about yourself. You may not be exactly where you want to be in life, but your worth isn't determined by your success, the amount of work you accomplish or what others think of you. You are worthy because you are you.
Congratulations on one day closer to infinity, you are doing much more better than you realize :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: Not gonna go it alone
« on: August 14, 2019, 05:54:40 AM »
I’m glad you are here, you are such an amazing warrior and an even better friend. You are an inspiration to me and many more, stay awesome  :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: squid's journal
« on: August 14, 2019, 04:43:07 AM »
Wishing you nothing but the best on your trip  :)

Lero You are one of the strongest people i know. Keep being you  :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: Hang in there, the best is yet to come
« on: August 14, 2019, 04:30:13 AM »
Thank you my friends without you i don't think i would have been journaling. Thank you once more  :)
Day 18
The urges are becoming stronger on the other side i have started taken small steps in my self care for example today i drank two cups of water in the morning, meditated for 1 minute  :) , went for a 3 minute run to the library. To be honest i wanted to do more than that but i wanted to do something that i am able to do in the long term. I have learnt there are times i should learn to say no and take a break from using the computer. In my mind i should be doing more and more but in reality my body is not able to sit infront of a cmputer for more than 2-3 hours.  I stopped eating in the morning when i felt i was full and that is something i am proud of  :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: Not gonna go it alone
« on: August 10, 2019, 05:03:16 AM »
Completely tottaly proud of you :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: Hang in there, the best is yet to come
« on: August 08, 2019, 06:56:30 AM »
You two mean a lot more than you realize. Thank you very much :)
Day 12
Reached 2 digits! On the other hand i am starting to get a sleeping debt and today was a really hot today fortunately there i have been able to cool myself. Today i am going to play basketball with my younger brother. These past two days i have allowed myself to be vulnerable to other people, even though it felt uncomfortable, it helped me a lot. A close friend told me some cruel words. I wanted to give up on my streak and relapse but a kind friend told me not to forget who i am and as long as i face my fears i win :)

To the wonderful person reading i hope you are filled with so much happiness that it heals every part of you :) :) :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: Not gonna go it alone
« on: August 08, 2019, 06:50:53 AM »
 I think you are doing a beautiful job figuring out some heavy shit. Wishinig nothing but the best on your journey. Fortunately, you don't have to face it alone. Sending good vibes zazzle! zing! your way!  :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: Hang in there, the best is yet to come
« on: August 01, 2019, 09:09:33 AM »
Day 5
Today was a victory :)
Triggers Yeah I looked a video for the first 3 seconds and i am happy i got out of there. It was a song video but that is not how the first 3 seconds felt like that. After leaving my brain wanted to go back to the video and expose myself to p i said no- i have come to far to go back now. I think the level of my positivity is slowly progressing day by day and it is helping me to fight my toxic thoughts. Just the way i would never allow a friend who is precious to me to be talked to in a bad day i am slowly getting there, of course there are times i have had some horrible thoughts. It all starts with a thought, time to have thoughts of me progressing even if it is by one second it would be enough to make me happy :)

The best part of my day was that after using the computer for 2 hours i went and took a walk, took a short nap and ate food. In the morning i saw a boy give a kiss to his mother on the forehead. It is always nice to know there are good people everywhere :)

Please remember to be gentle with yourself today, no one is perfect. You are good enough just the way you are :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: A new beginning
« on: August 01, 2019, 09:02:20 AM »
 You are more than capable to have a great day 6 it
You are braver than you believe stronger than you seem and smarter than you think and loved more than you know.

Ages 20-29 / Re: 27 And Done With Porn
« on: August 01, 2019, 08:59:48 AM »
Don't beat yourself up, man. We've all relapsed, and we know how shitty it feels. But it happens, and it doesn't mean you're a failure, it just means you were neglecting some aspect of your recovery. All that progress, it's not undone. You still have all that experience of living life clean to inform you going forward.

I am proud of you for reaching out *gives a gentle pat on the back*

Ages 20-29 / Re: Free At Last
« on: August 01, 2019, 08:53:55 AM »
Hell yeah, congratulations on 62 days! Not yet to celebrate though, I know you can do much more. Looking forward to seeing you succeed! :) :) :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: squid's journal
« on: August 01, 2019, 08:52:31 AM »
Celebrate the small victories :) I am so proud of you *gives a gentle pat on the back*

Ages 20-29 / Re: Not gonna go it alone
« on: August 01, 2019, 08:50:58 AM »
You're doing great, and everything I've been reading in your journal shows so much commitment and self-awareness, and it's really impressive and inspiring. Keep it up!

Ages 20-29 / Re: squid's journal
« on: July 29, 2019, 07:16:29 AM »
How did your plan go my dear friend  ;D

Ages 20-29 / Re: Not gonna go it alone
« on: July 29, 2019, 07:15:36 AM »
I am curious to know what you wrote on your list, you did write it didn't you my dear friend  ;D

Ages 20-29 / Re: Hang in there, the best is yet to come
« on: July 29, 2019, 07:11:26 AM »
Day 2
Today was a victory- i love saying this  :)
I saw a woman after a came from a restaurant fortunately i was outside with my father and we were in a hurry to find a cafe- a bit of stress can be helpful at times  :)
I don't usually go out to eat so when we went to a restaurant it made me happy  :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: A new beginning
« on: July 28, 2019, 11:19:22 AM »
There is no need of me passing by here , just by what you wrote i cann tell that you are smart, strong and brave  :)
Wishing you all the best my dear friend  :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: Free At Last
« on: July 28, 2019, 11:16:00 AM »
Hi there my dear friend  :)
Well done on your 56days. You still have a lot of bright days in front of you  :) i can't see the future but the fact that you are being careful means a lot  :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: 27 And Done With Porn
« on: July 28, 2019, 11:08:50 AM »
You know whats best for you better than anyone else. When i am hesitating i weigh the benefits vs the consequences. Give it a trial if you want my dear friend. I f you think this is not the right time to tell her than seize the next opportunity that comes.
Whether you tell her or not we are still going to support you  :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: squid's journal
« on: July 28, 2019, 11:02:14 AM »
Anyone is lucky to call you a friend. You are kind and super helpful to aid your friennd when he needed it  :)
Day 21 seemed like a happy day for you, i wish tomorrow that you are filled with so much happiness that it heals every part of you  :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: Not gonna go it alone
« on: July 28, 2019, 10:57:12 AM »
You my dear friend are an AMAZING person. You look at both the short term (one day at a time) and the long term (150). I am Proud of you  :)
Try your best to go to work if feel unsatisified for a long period of time ( don't wait for too long though) maybe then it is time to try to do something you are both good at and brings you Joy
You deserve nothing less than happiness  :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: Hang in there, the best is yet to come
« on: July 28, 2019, 10:42:27 AM »
Day 1
In the past week i have been in rumania and my father gave me access to his phone- you can guess what happened after  :(  Felt bored today but i was playing fifa and that kept me occupied :)
I am going back home on Tuesday and can't wait to meet my friends and family  :)
Family is not who's blood is in you, is who you love and who loves you.”- Jakie Chan I am glad to have some family here  :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: Hang in there, the best is yet to come
« on: July 19, 2019, 07:25:27 AM »
You guys mean a lot more to me than you realize, all of you  :)
Day 10
Today was a victory  8)
It had been tougher than the previous days i started having flash backs from the last time i had a relapse and there was this voice telling me, well you remember it was enjoyable why not give it a trial and then todays wheather is soooooooooooooooooooo hot but then i decided to go out and meet some friends, spread some kindness in the forum and the urge slowly started going away. I felt my BIGGEST trigger was boredom today i had finished watching my favourite tv show and i was thinking of replacing it with porn but luckily it was a thought and we all have negative thoughts from time to time. I am try to argue with the negative thoughts but the most effective thing i have found out was it is best to go and talk to someone  :)

Ages 20-29 / Re: 27 And Done With Porn
« on: July 19, 2019, 05:53:27 AM »
Just a little message of encouragement for you. Remember even on days when you are feeling weak, you are strong and oh so brave. I know it takes courage to laugh, continue loving, living and find joy when life feels frustrating, confusing and unfair... but i know you have the courage it takes to keep moving forward.   You.  Are.   Amazing.  You are loved and so worth loving. Just remember to be kind to yourself. Most likely if you are tired, hungry and have not exercised in a while the chances of a relapse are significantly higher when you are in front of a screen. What has worked for me is to use the computer that is in the library and buy a phone that has no wifi. It is not a perfect strategy but most of the time a relapse would occur in the morning, i would feel lazy go for my phone and look for the "kick" now that i go around with a nokia that is not possible  :)
I hope that i might have helped you in any way my dear friend

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