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Teens / Re: Let's rewire. This time for real.
« on: February 10, 2015, 10:52:57 AM »
you're more than halfway there!
will you stop using them when you reboot?

Nope, it's in my family to have low serotonin levels so I'm using them to prevent being depressed and a lot of other annoying symptoms.

Teens / Re: Let's rewire. This time for real.
« on: February 09, 2015, 07:14:58 PM »
It's been a while since I posted here.
I'm currently not keeping track of my days, but I'd like to share something with you guys.

For almost 2 weeks I've been using antidepressants to boost my serotonin levels, it has helped me very greatly.
It has cured my premature ejaculation and also the need to watch porn has greatly decreased while I'm not numbed down.
I might consider getting active here again.

Porn Addiction / Re: 60 y/o newbie
« on: January 19, 2015, 11:44:02 AM »
Welcome to the forum bud!

We're glad to have you here and you've got quite a story why I get you're swearing off porn.
Some people could consider their selves lucky for rebooting early, you can consider yourself lucky for being older.

In your case you could call yourself lucky too, as you were younger you probably already have yourself wired to real girls and not porn.
Therefore your progress may go quicker and I would like to recommend to try it 90 days :)

Feel free to also keep a journal where you post and maybe even read other people their journal, after all we're one big community and supporting each other in our long journey.
Also, on there are many interesting videos/articles/blogs to read to educate yourself on the topic and boost your motivation.

Good luck and stay strong!

Porn Addiction / Re: BBC Documentary on Porn Addiction
« on: January 14, 2015, 05:28:57 PM »

Teens / Re: Let's rewire. This time for real.
« on: January 14, 2015, 04:00:03 PM »
[Day 23]

Still been feeling rather anxious, life still feels like a pile of shit.

So today I had an appointment at the GP where there was some sort of psycho therapist, he was a very nice, understand man.
I've never felt this understood before, yet I felt exhausted and drained afterwards.
Still facing heavy brain fog, social anxiety and just feeling like shit in-general.

Not sure if I'm going to continue this journal a lot, I'm filled with emotions, sadness, anxiety, you name it.

To who all reading this, stay strong in your reboot!
Reboot has really helped me, until I relapsed, yet I will try to keep strong too, but my mental health is just going off-path right now.

Teens / Re: Let's rewire. This time for real.
« on: January 12, 2015, 01:42:06 PM »
[Day 21]

Yesterday I had another panic attack, I also learned from my aunt it's in the family
It was truly awful and it makes me feel even more social scared and exhausted.
Got no motivation to do anything, but today I did visit the GP.

Next Wednesday I'll have an appointment.

Porn Addiction / Re: I had sex.
« on: January 10, 2015, 12:22:00 PM »
I don't this this has been a bad experience, you had sex with a girl whom you loved in a passionate way and not in a way where you would fantasize about P.
Also, it may have been a bit early to O again but you did it the good way! The way it's supposed to be, so don't you worry about that :)

About the happiness, look man, we can't all be so happy if we keep worrying about it!
I'm also guilty of this as well, same with over thinking but you got to try to stop that a little. Live in the moment, not in the future ;)

I've been getting recurring mini flatlines that last like a few hours every couple of days.  What does this mean?  Does them getting shorter mean I'm close to getting rid of ED?

Grego, Are you still around? I have been dealing with the same things.

I personally believe it's nothing to worry about it will pass.
I've had the same, days without an erection and other days where they got back.

Don't worry and don't think too much about it.
It's different for everyone but nothing to be concerned about.

Good luck mate!

If it makes you feel any more secure, last time I admitted this to my therapist she didn't react surprised.
She told me she had heard this a lot from other teenagers that porn was an easy addiction to become addicted to.

When I found the courage to tell a female friend because we started the same time, me I beating PMO and she beating self harm.
She was also very supportive and didn't give me a single strange face.

I know also from myself, it's an embarrassing thing to admit but you will feel relieved as soon as you tell her.

Good luck!

First of I would like to welcome you to the community!

It's great you found this site, I would like to recommend you to visit and read a lot of articles there as they provide a lot of good information on the subject.
Also reading journals/success stories can help motivate you as you may find some similarities.

Keep in mind that porn can indeed be the problem, it can also be anxiety but giving a reboot a try is never bad and really recommendable.

Some personal advice, I truly loved the e-book, it's really worth the effort even if that would mean you only read about 2 pages per day.

I hope you will enjoy your stay here through good and bad times.


Teens / Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« on: January 08, 2015, 06:04:41 PM »
It's great to see you're working out again!

Keep that up man, I also feel the urges when I'm in less of a good mood but exercise works great for that :)

Just noticed you almost reached your goal and that's great!
Let's try to keep this up together as we're at the same amount of days :)

Teens / Re: Let's rewire. This time for real.
« on: January 08, 2015, 05:56:06 PM »
Hey Innocence, I read your entire journal. That was a mad 81 day tear bro, even right now you're at 17 days is really impressive!

I'm curious about your mood regarding depression and the reboot. Can you say with certainty that over the 81 days your mood improved compared to when you just started your reboot? Reading your journal it seemed like you still had some strong mood swings.

I would say I suffer from some kind of depression and social anxiety, so I'm really hopeful for the reboot to fix my head or at least improve it.

It's great you're exercising too and trying to keep yourself active. Good luck! I'll be following your journal. :)

Thank you for taking the time and interest in my journal!
Yes the day 81 was a rough mood breaker and made my reboot very tough to built up again, I can't deny that.

In general my mood has gone up a lot, I also suffer from social anxiety but during my reboot I can proudly say it has improved!
Even though I have anxiety disorder I feel more social and confident about myself. This can also due the fact I started exercising.
I feel more comfortable talking to people and be myself, this developed itself.

At first I didn't notice it that much until my mother actually noticed I made a stronger impression and I feel less anxious in social situations.
Regarding the depression, I do find more fun in other activities but I do believe you have to actively work on it too but the reboot can be a break through!

I also found your journal, currently I'm being rather busy with school as I have 7 days of tests (and only tests) after that I will take my time to read your journal (or when I have free time in between :) )

Thanks again for taking your time to read my journal and I hope I can be a support for you!

Teens / Re: Let's rewire. This time for real.
« on: January 08, 2015, 04:56:51 PM »
[Day 17]

Yesterday as I was trying to study, I got a panic attack.
It was truly horrifying and it lasted for roughly 1 hour and 30 minutes before I stopped shaking and panicking.
A lot of emotions came out, I even cried after a really long time when I called a support line because I was so confused I didn't know what to do.

After about an hour my mother came home because I had sent her a text what was going on, also because this is the first panic attack I ever experienced.
Today all my muscles still felt very weak, was rather down but as the day went by I also got my stuff together and I feel more relieved.

I don't know if this is because of my reboot, but I had a lot of stress,frustrations and emotions built up but it did not affect my reboot as I did not PMO or have an urge to even do that.

As I mentioned a lot of emotions got out, that way I actually feel quite relieved and even my urges to PMO have gone down A LOT.
Maybe a wise lesson in this too is that you have to battle your emotional struggles to make your reboot a lot easier.

It's great to see your progress man!
I'm even a little jealous how far you've come and even beaten me on your way ;)

Keep it up and stay strong man!

Porn Addiction / Re: Giving up on hardmode for a while
« on: January 08, 2015, 04:42:15 PM »
Hard mode isn't required to reboot, it's good that you are going to reboot your way!

Porn Addiction / Re: **PORNFREE 2015** (Sign Up NOW!)
« on: January 08, 2015, 04:41:20 PM »
I signed up on the 7th Jan (uk time), it would be a shame to exclude those in a different time zone?!  :-X

I'm sure Gabe won't be strict on that! :)

Porn Addiction / Re: **PORNFREE 2015** (Sign Up NOW!)
« on: January 08, 2015, 01:24:46 PM »
To everyone who signed up on 8 January: Sorry guys, dead line was on 7 January.

Teens / Re: Let's rewire. This time for real.
« on: January 07, 2015, 07:14:37 PM »
[Day 16]

After 1,5 hour my panic attack stopped.
Worst feeling ever.

Teens / Re: Let's rewire. This time for real.
« on: January 07, 2015, 06:08:17 PM »
[Day 16]

Currently having a panic attack, I'm shaking, sweating, breathing quickly and I'm just confused...
Been swinging my arms all around me, hitting my desk, hitting my wall, hitting myself, pulling out my hair..
I'm going insane!

Teens / Re: Let's rewire. This time for real.
« on: January 07, 2015, 11:52:36 AM »
[Day 16]

Today my internet got fixed and I was lucky to have another session with a chat therapist.
Every time we chat we only have an hour (and 8 sessions in total) and they really fly away!

This is not the same therapist as the suicide hot line, I signed up on 2 different sites to try them out as I normally don't really have a lot of faith in therapy.

What I've noticed is that, even though someone can't see you a chat therapy can really work well.
You can easily sit behind your PC, be anonymous, admit your shame without having to say it.
I personally like the chat therapist I got, they frequently ask you if the chat is what you want out of it and because you're anonymous you don't have to feel ashamed saying no and telling them how you want it.

I personally had a lot of issues in the past saying what was really on my mind, but in the first session I even talked with this therapist a little about my porn addiction, we had little time left therefore we didn't go all the way about it but she even told me she heard it a lot.
Of course that wasn't a surprise but that people had told a therapist surprised me, I didn't get the chance to ask for her experiences with those other people but it was nice to know she was experienced.

Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction/Delayed Ejaculation / Re: Fantasies
« on: January 07, 2015, 11:36:53 AM »
I noticed when I started to work-out at the gym I found more peace of mind also with a lot of fantasies.

As my internet went out over the last few days I've been using Reboot Nation from my iPhone 6.
I just used the standard Safari app as it worked just fine, it's just the downside of a mobile device on a website that does not have a mobile version.

If she responds positively about being a drug addict she surely can take a porn addict.
I think she'll take it the right way or try reading into this:
More guys have told others and shared their story there too.

This porn use is indeed sickening, I'm very sorry to hear that this is happening to your husband.
It's very worrying that he's into this, a lot of porn addicts have called to like very weird fetishes but this is indeed beyond the limit. I personally wouldn't directly go to the police, first to a counselor or a psychologist who can help.

The choices are all yours, but please don't hesitate to take action.

Porn Addiction / Re: Urination Frequency
« on: January 06, 2015, 07:28:43 PM »
So im currently fighting Porn addiction ( Day 45~ ) ... and i've had instant dehydration and frequent urinations symptom.. and it was all due to my anxiety.. i talked with the doctor and she really calmed my anxiety down... ive had many tests done aswell for uti's, kidneys etc.. everything is fine. Its just due to your anxiety and urge.

Could you tell us/me more about your anxiety and urge?
Since I 'relapsed' I've been getting a lot more blue balls every day.

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