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Ages 20-29 / Time reboot for good
« on: December 01, 2016, 10:54:48 PM »
Day 1:

So since my last post, i lost a bit of willingness towards rebooting. I fell into a cycle of PMO. It wasn't as bad as previously where i was fapping every day. But still, i dont want to relapse every 3 or 4 days. I want to completely cure my PIED, and reset my dopamine system and everything. I know i can achieve this because i reached a streak of 35 days before. Lets make sure i dont have excuses this time to relapse. It's going to be hard but lets do this.

Day 1 starts today. A good thing is that im going overseas very soon. So for about a month i shouldn't have any stimuli to relapse.

ps. ignore my counter. I'll try post every day or every other day since i'll be overseas and not on the internet too much

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: November 04, 2016, 05:43:56 AM »
Day 2 done

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: November 03, 2016, 05:38:26 AM »
Day 1- NOV 3:

Okay so we begin again. REMEMBER THE DISAPPOINTMENT YOU FEEL BECAUSE OF RELAPSING. LETS NOT GO BACK. It's fucking shit and i regret it but lets move on and get on a new streak which lasts forever. I'll post every few days as i said before

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: November 02, 2016, 06:42:46 PM »
Well today is day 1 again. That's true jaw. I'm a bit disappointed but whats the point of dwelling on it. I'm sure within a week or so i'd be feeling the benefits of no PMO again. Maybe not to the full effect i was feeling on my streak but to some extent. I know i can conquer no PMO for 90 days +. Let's do this and keep improving myself! I'll post again at night, but as i said in my last post, i'll limit my posting to every few days or if i'm having a really bad day.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: And so it begins
« on: November 02, 2016, 06:39:06 PM »
Good on you mate. It's a shame that i MO'd but i'm still happy i got farther than i ever have with my latest streak. Good luck and hope you hit 90 on Christmas :)

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: November 02, 2016, 04:24:20 AM »
Okay so I've hard a long hard think about and i feel like i should reset my counter fully. Yeah i was on a 37 streak but i told myself no PMO and even if i didnt watch P, i'd be lying to myself if i got to 90 days on this streak. After all it is a number and being no PMO free for 37 days is a huge milestone. It hurts a bit that i have to reset it but i want to prove to myself that i can hit 90 no PMO. I'm sure i've made massive strides already with my current streak but i'll have to build up to it again :)

Also i feel like i'm going to post every few days rather than every day here. I know its been beneficial for others who are reading this blog, but posting every day kind of makes me count and continuously keep thinking about how many number of days i've hit. At some point of my life i should stop counting and it should just be natural for me to not PMO.

Day 1 starts tomorrow. Apologies for whoever was tracking my progress and is motivated by my progress. I might've let you down but resetting my tracker and going again should hopefully tell you to keep being on your streak :)

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: November 02, 2016, 02:59:59 AM »
Day 37/ Day 30?-

Well, bit of a bump in the road today. I didn't watch any P but i felt insanely uncomfortable down there. I think it was because i had way too much semen retention soi had to release. I know MO ing hinders the rebooting progress but since i didn't watch any P i think im gonna just reset my counter back a week. SO essentially this is day 30? I feel okay right now but we'll see how things feel in the coming days

My main goal in this is to rid myself of porn. And get rock hard boners once again since i think im being affected by PIED. So yeah i'm going to ensure i limit myself in regards to MO unless i feel this uncomfortable again, but i need to ensure i don't watch P

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: November 01, 2016, 05:33:27 AM »
Day 36-

No urges, no PMO. I was able to occupy myself more today. Could've done more with my time but its a start hey. Just gotta keep improving day by day. Things will get better only if you put in the hard yards for it :)

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 31, 2016, 04:41:47 AM »
Day 35-

A lot more relaxing day. No urges for PMO. It's weird, I've had a fully busy week and after one relaxing day I prefer to be busy again. Feel like I have so much energy to expend that I need to be engaged in something all the time. Plus being busy helps me not delve into negativity. I shall try make more use of my time

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 30, 2016, 04:12:46 AM »
Day 34-

The journey continues. Easy day again. Kind of feel like I'm in a flatline but it's not that bad. I know that once it passes and I finally finish rebooting that all of this will be worth it. Definitely am a lot more happier nowadays and it's slowly increasing as the days pass. Right now my main priority is to catch up on sleep because I had a crazy hard week where I was extremely sleep deprived. Onto day 35

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 29, 2016, 11:57:51 AM »
Day 33-
Such a tiring day but that made it easy in regards to no PMO.No urges again whatsoever

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 28, 2016, 08:24:37 AM »
Day 32-

Easy day. Pretty relaxed so was able to get through it. No urges. Need to make sure I catch up on sleep. But even though I'm on low sleep, I still feel super energetic a lot of the time. Probs one of the benefits of no PMO. Let's keep going

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 27, 2016, 06:28:20 PM »
Day 31-

Cheers mate :) I'm glad I'm helping out others whilst benefitting myself.

Day 31 was again easy. I had like no sleep last night because I had a major assignment due so literally slept the day off. Need to just keep composed when I get into pressure situations. I think the only way I will relapse now is if I get really stressed. Think the time when I used to PMO due to boredom is long behind me.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 26, 2016, 06:28:57 PM »
Day 30-

Super busy yesterday so I had no time to post. Another easy but yaaay first milestone achieved. Next stop 45 days

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 25, 2016, 06:54:20 AM »
Day 29

Easy day. Really busy day so again now urges. 1 month tomorrow. First big milestone!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 24, 2016, 08:02:02 AM »
Day 28-

Back to normal today. Less stressful day but it was a long day. No urges and hence was easy. Nearly a month soon!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 23, 2016, 04:56:57 AM »
Day 27-

Quite a few urges today. Very stressful day because a lot of important work to do. Nearly peaked at a gif but stopped myself from doing so. I still need to get it into my head that I can't use PMO for stress release. It's a previous habit I have to break.

Also thanks M. Yeah let's keep each other accountable and make sure we both get to that huge milestone :)

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 22, 2016, 04:20:34 AM »
Day 26-

Early post again. Relatively easy day again. Have a few urges and can sense my libido coming back. Other stuff in my life has me a bit down still but I'm not going to let that affect me too much. Usually I'd resort to PMO to relieve myself but it's good to see that I don't want to head towards that path again.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 21, 2016, 03:39:28 AM »
Day 25-

Early post because going to be out all night. Easy day again in regards to no PMO. Slightly down but all good

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 20, 2016, 06:54:37 AM »
Day 24-

Easy day and more motivated today despite being super tired from lack of sleep.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 19, 2016, 06:08:50 AM »
Day 23-

Felt a bit unmotivated and down in the morning but once I got out of the house I felt good again. I know there's going to be ups and downs with a general trend upwards so need to keep fighting. There's definitely light at the end of the tunnel. No going back whatsoever and however long it takes

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 18, 2016, 05:34:41 AM »
Day 22:

Easy day again. Let's keep going

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 17, 2016, 06:48:08 AM »
Day 21:

Well three weeks is comfortably the longest streak I've ever been on. I've felt some benefits but I know there so much more to come down the track. Let's keep going

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 16, 2016, 07:11:05 AM »
Day 20-

Well day 20 was easy too. Its been super easy the past week. It might be due to the fact I've been super busy and exhausted by every night. But I do feel like I've turned a corner and CAN live a life without P. It's a massive achievement so far but I need to keep at it since I've seen people relapse when they were on very high streaks.

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Rebooting Journal
« on: October 15, 2016, 10:25:03 AM »
Day 19-

Another day down. I definitely feel a lot better. Am excited to see what 90 days of progress feels like. But that's ages away and I need to stay strong throughout. I need to take it day by day but  I can do this for sure

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