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Ages 20-29 / Re: New year, better choices
« on: December 31, 2016, 12:24:08 PM »
keta you are not alone.
we all are suffering from all these symptoms on different levels.
I also don't have much confidence in talking with women.
the more you stay away from porn,  I guarantee you, you will gain more confidence.
fight your depression and anxiety as well.
see in the eyes of your anxiety
face it and end it.
best of luck.

Ages 20-29 / Re: A new start
« on: December 31, 2016, 12:21:31 PM »
Day 4:

A good day. Went out with a friend in the morning. Then got busy in work. Got excited to see a beautiful colleague. Not many temptations because it was a busy day.

Did I use porn today? No
What were my triggers? I think that nightfall is one of my triggers because it makes me stressful and stress leads me to porn
How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? Got busy in work
What am I grateful for today? Friends and family
Day counter!= 4

Good luck guys
Good work bro.Keep it up.
Yes we have to be careful with the following things in reboot.
1. triggers
2. fantasy
3. Masturbation/self touching
4. Porn Substitute
5. Porn
6. Sex without relationship

it all starts from trigger and fantasy. instantly distract yourself from triggers and fantasy.
keep it up

Ages 20-29 / Re: New beginning
« on: December 31, 2016, 12:18:41 PM »
Day 71

Well 2016 is almost over, lets hope 2017 will be better in every aspect and especially finally finding a apropriate girlfriend and abandoning PMO for life. Maybe that will be the new year resolution of most of the guys here, I wish you all best of luck fighting this adiction! :)
True my friend. This must be our resolutions. Find a woman and leave PMO.
When I was on SSRI, I had lot of confidence, I was talking to women, I spend time with women.
I am sure, I can do that without SSRI also.

Ages 20-29 / Re: Leaving SSRI & Porn
« on: December 31, 2016, 12:16:53 PM »
Day 2 Completed
A good day with no issues. I was just fighting and screaming in night. Usually you get nightmares when you leave SSRI. It is a common symptom of leaving SSRI. Rest is fine, I am doing good so far.
I have to take care of myself in all of the following areas.And I have to deal with cravings and urges in a very positive way.
BLAST = BBLAAAST = Bored,burned out,lonely,anxious,afraid,angry,stressed,tired
HALT= hungry,Angry,Lonely,Tired

Ages 20-29 / Leaving SSRI & Porn
« on: December 30, 2016, 08:38:47 PM »
Hello Guys.
I am old member of reboot nation.I haven't came to RN for a while, I think 6 months may be.
This time was full of ups and downs.I was taking lexapro 10 Mg again, I was on this drug for 95 consecutive days.
My best streak was 90 days, I relapsed on 91 day. Lexapro helped me a lot in combating my anxiety and depression, but again it is just a drug, it can't fix your life, and sooner or later it starts not to work. The effect of lexapro is no longer there, and my doctor told me to increase the dose. But now I have decided to leave SSRI because its not working any more and I can't live on this drug forever.
It had some devastating effects on me too, I was like a robot, a human with very less emotions, I was taking risk for no reasons. I would not recommend this drug to anyone.
Now I will try to leave porn as well with SSRI.
This is all I have to say right now, But now I will come regularly on reboot nation.
Taha Marylandi


Ages 20-29 / Re: Never Give Up
« on: August 12, 2016, 12:10:57 AM »
Just moments ago I relapsed.
again same reason of desensitization.
I was really feeling anxious, depressed , sad and boring too.
I have to pass 1st week this time.
I should expect sadness and stress in 1st week.
I am ready to fight back again.
I will use again RN and YBOP.
Thanks guys.

Ages 20-29 / Re: Momentum Is A Cruel Mistress
« on: August 11, 2016, 10:55:16 AM »
you are right.
start strong end strong.
chaser effect will die very soon in next few hours.
just make it till 7 days, then it is easy for next 2 week before you hit twenties.

Ages 20-29 / Re: Never Give Up
« on: August 11, 2016, 10:53:45 AM »
My Plan is to reach 100 days (not more or less).
100 days means 100 days without PMO.
I will keep working on here on rebootnation and yourbrainonporn to enhance myself against the beast of porn

Ages 20-29 / Re: Getting back to life
« on: August 11, 2016, 09:21:49 AM »
Jkkk fight back.
90 days is a great plan.
keep it up.

Ages 20-29 / Never Give Up
« on: August 11, 2016, 09:07:13 AM »
I was away from RN and YBOP from last few months. I had been going through ups and downs as usual.
The reason I came back to these two sites, is that I was having a very hard time focusing on the reboot.
To keep my reboot as my first priority I needed some support base, so I am back into game here again.
Never give up is my new journal. You can't give up in your life, you have to fight every second till death.
Rest is fine.
I am feeling home, back into RN community.

Ages 20-29 / Re: 22 year old, with a family. this needs to stop!
« on: July 07, 2016, 04:54:28 PM »
install filters so that you can get some steak.

Ages 20-29 / Re: Through The Flames (staying in reality)
« on: July 07, 2016, 04:53:17 PM »
Now using k9 web protection with family safety and picblocker on Laptop.
3 filters.

sheild my teen on samsung phone.

Ages 20-29 / Re: 22 year old, with a family. this needs to stop!
« on: July 07, 2016, 03:55:31 PM »
dansin. great.
have you installed filters again ?
do it right away.

keep it up man.
1 relapse is better than binge.


Ages 20-29 / Re: Powerless and Surrendered: My Journey to Freedom
« on: July 07, 2016, 03:53:28 PM »
Good prozilla.
Do what you feel is good for you.
AA and SA are based on same principles.

Ages 20-29 / Re: Through The Flames (staying in reality)
« on: July 07, 2016, 03:51:58 PM »
So I just saw my counter right now. I have made 15 hours without PMO. woohoo.
something is better than nothing.
I have put porn blockers on my laptop and samsung galaxy cell phone.
I am using picblocker for laptop and sheild my teen for samsung galaxy phone.
I know the passwords to unlock both filters, but at least they will help me not to watch accidentally.
these blockers will kill accidental trap of porn.
although I can unblock these filters at any time and I might do that in future too, but hopefully I will get a good breakthrough, good steak.I am desperate to get a good steak now.
at least more than 20 days.
blockers will definitely help me. they are aide for me but not the whole complete solution.
Guys I need to break this habit now. I am 26 years old now.
Fighting this addiction from last 8 to 9 years.

Ages 20-29 / Re: Through The Flames (staying in reality)
« on: July 07, 2016, 08:40:55 AM »
I relapsed badly yesterday night.
Fighting back.
No other option.

Ages 20-29 / Through The Flames (staying in reality)
« on: July 05, 2016, 05:36:07 AM »
Starting again

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Death of an Enemy (The Birth of an Ally)
« on: June 18, 2016, 10:54:10 AM »
Yeah my friend.
I have monetary benefits associated with my parents.
I am enjoying lots of things with my parents.
I can't afford to live alone.

so I think your friend is preying you.
one of my coworker, she is dangerous.
she a lot older than me, 45 to 50 I guess.
once, she came close to me and sit on the chair next to me.
then she always touches me on the back, like she is appreciating me, but actually its sexual.

some women are always preying men.
be careful.

It is never healthy to get into such relationships, it will bring negative results.

Ages 20-29 / Re: Counting days to my freedom
« on: June 18, 2016, 10:45:56 AM »
yes my friend.
I am doing meditation again for 30 minutes twice a day.
1 hour total in a day.
lets see what results it brings for me.

Great Buddy.
keep it up.

Ages 20-29 / Re: I Really Mean It Mindset
« on: June 18, 2016, 10:43:07 AM »
I want to clear some points in my mind early in this mindset.

1. This journey won't be bed of roses, it will be tough one.
2. I would face fatigue in this journey because brain gets tired doing same thing over and over again. But I would continue to do the items on list even on the worst day.
3. Relapse can happen, Relapse won't effect my journey. I will continue to do the things even after relapse.
4. Some times, I would have to get out of comfort zone to complete the tasks on lists.
5. I am working for progression instead of perfection.
6. NO PMO and sex.

Ages 20-29 / I Really Mean It Mindset
« on: June 18, 2016, 07:47:53 AM »
Day 1.
I am starting I really mean it mindset from today.
I will do 3 things daily in I really mean it mindset.

1. 30 Minutes Daily meditation twice = 1 hour meditation
2. 24 Minutes Daily Affirmations twice = 48 Minutes affirmations
3. 29 Minutes Daily hypnosis twice = 58 Minutes hypnosis

Today is the first day.

Starting with full force.

Ages 20-29 / Re: I won't Give Up
« on: June 13, 2016, 07:02:14 AM »
You have to reward yourself on every victory.
So that your brain strive for it again and again.

Ages 20-29 / Re: I won't Give Up
« on: June 13, 2016, 07:00:57 AM »
Okay guys
I have a new plan in practice now.
I have set my counter to 15 days.
If I reach 15 days. I will go to theater to watch movie.
And this will continue on , on every 15 days.

Ages 20-29 / Re: 22 year old, with a family. this needs to stop!
« on: June 13, 2016, 06:52:56 AM »
Dansin stay strong

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