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Teens / Seeking the light at the end of the tunnel
« on: August 29, 2016, 07:08:58 PM »
I'm a 19 year old college student who's been seriously trying to quit porn for about a year now. I just started my second year with the mentality that I need to give this up now so that it won't be an issue when it comes time to start looking for a job or just preparing for the real world in general. I've resolved to quit dozens of times before, but I always fall back down from stress or just from the lack of will to keep going. The longest I think I've ever gone was a month, and I really thought that going that long was the breakthrough to ending it all, but nope.

So my background begins around the time I was 13. I never viewed anything really explicit, just enough for me to be "excited." A few years later, I met a girl that I really liked, and we started to date, but that went down the toilet pretty quick. A few months after we started, we became physical (never "all the way") and that led to me wanting more of just that. Eventually, we broke up because she graduated high school before me, but I still had this want for the physical. So I settled for what I thought was the next best thing: the internet. I got hooked and I stayed that way for about a year until I went to a church camp my senior year. I won't get super spiritual, but I was convicted that I needed to stop.

Now I want to stop, but the urges just invade and I don't have the strength to stop them. I want this to end. I want to stop disrespecting women in this disgusting way. Even though it's a long time away, I want to have the confidence to ask a woman out and not have to be afraid of this ever being a problem in the relationship. I want this day to be the last day that I ever watched porn.

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