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Ages 20-29 / I'm not achieving my potential
« on: July 17, 2017, 10:51:36 PM »
Girls think I'm hot. I have no problem striking up conversations because I have unwavering confidence, especially when I am drunk. Yesterday, I PMO'd 3 different times and I today while at work I felt sad and unmotivated and didn't meet my sale numbers at all. I am a go getter and porn is hurting me. It needs to get cut out. I haven't had sex since September 20th 2016. My excuse is that I want to focus on myself and succeed, its really just a coverup to hide my addiction. I deleted my Facebook and instagram because I don't ever post in those sites anyways. I feel like there is so much to learn out in this world and I am not allowing myself to live to the fullest because i choose to watch porn. In the past, I've tried to use trackers to count how long I can go without porn and then I found myself constantly checking the days, hours and even minutes and thought to myself "OK that is long enough". Then I dive right back into the cycle.
I've also noticed that If I am drunk and watch porn, I have a different perspective and I don't think its attractive. I find myself thinking how the people in this are all acting and its just a load of shit. Its kind of funny that my drunken mind is able to see that better than sober mind.
I'm gaining weight and not working out and drinking a lot (roughly 23 beers) a weekend. Furthermore, I tend to go on phases of where I put snus in my mouth and then watch porn. I somehow convince myself that being stimulated will make the porn more appealing. Its not true.
I don't care if anyone reads this but myself but I need this closure. I am giving up Facebook and Instagram and tobacco and drinking max 6 beers this week. God Bless and may I realize the untapped internal strength that I know I have.
I've also noticed that If I am drunk and watch porn, I have a different perspective and I don't think its attractive. I find myself thinking how the people in this are all acting and its just a load of shit. Its kind of funny that my drunken mind is able to see that better than sober mind.
I'm gaining weight and not working out and drinking a lot (roughly 23 beers) a weekend. Furthermore, I tend to go on phases of where I put snus in my mouth and then watch porn. I somehow convince myself that being stimulated will make the porn more appealing. Its not true.
I don't care if anyone reads this but myself but I need this closure. I am giving up Facebook and Instagram and tobacco and drinking max 6 beers this week. God Bless and may I realize the untapped internal strength that I know I have.