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Porn Addiction / Sexuality
« on: February 21, 2018, 05:58:16 PM »
Does porn really change your sexuality?. I have seen hard core gay and straight porn, even worse then that, and I get confused about my sexuality and scared, I may become gay or something I never used to be

Porn Addiction / Help me please.
« on: February 21, 2018, 04:54:06 PM »
I needed to come back, mainly because I have lost the motivation to stop. For some reason, what helped me before is not working now, and that was to just stop. I feel like it is much harder this time around, does it get harder, each time you relapse, to recover again? and when does the withdrawals stop, or at least get better. I need someone who can seriously motivate me into stopping for good. I originally manage to stop for over a year, but now, I can not, for some reason!.

Porn Addiction / Last moment
« on: January 30, 2018, 05:01:35 PM »
I have rebooted before, so it shouldn't be any different, but it feels harder this time around, maybe because I lost motivation this time around. Anyway, I have been off a week, but went on porn for a couple of minutes, and nearly ejaculated, but before I could, I stopped, walked away and had a cold shower. Did I just lose my progress, I know I relapsed, but I still hope I am making some progress.

Porn Addiction / Stopped trying.
« on: December 07, 2017, 06:24:17 PM »
As the subject suggests, I have pretty stopped trying. At one point, I managed to stop porn for roughly a year, maybe more. I think it was towards the end of 2015 that I relapsed, at this point I could not be bothered to try. I have a traumatic experience involving porn, that caused my OCD to get worse. I watched hentai, anyone experienced with this kind of porn, knows some of the more serious genres involved, stuff like Lolicon, can cause some serious harm. Anyway, my point is, I use porn to stop my traumatic memories getting worse, by viewing stuff unrelated and it makes me feel much better. I want to stop, but it seems like I cant, or it is harder for some reason. Anybody experience something similar? and how can I stop now?.

Porn Addiction / It has been awhile
« on: February 21, 2017, 04:52:11 PM »
I went without porn for a long time, roughly a year. So I thought it would be a good idea to masturbate, without realising it, I ended up addicted to porn again. Now I am back on it, and it has been about three months. The things is, I am 27 years old, nearly 28, been addicted to porn, since I was roughly 22. I started out as a regular guy, watching softcore porn, without care, that subsided and I stopped. I ended up watching anime, and ended up curious about advertisement, that would pop up, I checked it out, of course it was hentai, at first it was curiosity, then It was because I was depressed, in the end it lead to a full out addiction, and I didn't realise the consequences, until I tried to stop. I ended up watching really hardcore stuff, I do not think many people which actually understand unless you have seen it, but I am talking Lolicon, cheating, netorare and rape etc, not happy about it, in fact I would rather not even post about it, to be totally honest, this stuff was serious, and you do not realise the effects, until your recover, which I have done in the past, but the thing is, I do not think this is something you can fully recover from I mean it is really, really hardcore stuff, right?. Even if I was to stop, I am a 27, nearly 28 virgin, recovery sounds absolutely impossible. I am sure some will sugar coat it, but unless you have seen this stuff, I am not sure a lot of you would understand, and the frustration keeps building up, I even ended up with OCD from these genres. I am sorry for the long post, some of you might not even respond, but I cant stop, it feels stronger then before, maybe because I seen no Brightside to stopping, whats the point, when I will probably be limp for my life. Anyone who reads this, thank you.

Porn Addiction / any help?
« on: September 29, 2016, 09:09:08 AM »
i have started to recover again, because I ended up relapsing. been off porn for 3 days, but getting mass amount of urges, so I ended up going on porn for 3 minutes maybe, less with adrenaline and arousal, so what next?, am I still on the mend, I went straight off without masturbating, but my mind is telling me to just finish it off, that I have messed up, typical mind set, like may as well start again tomorrow. the urges are really hard to fight. I feel like, if I don't get help, I might end up going back on it. I know its only been 3 days, but its really tough

Porn Addiction / Scared
« on: September 09, 2016, 05:29:32 PM »
Honestly I didn't want to post this, because its very upsetting, but I don't have anyone else to talk to. I am really struggling, ending up going back to porn, even when I don't really get erections anymore. I am tired and frustrated, it even gave me OCD regarding the genres I have seen. I read some serious stuff, hardcore would be one way of putting it. Stuff I have scene, not sure if you have heard of these, but here goes. Netorare, Cheating, Rape, lolicon and more. I honestly don't feel like I can heal full stop, even if I did stop this addiction, I wouldn't fully recover, probably because it is to extreme, for me to ever be in a relationship, or mentally heal, that's if I ever get erection now. Please help me, this is to personal, for me to even consider posting on the forums. Have you seen cases like these, and did they ever recover?. because I feel like scum and disgusting....I cant even leave the house anymore, because I hate myself. Apart of me wants to die, because of this shit, including lolicon

Porn Addiction / hardcore porn/no return?.
« on: June 28, 2016, 06:20:51 PM »
I have watched some of the most hardcore stuff orientated around anime, though I would rather not discuss exactly what, I am sure a lot of people have a idea. I was free from porn February 2014, and relapsed July 2015, ended up recovering again, at the start of September 2015 and have been clean since. My question is, is there a point you don't recover?, I used to look at a lot of articles regarding porn, some were how porn changes you, as a person and you can become unable to return to a normal relationship, because of the extreme desensitization porn causes. I am still unable to get erections, not even morning wood, though I am a 26 year old virgin, so I am un experienced. Is it to late for me?, did I lose myself long ago?. Anyway, I would not mind other peoples opinions on this matter.

Porn Addiction / Relapsed
« on: September 12, 2015, 01:02:10 PM »
Well after being free from porn since October 2014 I have relapsed and ended up binging for 2 days. I was hoping, that someone could give me someone could help me, by giving me so encouragement. I have problems with my arms, and I can not really do much, it causes me to be isolated and I hate myself. I feel tired now, probably because of the relapse and I am not sure how long that will last, that and I will have to deal with cravings for awhile. Is there any advice you could give me, to help me through this, because no doubt I have to start at square one. I would like to ask, is it normal to be desensitized to porn, even after falling back after reboot. Anyway I hope someone can give me some words of encouragement.

Porn Addiction / I want to give up.
« on: September 11, 2015, 02:56:52 AM »
Well I finally gave into temptation after viewing softcore eroitica (manga) for roughly a month, I decided to masturbate to it. Now I feel like I have just lost everything I worked for, since October last year I went hard mode, now everything I done is now gone. I feel like crap and I want to just give up now. If there's any chance that u still have some of my progress please tell me.

Porn Addiction / A mess
« on: September 06, 2015, 08:15:07 AM »
I was doing so fell, I actually went into hard mode October last year, but it went out of control, when I started isolating myself and ending up viewing erotic images and even some soft core sex scenes in the stuff I read, though I never actually masturbated, or watch full on sex scenes, it has been going on for roughly a month. I feel like I have already relapsed and my mind is telling me to go back on the hentai/manga I use to view. I do not know what to do, it feels like I have lost all my progress and I am turning it all into a mess again!. Apart of me, wants to go back and give up, sometimes I don't see the point. I am 26 year old virgin, with a shitty life. Sorry for the rant, but I just needed to let some steam off, I am sick and tired of it all and feel like crying sometimes. I have this voice in my head, saying "You know what, you have failed and relapsed, you may as well just watch it".

Porn Addiction / Confused and need help please.
« on: August 30, 2015, 06:39:06 AM »
I need some help regarding a problem of mine. Does porn change your sexuality and who you are?, because I constantly question myself. I have seen some real hard core stuff, involving animated porn/manga. Although I have not watched porn since February 2014, I have recently started to slip up, though only through erotica, which I am trying to get over, but now I do not know who I am, or what I am attracted to. Have I caused some serious damage to my brain?, and can you truly recover from such extreme porn?. I have OCD, so I can't stop these intrusive thoughts, that are constantly plaguing me. I will be seeing a CBT therapist to help. But I need to know if I can get myself back to normal, and have a normal relationship, because I feel like a monster at the moment. Please help me, I really would like some support and has anyone else been through this?.

Porn Addiction / Please help me.
« on: August 17, 2015, 05:01:24 AM »
I have been in recovery since February 2014, but decided to go into hard mode, because I felt like I was not recovering. I have really bad muscle knots and RSI in both arms, which is one of the reason I isolated myself, but I decided to try and recover, by goiing to the gym, doing stretches and swimming, but recently things got out of hand, when my problems escalated and I became less mobile. I decided to start reading manga, which did not bother me at first. But I felt like I was drifting from my goals, but carried on. Eventually I came across erotic stuff, which did not bother me at all, till my thoughts and urges became harder to resist and I started getting over sentsatized again, getting semon leakage. I confined in a family member who said that I shouldn't worry, that I shouldn't have to stop everything I enjoyed, that I didn't relapse. I can't help but think I have messed up, believing that I have relapsed, which scares me the most, especially that it has been going on for a month. I was addicted to Hentei manga/anime and because of that I have  seen some awful stuff that took a very long time to get over. I am starting to feel suicidal, because I can not take this anymore. I am a 26 year old virgin with nothing, now I am messing everything up, I am so scared I have relapsed.  Someone please help, I know it is personal and I am sure that some of you might not understand, but I really need advice.

Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction/Delayed Ejaculation / Semen leakage
« on: July 23, 2015, 02:21:45 PM »
I recently triggered, and now I am getting constant semen leakage. Is this a sign of premature ejaculation, weak erection and weakened nerves?. when I watched porn, I used to masturbate a lot, especially with death grip, just wondering if I could of possibly caused some permanent damage, and whether it is related to sexual exhaustion. Anybody that could help me I would be grateful, I tend to over worry.

What kind of impact does triggering have after recovery and is it related to relapsing?, because they kind of seem similar. I have started triggering again and losing my train of thought, so I am currently trying to fix this problem, but worried I may have started to lean back again if that makes sense. It is frustrating to get back on track, have I lost any progress, or am I still okay?. Can someone please explain, and has anyone else reawakened there thoughts, with negative impact?.

Porn Addiction / is it safe?.
« on: July 18, 2015, 07:10:49 AM »
I went hard mode October 2014 to clear my head. I was addicted to hentai manga/anime, but no longer. Would it be safe to return to watching anime and reading manga, or is it unsafe?. I am not talking about the porn kind.

Porn Addiction / Advice.
« on: June 28, 2015, 04:31:09 PM »
I have OCD, which is frustrating, especially figuring out what emotional thought to follow. it is hard at times and it doesn't help that I was originally addicted to porn, though not anymore. Anyway, I used to be addicted to Hentai, especially ones that normally involve manga, though that does not disclude anime. I am not proud of it, but I have accepted that part of me and more or less moved on. I have joined the gym, started eating healthy, doing yoga, well basically being active. But recently I have injured both my feet, that and I am dealing with a lot of muscle problems, which left me house bound. So I started watching anime, but lately I am starting to get scared that the more emotionally scared thoughts will start to open up again, that and I might reinforce my old pornographic addictions, which I am not sure will even happen. Is it my OCD, or is it normal for me to worry?. Personally I don't even know, because I know I should tread carefully. I just don't want open up old wounds, maybe I should just stop before I end up in a bad spot. Sorry if this is a odd topic, it might just be my OCD worrying to much.

Porn Addiction / Recovery.
« on: May 10, 2015, 05:27:39 AM »
I am free from my addiction now with no relapses or triggers and I have completely changed my life, though I still have problems in other areas, at least I am better off. I have been free from any major relapses since February 2014, while triggering myself to October 2014, until I decided to go hard mode. It has been roughly 6 months free from any problems and my emotions are now generally under control. But there is a slight problem, I do not seem to get any morning wood, that and the only real erections I get are from touch, rarely spontaneous. It is not all that strong, though it seems to be better then it used to be. My point is, what will complete my recovery now?, will talking to women more often and entering a relationship really sort the rest out?. I guess I am scared, especially now I have no excuses, apart from other stuff I have to sort out first.

Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction/Delayed Ejaculation / No errections.
« on: March 31, 2015, 05:58:36 AM »
It has been a long time since I last posted on here, mainly because I have changed my life around quite a lot. I stopped porn in February 2014, but despite that I constantly triggered myself, using alternatives to fuel my desires, while I never considered that a relapse, I never was truly recovering, but in October 2014 that changed, I went completely hard mode, not really looking at any exotic stuff. Now I go to the gym a lot and generally getting out a lot more than I did, while I still need to improve myself, I am better off. The problem I am currently undergoing is, that I don't seem to get erections or morning wood, I don't even look at women that often. I am not gay, I just don't seem to get excited. I am a virgin, so maybe that's partially the reason, that and I have never been in a relationship. My point is, is there something wrong, or would it naturally come together if I started a relationship?. I am afraid to start a relationship, just in case it all fails on me. I am 25 years old and very healthy, I don't smoke, I am not overweight or drink alcohol. Sorry for the long post.

Porn Addiction / Please help.
« on: November 20, 2014, 11:13:22 PM »
I think I have just messed up. I'm under a lot of stress lately, so I was looking at erotic stuff that aroused me. I was managing to pull myself away, but found myself curious from time to time without noticing I ended up looking at it again and pulled myself away which happened a lot, but recently something happened to me, that was really bad news and I ended up looking at a some sex scenes, I didnt masturbate and manage to somehow stop, but not without being really aroused. I have been trying since February 2014 and manage to stay away from porn and masturbation, but I feel like I have been slowly pulled back into porn without realising it, I feel like this is pretty much a relapse, or full blown one at this point. I feel sick and really depressed, I just don't know what to do. I need some help, because I don't have the courage to continue right now. Part of me just wants to give up now.

Porn Addiction / did i relapse?
« on: November 14, 2014, 04:42:01 PM »
I have been in recovery since February 2014 and I haven't watched or masturbated to porn. I was addicted to manga porn, I came across some erotic images, there were no nudity or sex, but erotically touching and kissing. I didn't masturbate, but got really aroused, with semen leakage, I did seek it out a few times, but I have stopped. Could this be considered a relapse or a lapse and would I need to reset my counter, how bad is this?. I am worried I have messed up my recovery again!!

Porn Addiction / Over sensitised.
« on: November 12, 2014, 09:25:04 AM »
Quick question, is it normal to get over sensitive on my penis?, because it feels like I will come just touching it and if so will this die down after recovery?. I would rather this not always be the case.

Porn Addiction / A long topic but advice is really needed.
« on: October 31, 2014, 06:21:53 PM »
Can someone give me detailed information regarding relapses, and what is considered relapses. Is artificial stimuli "triggers" and coming across or reading erotic images a relapse, I don't try to avoid them, although I don't really read erotic stuff. I might of done similar posts, I'm not sure. I confused because I'm not sure where I stand, mainly because there is so many opinions on relapsing. Some people say masturbating to porn is a relapse, where as some people say that  simply viewing porn or fantasising about it is a relapse. I don't know where  artificial stimuli, erotic images or triggers fit in with it all. At the moment I'm being half hearted for more personal reasons, so I don't try to avoid manga, but I don't seek porn either, I have been off porn since February 2014, I want to make sure I'm at least doing something right till I'm able to work again. I understand that I may be a nusence, but I'm hoping someone could make me feel a little better. I'm trying my best. Porn isn't my only problem, I have other stuff to deal with, so I read manga. basically am I safe for now even if I might not be recovering like I should be?. I would also like to note that I tend to get thoughts on porn I used to watch, that can be quite intense, but generally not the cravings to go back to it. I actually don't know if what I am doing is really harmful or not. Deep down I have been messing around with these  triggers and images for awhile now, maybe I did relapse. I'm stupid at times, and really over think things, but I don't want to go back to who I was which I fear as already happened.

Porn Addiction / Virgin and porn addict?
« on: October 25, 2014, 03:53:48 PM »
I'm 25 year old virgin and I have been off porn since February 2014. I'm still struggling, mainly because I'm still causing myself no good, by indulging myself with something that causes triggers, not to worry it's not porn. My main question, and while I'm still far off from starting any relationships, maybe some kind people on here could give me some advice. Back in the day, I used to try and reassure myself, by searching online to see what people thought of virgins my age, and nothing positive came of it, nothing but negative feed back. Which made me very insecure. My question is. Being a porn addict, as well as a virgin, does that make things that much harder during intimacy and has anyone here been through a similar experience. Should I be worried about being a virgin at this age, no doubt I will be older before I can enter a relationship. I'm sorry if this is off topic, I just thought that maybe someone could give me a bit of motivation. Older virgins seem to get looked down upon now days.

Porn Addiction / some advice please?
« on: October 22, 2014, 12:47:34 PM »
I'm 25 year old virgin and I'm getting fed up, apart me wants to go back to porn. I've been off it since February 2014 and not long ago I got carried away reading manga, and ended up indulging myself into the triggers. Not sex, but more like romance, which seems to be a trigger and the odd erotic stuff but generally rare and now my libido has gone down again. I'm not sure what the triggers have done and if that had anything to do with it. I just want to give up to be honest, I often get upset when I see other people in relationships, I always feel like the odd one out, not to mention I'm not getting younger. I really hate this, sometimes I don't even want to bother. Can someone explain to me what has happened, did the triggers put me back a little and how am I suppose to stay motivated like this?.

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