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Porn Addiction / Sexuality
« on: February 21, 2018, 05:58:16 PM »
Does porn really change your sexuality?. I have seen hard core gay and straight porn, even worse then that, and I get confused about my sexuality and scared, I may become gay or something I never used to be

Porn Addiction / Help me please.
« on: February 21, 2018, 04:54:06 PM »
I needed to come back, mainly because I have lost the motivation to stop. For some reason, what helped me before is not working now, and that was to just stop. I feel like it is much harder this time around, does it get harder, each time you relapse, to recover again? and when does the withdrawals stop, or at least get better. I need someone who can seriously motivate me into stopping for good. I originally manage to stop for over a year, but now, I can not, for some reason!.

Porn Addiction / Last moment
« on: January 30, 2018, 05:01:35 PM »
I have rebooted before, so it shouldn't be any different, but it feels harder this time around, maybe because I lost motivation this time around. Anyway, I have been off a week, but went on porn for a couple of minutes, and nearly ejaculated, but before I could, I stopped, walked away and had a cold shower. Did I just lose my progress, I know I relapsed, but I still hope I am making some progress.

Porn Addiction / Stopped trying.
« on: December 07, 2017, 06:24:17 PM »
As the subject suggests, I have pretty stopped trying. At one point, I managed to stop porn for roughly a year, maybe more. I think it was towards the end of 2015 that I relapsed, at this point I could not be bothered to try. I have a traumatic experience involving porn, that caused my OCD to get worse. I watched hentai, anyone experienced with this kind of porn, knows some of the more serious genres involved, stuff like Lolicon, can cause some serious harm. Anyway, my point is, I use porn to stop my traumatic memories getting worse, by viewing stuff unrelated and it makes me feel much better. I want to stop, but it seems like I cant, or it is harder for some reason. Anybody experience something similar? and how can I stop now?.

Porn Addiction / Re: It has been awhile
« on: February 23, 2017, 10:07:35 PM »
Thank you for the support guys, I will look into these books you suggested

Porn Addiction / It has been awhile
« on: February 21, 2017, 04:52:11 PM »
I went without porn for a long time, roughly a year. So I thought it would be a good idea to masturbate, without realising it, I ended up addicted to porn again. Now I am back on it, and it has been about three months. The things is, I am 27 years old, nearly 28, been addicted to porn, since I was roughly 22. I started out as a regular guy, watching softcore porn, without care, that subsided and I stopped. I ended up watching anime, and ended up curious about advertisement, that would pop up, I checked it out, of course it was hentai, at first it was curiosity, then It was because I was depressed, in the end it lead to a full out addiction, and I didn't realise the consequences, until I tried to stop. I ended up watching really hardcore stuff, I do not think many people which actually understand unless you have seen it, but I am talking Lolicon, cheating, netorare and rape etc, not happy about it, in fact I would rather not even post about it, to be totally honest, this stuff was serious, and you do not realise the effects, until your recover, which I have done in the past, but the thing is, I do not think this is something you can fully recover from I mean it is really, really hardcore stuff, right?. Even if I was to stop, I am a 27, nearly 28 virgin, recovery sounds absolutely impossible. I am sure some will sugar coat it, but unless you have seen this stuff, I am not sure a lot of you would understand, and the frustration keeps building up, I even ended up with OCD from these genres. I am sorry for the long post, some of you might not even respond, but I cant stop, it feels stronger then before, maybe because I seen no Brightside to stopping, whats the point, when I will probably be limp for my life. Anyone who reads this, thank you.

Porn Addiction / any help?
« on: September 29, 2016, 09:09:08 AM »
i have started to recover again, because I ended up relapsing. been off porn for 3 days, but getting mass amount of urges, so I ended up going on porn for 3 minutes maybe, less with adrenaline and arousal, so what next?, am I still on the mend, I went straight off without masturbating, but my mind is telling me to just finish it off, that I have messed up, typical mind set, like may as well start again tomorrow. the urges are really hard to fight. I feel like, if I don't get help, I might end up going back on it. I know its only been 3 days, but its really tough

Porn Addiction / Re: Scared
« on: September 12, 2016, 03:35:28 AM »
Anyone experienced these genres, just need a chat buddy who can help me stop an recover

Porn Addiction / Re: Scared
« on: September 11, 2016, 12:52:40 AM »
Thank you for all the much needed support, but is there anyone here that's been through something similiar, that understands me, or these types of genres, with them being effected?. I wouldn't mind chatting about it, and seeing other people that went through this type of stuff..

Porn Addiction / Re: Scared
« on: September 10, 2016, 01:29:19 PM »
Honestly, did me watching lolicon make me a bad/disgusting person?, seems like most people online assume that it is something really bad, which I do agree, no doubt about it, but at the same time curiosity and my addiction lead me to viewing this, which is what plagues me the most. Does it make me a dangerous person?, or is it really something that's in my head?

Porn Addiction / Re: Scared
« on: September 10, 2016, 01:11:22 AM »
Are you, or anyone else familiar to the genres I am talking about?, and seen anything about people recovering from it?. If so, could you chat to me, or help me understand. Manga/hentai, I spent years of my life in the drain, watching that, with it emotionally effecting me. It's hard to try and fix something, that's already effecting my brain so badly. There's times I think about it, especially the lolicon, I seem a therapist, he said that its just fiction, but never seems to make me feel any different.

Porn Addiction / Scared
« on: September 09, 2016, 05:29:32 PM »
Honestly I didn't want to post this, because its very upsetting, but I don't have anyone else to talk to. I am really struggling, ending up going back to porn, even when I don't really get erections anymore. I am tired and frustrated, it even gave me OCD regarding the genres I have seen. I read some serious stuff, hardcore would be one way of putting it. Stuff I have scene, not sure if you have heard of these, but here goes. Netorare, Cheating, Rape, lolicon and more. I honestly don't feel like I can heal full stop, even if I did stop this addiction, I wouldn't fully recover, probably because it is to extreme, for me to ever be in a relationship, or mentally heal, that's if I ever get erection now. Please help me, this is to personal, for me to even consider posting on the forums. Have you seen cases like these, and did they ever recover?. because I feel like scum and disgusting....I cant even leave the house anymore, because I hate myself. Apart of me wants to die, because of this shit, including lolicon

Porn Addiction / Re: Addicted to hentai before gay porn ?
« on: July 01, 2016, 11:02:25 AM »
Well, if you do in fact have OCD, everything is related to anxiety, and you end up questioning yourself, doubting yourself and even trying to convince yourself, what you are not. So how do you manage this?, well first of all, you need to realise that these are just thoughts, nothing more and they most certainly are not anything to be a shamed of. So here is my advice, 1) I would advice you stop looking for answers, you will not find them, why?, because you have OCD, doing so, will only make your anxiety worse. 2) realise these are just negative emotions, and when you start questioning these thoughts, you need to understand, that these questions are also thoughts, nothing more. 3) do not escape from these emotions/thoughts, running away, will only make things worse, except them, be mindful of your surroundings, and understand, that there is more to life, then worrying about these unseen thoughts. 4) see a therapist, at first it will be terrifying, and most certainly, you will feel embarrassed, you might even cry, but if you don't, you will head to a very dark path, if you worried about seeing your GP, then contact the crisis team and explain yourself and your needs. 5) at all costs, stop researching, any reassurance, will make things worse, remember you have OCD, it will only make things worse and you wont find answers. Look, have you ever thought, "where is all this anxiety, coming from?", its the porn, and it is exactly why your questioning yourself. Stay away from this toxic crap, otherwise, you will still question yourself and your anxiety will always be high. On a side note, when is being gay, ever been wrong?, you look at all this so negatively, without looking at it clearly, being gay is fine, I am not saying your gay, the chances are, you are not, but stop beating yourself, over something like this. I have POCD, which is very hard to deal with, which also came from hentai, believe me, I was extremely scared, I even cried, when I told the crisis team, but they do not judge and I ended up seeing a therapist. Grow a pair and live your life.

Porn Addiction / Re: need help
« on: July 01, 2016, 10:36:23 AM »
If you can not masturbate, without porn, then the chances are your addicted to it. I have OCD myself and from experience, if you carry on with porn, I can guarantee, you will be making things a lot worse, not just socially, but your OCD too. If your on here, looking for questions, the chances are, you have already noticed yourself, that you are addicted. Stay away from porn regardless, you don't need answers, and I would advice you stop looking, if it has become a habit, as OCD will only make you feel worse. Remember, reassurance will only raise your anxiety levels, which will upset you more. On the side note, see a therapist, if you have not already, as it will help you understand your emotions and where there coming from.

Porn Addiction / hardcore porn/no return?.
« on: June 28, 2016, 06:20:51 PM »
I have watched some of the most hardcore stuff orientated around anime, though I would rather not discuss exactly what, I am sure a lot of people have a idea. I was free from porn February 2014, and relapsed July 2015, ended up recovering again, at the start of September 2015 and have been clean since. My question is, is there a point you don't recover?, I used to look at a lot of articles regarding porn, some were how porn changes you, as a person and you can become unable to return to a normal relationship, because of the extreme desensitization porn causes. I am still unable to get erections, not even morning wood, though I am a 26 year old virgin, so I am un experienced. Is it to late for me?, did I lose myself long ago?. Anyway, I would not mind other peoples opinions on this matter.

Porn Addiction / Re: Relapsed
« on: September 12, 2015, 02:02:36 PM »
Is it actually possible to fully recover, especially because of such hard core material, which I will not go into detail, because of how bad it was. Because it has such drastic changes to your brain, that it worries me. I just do not thing I can get my libido back. I have used death grip, while watch serious content for hours. So I do not know if it is possible or not. That and it is hentai, which is a lot different from regular porn, because of how unrealistic it is.

Porn Addiction / Relapsed
« on: September 12, 2015, 01:02:10 PM »
Well after being free from porn since October 2014 I have relapsed and ended up binging for 2 days. I was hoping, that someone could give me someone could help me, by giving me so encouragement. I have problems with my arms, and I can not really do much, it causes me to be isolated and I hate myself. I feel tired now, probably because of the relapse and I am not sure how long that will last, that and I will have to deal with cravings for awhile. Is there any advice you could give me, to help me through this, because no doubt I have to start at square one. I would like to ask, is it normal to be desensitized to porn, even after falling back after reboot. Anyway I hope someone can give me some words of encouragement.

Porn Addiction / I want to give up.
« on: September 11, 2015, 02:56:52 AM »
Well I finally gave into temptation after viewing softcore eroitica (manga) for roughly a month, I decided to masturbate to it. Now I feel like I have just lost everything I worked for, since October last year I went hard mode, now everything I done is now gone. I feel like crap and I want to just give up now. If there's any chance that u still have some of my progress please tell me.

Porn Addiction / Re: A mess
« on: September 07, 2015, 01:54:35 PM »
I understand that, but have I lost my progress?. I do not mind restarting my counter. I am just scared I have lost all I have worked for.

Porn Addiction / Re: A mess
« on: September 07, 2015, 01:26:24 PM »
Quick question, how long have I been set back?, do I have to start over, especially how it has been on for a month, or can I still recover some of my lost progress?.

Porn Addiction / Re: A mess
« on: September 06, 2015, 05:01:51 PM »
Thank you for the support, this site as meant a lot to me.

Porn Addiction / A mess
« on: September 06, 2015, 08:15:07 AM »
I was doing so fell, I actually went into hard mode October last year, but it went out of control, when I started isolating myself and ending up viewing erotic images and even some soft core sex scenes in the stuff I read, though I never actually masturbated, or watch full on sex scenes, it has been going on for roughly a month. I feel like I have already relapsed and my mind is telling me to go back on the hentai/manga I use to view. I do not know what to do, it feels like I have lost all my progress and I am turning it all into a mess again!. Apart of me, wants to go back and give up, sometimes I don't see the point. I am 26 year old virgin, with a shitty life. Sorry for the rant, but I just needed to let some steam off, I am sick and tired of it all and feel like crying sometimes. I have this voice in my head, saying "You know what, you have failed and relapsed, you may as well just watch it".

Porn Addiction / Re: Confused and need help please.
« on: August 31, 2015, 01:01:45 PM »
Thank you for the help :).

Porn Addiction / Confused and need help please.
« on: August 30, 2015, 06:39:06 AM »
I need some help regarding a problem of mine. Does porn change your sexuality and who you are?, because I constantly question myself. I have seen some real hard core stuff, involving animated porn/manga. Although I have not watched porn since February 2014, I have recently started to slip up, though only through erotica, which I am trying to get over, but now I do not know who I am, or what I am attracted to. Have I caused some serious damage to my brain?, and can you truly recover from such extreme porn?. I have OCD, so I can't stop these intrusive thoughts, that are constantly plaguing me. I will be seeing a CBT therapist to help. But I need to know if I can get myself back to normal, and have a normal relationship, because I feel like a monster at the moment. Please help me, I really would like some support and has anyone else been through this?.

Porn Addiction / Re: Please help me.
« on: August 18, 2015, 12:43:02 PM »
Should I reset my sobriety date, for slipping up, because I seen that people have to reset after a slip up and can I return to manga after I have rebooted?

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