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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: March 08, 2019, 09:46:47 AM »
                                     Day 2 @ 8-3-2019


  Clean day no urges, anxiety reduced and felt better. Sleep quality was good and no headache at all. I also worked out and eat healthy. Really great start of pmo free  journey :)



                                      “The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now.” – Chinese proverb

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: March 08, 2019, 09:38:35 AM »
Keep going man, you can do it. I am also starting my journey again currently. I noticed that I learned quite a few things about my triggers and dangerous situations during my past months of relapsing. These new insights really help me right now.

Yeah Man! We can do it!  :)

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: March 07, 2019, 10:08:06 AM »
                                              Day 1 @ 7/3/2019



Day 1 : Today i suffered from higher levels of depression and anxiety no drive to do anything i slept till 8:30 AM and after that @ afternoon. I worked out eat healthy and this is my positive side. I also experiencing mood swings and it really made me miserable. This addiction is really tough to crack but if you cracked it you will find freedom inside. I made my daily routine and now i am following very strictly. Lets see how it works in my journey.



                      NEVER EVER GIVE UP REBOOTERS LET'S WALK TOGETHER ON THIS PATH :)

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: March 03, 2019, 10:40:45 AM »
Thanks brother!  :)

Today i relapsed 2 times. I suffered from insomnia thats why i relapsed past 2 days. Really depressive. Now i am going to change my routine. From today i am updating my journal regularly.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 28, 2019, 01:18:20 AM »
28/2/19 At late night something around 1:30AM i relapsed. Yesterday night i trapped because of insomnia and cant able to sleep after watching p and jerking off i slept very well withdrawals really make you crazy. From tomorrow starting new journey.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 27, 2019, 11:02:23 AM »
Stay with us brother. You can do this. We will get through this struggle.

Yes brother!

 
Past two days i was really busy and also relapsed back to back so now i am taking this challenge really seriously because i want freedom from this now. This year i relapsed 6 times and now i am seriously following Hard mode for while.
I also experienced that after starting your pmo free journey you were going through this stages:

1ST You start your journey and then you reach on 4th -5th day you will experience strong cravings of watching p.
2nd you always suffered from withdrawals like Anxiety,depression,brainfogg etc. Remember this is withdrawal symptoms of stopping pmo.
3rd after that you complete 1st or second week pmo free you got nighfall and weird dreams in between that and it happened with most of the peoples. Some times you suffered from Insomnia [is a sleep disorder that is characterized by difficulty falling and/or staying asleep] And then you got strong urges of pmo and you relapsed.

4th You are on 3rd and 4th week you got insane urges of p or something flashback of p scene and then you are starting surfing on browser etc. Sometimes when you are watching netflix, youtube you get strong urges and flashbacks and then you relapsed.

Most of the peoples are failed in this 4 stages and they relapsed because they dont know how to handle the withdrawals and urges means there lot of peoples were relapsed in this3-4 weeks period and this cycle repeated continuously. I think first four weeks are really important of this journey because after addicted to pmo we were never tried to live such long time without jerking off.

I realize that its important to update your journal daily and when got strong urges open this journal and write something here because this will help you naturally Another main thing of rebooting is your lifestyle if you want to reboot as quickly as possible you must have good lifestyle will support reboot so i guess consistency is only thing that will change you. 

so i glad to say that it is my first PMO free day on 27-2-19 and now i am regularly update my journal i take it as challenge. Keep moving on this path today because tomorrow never comes.


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Teens / Re: Just needed some good wishes and support
« on: February 27, 2019, 10:30:27 AM »
Hey bud i read your complete journal and it really inspired me. Bro dont lose hope i also joined this community past 2 years ago and still i relapsing, i also lost my gf because of shame and insecurity and after that i badly addicted to porn. So many guys were going through this experiences as yours so dont be depressed and think bad about yourself be ready for this challenge and complete it. If you search on google how many peoples are watching porn? you will shocked because 80% of internet is  pornography sites and now you will realize that at least you are trying to escape from this. Life is really short for regret and feeling bad about ourself man!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 23, 2019, 06:57:18 AM »
Today i relapsed. ohhhh god how can i handle this triggers?! I relapsed once again and its really horrible. Now i am starting again from tomorrow this time i will break this cycle. Never ever give up.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 22, 2019, 03:30:32 AM »
22/2/19 Day 5 clean
Got little bit urges but I control myself during studies I can't able to focus because of urges but I handle it.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: My Reboot Journal
« on: February 21, 2019, 12:13:25 PM »
Yesterday was Day 20 another clean one, and was a much better day despite my sickness(a cold). I wasn't really bored during the day, just weaker than usual and tired, but that's to be expected!

I only had P flashback during the initial wake up time and after they were gone! No cravings nor urges during that day and that's a relief. Looking forward for the next day, so today basically!!

Stay strong everyone!!

Keep pushing yourself brother you can do it.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Sailing the tides to reach the an island called Life
« on: February 21, 2019, 12:11:20 PM »
It's normal man you have the chaser effect! Watch out the next days, but keep going don't let yourself get discourage!! You can do it man, just get back on track without being to hard on yourself.

We're here with you, you're not alone!! You'll skullcrush this addiction man!!

Can you explain in brief what is chaser effect?

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 21, 2019, 03:03:19 AM »
Nice job man! A relapse is only a bump as long as you're not binging like crazy! Keep finding tricks against your brain to get yourself free from PMO, my friend, you're doing great!!

Stay Strong and keep Rebooting :)

Thanks bro!

Day 4 Clean day!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Sailing the tides to reach the an island called Life
« on: February 20, 2019, 11:21:39 AM »
DAY #26

2nd clean day.

It's my birthday today. My parents came to the house, the entire day is going to be spent with them. I talked to a lot of my friends, gonna celebrate the evening with family. Nothing else. Tomorrow's a new day, looking forward to it.

Happy Birthday bro!May you completely reboot this year and live happy peaceful life :) You are really inspiration for us keep update your journal :)

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 20, 2019, 11:14:01 AM »
17/2/19 Today I relapsed. I always relapse in 2nd or 3rd week because I can't able to handle urges and it's again happened to me so now I'm really aware about it.  I relapsed 2 times in this year so now this time I will win because I knew the path and where to go in this journey. Never give up.

You are ready to fight back again and that spirit will break down the addiction to its knees. Just be aware of the triggers and learn from it, identify what caused you the urges at the first place and have a plan to deal with them when they show up. And also do not stress much about your record with 2nd and 3rd weeks, sometimes "I always give up on this stage" becomes an excuse for relapse, if you know that these are the tough days for you, then prepare yourself well for it.

Thanks for advice man i really appreciate that.


                                                         
                                                                    3rd Try.#@Day 3


 I was really busy past two days but i kept myself on track. I feel really free now my anxiety levels are reduced. Yesterday night i got really strong urges but i keep telling myself you can do it man p will never satisfied you. Now its last try for me because in this addiction game i have only 3 lives :P And its my final life and i will use it consciously. Hard mode is on now and i am ready for successful reboot. Never ever give up!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 20, 2019, 11:02:22 AM »
you need stop at one worst time. then why you going towards that worst time. stop now. you know the danger above you then why.
i am at day 2 today. doing it well. you also able to do it. get up . be rebooted and help others to reboot.

Yes brother we can do it. :)

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 16, 2019, 11:26:51 PM »
17/2/19 Today I relapsed. I always relapse in 2nd or 3rd week because I can't able to handle urges and it's again happened to me so now I'm really aware about it.  I relapsed 2 times in this year so now this time I will win because I knew the path and where to go in this journey. Never give up.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 16, 2019, 12:48:23 AM »
16-2-19 8 days clean
Yesterday I got really strong urges but I control my self my. I also see changes in my erection I think it is flatline. I guess it's start now my penis is totally dead. Yesterday night I dreamed about p star and during meditation my mind also chattered about p scene,images etc. Guys please every day do some mental fitness activity. Like meditation,yoga, exercise. Etc and be consistent on it. In past week I regularly did meditation and yoga and it helping me a lot.
Tough time is coming be ready to face it.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 16, 2019, 12:39:38 AM »
Today I feel  really positive because I completed 1 week without PMO. Now upcoming 3 weeks are really important to me because most of the time I relapsed in this period so I will prepare for it.  I also doing meditation 3 times in day it also helping me a lot.
15/2/19 7 Days Clean
I don't know what happened to me but I've lost my ability to reach 1 week. I am even desensitized to the drama of it. I don't even despair these days.

Be positive man!  Stay strong.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 16, 2019, 12:38:01 AM »
Today I feel  really positive because I completed 1 week without PMO. Now upcoming 3 weeks are really important to me because most of the time I relapsed in this period so I will prepare for it.  I also doing meditation 3 times in day it also helping me a lot.
15/2/19 7 Days Clean

That's really good, keep going and stay strong!!

Thanks brother!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« on: February 16, 2019, 12:36:37 AM »
Be positive guys! From start of this addiction journey we got lot of pleasure so it time for facing Little amount of pain and by the way it's law of universe without pain you will get nothing so be prepared for it and never give up. Think positively we can do it. Relapse is just a small failure will teach you how to become successful in reboot journey so learn from it and keep moving.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 14, 2019, 10:27:52 PM »
Today I feel  really positive because I completed 1 week without PMO. Now upcoming 3 weeks are really important to me because most of the time I relapsed in this period so I will prepare for it.  I also doing meditation 3 times in day it also helping me a lot.
15/2/19 7 Days Clean

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 13, 2019, 10:32:18 PM »
13/2/19 @ day 5. PMO free day. :)

Congrats man, keep going! We're with you :)

Thanks buddy.

14-2-19

 6 days without PMO

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 13, 2019, 10:28:08 PM »
13/2/19 @ day 5. PMO free day. :)
This is my 2nd day only :(

Keep pushing yourself  dont count days you can do it.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Connecting the dots ( This year i will change)
« on: February 13, 2019, 06:59:07 AM »
13/2/19 @ day 5. PMO free day. :)

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Ages 20-29 / Re: started reboot at 12 September 2018
« on: February 13, 2019, 03:26:38 AM »
Very badly trapped in this addiction. I am sad now . nothing is left behind now. I am feeling very very bad.
I know, bro.

I discovered I was addicted to P in November last year. Until then I had no idea that P was an addiction, I thought I was addicted to masturbation. I think it was the "autosuggestion in the beginning" type of thing cause I felt reinforced and I was sure I could beat this in a few months. A couple of months later, I've binged several times and I started to lose hope. Sometimes it feels like a big giant to fight. Sometimes I feel too weak to get up again and again. I've seen users around here saying they've been trying to quit for years. This only scares me. Do I have to fight years of relapsing? I don't know, man, it's hard.
Just find your why. You can do it bro! We are here to help you . Just find your why.......  Set goals, readjust your daily routine, take small steps to change. Frequently interact with people's  search for something which will create passion about it like any Kind a Sport, Arts or any kind a hobby which will bring positivity in your life man. Don't affraid man! Accept that you addicted to porn and now you are going to change. How many people's are watching porn in today's century?  Search in google and you will see how great you are because you decide to change now you are not supporting human trafficking and spectrum of prostituation. Be proud about ourself. I knew it's difficult to handle urges, withdrawals. It really tough but if you know you why you will win this battle. 

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