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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: July 02, 2020, 07:21:44 PM »
Day 5

Today I have the desire to masturbate. Desire is high. The time of night comes and I feel anxiety. I have a lot of work these days and I am very stressed. I uninstalled instagram to avoid having virtual information of girls.

Thank you very much

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: June 30, 2020, 06:24:37 PM »
Day 3

Yesterday was a super unproductive day. However, the opposite happened today.
The feeling of guilt is still present, I think of the beautiful girls I was with and I could not have sex with them. I am very sorry. But I have the opportunity to improve this aspect of my life and somehow or other I will achieve it, I have faith in it.

Thank you very much

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: June 28, 2020, 06:36:52 PM »
Day 1

I honestly don't know what to say, only that I relapsed again. This week has been the worst of the year since I have masturbated 3 or 4 days.
In all this year I have not been with any girl, my goal was to go a while without masturbating and thus restart. So far I have not succeeded, the maximum is 40 days.

Would it be advisable to be with a girl and test if my erectile dysfunction continues?

Thank you

Regards

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: June 26, 2020, 12:04:54 PM »
Day 1 again


I think my main mistake is trying to solve this alone. This site helps me and motivates me to continue but I think I need a support group. I hope to find a good one.

I send you a hug

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: June 22, 2020, 08:16:09 PM »
Day 4

Today I feel good, yesterday I had a massage and that left me much less stressed. I don't feel like masturbating tonight. There is a girl in my work that I like, I like a lot, however I do not want to ruin it, for this I will wait to have 30 days of no fap

Thank you

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: June 21, 2020, 08:18:07 AM »
Day 3

I am trying again.
Last week I had a very big relapse and it makes me very sad. I feel like shit about it.
In all this year I have had good periods and relapses, I have not had sex with anyone. My longest streak since the year began has been six weeks, which I was able to achieve twice, then relapse again.

I'm going to start reading success stories to motivate myself.

Thank you!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: June 11, 2020, 07:51:51 PM »
Day 2 (last record 21 days without PMO)

I masturbated on 9/6 with a porn video, it was short, but I did it. Yesterday I felt guilty and now as I write this I feel a great shame. However I will not give up. I hope that when I feel like masturbating I will remember how I feel now.

Anyway thanks for the support.

A hug!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: June 09, 2020, 08:00:22 PM »
Day 21

The desire is back
I am afraid to relapse, I really want to masturbate. I hope to resist.

Thank you!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: June 08, 2020, 09:13:45 PM »
Day 20

Today was a normal day, I am a little angry about some things that happened to me at work that involved me losing money.
Also, there are a couple of co-workers that I can't stand, I try to see the positive but negative thoughts invade me constantly.

However I am grateful for continuing on this road.

Thank you very much to all

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: June 07, 2020, 09:49:26 AM »
Day 19

I feel good, however I notice less sexual desire than last week. As I have read, the process is not linear and I think that now I am in a low part. Yesterday I started massage classes and I had to touch a girl, at first I felt shy but then I had more confidence. I think this course will help me perfect the way of touching a woman.

Good sunday for everyone

Thank you!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Age 20. Do or do not. There is no try.
« on: June 06, 2020, 09:47:21 AM »
Hi deminounrae

I trust that you can overcome it, what has worked for me is accepting how bad I feel when I don't masturbate. It is real that when I masturbate I generate an instant pleasure that I do not get with anything else. But just as you get up every morning when you want to stay in bed, you can overcome this addiction

You have our full support!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: June 06, 2020, 09:41:14 AM »
Day 18

Yesterday I went back to see my friends after a long time. I'm very happy. Last night before sleeping I was tempted to masturbate again but I could resist.
I think I have found a way to overcome it and I tell them how it is:

The desire to masturbate never disappears, what has worked for me is to accept this desire and not try to face it.
I accept that before I go to sleep it would make me feel much better to masturbate but I don't. I agree to feel bad about not masturbating.

Every morning when the alarm clock goes off to go to work I honestly don't feel like getting up and I think this happens to all of us and we want to continue sleeping. However, we get up and go to work or study. I have done the same with masturbation, despite the desire and how bad I feel at the moment I accept it and move on.

Thank you!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: June 04, 2020, 06:56:38 AM »
Day 16

I can't believe how fast the days go by.
I am still resisting the temptation and that makes me very happy. Regarding my state of mind I do not notice many changes compared to last week, however the most positive thing about not masturbating is that I do not feel guilty as I felt when I masturbated the previous day.

Writing in this forum has helped me a lot. If someone is starting and reading this, I recommend writing here daily and telling how you feel.

I send you a strong hug

Thank you!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: First Day of Reboot
« on: June 02, 2020, 04:54:53 AM »
Hello!

We are all afraid, the important thing is to act in spite of that!
We are here to support you!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: June 02, 2020, 04:53:37 AM »
Day 14

Yesterday I felt strongly the desire to masturbate at night, here it is winter and when entering the bed the temptation enters. I'm glad I was able to resist. There are days of the process that is suffered and that sacrifice is part of the challenge. It is the price to pay.

I feel energized to start the day

Thank you!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Need help
« on: May 31, 2020, 08:21:08 AM »
hello san

The first thing you can do is start learning about it. This site has very interesting articles and also at https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/ you can find more information. There you will understand everything that this addiction is doing to your brain and your life!

Go forward!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: May 31, 2020, 08:18:19 AM »
Day 12

Good day!

Today I was able to meet my family again, I am really very happy since it was a long time since I was home.
Yesterday I slept very well, however I remember that I had erotic dreams and woke up with an erection. The dream was with a girl I know (not from a porn video). I don't know if this is good or bad but it is what happened.

Hello Sanders! Thanks for the support.
Regarding your question, my sexual fantasy is because I have seen it in porn videos. The videos where the man was the masseuse were my favorites. So I think it may be a fantasy generated by porn videos, however, it is not bad to try, right?

Thank you!!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: how i can start
« on: May 30, 2020, 06:12:39 AM »
Hi Ebrahim!

The best way to start reading the information available on this site and at www.yourbrainonporn.com.
You do not need to read all the information at the beginning as it can be tedious, however it is the best way to start.

Good luck!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: May 30, 2020, 06:05:56 AM »
Day 11

Today I feel very good, yesterday I had no trouble sleeping, and I had no desire to masturbate. Of the last 5 nights, in three of them I had erections, I think it is a good sign.

Today I am reunited with my family after 5 months, I am very happy about it. I am going to enroll in a massage course, the reason is because I always had a sexual fantasy where I was the masseuse, this is the place where I can say the real reason hahaha

Honestly this post has helped me a lot, sometimes I feel that I use it as a personal diary where I express feelings and things that are not very related to my recovery, I hope they know how to understand but it really helps me to write here.

Very good Saturday for everyone!
Thank you!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: My journal towards freedom
« on: May 29, 2020, 05:53:05 AM »
Hi Sanders

First I would like to congratulate you, since telling the others you took a great step. Now you have 21 days which is a very good number, remember that in the first stage of recovery you can feel a drop in libido and this is normal. Also another important concept is that the process is not exactly linear, there will be days that you will feel better and others that will not, but in the long term the changes are incredible.

Regarding your love life, I hope you can solve things with your wife!

We are here to support you!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: May 29, 2020, 05:43:25 AM »
Day 10

Yesterday was a good day. I spoke with my family, at work I think I had a good performance and I was also able to do some tasks that I had pending. Luckily I was able to fall asleep quickly, however today I woke up in a bad mood.

Honestly these days I have been tempted to masturbate, but I know that the effort I am making will make the moment when I can have a natural erection more gratifying.

I wish you a good Friday.
Thank you!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Zander Reboot - Light at the end of the tunnel
« on: May 28, 2020, 06:20:57 AM »
Hi Zander

I am on day 9 since my last relapse and reading your post really inspires me. I congratulate you on the effort and keep going!

Thank you!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: May 28, 2020, 06:06:24 AM »
Day 6 (9 without PMO)

I haven't seen my family and friends for 5 months. I have been on a work trip, I returned to my country and now I am serving a quarantine of 15 days to come from another country. This Saturday, the quarantine is over and I will be able to see them. This situation generates a lot of anxiety and it is costing me a lot to fall asleep. For now I have resisted the temptation to masturbate.
Today in the morning I dreamed that I had sex with a girl and I didn't have to worry about my erection, it really was a very satisfying feeling and I want to hold on to that in order to keep going.

I tell you something else about me, my last girlfriend I had in 2016, the relationship lasted a year and every time we had sex it was through the use of viagra, I think she never knew it. It saddens me a little that it was so but the fear of not having an erection overcame me.
I have faith that in my next relationships I will be able to overcome this addiction.

Thank you!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Joyful journal
« on: May 27, 2020, 06:39:05 AM »
Hi Koop!

I see that your intention is to spend less on the internet and only use the computer to work.

There is something that I would like to tell you about habits, when you want to acquire a habit I think the best thing is to start small. You can have a smaller goal to start, for example, every week use the computer for an hour less.
I have found this method to acquire the habit of exercising. I started doing very little and now I have a very good routine.

Also another important thing is to reward yourself or celebrate whenever you can meet your daily goal since the brain associates this reward with the habit you are trying to develop.

I hope it helps!

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Ages 20-29 / Re: Hi New Relationships: new attempt
« on: May 27, 2020, 06:25:48 AM »
Day 5 (8 without PMO)

I enter the site and I find Koop's comment. Friend, I love the way you see things, thank you very much for the advice. In order to improve in certain areas, the first step is to accept that you are not so good at them.
I'm going to see the link you sent me!

I am exercising daily and it does me great.

Yesterday was a successful day at work and I am very grateful for that!

Thank you!!!

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