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Ages 30-39 / Re: Bring back the passion!
« on: May 19, 2015, 12:17:48 AM »
Uhg... Back to day 1. I made it 6 days. The entire day was a struggle, and I couldn't concentrate on anything else. I would get up and take walks to clear my head, which helped for the moment, but urges kept coming back. I finally gave in.

I was out of my normal routine the past three days and wasn't as focused on my recovery. I let my mind wonder a bit to much and ultimately a couple social media clicks became a porn site . I thought I would be able to control that aspect of things, but I proved myself wrong.

Well, tomorrow is a new day...

Ages 30-39 / Re: Bring back the passion!
« on: May 18, 2015, 12:16:58 PM »
I'm on day 6 now. After the 4th day of no PMO my mind was looking for anything sexual to latch onto. I caught myself checking out a hot profile on a social app then "quickly" backing out. When I fall asleep at night all I think about are past porn clips or my own sexual fantasies. I'm trying to remove those thoughts and shift my thinking, but at this point it is very, very difficult. Man, this is exhausting...

Ages 30-39 / Re: Bring back the passion!
« on: May 12, 2015, 01:50:47 PM »
Thanks, joe!

Ages 30-39 / Bring back the passion!
« on: May 12, 2015, 01:33:31 AM »
Hi, I’m 30 years old. I’ve been married to my wife for 6 years and I have two boys. For the most part life is pretty good, but I know that it can be better. I work from home which is a blessing and a curse (for obvious reasons). If I feel like “taking a break” I can. I’ll just work late if I need to, but then that is ultimately taking valuable time away from my family. It also sucks to hear your wife say how she admires what a hard worker I am (which I like to think I am), but knowing that I wasted a portion of my day PMO’ING. I want to be able to fully accept that complement!

My story is similar to most of yours. I stumbled across some dirty mags when I was about 9 and P has had my attention ever since. I was hooked and it has become a normal part of life, almost routine, ever since.

Lately I’ve started to feel a lack of passion in my work… and life in general and I feel like my creativity is slowly melting away. I’ve made a couple serious attempts to “Reboot”.  My longest record being 30 days. What tends to happen is that I spend so much energy trying to resist the thought/urge to PMO that I become unproductive. I loose the ability to concentrate on what I’m doing and I just give into to the urges. I’m able to concentrate after that, but I just feel defeated knowing that I don’t have the self control to stop.

I’m looking forward to giving this another shot. I’ve set up some url blocking on my computer. I’ve got a workout schedule set up. I’m looking to make life style changes. It’s encouraging to read some of these post and see trackers with 300+ days! I hope to be there myself one day!

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