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after staying away for about 10 days.  I managed to peak at some porn today.

Very annoyed. But closed it after a few minutes. Didn't have too much urge to watch it thankfully.

you were damn right. I spiralled out of control and now planning to get back into habit of staying away

Let me chime in with my 2c. Coming from a 3rd world country older folks would always advise against excessive masturbation and its perils in the bedroom. I think there definitely is something to it. Secondly, PIED is not strictly speaking just the porn. The rule of thumb is that if its anything other than natural stimulation aka sex with a real partner then it is a problem. This includes ANY artificial stimulus like watching Porn, or achieving  Masturbation, or orgasm without having any real partner. Some people even have a problem with facebook where they jack off to hot folks theyve seen on facebook. So read up on what is staying away from hard m ode and do it for as long as necessary, and I am sure you will recover.

WE should have a like button on this forum to like the really good posts.

I can't emphasize enough on hard mode. I am advising you because I have recovered with hard mode and have relapsed again. So I need it too. But the first time it took me a long time to recover.

Read up on hard mode. There is a reason it is called hard mode, it definitely isn't easy

stop obsessing over your penis. It'll come back fine. I am assuming you have PIED. So give yourself time to heal. I also assume its curved when its erect and not when it is doft?

good question, i too suffer from this problem. I seemed to have overcome it when i had recovered. But then i relapsed and it has come back :(

didn't write yesterday though since I resorted to a little bit of sexting ugh. I don't feel like writing too much since the 3rd day onwards. Feeling very tired and angry with myself for succumbing yesterday. It wasn't too much but still, it was 2 or 3 texts back and forth and the associated imagery. Having a healthy morning wood some of these days but it goes away when I stand. So things are moving in the right direction but I need to be clean

Day 4, some horniness in the background but otherwise a fairly normal day

Ages 30-39 / Re: Happysad - day by day
« on: February 14, 2018, 09:22:08 PM »
Wow man, that's awesome. Great self control and perseverance. Well done

Day 3. Felt less horny today than yesterday. In fact the day was busy at work and at home so didn't get the time to put my mind to dirty thoughts

Ages 30-39 / Re: Happysad - day by day
« on: February 13, 2018, 11:10:20 PM »
Great update. Good day for you

Ages 30-39 / Re: PIED. And wanting to reboot. Second time around
« on: February 12, 2018, 10:12:28 PM »
Yeah man, the first week and the second week are the toughest. Keep your marbles during that time and you will be good. I am repeating this advice for 2 weeks because I am also in the same situation. Bad case of sexting in my case has led me to relapse. Today is day 2 of my abstention. Keep going strong dude. We are all in this together.

Day 2. I felt horny at the mere sight of skin and some hot folks. Tried to keep my mind away from it. Otherwise the day went by ok. I think there's a horniness in the background that I am trying my best to ignore.

Ages 30-39 / Re: Happysad - day by day
« on: February 12, 2018, 06:14:56 PM »
Thanks happysad, will start keeping a diary from tonight. Will post in my thread

Ages 30-39 / Re: Happysad - day by day
« on: February 11, 2018, 11:19:11 PM »
The ups and downs will come with hard mode for sure which is what is scaring me as well. Thank to your motivating posts each day I have begun hard mode starting today

Indeed I do. Have started a hard mode from today.

Porn Addiction / Re: Hello Gentlemen. Now we begin.
« on: February 11, 2018, 11:16:37 PM »
Thank you William, you're right. J have been using porn to get dopamine highs and edging really is a way to extend it. I guess it goes back to the old dictum, if it's artificial stimuli that I am using to get that dopamine high, then it's BAD.

Porn Addiction / Re: Hello Gentlemen. Now we begin.
« on: February 11, 2018, 04:55:25 PM »
Hi William, or anybody else who cares to answer. Is there any detailed posts or material on edging out there? I feel like I indulge in it from time to time and it has been quite detrimental

And thanks to this edging my sex life sucks again. Ugh. Fuck me

After my recovery I thought I'd never relapse but I have. Ugh. I feel awful. And this time it crept up on me. I mean these last few months I was cheating on myself by edging and sexting and acting as if everything was ok. It really isn't ok. The edging and sexting is definitely inspired from my days of watching porn. With delinquencies inspiring all sorts of fantasies which my sexting makes me want to talk about and then edge to it later at night.

Ages 30-39 / Re: Happysad - day by day
« on: February 11, 2018, 02:16:41 PM »
happysad, your posts are actually motivating me to do better. Thank you for posting

Hey buddy,I am glad you are doing something for your ED. However 15 days is too little. As somebody mentioned at least give yourself 3 months and 3 months in complete hard mode. Read up on what is hard mode. It will be tough but it will get you good resume. And bear in mind that this is different for everyone. It can take more like 6 months to heal. For some it can take a year or more to heal.

Porn Addiction / Re: Hello Gentlemen. Now we begin.
« on: February 10, 2018, 09:05:18 AM »
Man, your posts are therapy for me

Ages 30-39 / Re: Happysad - day by day
« on: February 10, 2018, 09:03:10 AM »
Thanks happysad. You shouldn't have mentioned Pamela Anderson here lol. Buy good on reading you for posting your progress. I agree with your suggestion about putting up a counter on my phone

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